Everything in her life was failing; leaving her more and more heart broken. Her sister away in Africa, trying to stick to her good girl image and being a good daughter and then to dealing with her parents fighting violently in front of her very eyes.
What made her stay strong? The one and only Eli Goldsworthy. The only one to make her feel special and loved. The only one who would catch her when she falls. She loved him like he loved her. She would think "What would ever ruin this thing we called love?" Maybe the certain ring on her finger, the sign of abstience. She wanted him, he didn't want her. He didn't wanna ruin her innocence, the only thing that screams "Clare Edwards!" She was too fragile and too beautiful and the last thing he needed was her to regret it. Not to mention he had a dark past that haunted him.
It's been 6 months since they last seen each other; since she last seen his beautiful green sparking eyes and soft, angelic face. She was suffering inside but she knew she had to be strong.
But what if she can't take it anymore? What if she dreams and hopes and prays he'll come back into her life? After all, she deserves to be happy too, right?
If This Was A Movie:
I couldn't move. I couldn't speak. My mouth continued to hang open and my eyes widened in surprise. "Eli." Was all I choked out. My parents noticed the now awkwardness and walked into the kitchen.
"Hi Clare." He greeted me with a small smile, enough to make my heart skip a beat. "Can we take a walk or something?"
I could hardly speak still so all I did was nodd and followed him out the door. It was an average autumn night. The leaves ruffled on the floor, the cold air with blowing winds, the now beautiful red and orange trees...
I tried to keep warm from my small long sleeved shirt but it was failing. He noticed my moves and motioned his sweater to me. At first I shook my head but then I took it with a small thanks.
As I placed it in on, I took in the scent that I have missed for so long. Musk mixed with cinnamon. I looked at him and looked deep into his green eyes. "What are you doing here?" I asked softly.
He stopped walking to face me and he turned serious. "I came by because..I missed you."
"I missed you too, but when-"
He cut me off. "Let's not bring up the past. I'm here because I missed you and I know it's been several months but I couldn't stand being away from you. It was getting more and more impossible everyday."
"Then..why.." I took a deep breath, trying not to remember too much about that night. "Then why...did you let me leave?"
"Because." I felt him take my hand and he held it tightly. I was shocked at his touch but gradually got used of it, like as I used to. "I was afraid of what we were becoming. That we were being too close and that we would make the mistake that I didn't wanna do. I didn't want you to do something you didn't and I loved you too much to see you hurt."
"You could've told me that then. I thought you just didn't wanna deal with me anymore." I whispered this and stared down at the floor, embarrassed to look up.
"I would never do that, leave you just because I wanna quit being with you. When I told you I would never leave you and love you forever...I meant that. I still do love you and I never will stop." He looked down at the ring that was still visible. After 6 months, it was still there. It was the only memory left that I had of him.
I looked up and met his glazy green eyes, full of sympathy and love. "Then why didn't you ever return my calls and texts? And you were never home or came to school.."
He sighed hard and squeezed my hand tighter. "You really wanna know?"
I nodded almost too much. "Please, tell me."
"I didn't wanna bother with it. I would try and explain but I would hurt you more and more. I didn't want you to think I didn't wanna..be with you, like that. Trust me, I did. I wanted it so badly but it wasn't the right time. I told my parents to switch my school and so they did. And I stayed with my grandmother for awhile until I thought you would of moved on and not come to my house. Trust me, when I saw you online, I would be dying to talk to you. I read the texts you gave me, over and over again. It was the only memory left that was related to you. I so badly wanted to reply back and then run by you and see you and kiss you senseless and apologize so much until you kiss me to shut up. I am so sorry, Clare. I realized it was the wrong thing to do the second you left..but I knew you needed some time to breathe and in the process, I was hurting you. I am so sorry."
He looked so apologetic that I felt so sorry for him. I should be so mad at him, for hurting me the way he did. He didn't wanna hurt me by taking away my innocence so he denied me but he didn't mean to. He didn't mean to hurt me the way he did. I know most of this had to do with Juila. I know I wasn't her replacement. I was hoping now he got over it because it was the main reason we struggled.
"Eli, don't apologize. I'm not going to blame myself so let's just stop blaming each other and...if you wanted.."
I knew what I wanted. To be with him again. To love him more then before, if possible. To be with him forever. I needed him and I was hoping he thought the same.
"What do you want, Clare?"
"I want you." I bit my lip as I blushed, the pink tint forming on my cheeks. I could just feel it. Eli smirked and it was one of the things I missed the most about him; his signature smirk.
"Well then." He replied, trying to be calm. "Does this mean I'm forgiven?"
I nodded slightly and smiled. "Of course you are. I missed you so much, Eli."
He moved closer to me and wrapped his hands on my waist and looked me in the eyes seriously. "What can I do for you to forget this? I feel like you'll never forgive me for hurting you so much."
I felt my self confidence build as I gave him an evil grin. "Just shut up and kiss me."
"I thought you'd never ask." He smirked and before I knew it, I felt that familiar sparks fly through my veins as his lips captured mine; long, hard, passionate and perfect. My arms wrapped around his neck, while he slipped his hands to my waist and pressed us closer together, a groan escaping the back of his throat.
He smiled at me and leaned down to kiss me again, slow at first but quickly leaping his tongue out to brush against my lips. I parted my lips as he let his tongue touch mine. I felt a shot of electricity run through my body, giving me more and more confidence to kiss him back even harder. He moaned again in the kiss, causing me to let out a soft moan. "You're so beautiful." He whispered, causing me to blush again. I could barely make out my thoughts as he moved his lips to my neck, sucking on it hard, leaving his mark. "Eli." I moaned, pulling his dark hair with my delicate fingers.
He moved from my neck to my ear, licking the shell of my ear and leaving butterfly kisses down to my shoulder blade. "I really really want you right now."
"I want you too, Eli."
As he was about to kiss me again, I felt my phone vibrate in my jeans and I sighed, disappointment rushing through me. It was my mom and I placed it back in my pocket. "She probably wants me back. You can stay over for dinner, if you want."
"No, you have dinner with your family. I'll see you tomorrow?"
I automatically frowned. "But I just got you back."
"And I'll be back again tomorrow. I got a whole day planned for the two of us."
I tried my best to smile even though I only wanted to be with him. Stupid parents and their stupid rules. "Well okay. Walk me home?"
He grinned. "Of couse, Blue Eyes."
He walked me home, holding me tight, never taking his hands off me. I think he missed me more then I missed him.
As we reached my house, I turned to him and I noticed the love and passion in his eyes. "Eli." I started, feeling nervous again.
"Yes?" He lifted my chin with his finger and our eyes locked.
"I'm really glad you came back."
"I'm glad I'm back too." He let out a small laugh and placed a strand of my hair over my ear. I smiled at his touch and leaned in to kiss him softly on the lips. "Text me later?"
"Of course."
As I was about to turn around and leave, he pulled me back to him with much force and before I had time to process this, his lips met mine again, the fire and burning sensation through me hit even harder. My heart pounded and I couldn't think straight. All I could think about was Eli and his love for me.
He licked my bottom lip and I tried my best to not let out a moan. I parted my lips as he entered, our tongues battling for dominance. His tongue brushing over mine almost sent me over the edge as I let out a moan.
"Oh God Clare." He whispered sexily. "You're perfect."
He lifted my shirt slightly and rubbed my stomach. I relaxed at his touch and when he pulled his hands out, I felt disappointment. He went back to my lips, giving them the most attention.
"I..better...go back in.."
"Yeah, probably." He smirked again and kissed me harder.
I kissed him back but pulled away, out of breath. "Seriously, Eli."
He frowned slightly but held my hands tighter. "Oh okay, we don't want you grounded or anything."
"Yeah. Bye, Eli." I walked up to the front door and before I opened the door, I heard him call my name.
"Clare?"
"Yes, Eli?"
His eyes were more full of love now. "I love you."
I blushed the deepest shade of red and smiled. "I love you too."
As much as I didn't wanna go in, I gave him a small wave and closed the door behind me.
My parents were shockingly silent at the dinner table and I gave them a smile. "Where have you been?" My dad asked.
I didn't have to reply, my smile already gave it away. I heard my mom whisper "Well that's obvious" under her breath. I smiled again and sat down at the table with them.
Dinner was silent and I was too excited when I finished eating as I ran to my room and noticed I had a bunch of texts.
I love you.
I already miss you.
You mean so much to me.
I again am so sorry.
You're perfect. And beautiful and guess what? You're mine.
I couldn't stop blushing and smiling and I wanted to reply but I didn't exactly know what to say. What I replied back to?
You're the only person who can make me smile. I missed you so much Eli.
I closed my eyes shut and smiled. Today was one of the best days of my life. After constantly crying, wishing, dreaming and praying he'd come back..he did. I know things won't be as easy, but they won't be the way they were before.
So much can change over the months- specially if you have to change alone. I wouldn't be that girl who would rebel against her parents and morals to change and prove to her boyfriend she can love him. She didn't have to do that. She could be herself and people would accept her for it.
Her parents seem to be getting along, Eli is back in her life..what else could she want?
She smiled as she saw the text he had given her.
I am totally coming back to Degrassi.
He didn't mention one word about..her. I knew by now he probably had gotten over her. Instead of thinking he couldn't love anyone else, he realized she would want him to be happy too...and he did find happiness, and so did..In each other.
If this was a movie...well in my perfect romantic movie, the guy and girl fall in love, they have fights, break up, but then one day, after hoping and dreaming he'd come back, he does and they live happily ever after. They may seem cheesy but hey, it's always the best movies.
Our movie didn't even finish yet. We had so much more to go but all I know is that nothing will ever change between us, only our love growing stronger.
And I wouldn't change a thing.
Yeah, a cute little story! It was short but I had soo much fun writing it and I just wanna say thank you to everyone who reviewed the first chapter! Seriously, you all are amazing!
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-Nessa