I left today and only I know why.
I had to act like it was nothing, business as usual, just another whim from within my scattered thoughts, my unfathomable brain. But I couldn't help kissing her until she couldn't breathe, hoping she wouldn't be aware of what I was saying until I was gone. I don't think she was, she barely looked conscious when I let her go, leaning against her desk to hide her inability to stand on her own.
I left.
Told her not to worry. I'd be back soon.
Have to do this though.
I miss her.