Leah's POV

I don't own Twilight or the song. Twilight belongs to S. Meyer and the song belongs to Bon Jovi.

It's been raining since you left me

Now I'm drowning in the flood…

One. Two. Three. Four. Dammit, why couldn't I phase back? I had been trying to phase back into my human form for ten minutes now. Jacob said that it was all about calming myself down first and then it would naturally happen. That lying son of a bitch! I was as calm as I could be and my wolf body wasn't budging. I knew it was a bad idea to sneak out at this time of the night when no one else was phased. Although I enjoyed the quietness in my head, I needed someone here to help me.

"Lee?"

Fuck.

"Why are you out here alone? It isn't your shift." Sam appeared from behind a tree."Leah?"

"What?!" I turned to walk away but Sam caught up with me and stopped me dead in my tracks.

"Your mom called me wondering where you were. You always sneak out at this time?" Sam towered over me.

"That's none of your business."

"We can't keep doing this." Sam said.

"What are you talking about? I don't have the time to sit and have a bonding moment, I'm going home." Sam blocked me in. "Move!"

"We need to talk."

"We don't need to do anything. I need to get home. Now move before I make you," I snapped.

Sam chuckled in his head. "I would love to see that."

"Move the hell outta my way." I pushed Sam away with my nose and he moved to the side.

One. Two. Three. Four. Hush puppies. Cotton candy. Stuffed- Finally! I snatched my clothes from my ankle and quickly put them on before Sam Uley came running to my rescue. Why did my mother call him of all people?

"Leah!" There was a pull in my chest that kept me from continuing my journey home. Alpha command. I whipped my head around and glared at the man who broke my heart into pieces.

"What the fuck do you want from me Sam!?" Placing my hands on my hips, I gave him the best Clearwater glare that I could. I tapped my foot waiting on an answer that I was sure I wasn't going to get.

"To talk to you. You've been avoiding me ever since you phased," Sam replied. Did he think me phasing was going to make me nicer towards him? Better yet, forgive him? This whole wolf thing just made me hate him more because he lied to me. He lied to me about what he was and the real reason he left me for my cousin.

"There's a reason I'm avoiding you," I spat before turning on my heel. Sam followed quickly behind me. "You gonna follow me all the way home?"

"Yes, until you talk to me. Dammit Leah, stop!" Sam grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him.

"Get your hand off of me!" I tried to yank my arm from his grip but he had a tight hold on me this time. "You have three minutes Uley."

Sam smirked and loosened his grip on my arm but he didn't let go. "I'm sorry."

I scoffed. "Is that all you wanted to say to me?"

"Lee-Lee-"

"Don't call me that! Look if all you're going to do is apologize to me, I don't want to hear it," I said through clenched teeth. Sam's expression hardened and he let go of my arm. "Are you done?"

"Why are you doing this?" Sam sounded defeated, the same way he sounded the night he broke up with me. "This isn't you Leah."

"The old Leah died Sam. She died the night you left me." I snatched my arm from his hand and turned to walk away. This time Sam Uley didn't run after me.

I ran home in my human form so I didn't risk someone invading my thoughts again. I wasn't ready to spend every day with Sam in my head hearing every thought. Some things I had a hard time not thinking about and I knew that it bothered the pack, especially Sam. My every intention was to torture him and force him to see what he did to me. My grandmother always taught me it wasn't good to be bitter. She said that being bitter didn't hurt anyone but you. But I couldn't help it. I had to get back at him somehow and if it meant making my thoughts a living hell, so be it. I ran up the porch steps to find my mother waiting in the door.

"You have to stop running off like this Leah," she whispered through the screen door. "I'm worried about you."

"I'm fine," I replied curtly. I opened the screen door and pushed past her.

"Leah."

"I'm fine mom." She placed her hand on my shoulder.

"No you're not. I'm not fine Lee. I hate seeing my baby girl like this," she said. I could tell she was about to cry when her voice broke. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into me. Right now I had to be the strong one for my family. After all, it was my fault that my dad was no longer with us. I had taken him away from my family so I had to deal with the consequences. I still had nightmares about the day I phased. The look on my father's face still haunted me a week later.

"I'm so sorry," I whispered in my mother's hair. I had grown so much this past month. I was probably about 5'10 now and I had a bad feeling I wasn't done growing. "I'm so sorry I took him away from you." I stifled a sob that threatened to escape my throat.

"Don't you dare blame this on yourself. This isn't your fault Leah." My mother pulled away from me and put her hands on my face. "You understand me? This isn't your fault honey."

"Yes it is. I killed him mom," I cried. Warm tears ran down my cheeks.

"Stop it. Look at me." She held my face in her hands, forcing me to look at her. "Stop blaming yourself for all of this. No one thinks this is your fault. Leah look at me." She pulled my face back to her gaze when I tried to pull away.

"How can you say that? You saw what I did to him. You saw the look on his face mom. He was so disappointed. I don't care what you or Seth thinks, I know this is my fault. I did this to us." I ripped my face from her embrace and ran up the steps to my room.

"Leah," My mother called out. I slammed my door shut when I heard her making her way up the steps. I could hear her pause outside the door before turning the knob.

"Mom I don't want to talk right now," I snapped.

"You can't hold all of this anger in baby. It's not good for you," she replied, sitting next to me on my bed. "Your father wasn't disappointed in you and neither am I. Why do you think this is your fault?"

I wiped my hands down my face. "Because I phased and scared him. He was shocked."

"He had a weak heart but I don't want you blaming yourself. Stop it, okay?" My mother rubbed my cheek.

"I killed my baby too," I whisper, lowering my face into my hands.

My mother sighed. "No you didn't. You were very stressed Leah and that didn't help."

"This monster that I've become killed it." I shook my head.

"Have you told Sam," my mother asked, rubbing my hair.

I quickly pulled my head out of my hands. "No, and I don't plan on telling him about it either."

"He has a right to know. It was his child too Lee."

"He doesn't have a right to know anything!" Two weeks after Sam had dumped me, I found out I was pregnant. I pondered over whether I should tell Sam about the pregnancy because after all he was the father. I decided that he had no right to know and I planned on moving away from La Push after graduation. My plan backfired on me when I started getting really ill. I was running a high fever and I could barely get out of bed. My mother just assumed it was the pregnancy that was making me sick because she was really ill when she was pregnant with Seth. A week later, I phased in the kitchen when Seth ate the last of my Lucky Charms. Who knew something so petty would cause the death of my father and my unborn child? After I finally phased back into my human form, my stomach began to cramp badly and that's when I knew my baby was gone. Now, I'm a genetic dead end. I can't even reproduce a child anymore because of the monster that lived inside me. Until this day, no one in the pack knows about my miscarriage, not even Seth. I wasn't happy that I had gotten pregnant in the first place, but I knew that I had to take responsibility for my mistake. My mother and father always asked me if Sam and I were using protection and I always said yes. There were only few times that we didn't use anything and one of those times resulted in me getting knocked up. My mother wanted to talk to the Council about me having children in the future, but I had stopped her the few times she tried. I didn't want anyone to ever know about the baby, I was still struggling to push the thought out of my own mind. I had to be extra careful with my thoughts on patrol since I figured out people could see what went on in my head.

"What's there to lose, just tell him," my mother pushed.

"No mom. It's not like that would change anything. He'll still be with Emily," I replied.

My mother nodded and rubbed my hair one more time before getting up to leave my room. She stopped at the threshold of my door and turned to face me.

"I love you Leah, don't you ever forget that." She smiled and shut my door.

I laid back on my pillows and pulled my comforter up to my chin. I pulled the sonogram picture from under my pillow and ran my finger across its glossy texture. I didn't have any parts of Sam anymore. He was completely gone. I placed the picture back under my pillow and cried myself to sleep.

You see I've always been a fighter

But without you I give up…

So there is the second chapter of Choices! I know this chapter was kind of boring, but I wanted to develop Leah's character a little more before jumping into the story. I know I said I wanted to get a few chapters done before posting, but I couldn't just let this sit on my computer. It was screaming POST MEEEEE! lol I'm going to outline the rest of the story because I will run out of ideas if I don't plan this thing out.

This story will follow some of the events that happened in Twilight, but I will be adding a few of my own. For instance, Leah phased a little sooner in this story than she did in New Moon. I haven't read the books in forever so don't go crazy if some things aren't the same. For the most part, certain events will stay the same but I will be putting a twist on them. This story will contain vampires, so you will be seeing them pretty soon. At this point in the story, Edward is still gone. You all will meet Bella in the next chapter, aren't you excited!

Until next chapter...

Love,

Bri