" The party was so funny! Xoxo J"

Funny? My heart half sank. Part of me was upset that she said "funny". Part of me was still overjoyed that it had even happened. What if this really all was a joke to her? Or what if she really wanted to kiss me? I bit my lip trying to think of the words to say, but none came into my head. All I could think was 'tell her the truth, tell her the truth.' But I couldn't jeopardize any friendship we had by being selfish and scaring her away.

"I had lots of fun too :) - Fi" was all I could manage to type. Thoughts raced in my head for hours before I was able to fall asleep.

I had slept on and off all night. I had dreams I could vividly remember- of course with Holly J. Just dreams that we would be talking, spending time together, laughing, all while she knew my secret. There was no guilt in my dreams, no secrets kept.

When I had awoke I checked my phone.

"10 NEW MESSAGES"

Ten? Jesus. Probably from my mom trying to wake me up, or people talking about the party last night. I scrolled through the messages. Peter, Chantay, Spinner, Sav, Riley, Riley, Mom, Declan, Declan... Holly J. Holly J? I immediately went to her message and opened it.

"Park today? Noon-ish? Need 2 talk - J"

"The park by Degrassi. Just you?-J"

My heart started racing. Need to talk? My first thought was "This could be horrible." Then I thought maybe it could be good. Why did she just want me there and no one else? After the fall in Vanderbilt, I couldn't take anymore heartbreak.

Peter, Spin and Sav texted to ask if I either had remembered last night, or if I had liked it. Chantay had asked me if I saw her tweets and blog. Gossipy bitch. Next was mom and Declan. Ugh.

" 1/2 What the hell were you thinking Fi? Hooking up with my ex? You seriously need help. -Declan"

"2/2 By the way, mom heard. She's considering sending you back to the Hamptons. Have fun with that. Hands off Holly J - Declan"

Shit! My MOM found out? What? Does she subscribe to Chantays tweets too? Or did holly j tell declan and declan told her? THE HAMPTONS? UGHHH!

"Fiona, you need to call me a.s.a.p Looking into Vermont again.- Laura Coyne"

I did NOT want to go back to school in Vermont. Not with Bobby still being there. I'd be laughed out of school the moment I showed my face. Oh. 2 more. Riley.

"Heard about last night-is it true? lol -QB1"

"Fiona? Are you mad at me or something? Sorry, I was just curious..-QB1"

My drama with Riley had long been over. The only reason I had broke up with him was because I knew he was gay. At the time I didn't have feelings for Holly J, but I now knew what Riley was going through.

I decided to blow off all the texts, of course

All except HollyJ's.

"What time?" -Fi"

I stared at my screen in anticipation.

"Umm ASAP. -J"

Every text broke my heart, but at the same time gave me hope.

I threw on a dress, mildly accessorized with a hat and finger combed my hair and booked it out the door to go to Kinsley Park.

I saw Holly J right on a bench looking at her iphone. Dressed in cute destroyed denim jeans and a peacoat. The fall air was crisp and blew the freshly fallen leaves on the ground in little circles. I walked towards her.

"Hey." I smiled. How could I not? Shes the spitting image of beautiful!

'Hey.." She spoke warily.

"Whats wrong? Why did you want to meet me here? Was it about last night? Im sorry.." I lied. I wasnt sorry. It was possibly the best night of my life! Plus, what did I do wrong? She was the one who kissed me, after all.

"The kiss Fiona.." My heart sank. Tingles went down my back, and it wasnt from the cool breeze.

"I felt like something was... just...there." Holly spoke softly.

"What do you mean?" I said slowly, trying to not show my fear.

"I think..I liked it."