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Chapter 2 Kasumiseirei

I woke up the next morning and felt the sun's rays danced on my face through the window. Somehow my heart was not stiff or cold, the incredible pain that would otherwise chased me through the night was gone. I thought of Shuhei, how I screamed at him and ran from him. How I then met Ichimaru-Taichou, his words about how I would voluntarily tell him what was bothering me.

A sudden bang from the room next door had to fly from my seat on the floor. When I came out of what would be my kitchen, I saw only broken porcelain and two very happy cats among those tatters. I could not help but smile at them, while my heart filled with love. These two defenseless animals, I had saved away from a horrible death, they now shared my life with all the fuss and trouble that came with it. Admittedly, these two little monsters cause of all clutter. They had no names but I called them just for "my darling babies". Matsumoto was wondering how I could have two cats living with me, just given to my home area in the barracks did not give me more room than the one I slept in and I cooked my food in. But they shared my loneliness and made it just a little easier to endure, certainly did not Matsumoto know this because I did not want her to feel guilty.

I was in full swing to clean up after my two storms, when it suddenly knocked on my door. I had a day off today so I did not have any major expectations for someone to come and visit me. I got up off the floor and went to the door. Stupid as I was, I did not look before I opened the door. Shuhei was standing outside with sad puppy eyes. Before I could slam the door he got a foot between the frame and the door itself.
"Please Tsukiko-san. I have to talk to you!" he said.
"You and I have absolutely nothing to say to each other anymore" I said.
"I do not understand what I have done wrong? I do not share the same feelings as you and you know it. But I still want to be your friend. Is it so hard to take? Why should I suffer to say the truth, and you is not ready to take it? "I felt the tears burst from my eyes.

"Shuhei ... please go ... It hurts when I see you, it hurts when I hear you talk, it hurts to sit next to you ... I need to get some own time …" Suddenly he became angry.
"How much time? When should I get my best friend? When are you coming back?"
"I do not know" I whispered, and squeezed the door shut on his foot. I heard he roared off and disappeared from my door. I knew now that my day was ruined. True, Shuhei right, but I was in pain, and just wanted to be alone and lick my wounds in a dark corner.

The day passed by in a haze, but I saw nothing. Suddenly I was sitting on the bench again in the small garden with high walls of the sunset. Hell butterflies flew above the trees whose flowers gave off a wonderful aroma. Again tears ran down my cheeks, once again, I hated my feeble mind. I began to rock back and forth on the bench. Suddenly I felt someone stroked away my tears from my cheeks. I just saw a black shinigami robe and a white haori.
"Yare Yare, how long do ya plan to stay her'e?" I looked up and saw Ichimaru-taichou.I said nothing but knew just how he rubbed away the tears that continued to stream down my cheeks with his thumb.
"Sah sah, come with me now and we'll see if we can not make you feel a bit better."He pulled me up on my feet and took me into his office. I saw nothing, but everything was just like a tunnel vision. He sat on a chair in front of the desk, while he himself sat on it.
"Do ya mind and tell me what it is that has happened?" I looked down at my hands. So thin and graceful … Many had to tell me that I had hands like a doll. This did not suit my face that was ruined by all the scars that were available. No one knew how I got them, not even myself. They were just there when I woke up in Seretei. I began to sob and tried to catch my breath, the result was that got stuck with the words in my throat.

"I ... I ... he ... I was ... the door …" I could not put out anything at all.
"Sah sah, take it slowly. Try to breathe."
"I ... I ... I can not. When I try to talk about it, it feels as if there is a knife that is turned on in my heart."
"Is it unrequited love?" Ichimaru asked. I looked up at him, just nodded.
"I ... he was my best friend. Someone I could trust. It's not his fault that I fell for him, but I can not be near him anymore ... I met him yesterday and I yelled at him ... He came home to me today and yelled at me. I slammed the door on his foot ... " Here burst Ichimaru-taichou out laughing. Somehow, I felt a bit more relieved after I talked to him.
"He deserved it probably is. How long have ya known him?" I was going back as far as it just went. Somehow there was Shuhei with all my memories.
"Ever since I came to Seireitei. He was the first one was by my side ... and Ikaku and Yamachika. Rangiku came after we graduated from the Academy, but she was already fully trained."

"Oh, so ya know Rangiku-san?" he asked. I smiled sadly.
"Yes I do ... or rather, I did ... Ever since the incident a few months ago, I have not talked to her at all basically. I can not stand to see the woman he loves, just do not see how he worships the ground she walks on. But I do not blame Rangiku, that's not her fault ...

"Here the tears began to flow again. "I hate that I'm weak, I hate that I love him. I want to be strong and independent. I want to take care of myself!" Suddenly I felt Ichimarus arms around me, warm and safe.
"Sah sah, ya ARE designed to be yourself, to love someone and not be able to stop loving does not make you weak. It can often make a stronger" he whispered in my ear and sent a tingling sensation down my spine. I smiled bitterly.
"He was the only one who said I was beautiful. All others see me as a freak, or so they see me not as a woman. My scar ..."
"How did ya get ya'r scars?" he asked and then looked at me with her smile that covered his face. During his closed eyelids I could see a glimpse of red.
"I ... I do not know ... I came to Seireitei with them. I have absolutely no recollection of my past." Here was Ichimaru quiet and he let go me. He went to the window and looked at the setting sun. He was silent for a while.
"I will make ya strong. I will make you the most independent woman in the Seireitei." I looked at him. What was he talking about?
"How are you gonna do it? When I have not been able to do it all the time since I came to Seireitei?" He turned and smiled, as always.
"Ya'll see, trust me. Now ya can go home. See ya tomorrow."

I woke up to someone knocking on my door. I pushed away my one cat from his face, then I went with sleepy steps to the door. I opened and looked at the Ichimaru-taichou happy face, or rather the smiling face as he smiled all the time. I do not know what it was that got into me, but I closed the door and started walking back to my futon to continue to sleep. When tapped it again. I froze.
/ He stands outside the door. I closed it in his face … Oh my god! / I thought when I opened the door again.
"I ... I apologize. Ichimaru-taichou. I do not know what it was that got into me …" He laughed a bit while he looked at me through thin slits in his Eyelids.
"I have been smacking, water, food and god knows what on the face. But no one has thrown the door in my face when I come and wake them in the morning" I smiled hesitantly. I stepped aside so he could enter. When he walked past me, I could feel his haori caressed my hand, it was as soft as silk. I came at me with wonder whether his hair felt the same. I followed him into the kitchen and put on some tea. I then went into my "bedroom" and rolled away the futon and tucked it away in the closet and then pulled out a small table. This put me in the middle of the room and took out two pillows to. My Zanpaktou hung on the wall where he hung for months, except the few times I had him with me. I changed into my shingamirobe, and then went out to Ichimaru to take the tea from the stove. Suddenly he stood behind me and felt his hand go past me and took down two cups. My heart stopped and I tried to calm it. The redness crept up on my cheeks and I tried to calm my breathing. I ducked under his arm and walked out of the teapot into my temporary room. Ichimaru-taichou followed me and sat down on one of the pillows. I poured tea for both of us and waited for him to speak. He looked around and then looked at my Zanpaktou.
"Yare Yare, and who's that?" he asked politely. I smiled twisted and stood up. I went to my zanpaktou and for the first time I felt he was pleased by happiness that I took of him deliberately.

"It is Kasumiseirei (Mist Spirit)." I heard the singing voice within me when he heard his name.
/ I missed you / I whispered to my insides. I got a picture of a nymph of the finest mist, and he smiled at me. The area surrounding him was foggy, and this was my finest place in the world. I had not visited in many months and I realized I missed Kasumiseirei and the world that was just ours. I came back to real equality, but Kasumiseireis heat did not disappear from my side this time. I did not understand how I could have missed it disappeared.
"I apologize Ichimaru-Taichou, it was just a long time ago since ... we talked to each other" He smiled at me.
"I talked to Shuhei, Tousen replacement, about where you were in your training. Ya've already found ya'r Shikai, and ya are close to Bankai level if I understand ya correctly?" I blushed as I stood.
"... I have a long way ... I can not call it Bankai yet. Kasumiseirei and I ... have difficulty collaborate with each other. We can not read each other than …" I am angry with me uneasy. Ichimaru-Taichou leaned his head.

"Have you already found your bankai!"
"It ... it is not that strong yet …" His grin became wider, and felt sure there already.

/ Why am I here? / I asked me stood one of the new recruits, and looked nervously at me. Many told me that this was one of the graduates very soon at the Academy. Ichimaru-Taichou wanted to see my strength … and my Bankai.
"Fight!" I heard Ichimaru-Taichou say. I looked at the new recruit.
"Keiyou dzuki hateshiganai juuman'okudo Kasumiseirei!"
(Fly To The eternal Paradise, Kasumiseirei!)

END OF CHAPTER 2

ATUHOR:

Used google translet... shame on me... I will look over it another day :P

A bit longer ^^ Will update next week :)

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