I'm not saying I love you,
I'm not saying I don't.
I'm not saying I trust you,
I'm not saying I won't.
I'm not saying I need you,
The day I say that, I'll rue.
There's a lot of things I'm not saying,
Because I know they're all too true.

-iheartyou-

I'd never seen the Lieutenant look so calm. The man only ever showed three emotions; anger, rage and the intimidating stare he wore otherwise. I'd just assumed he had no other feelings to show. The tension in the room was getting unbearable. The air conditioning made it a comfortable fifty-five, but someone, I was sweating. From the look on my mother's face, so was she. The Lieutenant just stared, the blankest of blank expressions on his face, not wavering at all - no matter how much we prayed it would. I tried to look to Greg from some reassurance but all he could muster was the 'You idiot' look. I didn't blame him. I should have just turned Kendall down.

We'd sat down for a normal, or as close to normal as we could get, family lunch and I'd gone and ruined it all. The waitress walked by twice, but turned back upon seeing the look still plastered on the Lieutenant's face. I winced, I didn't know what would happen and I didn't want to know."

"A date." He finally spoke, not easing any tension, as one would hope, but adding to it.

I waited for him to transform into the not-so-jolly green giant. Sort of Incredible Hulkish. Big, brutal, mindless, and violent. It never came. He merely cleared his throat and turned back to his steak, "What's his name?"

I hesitated, looking to my brothers, my mother, Regina, the passing waiters, ANYONE for assistance. No one moved. "Um," I started, "It's Kendall…"

"You met him at the beach?" the fact that his words were so…chill scared me more than anything. I nodded in response, nevertheless, "I'll have to meet him first."

"Well," I didn't want to have to say this, I really didn't, "He's coming tonight."

He looked up, his eyes locking with mine. Now the Hulk would come out, no doubt about it. His knuckles turned white, wrapped around his fork, and he offered what I could only assume was a smile, "Well then, we'll need to get home, won't we?"

Everyone gasped, not really meaning to, but not able to control it. He called for the waitress and within minutes, we were piling into two cabs.

The Lieutenant, Regina, Roy and Peter got into one and Stephan, Greg, Richie and I got into another. All was silent, so unbelievably eerily silent. I opened my mouth to speak, but was immediately cut off by Greg, "Are you stupid, Jeanie?"

"I-"

"We'll all gonna die." Richie said, staring ahead with a terrified look on his face, "We're all gonna die and it's your fault."

"We're-"

"What would possess you to even ask that?" Greg said, tossing his hands in the air dramatically, "You're insane. Absolutely insane."

"Stephan, some help?"

The oldest of the Boswell Boys turned and shook his head, "Lieutenant doesn't want them dating, why would he want you to?"

"They're boys. And not the brightest of them, at that." I smirked, hoping a joke would calm them. I guess one at their expense wasn't my best choice. Greg smacked the back of my head, and Richie glared, "Besides," I said, rubbing my head, "He said it was okay."

The boys all laughed, "He said he'd meet the poor kid." Stephen corrected, "That doesn't mean he'll let you date him."

I started to speak, but retracted back in my seat, knowing anything I said could and would be proved wrong. Stephen turned back, looking out his window, Greg did the same out his, and Richie continued to glare at me. This was bad

-iheartyou-

The boys returned to the Palm Woods, exhausted, hungry, and a bit smelly. Gustavo had them running numbers for their upcoming - upcoming as in six months - tour. Carlos walked to the kitchen, opening the freezer and sticking his head in. Logan collapsed on the floor, just inside the door. James made it as far as the couch, then he too collapsed. And Kendall sat at the counter, his head down and resting on the cool granite.

Around the apartment, clothes lay haphazardly on the floor, accompanied by DVDs, towels and assorted snacks. Needless to say, it was a mess. Mrs. Knight and Katie had gone back to Minnesota for the summer to tend to Kendall's grandmother - sick in the hospital.

After a moment of silence, Kendall remember something. He had a date. His head shot up and his eyes locked with the clock over the stove. It read 6:45. Enough time to get in the shower, get back to the beach, and figure out exactly where his date was…

James noticed his friends expression, one of thought and slight worry.

"What's up, dude?" he asked, sitting up on his elbows.

Kendall looked to his friend, "I have a date."

"Jo's back?" Logan asked from the floor.

Kendall winced, and shook his head, "Um.."

Carlos pulled his head from the cool of the freezer and raised his eyebrow at Kendall, "Skype date?"

Again, Kendall shook his head. Now, he had the full attention of his three best friends. They all shared the same quizzical look, except for Logan who had mixed his with one of disappointment.

"Her names Audra." Kendall shrugged, "We met today…at the beach."

The boys thought, James spoke, "The hot one? The one that tackled you?"

Kendall stifled a laugh and nodded, "That's her."

"So, you and Jo are over then?" Logan asked.

"Not…quite."

"You mean to tell me you gave Jo all that crap about Jett last year, almost sabotaging your relationship, and now you're cheating on her?" Logan glared, confused and slightly angered, "Kendall, this can only end badly."

The green-eyed Big Time Rush member scoffed, "Oh, Logan. Don't be so melodramatic."

James crossed his arms, "I have to agree with him, dude."

Carlos followed with a nod and sassy, "Mhmm."

Kendall sighed, glancing back at the clock. He didn't have time for this. He needed to bathe and jet, no pun intended. He looked around the room, hoping for a distraction. Quickly, he pointed out the window, "What was that?" he shouted.

The three boys looked, and Kendall sprinted down the hall and to the bathroom. He turned on the shower as quickly as he could and jumped in without removing his clothes. The door bust open seconds after and the curtain was thrown back. James, Logan and Carlos stood, arms crossed and intense glares on their face.

"What if I had been naked?" Kendall asked, crossing his arms too.

The others didn't laugh. Kendall winced. This wasn't good.

-iheartyou-

Audra paced around her room, pressing her Green Sprint Reclaim to her face. On the other end of the phone call, her best friend - the only other girl on the Naval base - Tabitha. She could practically hear the girl smirk as she asked, "Is he cute?"

"No, he's hideous." Audra said, sarcasm dripping from her voice, "Yes, he's cute. Beyond that."

Tabitha laughed, "Any friends? Single friends? Single, cute friends?"

"Tabitha, I just met him today. Although, there were three sufficiently attractive boys with him." Audra shrugged, "Maybe I could set you up. Get on Skype, I'll show my outfit."

Audra hung up the phone, after Tabitha agreed, and sat down at her desk. Behind her, Regina turned up her music - a tune Audra recognized but was in no mood to hear. She turned and glared at her younger siblings as Skype signed her in.

"Please, turn that down. Or off." She sighed, watching as her sister hung up a poster, "Lieutenant say you could put that there?"

"Mom did."

Audra tried looking past the girl to see what poster she was hanging up. The 'zwoop' sound, telling her she'd signed in successful, sounded. It was followed by a ring tone, Tabitha was calling her. She pressed answer, and turned back to Regina. As the little girl stepped back, looking proudly at her work, Audra's eyes grew wide. There, above her sister's bed, hung a picture of Kendall. Kendall her date.

"Oh. My. God." she whispered.

Regina followed her older sister's gaze back to the photo, "What?"

"Tabitha." Audra ignored Regina, "I'm dating Big Time Rush…."

author's note: say what? so now she knows, Kendall is THEE Kendall from BTR. the one we all so hopelessly love. and Kendall, oh dear, he's still with Jo? oh, well this won't do! what will happen next? who will be the first to die? i mean...

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