"Goku... I know you're young and not exactly aware of all the evils in this world... but let me teach you about one of them. Lust is a very big evil in this world, and sometimes evil can overcome even the strongest of emotions"
"So you mean... Gojyo cheated on Sanzo"
"Yes"
"With you"
"Yes. And I'll also tell you that even though love is a very wonderful thing, it can also be a very big evil. In this case, I love Gojyo very much, and to be truthful I've wanted to... do what we did... since I first met him." Hakkai blushed lightly at his small confession. "Is that why he cheated on Sanzo"
"Well, sort of. I told him how I felt and Gojyo being himself, wanted to make me realize that he'd wanted the same for just as long. It didn't mean anything, but Sanzo walked in and well... what was he supposed to think?" Hakkai folded his hands in his lap and sighed, looking up at the ceiling. "Hakkai... are we going to be okay without Gojyo"
"I should like to hope so, but I'm not at all sure"
"Do you think Sanzo is mad at you"
"I would be mad at me, wouldn't you"
Goku paused and nodded slowly, standing up from the bed. "I'm gonna go talk to Sanzo"
"Alright Goku, just don't pry too much." Hakkai warned, rolling over in the bed and removing his glasses.
Goku walked down the hallway to Sanzo's room, knocking a few times. "Sanzo...can I come in?" He asked quietly. He didn't hear anything for a few moment, but finally the hoarse voice came from inside.
"Whatever"
Goku slowly opened the door and walked in, shutting it behind him. Sanzo was resting his head on his hands, staring up at the ceiling. "Sanzo"
"What"
"Are you okay"
"Not exactly. I'm starting... to rethink this journey"
"Sanzo, we have to take this journey! Do you remember what they said would happen if we didn't?" Goku seemed genuinely worried about the consequences as he stared down his master.
"Of course I remember, but I really don't know if I...if we can make it without Gojyo here"
"We could try it at least!" Goku snapped.
"Listen to me, monkey boy, I don't need your immature whiny shit right now, got it?" Sanzo snarled in his face with gritted teeth, grasping Goku by his collar. He let him go with a light shove and lit up a cigarette. "I apologize, Goku, but please don't nag me right now"
"Yeah... I understand." Goku walked out of Sanzo's room and back down the hallway to his own room, where he laid down and decided to take a long nap so he could keep the other two from killing one another.
About two hours later, Sanzo emerged from his room, hoping he could get to a bar at the late hour that it was. He'd never actually wanted to go out drinking, but he figured this was as good of an excuse as any. He slowly walked down the hallway, his legs feeling numb as he realized there weren't footsteps following closely near him. He closed his eyes and shoved the thoughts of Gojyo to the back of his mind, cursing himself for getting that attached to a perverted half-demon in the first place.
"Sanzo..." His thoughts were interruppted by the quiet voice of his other youkai companion. He stopped his steps and glanced into the room Hakkai's voice came from. They made eye contact and for the first time since they'd met, Sanzo wished that Cho Gonou had really died.
"What do you want?" He spoke through gritted teeth once more.
"Come in here..." Hakkai nearly whispered.
Sanzo rolled his eyes and walked in, closing the door behind him. "What do you want, Hakkai?" Sanzo spoke again, trying to control himself from punching the youkai in the mouth.
"What happened between Gojyo and I... it didn't mean anything, I swear." Hakkai spoke simply, making eye contact with the priest again. "All it was to us was a simple act that we'd both wanted for a long time. I promise you it meant nothing"
"Do you really think I care, Hakkai? Do you think it matters to me that whether it meant something or not? Is the fact that it was a pointless fuck supposed to make me feel better about it? Because if it was, your plan sure as hell isn't working!" Sanzo was screaming, holding Hakkai by his arms against the wall.
Goku walked in and ran toward the two, punching Sanzo in the cheek. "Stop it!" He yelled at his master. "Gojyo told me this would happen..." Goku was near tears as he looked back and forth between his remaining companions. "We have to get going, we're already behind." The monkey said blankly as he walked back out of the room.
Hakkai slowly turned his head to look at the fallen priest. "He's not going to stand for this, you understand that, don't you, Sanzo"
"I know, asshole." Sanzo stood up and shoved Hakkai out of his way, going back to his room to get his things, then walking down to the front lobby before checking out and heading farther west. None of them bothered to look for Gojyo, despite Goku's constant pleas. Hakkai was afraid that it would hurt far too much to see him and know that what they shared had meant nothing to him, and Sanzo didn't want to find him for nearly the same reason.