WARNING: CHAPTER IS KINDA DEPRESSING, ALSO MIGHT BE SHORTISH GOES OVER TATSUYA'S PAST MORE. I THINK THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL HOLD THE HOSY CLUB... YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED
*Tatsuya*
I sigh sweat as droplets slowly slide down my face. I wipe my forehead with my black sweatshirt sleeve. I finally finished packing all of the stuff that resided in my old messy bedroom. A large box held all of my band tee-shirts for Blood on the Dance Floor and Three Days Grace, along with different anime tee-shirts, and my amazing colorful v-necks. In another box all of my jeans and short were put in there along with my studded belts. In other boxes were the rest of my clothing, all of the books that i've read at least 3 times, and things I used to past the time, such as notepads where I write different things like poetry and just made up stories. then I had my sketch books and my beloved ipod that held all of my favorite music.
I looked around my now bare and clean room staring at the faded marks that showed were all of my posters were hung and my then turned towards my black and red colored bed that was still covered in pillows and held someone I probably would never be able to part with. A worn out fading grey bunny that had newly stitched black button eyes sewed on its fuzzy face, and different animal parts sewn on it. Such as it's one arm that is a light pink and had bloody claws attached to its paw.
The bunny was my best friend for as long as I could remember. In school I was never very social, and kids thought I was a freak because I never talked to people besides teachers, and my bunny that's name is Akuma, which means demon. But the name suits him perfectly, for he looks so demented from all of the wear and tear he's gone thru and with the different limbs sewn on by your truly because I didn't want him to be thrown out. Akuma was the last gift I got from my father before he died an a car accident. Akuma was a normal bunny at the time, he had shiny brown button eyes and soft fur that seemed perfect in every aspect, but that's not how it is now, well not in most peoples eyes. But to me Akuma is way better now than he ever was when I was first given him. I'll forever be grateful to my dad for giving me Akuma, even though I miss him, I always just try to remember the better days. The days when he taught me how to draw an paint when I came home after school, or when he comforted me when ever I got bullied in school.
Yes. In school I was bullied harshly. Kids would always gang up on me and beat me up in the playground. but I was fine with it at first, the boys would just punch me a couple times then leave me alone for the rest of the day, but that was when my dad was there. After he died, I went into depression and then I didn't even talk to my teachers or even my own mum. That's when the verbal abuse started. Kids would call me names and make fun of my father. Saying he was a drunk or was just stupid for getting killed in that accident.
I walk towards my bed and pick up Akuma and hold him at arms lenght. I smile at my old friend and brush some of my bangs out of my cat like eyes. "Akuma, you'll stay with me right? Your not gonna leave me to, not like every body else. Your the only one left. The only person who's stayed with me for this long, just you and mom... But I wonder will I get new friends? or will my fear of women get rid of that chance?"
I shake my head causing my bangs to run across my forehead, 'Alright Tatsuya! no more depressing topics!' I hug Akuma to my chest with my left arm and lifted my right into the air, 'I'm gonna think positive! I'll make friends!... maybe...' I place my hand on my head and flop down on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling, 'wow, I suck that thinking positively...' I smile lightly and hear a knock at my door.
"Hunny! You ready? We need to leave soon! Oh! And there is a truck out front, so bring your stuff down so we can load it up. Hunny? You up..?" Mom opens the door slightly to pear in and see me lying sprawled out on my bed a blank look of indifference on my face, "Hunny..." Mum walks into my room and heads towards me a sad look on her face. "You were thinking about him... weren't you... Tatsuya, you have to stop thinking of the past. We're moving to japan, it's time for us to start a new. Your going to a new school, so now you can make new friends." Mum looked at my arm and saw Akuma lying next to me. MUm gets a pain filled look to cross her face as she sees Akuma's state. She loved the bunny just as much as I did, but she always wanted me to get rid of him. And I think it's because she want's to get rid of the memory of dad. The pain filled memory of losing the man you loved with all of your heart, then having to deal with your child going thru depression. That memory to mum is the worse one possible, and here she is trying to get rid of it.
*Tatsuki*
I stare down at the small bear that lied next to my beautiful son. That bunny tore at what little heart strings that were left after Hiroshi's death. I know it's wrong of me, but I always wished I could just get rid of those painful memories that clouded my mind at night. I sometimes wish I could forget ever meeting my husband, and just continue to be the perfect mother that supported my son, and helped him when he was in this state.
His state of blankness. Tatsuya is a happy boy, he really is but his past is filled with just too many scars. And hardly any of them had healed properly. Tatsuya deserves to leave this town that holds the key to his problems. That's why I wanted to move so badly and that's why I want him to go to Ouran. So he can hopefully get new friends and live a better life.
Tatsuya looks at me with a tiered smile on his pale face, "Mum, i'll get my bed all set then we can bring everything down, Okay?" I nodded my head and tug on my slightly graying hair,
"Hunny... you know why we're moving right?" I ask my son,
"Yeah, I got excepted to Ouran so we're moving to japan. Also there you want me to get over my fear of women, and hopefully make new friends." I smile down at Tatsuya.
'As always he can read me like a book. I can never hide anything from him.'
*Tatsuya*
Mum smiles to herself about something. 'Alright,' I tell myself, 'I need to at least try to make new friends, to please mum, but also to help me, hopefully heal these seemingly un-healable scars.
*About an hour later*
Everything was packed an put in the truck. Now mom was just waiting for me to come down stairs so we could head out. But at the moment I just wanted to reminisce of all the time I've spent in this house. tTe times I was sick with the flu, or when there was a terrible thunderstorm and I slept with mum and dad because I was scared of the booming thunder. I walk thru our small tiled kitchen and remembered all the fights me and mom got into here, weather it was about who would do the dishes, or what we'd have for dinner.
A sad smile passes over my face. I knew I would miss this place dearly, but I understand why mom wanted to move so badly. This house holds both good and bad memories, and now is the time that I get a new start. But I won't forget my past, and I won't try to erase it, I'll just try to heal these wounds...one step at a time.
A new smile finds it's way onto my face, a smile filled with hope for the future. I walk towards my front door, then turned before I opened it and take one final glance at my bare house.
'Bye dad... i'll see you later.' I open the front door and walk out to see mom have tears getting close to falling from her golden eyes. I walk to mom and give her a tight hug, "mum... lets head home."
Mom bit her bottom lip and hugged me close. "Yes... Lets go home..."
Hey sorry if this didn't totally make sense, but things will get happier. and message me please comment, and tell me how I did. And if you have any questions ask!