Title: Under the Rain
Rating: PG-13
WARNING: Slash story. If you don't like it, PLEASE... read it anyway! If you like, flame me all you want! It really is quite an honour to be able to stir such emotion in someone that they would take the time to tell me that they hated my story or loved it, either way.
Disclaimer: The ideas are TOTALLY MINE! The characters and setting names are NOT! They belong to J.K. Rowling.
Chapter Two: Caught in an Impossible Dream
Day Two...
"Hey Moony! Whatcha doing?" Sirius asked, sitting next to Remus on a stone bench in the deserted courtyard.
He closed his copy of "Every Alchemist's Uses for Every Herb in the Universe" and looked over at him.
"Just reading a bit, Padfoot," he said with a look of... something Sirius couldn't identify on his face.
"Why are you bothering with such a deadly dull book? You could be reading something exciting... like MY book!" Sirius said in the same tone a child would when he just found out he got to go to Disney World.
"You haven't got a book."
"Have so," he said and pulled out a book entitled "How to be a Maurauder" with his name under the title.
"You're publicizing our secrets?" Remus asked in a more hurt tone than the situation called for.
"No, of course not! This book is something I'm making for me and James's baby!"
"...Baby?"
"Well, we were considering adoption, you know. ...Just kidding, Moony..." he said, taking note of the crestfalled expression washing over his friends face.
"Remus...?"
A tear fell from the younger wizard's eye. He clawed it away, trying to hide his pain away from Sirius
...Needless to say, he failed miserably.
Sirius embraced Remus and held him captive with his arms, but also with his heart and soul. Remus welcomed this new feeling, sighing, and allowed it to wash over him.
"What's wrong, Remus?"
"Nothing. Don't worry about it, Sirius..."
He loosened his hold on him enough to look him in the eye. "Remus, you can tell me anything; you know that, love."
Remus looked him in his dark eyes and began to speak in a bearly audible voice, "You sure you want to know?"
When Sirius nodded, he continued in a voice only a little stronger than what he felt. "I... I've seen how you and James look at one another and I know that I can never have that. I see how you love and idolize each other... how each of you worship the other one. I know my dream will never come true; I know all too well that you both are so deep in love that you don't see the world around you... and you, Sirius..." he said, his voice breaking, "...you don't see my heart breaking every time I see you because I love you so much."
Remus broke down into tears, wishing to be anywhere but here. Sirius embraced him once more, tighter than even before; he began to dust his cheek with feather soft kisses. "Remus... why... why didn't you tell me sooner?" he asked, thoroughly shocked by this new information.
"You and James were together by the time I realized it... It was in our fifth year. Remember, we were making a love potion with Professor Aradia? Our eyes locked and remember, you kissed me on the cheek and forehead just to see what I would do. I knew it right then that I loved you."
"Oh, Moony... all this time? I'm so sorry..."
"Sirius..." he wispered. Their eyes met again and Remus didn't wait a second to captivate Sirius's lips. Strong tides of emotion washing over both of them, neither noticed James walking into the courtyard, his jaw dropping in pure shock. Tears sprang viciously to his eyes; he allowed them to fall freely as he ran from the sight, not knowing where he was going, just trying to get away. He ran into Lily Evans near the Gryffindor tower. They fell to the ground, James not even caring who or what he had ran into. He curled up on the floor, sobbing. Lily took her arms around him and guided him to the Prefect lounge. They sat on the couch, James crying on Lily's shoulder.
"James, what is it?"
"He... but Remus... and in the courtyard... and he..." and he just kept crying.
She held him for more than an hour like that, but even though he never said anything else, she knew it was about Sirius. How could it have been about anything else? Sirius, whatever he had done, had broken James's heart.
Lily heard his sobbing slowly quiet down undil it was more of a soul wrenching moan. She continued to hold him and stroak his hair for awhile longer until she heard him speak. "I saw him out in the courtyard with Remus. They... I was standing in the entrance when I saw Sirius wrap his arms around him and start kissing him so gently on the cheek... like he does to me... and I... He kissed him! Why Lily...? Why wasn't I good enough?"
"Shh... don't talk now. Just stay here with me."
"No... I need to go see Sirius..." said James.
Remus... one of his best friends in the world... had fallen in love... with him?! How could this have gone unnoticed for so long? Feeling the unfamiliar set of lips pressing against his own, Sirius felt a strong surge of nauseating guilt pierce his heart. He pulled away from Remus, leaving him looking flushed.
"I... I... oh, Remus, I'm sorry. This isn't right. I'm so sorry..."
With that, Sirius started to run. He felt immense guily, sadness and... something else all welling up inside him as if he would burst with the emotions swirling inside of him. A rush of heat came over him as he entered James's and his room.
Sirius saw his black haired lover sitting on their bed, his cheeks red and eyes bloodshot. He ran to James and wrapped his arms around him, pushing him down on their bed. Crying, he said, "James, I'm so sorry..."
James didn't ask what about. He knew. Sirius rolled them over onto their sides, tears flowing rapidly down both of their faces. James held him tighter and and they stayed there looking at each other, exchanging small kisses and tears the whole night.
A/N: Much shorter than the last chapter, but I covered everything that needed to be done. There are probably three more chapters of this little ficlet...
NEXT CHAPTER: Day three...
What will James do??
How will Sirius tell James?! And... how will Remus react?
Like I said, I'm a review whore, so...