Chapter 2 –Deep Regrets
BPOV
After that dramatic night at my parents house things decided to turn upside down and inside out in a matter of hours my life had went from a blissful paradise to a nightmare from hell. I was currently cuddled into Emmett's arms and crying my eyes out
"Why do things have to happen? I was so happy why did Carlisle have to ruin EVERYTHING!!"
I knew I didn't mean what I was saying but I had to blame someone and I couldn't bring myself to blame Edward, he was so perfect he couldn't be the cause of something so horrible.
I hadn't seen Edward in three days, after that horrible phone call from Esme, Edward and I rushed to the hospital, I had never seen Edward so distraught and speechless, his only words were
"I'm so sorry Bella; I've ruined your plans!"
The worry in his voice was evident, it was clear that he could only think of his father, I tried to imagine what Edward was going through but I couldn't bring myself to think about my dad being harmed.
Finally my daydreams were lost Emmett was talking to me.
"Bella talk to me, your not doing yourself any good by keeping it bottled up like this, speak to me"
I knew that Emmett was only being my friend and was looking out for me, but I didn't want to talk about it, it made things real if I talked about it. It made the nightmare all so real, like a horror movie that never ends. Finally I looked into Emmett's eyes and seen my dear friend looking at me, a worried and puzzled look on his face. I knew he only wanted to make me feel better, but I just wanted to be alone, yet at the same time I couldn't hurt Emmett, or I would be alone and that I couldn't bear. I sat there cuddled into his arms, he was so warm and cosy, I didn't wan to move, all of a sudden things happened so fast, his arms were around my waist and he was looking straight into my eyes, I stared back and then we were kissing , and it felt right, it was like chocolate, only better, it was something I never experienced before, it was like a bolt of lightening going through my body, we broke apart shock filled our eyes, what was I doing
"mmmm…i..did….i..don't….oh my god!"
I jumped off the sofa and ran to the bathroom; I locked the door and stood looking into the mirror, what has happened to me, it is me I was looking at? I loved Edward, I still do! Why, why, why, I scream inside my head over and over again, then I hear a knocking at first I think it's Emmett knocking on the door but I realise it's not this door it's the front door, and then I hear voices,
"Bella, it's me Edward"
I screamed, he's hear oh my god.