A/N: Well…This is my first attempt at writing a Lost fanfic…and surprisingly this is the very first chapter I wrote…I do things a lil' differently sometimes…hehe It's also insanely sad and fluffy…so fluffy tissues at the ready hehe…
Disclaimer: Oh yippee…what's that I own Lost? WOOT…Oh…Do I own it? Is that what you said:Looks around: Well…it sure doesn't look like I own Lost does it now? Buh-Bye…
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Like a goodbye scene from a romance movie, they stood in the middle of the busy airport, just holding each other. He stood with one arm around her waist, the other running through her chestnut hair whilst her arms clung to his neck.
It wasn't until she lifted her head to look at him that he realised his shirt was wet from her warm tears. She looked up at him smiling that sad half-smile that he had come to love. His gaze softened and if possible his hold on her tightened even more – almost as if he were afraid that if she wasn't held so tight she just might…slip right though his fingers and disappear. She drew a shaky breath and traced his jaw line with her pointer finger. The light bounced of her tear stained cheeks and he held a thumb to her cheek and wiped away her tears. He tenderly placed a kiss upon her forehead and breathed in the scent of her hair.
"Jack?" She said softly, her voice barely even a whisper.
"Shh…not now, its okay Kate, it'll be okay…" Jack replied. Kate shook her head as her eyes filled with tears. She really wanted Jack's words to be true, hell she tried to believe it but try as she might she knew…she knew, there was a very real possibility that she might never see him again. And she didn't know if she'd be able to survive the pain that that might cause.
: Flashback:
Kate ran along the path that had been worn away over the past year and a half due to all their walks and hikes across the island. Fresh tears fell down her cheeks, she tried hard to stop them, but it just wasn't working. She raised a hand to push back the lock of chestnut hair that had fallen out of her messy bun. Her breathing speed up and became more panicked and fast; however, she knew this was not from the running. It was due to the now, all of a sudden, very real possibility of being rescued. Someone at the beach had spotted a ship on the horizon and everyone burst into cheers, but for Kate, it was only just beginning, her worst fears were most likely about to become reality.
As she ran along the path she tripped and stumbled several times, having to stop at least twice because of the state she had worked herself into. She'd been crying so hard she couldn't see, though she hadn't realised at the time. As she approached the caves she tried desperately to calm the scared and angry tears threatening to flow from her eyes.
Her trip to the caves didn't take long and she soon found what she was looking for, no, not what…but who she was looking for. Jack.
"Jack!" She cried out the instant she saw him. He looked up instantly and she was fairly sure he could see her tears.
"Kate…Kate, what's wrong?" He said stepping closer to her.
"I…I…th…they…" Kate ran a hand through her hair and sighed whilst Jack took her arm and talked her into sitting down.
"Okay? Think you can tell me what's wrong now?" Jack asked as he crouched in front of her, pushing back the stray lock of hair that has previously escaped from her messy bun. She gave him a sort of sad smile before she began.
"Jack, I'm scared. They've arrived, they're finally here. After all this time, and it's scaring the shit out of me. I don't…I don't know if I can handle this Jack…" She said looking up with wide eyes, half expecting him to say something, and the other part of her just willing him to hold her.
He lay a hand on her knee, "Who've come Kate, the others?"
"No…not them; maybe worse…rescuers." Kate mumbled suddenly finding the floor extremely important and interesting. Out of the corner she could see a smile forming on his face but all too soon that beautiful smile was replaced with a frown as realisation dawned.
"Oh Kate…" He said softly and quickly pulled her into his arms. "It's okay…we…we'll work this out. We'll get through it…"
"But Jack, I'm wanted..." She trailed off slightly, "I wanted by the government and police…whatever. I'm wanted in like 20 states…probably more by now, who knows. As soon as they see me and recognise me they'll arrest me and take me away. Jack, the only place I'm going once we're off of this damned island is jail." Her voice broke and the tears came again. "I…I don't…I don't want to leave Jack…I can't…" She buried her head in his shoulder and clung to him so tightly, scared that the second she let go she'd be taken away.
"But Kate, they can't have you…because I want you too." He said softly kissing her forehead, and this time she looked up at him and smiled a real smile. "Kate, I swear…we'll work something out. It's got to work out okay in the end. I'm not letting you go without a fight. I'm not about to let you go so easily…" She looked up at him again and he took the chance to capture her lips with his own. Things started heating up but all too soon they heard someone, or something coming along the path behind them. Jack could feel her tense up and she tried to take a step backwards, but he wouldn't let her, wanting to protect her with everything he was.
"Jack, Kate…good." Charlie said emerging from the trail, "Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt or anything…if…"
"Its fine Charlie," Jack said taking his eyes off of Kate, slightly relieved.
"Anyways, they've come – we've got rescuers. We're being saved…there's a big ship and they're taking us back to Australia. I don't know what's happening after that, I think we get to fly back to LA…but…yeah…" With that he turned back and walked a few paces before turning back, "Are you guys coming or not?" he grinned.
Jack stepped back from each other and walked after Charlie, Jack taking Kate's hand in his…determined not to let go.
: End Flashback:
As promised the ship did take them back to Australia, and no-one recognised Kate. No-one recognised Kate at the Australian airport either, so for now both she and Jack breathed a sigh of relief, and until they got to the USA could be happy for a while.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
Kate ran a hand through Jack's hair, longing to be with him for…for…for what exactly? Maybe not for ever…no, that might be too long, and Kate knew that regardless she could never really be tied down…but for a long time. She wanted to be his, to be close to him, and loved by him for a long time.
As she looked at his handsome face she was sure that there were tears glistening in his eyes. "Oh Jack…I'm so sorry. If, if I knew that all this would have happened, I probably wouldn't have. I wish I hadn't done so many bad things. I'm sorry…Why couldn't I have known you before?" She whispered to him.
"Kate, its fine…" He said trying to keep his emotions in check, both of them knew deep down that really what she'd done hadn't been okay – killing is never okay is it regardless of the reason, defence or not. All that mattered was that they both knew she'd changed and wouldn't do it again…if only…if only the rest of the world knew that. "And I know that we both think you still would have. But…its okay, I understand – I know you've changed and regret it…" He sighed, "But where the hell were you the rest of my life…" He trailed of as their lips meet in a passionate, but gentle kiss.
No-one else understood. They didn't understand that Kate had changed, was no longer a killer or criminal, they didn't understand that she was capable of so much more. They didn't know how capable she was of loving just one person. They didn't know or understand how Jack and Kate could possibly find love – the Doctor and the Criminal? Because, I mean you must be joking – like that would ever happen. The people on the island understood that there was something between them, but they didn't know what, or how deep those feelings went. The only people who really knew were Jack and Kate. They didn't understand how much pain they were about to cause the couple, how much heartache they could feel.
They didn't understand that by taking Kate from Jack that he would spiral into depression and loose all interest, they didn't understand that it was like taking away his arm, or leg…no, more like brain or heart. He NEEDED her, he loved her, wanted her, and now he would be forced to – he didn't know how in hell he was supposed to survive. He needed to be with her, she'd kept him sane for the past year and a half, and he'd be screwed without her to keep him sane, calm and well…basically all that Jack was.
"Jack…I…I don't, I don't want to go…" She looked at him tearfully.
"I know Kate, I know."
"I wish…I just, why can't things be different?"
"I honestly don't know, I'm sorry…"
"Am I ever going to see you again Jack?" As she finished the sentence the tears came, yet again.
"By God I hope so…"
She sighed, "Because, I don't think I could handle it if I don't see you again."
"You know what, I swear, whatever happens…I'll find a way to see you again. Even," He kissed her neck before continuing, "If…it's…the…last…thing…I…do." He said in between kisses.
She smiled as he tilted her chin towards him, and kissed her passionately. This was a real kiss, the kind of kiss they'd always wanted to experience, but never had. A kiss with so many emotions, almost too many. It meant absolutely everything to them, but nothing at all to anyone else. Just the way it should be. Everything and nothing. They were scared shitless, yet determined that it would not be the last kiss.
After they parted he held her for a few more minutes, breathing in her smell, and in the small kisses he gave her tasting her too in a way.
"You know…I love you." He breathed against her hair.
"Yeah I love you too…too much," She half-smiled. "You…you won't forget me will you?"
"Wh…what? How could I?" He said kissing her forehead.
"I just…people forget about me sometimes…abandon me. I don't know, I guess I lose all hope. And I hate it when I learn to trust someone and for them to…betray me I guess. I don't want you to forget about me, because I know I won't forget you…" She sighed heavily; he caressed her face and gave her one last short, but sweet and tender kiss, full of hope. And that was it, she knew everything was true – he wouldn't forget her, and they would meet again.
"You ready?" He asked the question they'd both been dreading since the moment they were rescued. This was it, the final scene, the last goodbye. They hoped it wouldn't be, but for now…For now it was the moment they never wanted to come, and the one they wanted to get over and done with as fast as possible. Like a band-aid, they had to rip it off, suck it up, and face the pain. At least for a while, until they could clean the wound and numb the stinging with water…or perhaps a stronger substance, or just time.
"I don't think I'll ever be ready…" She gave him one final squeeze and a kiss on the cheek. "It was nice knowing you Jack…" He could have sworn he saw a hint of mischief in her green eyes. "Can you…walk with me…just until…I don't want to see you walk out of my life just yet…" Kate said softly taking a step backwards and picking up her bag that had been lying by their feet.
"For you…sure…" He said as he took her hand and drew her close, now they walked hand in hand towards their fate. As they neared the doors he pulled her closer and wrapped an arm around her waist and she did the same.
"Sir…sir…please step back." A uniformed policeman said in that fake, despicable, dull, and boring tone.
Kate and Jack simultaneously swallowed and let go of each other, Kate stepped forwards whilst Jack just stood there, caught like a dear in the headlights. Kate looked towards him, she tried to speak, but no words would come, only the tears she'd desperately been holding back.
"Miss Austen, you're under arrest…"
Jack blocked the rest of it out, he didn't want to know, didn't want to hear. His heart broke just watching the scene play out in front of him, and he was hopeless. He could feel his spirit breaking, he longed to see her, touch her again. And finally, as he watched her retreating back the tears that wouldn't come before came. Just like that. He watched until he couldn't see her anymore, then squeezed his eyes shut hard, and turned around.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
A/N: So there you have it…Chapter Two…so sad I'm almost crying now. I can't believe I just wrote that, god the drama…the pain…the torture…I'll find away to save their souls. Until then…over and out!
Gah…I've just re-read that and edited it slightly, ugh, my grammar was…uh, crap! They need to teach us more grammar at school, hehe. And now, I'd like to take this moment to thank everybody who took time to review chapter one…and in general, a big thank you for all who reviewed Downfall…if you haven't read it…you're missing out on some fluffy Jate, so…go read!
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