his pain and happiness Chapter 2, a gakuen alice fanfic

I finally have the time to sit in front of my laptop and start writing this chapter! My finals finally over and I finally have lots of free time. I want to thank all of the people who favorite, review, follow me or the story, and those awesome people who want to waste their time reading my first chapter. You guys are awesome and really make me happy. Every time I got email, notifying that someone just favorite or review my story, I couldn't help myself but grinning like an idiot. Yeah, and I do that in public place XD

Okay, enough with the authors note. In this chapter I'll use Mikan's point of view, okay? I have tried my best when I write this chapter, I don't want to disappoint my amazing readers. I know that at first I said it's only one shot but I give it a thought and decided to make it two shots. Enjoy!

I don't own Gakuen Alice

I sat beside his bed, looking at his injured but still good-looking face and the only thing that was important to me right now is he would wake up. I wanted to apologize to him, for the bad words I have told him. Damn my stupid temper. If I didn't let my anger and disappointment took over me, he wouldn't end up lying at hospital bed like right now. If only God gave me the chance to apologize to him. But right now, the only thing that made me knew he was still alive was just the beeping sound from the machine beside his bed.

1 day before

I was in a deep sleep when my phone suddenly rang. I groaned and cover my ears with my pillow, hoping it would stop ringing. I thing I just sleep for 4 hours since I went to bed really late last night and I still need more peaceful time to sleep. However, that thing kept ringing stubbornly when I finally lost my patience. I reached at the table beside my bed where I always put my phone on. When my hand finally found that annoying thing, I hit the answer button without looking at the caller ID. "Hello?" I said with an irritated voice then I yawn. I still felt really sleepy. Then I heard the person across the phone chuckled and I knew very well the owner of that voice.

"Still sleeping my dear polka?" he said with a teasing tone. You already knew who it was right? For those who couldn't figure it out, it's Natsume Hyuuga who called me, and he is my boyfriend, back off fan girls! We were already going out for 7 years now since we were 17 years old. This year, both of us reach the age of 24, gosh, I felt really old. And, just for information, tomorrow is our 7th anniversary.

"You know me very damn well that I usually wake up late at Saturday and Sunday right? You must hope the thing you're going to say is important for me. If not, prepare yourself for the worst dear," I said. I really hate it when someone disturbed my beauty sleep, and I didn't make my boyfriend as an exception. However, he seems unaffected with my thread. "Well then, I guess the goddess of luck still at by my side little girl, because what I'm going to tell you is really important." I could imagine him smirking while saying that. "I'll pick you up tomorrow at your place around 6pm, and wear something nice okay. I have an important thing to tell you tomorrow," he said. Since we were going out, he started to open up a bit and not just talked to people with 'hn' or 'whatever'. He said full sentence now.

"What is that important thing?" I asked, a little bit curious. "Nuh-uh, no can do polka. I'll ruin the surprise if I tell you now. Well then, see you tomorrow. Love you."

"Love you too," I replied with a wide smile on my face. When he already hung up I didn't felt to sleep anymore. So I rolled up to the edge of my bed then arose from my bed before making my way to open the window in my bed room, making air circulation in my room. I inhaled the fresh air and let out a satisfied sigh. Talking to Natsume always boost up my mood and no matter how many times he already said it, I still smiling like a total freak every time I heard his voice in my head, saying those three magical words.

I turn my attention to the clock above my room's door and read that it was 8 in the morning. I decided to take a bath before having breakfast.

I just came out from the bath room 30 minutes later when my phone rang again. I picked it up and read the caller ID. Hotaru's calling. I raised one of my eyebrow with confusion, Hotaru rarely called me because she always busy at her company. While drying my hair with the towel I have around my neck, I pressed the answer button. "O-ha-yo-u, Hota-chan!" I said as cheerfully as I can. "Keep your voice down baka, you're making my ear bleed," said Hotaru as emotionless as ever. "Mou, you meanie, I'm just happy that you call. I haven't heard anything about you for months," I pouted, trying my best to sound angry.

"I know, and your idiot boyfriend also knows about it. That's why he ask me to go out with you today to buy the dress you will wear for your date tomorrow," she said and I jaw dropped. Natsume and Hotaru never get along well and now he could ask Hotaru to take a day off from her work to go shopping with me?! Have world go insane? Is there any meteor coming soon, or is Indonesia finally can experience winter? Or is there any massive tragedy going to happen soon? "He asked you to do that? And you agree?" I asked with disbelieve.

"Well, let's just say he promised something to me and that something is really big. He also gave me his credit card just for today to buy your dress and to eat. I got to say, he will do anything to get things the way he want," she said with her monotone voice.

"O-kay? Then, what time are we going?" I asked, trying to get a grip of myself after I heard that shocking news. "I'll pick you up at 11 am. Let's have lunch first before we do the "dress hunting" thing."

"Okay then, see you at 11," I said and she hung up. I still looked at my phone, trying to process the reason why Natsume went through all of that trouble, just to make Hotaru went out with me. Well, I'm complaining. I'm happy I could spend a day with my best friend.

I went to the kitchen and took out all of the ingredients I need to make breakfast from the fridge. "la la lalalala sing a happy song," I sing that song while I started cooking. (A/N : if you watch Smurf, those "blue people" always sing that song and I think that song is really cute XD)

I ate my breakfast in silence and I still thinking about the reason behind Natsume's weird action. Well, I'll just ask Hotaru about it then.

It's exactly 11 in the morning when Hotaru came, just what you could expect from someone like Hotaru. "C'mon, I'm starving. And I can't wait to use your boyfriend credit at Fish and Crab (A/N: I just made up that restaurant name :p)," Hotaru said, mentioning the most expensive seafood restaurant in our city. I sweat drop when I heard that. I'm just hoping Natsume knew what he was doing, because handing his credit to Hotaru is a very dangerous action.

"Uh.. are you sure you want to eat there? I think the foods there are really expensive," I asked weakly but Hotaru didn't make any impression she had heard what I said and I just sighed. At least Natsume own a successful company, so I think it's okay to let Hotaru spent lots of his money. It was his fault for handing Hotaru his credit card, right?

While I was busy with my thought, we already arrived at the shopping department store. After Hotaru parked her car, we made our way to Fish and Crab to have lunch.

"Nee, Hotaru. Did Natsume said anything about the reason why he did all of this?" I asked her after we ordered our food. "You couldn't guess it? It's really obvious baka," Hotaru said. I pouted. "Mou, sorry then if I'm not smart enough to figure it out."

Hotaru looked at me and shaking her head before saying, "it can't be helped then. I'll give you some clues."

I paid all of my attention to her when she continued talking. "First, do you remember what he always did at your anniversary day?" she asked. I thought for a while before answering. "Well, we just simply go out and have dinner together. We usually watched movies and at the end of the date he would always gave me something, like dolls and other cute stuffs."

"And did he tell you what you guys will do before going on the date?"

"Yes, and I find it weird why he doesn't want to tell me this time. Every time when we go out he never bother of what I will wear too. As long as I wear clothes," I chuckled.

"How long have you been together?"

I raised my eyebrows. "Is it related with what he is going to do?"

"Just answer my question."

"Seven years."

Hotaru let out a sigh. "And you still couldn't guess what he was going to do?"

I'm just about to answer her question when our food came. I sweat dropped when I saw how much foods Hotaru ordered. There are crab soup, crab dumpling, deep fried crab, deep fried crab brain, and there were still many different kinds of food, I couldn't name all of it. All I know, all of the foods in front of me contain crabs.

"Well, do you know?" Hotaru asked while munching her crab brain. I chose to eat the crab soup, since it was the most normal food at the table. "No," I gave her a short answer. I taste the soup and I must to say that it taste really delicious.

"He's going to propose, dummy," Hotaru said. I looked at her with a blank expression.

"Who's going to propose?"

"Your boyfriend."

"Who is he going to propose?"

"Me. Of course it's you, idiot."

"Oh, right. He's going to propose me…" I chocked at the soup I was eating when finally my brain finished to process what Hotaru just told me.

"He's going to propose me?!" I screamed, earning other guests' attention while Hotaru glaring at me. I blushed when I realized I just shout to the world that my boyfriend is going to propose me. "He's going to propose me?" I asked again, this time keeping my voice low.

"Well duh, it's so obvious. He's going to take you to a fancy restaurant, he's wealthy and both of you at the right age to get married. You have been together for a very long time. And also because I have a tracking device planted on him and I know that he went to a jewelry shop. I do a little research and I found out that he bought a ring. An engagement ring to be exact," Hotaru explained her theory. I didn't want to know why or how Hotaru have a tracking device on my boyfriend so I thought it's better if I didn't ask.

When we finally finished our lunch we went to boutique after boutique to find the right dress. I'm just so excited because Natsume finally going to propose me. Well, we have been together for so long and it just the matter of time before he propose me. After looking for almost 4 hours, we finally got the perfect dress. We also bought shoes and accessories that match with the dress before going home. "Bye Hotaru. When you see me again I will ask you to be my bride's maid," I said, grinning from ear to ear.

Hotaru didn't say anything but she let out her rare smile to me and it was more meaningful than words. After I closed her car's door she drove to her home, leaving me in front of my house. I happily skipping to my front door, pulling out the door's key from my bag and went inside. I can't wait for tomorrow.

6 hours before

"Oh my God! It's 4pm already?! I haven't done anything yet, I hope I can make it on time!" I panicked and rushed to my bath room for a quick shower. Five minutes later, I got out from my bath room, wearing my bath robe then I started drying my hair with hair dryer. After my hair dried, I curled it and styling it with hairpins. For the final touch, I applied light make up on my face. I did all of it only in an hour and a half. Then I opened my wardrobe to pull out the dress I just bought yesterday. It was a semi-formal white dress, and even though the design was simple, I looked stunning in it. At least that's what Hotaru said. And since she rarely compliments me, I believed her.

Just after I put on my silver stiletto on my feet, I heard Natsume's car in front of my house. A few seconds later I heard my front door opened by him. I grabbed my purse before running as fast as I could with the stiletto down the stairs. When I finally reached down stairs my eyes met with his gorgeous crimson eyes that were staring at me. I could see from his eyes that he was surprised with my appearance. He pace closer to me, pull my waist into a hug then gave me a small peck on my forehead then said, "you look beautiful tonight." I gave him one of my bright smile. "Is it only tonight?" I asked. He gave a little thought about it and said, "Yeah, only tonight." He smirked while saying that. I glared at him but he chuckled then pinched my cheek lightly and said, "I'm just kidding polka. You always look beautiful for me."

I blushed by his unexpected words, Natsume could be really sweet and romantic if he wanted to. "So, shall we go now?" he asked while offering his hand to me. I took his hand and let him guided me to his car.

"So, where are we going tonight Natsume?" I asked curiously. "That's little girl, for me to know and for you to find out." And that, ladies and gentlemen, was Natsume smart reply to my question. I just rolled my eyes hearing it, but deep down I knew that he wanted to make all of the things that happened tonight were surprises.

It took less than 30 minutes to arrive at our destination. Do you know where Natsume take me tonight? Right now, we were standing in front of Anna's Recipe (A/N : I just made up that name :p). It was my favorite restaurant in this town because the interior design in that place was so sweet and romantic. The walls painted with soft color and the place was decorated with beautiful flowers.

"Reservation under Hyuuga Natsume," Natsume said to the waitress. The waitress bowed his head and said, "right this way Hyuuga-sama, as you've specifically ordered us to reserve the private spot in our restaurant." The waitress lead us to our table. It was indeed a very private spot. From there we could have a great few of the restaurant, allowing us to have a good look at the beautiful and romantic interior design.

The waitress handed us the menu and asked, "can I have your order now, sir, miss?" Natsume looked at me and asked, "what do you want polka?" I scanned the menu for a while and decided to order mushroom soup for appetizer, spaghetti carbonara for main course, and strawberry shortcake for dessert. I told the waitress my order and after Natsume ordered his food, the waitress left us to have some privacy.

"Nee Natsume, I've got something for you," I said before pulling out a small box from my purse. I gave it to him and when he opened it I said, "happy anniversary Natsume." I gave him a watch with letters "M to N" carved on it. I knew that he broke his last watch and I decided to give him the new one. He gave me one of his rare smile and said, "thank you Mikan. Happy anniversary too."

Then we talked some random stuff until the foods we ordered came. I thank the waitress and started digging the food. I'm really hungry right now. "I see that you never lose your appetite my dear girlfriend," Natsume said when I finished my mushroom soup in a short time. "I'm hungry. And eating lots of food meaning I'm healthy right?" I said that for a reply.

"Yeah, but if you don't reduce your portion of food you'll turn fat, and sadly I don't want a fat girlfriend," he said teasingly, his signature smirk was on his face. I pouted with his words. "You have known me since forever Natsume, have you ever saw me turn fat?"

"No, but soon I guess." It looks like he really enjoyed teasing me, I wonder if we get married he will still bully me like this. I hope not. I was just about to answer with a sarcastic reply when our main course came. It smells really good. "I don't care what you're saying Natsume. I'm still gonna eat," I said while sticking my tongue out like a little kid at him.

When we finished our food he took me to the ice skate ring, something really unexpected from him. "Kirei you ne (how beautiful)," I sigh when I saw the beautiful sight in front of me. The person who owned the ice skate ring decorated that place with colorful lights and since it's an outdoor ice skate ring, the sky which was full of stars and crescent moon, making the sights so breathtaking.

"I really like crescent moon," I let out another sigh while looking at the sky. "I knew that. That's why I take you here, since tonight there will be crescent moon," Natsume whispered it on my ear while wrapping his hand around my waist. I giggled, his breath made me tickled. "C'mon. We have come all the way here. Lets skate," I pulled him to the ring. He just let me dragged him and skate. There was a comfortable silent between the two of us for a moment when he opened his mouth. "Do you know how to dance on ice polka?" he asked me. I looked at him and answered, "I never try it, so I don't know."

"Well, how about we try it now?" he asked and without waiting for my answer he took one of my hand with his hand, and he put his other hand on my waist and we start dancing. It's quite fun. We stared into each other eyes while dancing and I couldn't help myself and smiled. I felt really lucky having Natsume in my life. I leaned at his board shoulder while we continued to dance.

"Mikan," he called my name. "I want to give you something." My heart beat faster when I heard this. Is he finally going to propose me? I thought. And he pulled out a red velvet box and hand it to me. I think my heart stop beating for a few second. "Open it," he commanded me and I obeyed. I open it, and I saw what was inside.

I felt disappointed when I saw what was in it. He gave a heart locket, and even though it was beautiful, I actually expecting to see a ring in it. I forced my smile and said, "Thank you Natsume. It's really beautiful."

When we walked home, he realized something was wrong with me and asked, "polka, is there something wrong?"

"Nothing," I said, trying my best to sound convincing.

"I don't believe it," he said. When I didn't say anything he squeezed my hand lightly and said, "you know, you can always tell anything to me." I shake my head, hoping that he finally bought my lie and let it slipped.

"I know something is bothering you polka, tell me," he said, almost like commanded.

I kept my mouth shut, I couldn't tell him, it was too embarrassing. "Mikan," he said my name full of sincerity. I don't know why but when he called me by my first name, something inside me snapped and the next thing I said was going to be something I would regret for the rest of my life.

"Don't 'Mikan' me as if I mean something to you Hyuuga," I called him by his last name and I saw him twitched. "What is it polka? Why are you suddenly get angry with me? Is there anything wrong with me today?"

"Of course there is something wrong with you today, idiot! Why are you acting so sweet today. You take me to a fancy restaurant, having a skate date under the sky full of star. All of it to celebrate our 7th anniversary. Yeah, we have been together for seven years for heaven sake! And I thought you're going to propose!" No, please. Get a grip Mikan. You don't want to ruin this perfect date, right? I tried to control my anger However, what I did was taking another breath before continuing what I was saying.

"When I thought you finally going to propose, when you give me that box, do you know that I was expecting a ring in it, not a damn locket!" with those words I ran out across the street, not aware that the lights turned red and a sport car, drove towards me with full speed and I just froze at my spot. I couldn't move any muscle. Everything just happened so fast. When I closed my eyes, expecting that car to hit me, I heard Natsume yelling my name, I could heard fear in his voice. After that, I felt myself being pushed off the street.

My head hit the ground and I groaned. It was really painful. I got up from my lying spot and what was in front of me was something I will never forget for my entire life. There, Natsume, lying on the street and covered in blood. I felt the blood drained from my face as I run towards him, calling his name.

When my sense finally got into me, I fished out my phone from my pocket and called the hospital, trying to say things clearly in my panicked state. "Hello? I need an ambulance to come here. Fast."

Present

"Subaru, he's going to be okay, right?" I asked Hotaru's brother who was also the doctor who treated Natsume's wounds. He was just finished treating Natsume's wounds. "I'm not really sure. He could either wake up tomorrow, next week, or he would stay in coma for years. His head injured really bad, and some of his bones broken. He's lucky though, he manage to still alive. Considering how bad his wounds are. The best thing to do right now is just pray to God and hope for the best."

And then he left, saying that he need to check on his other patient and I just nodded. A nurse told me that I could see Natsume now so I walked myself to his room.

I touched his face softly with my fingers when a tear finally managed to escape from my eyes. "I'm sorry," I whispered as another tear fell out. I cried silently, holding his hand before I found myself drifted to sleep beside his bed.

7 days later

I was half asleep when I felt someone squeezing my hand lightly. At first I thought it was just a dream, but when I felt another squeeze I opened my eyes.

"Hey," Natsume greeted me, his voice sound really weak. My tears flowing out uncontrollably right at the moment when I realized he finally regained his conscious. "Natsume," I said. I caress his cheek with my hand. "I'm sorry Natsume. I'm so sorry," I said between my sob. "I'm sorry Natsume," I kept repeating that sentence over and over again.

"Mikan, please don't cry," Natsume tried to comfort me. He tried to sit but failed so he just lay down on his bed and hold my hand that was still caressing his face. "I shouldn't let my anger take control on me. You could have died, and it was all because of me! I don't care if you don't want to propose me, I'm glad you finally awake."

"Are you saying that you don't want to marry me?" he asked. I stopped crying when I heard it. "Wha-, don't get the wrong impression, I do want to marry you! But if you haven't ready, I can wait."

He chuckled lightly. "I-di-ot. Do you still have that locket I gave you?" he asked. I nodded. I kept that thing always by my side, even right now. "Do you have it with you now?"

I nodded again, showing him the locket that was around my neck. "Take it off," he commanded and I obeyed. "Now open the locket you silly," he said. And I obeyed him for the second time and I stop breathing. In the locket, where you usually put photos, there is this piece of paper with his hand writing on it.

"Will you marry me?" he asked me, saying the exact same thing that was inside that locket. I lost my ability to speak for a moment. The only thing I can do was just look at his hand writing, then to his face, back to the locket, and when I looked at his face again I almost scream. "Yes! Oh. My. God. Yes, Natsume. Yes!"

He smirked and said, "of course you have to marry me. No one will marry you except me." And I just about to glare at him he continued. "Because i'm the only one who have the full rights to marry you. If there is any other guy try to marry you, I will surely gonna skin him alive."

I laughed at his words, still arrogant as ever. But that was what I love about him.

"Oi, polka," he called.

"Hmm?"

"I think right now is the right moment for a kiss."

I blushed different kind of red by his statement, but I said, "then why don't you kiss me?"

He smirked. "I will, but I can't get up because all of these things on me." He referred to all of the things that attached to his body. Well, he did have a point. "So, the only solution is you're the one who kiss me," he said.

I couldn't help myself but blushed again. True, that we have kiss a couple of times, but I never take the initiative to kiss him first! He looked at me with his crimson eyes and I couldn't say no to him. "All right," I surrender and took a deep breath. "But close your eyes first." He smiled and obeyed my command.

I leaned down to his face and gave him a light kiss on his lips. When I'm about to pull off from his lips, he pulled my head with his hands and kiss me again, the kiss has more passion this time. When we finally parted our lips, he whispered, "I'm looking forward to our wedding day, Mikan Hyuuga."

I blushed again with the name he used to call me, but then I smiled because Mikan Hyuuga sounds great in my ear. And the next chapter of our love story just about to begin.

That's it guys. End of this two shots! I hope you guys like it, and expect my other GA fanfic okay. I'm working on it right now.