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Whatever your name is-
I honestly do not think you will ever lay eyes on this piece of paper. But I'm just going to write this anyway. I don't want to take any chances that by some miracle you get this and think I actually meant for you to read it. This is just for my psychological health. I need some closure.
What bothers me the most is that I can't remember for the life of me what your name is. Agni knows why. It just irks me to no end that I have no idea. I've gone through every name I know in my head, but none of them are yours. Probably because the majority of them are Fire Nation names.
It feels wrong to me that you offered to help me, knowing the terrible things I'd put you through, and I can't even remember your bloody name.
This is ridiculous. I shouldn't be sorry. I shouldn't be feeling all these stupid, pointless emotions, and certainly not towards some random Water peasant. Azula is never sorry. If I am to be stronger than Azula, I must never be sorry. If I am not stronger…
Well, she'll kill me. She says she won't, but I'm not stupid.
Azula always lies.
But Azula has nothing to do with you. You're just a water girl whose name I can't remember whom I'm writing this very random letter to so that I can simply get my emotions out and move on with my life.
I've betrayed so many people in my life. Song, you, Uncle, and now? Now I have this aching feeling that this time, I'm betraying myself.
This letter has gotten so off course. It's a good thing you'll never read this, water witch, because if you ever did, you'd have no idea what I was rambling about. And you'd be angry with me for calling you a water witch just then. Not that you aren't probably angry with me already. And you should be. Just know that one day, when I'm Fire Lord, I will end this war. And if you survive the fighting, we will talk. Because I will find out your name, if it's the last thing I do.
-Zuko
A/N: I realize that both of these letters are kind of all over the place and awkward. That's on purpose. It's supposed to show that Zuko and Katara's thoughts and emotions are all over the place and awkward. Mmkay? Thanks. Review.