So, I am not sure if any other Haleb shippers will agree, but I certainly feel like the Haleb/Spaleb situation really put a bad spin on the Spanna friendship. I really loved Spencer and Hanna's friendship before the whole thing and since then I feel like it isn't really the same AND I don't think we've talked through it enough on the show. SO, fair warning, there is Spaleb ahead and a lot on the Spanna friendship, but it's definitely about Haleb in the end. I hope that doesn't discourage anyone to stop reading...as always, let me know what you think!

Love and friendship are both very complicated situations and they become even more complicated when they collide. This is where Hanna had recently found herself and her best friend. The fling Spencer and Caleb had, and all that followed it had put a huge hole in their friendship that even though they didn't bring it up, they both were still working to patch. Hanna didn't place the blame on them though, she knew it was her fault just as much as it was anyone's. They had all said and done things in this complicated situation that couldn't be undone and she knew that they were all probably as mixed up about it as she was.

When asked she said it was okay, and at the time she really thought it would be. She was moved on and happy about to embark on a new life with Jordan. She had to be honest, if there was someone else Caleb could build a future with, she was glad it was Spencer. At least in her heart Hanna knew that she take care of him. Plus, Spencer had truly cared about Caleb, whether it was love or not, she cared deeply for him and Hanna knew that which is one reason why she was willing to look past the sacred girl code and give them her blessing - like any best friend would.

That had been before Hanna had spent any amount of time with the man she had once thought would be her happily ever after. Before she thought that she may never actually see him again..or anyone again for that matter. Before she told him about New York and how she still loved him. Before she had kissed him the night at The Lost Woods. All of which she knew was partly responsible for the wedge between her and her friend.

She hadn't brought up the kiss since they hashed it out, but she thought it far too often..

He seemed to care about Spencer too, from what she heard the night in the barn when he practically confessed his love for her through a crack in the door. Saying that he worked so hard to get over Hanna and how much Spencer had changed his life. Hanna often thought about the night too and somewhere deep in her mind, she thought Spencer sending him away was probably more so to protect her having to hear him say the things he was saying, rather than to protect him from the Dunhill incident. She knew that his words would cut Hanna to the core so tired to stop him, then she sent him away - like any best friend would.

Either way, it had now been months since Spencer and Caleb had split but sometimes the hurt was still very new for everybody involved. Neither had come out and said who ended it or what had happened, but Hanna knew their split was about her in some way or another. What was more complicated was how she felt after it was all said and done. A feeling of relief washed over her when she heard that it was over because seeing them together broke her heart a little more each and every time which was immediately followed by a feeling of sympathy for Spencer. She had been through a lot with Toby and she deserved happiness. Seeing her so upset just made Hanna feel worse. Plus she had been there, she knew first hand how hard Caleb Rivers is to get over. Especially when he ran, which he usually did.

He went MIA after the night in the barn, packing all his things and disappearing into the night. Seeing Spencer shaken up the way she was made Hanna think back to her own feelings when he left New York. She searched frantically for him for days. When he finally came back is when the break up happened, and he was gone again. At least this time he technically he didn't disappear, he had a room at The Radley still but neither of them knew when or if he ever stayed in it. Toby and Ezra knew where he was, they just kept it to themselves.

It truly was a messed up situation any way you looked at it which is why marrying Jordan still seemed like the smart thing to do. She loved him in a different way than she had ever loved anyone before...and by anyone that basically meant just Caleb. Although Jordan never really did give her the butterflies that Caleb still did, he really was a great guy. She wasn't technically settling, at least in her own mind because she knew he was going to be an amazing husband. Sure, she still cared about Caleb and she thought about him a lot...and a lot more now since they were both back in Rosewood. Being miles away from each other helped put those thoughts and feelings for him in the back of her mind, but never completely out of it.

After that night in the barn she knew she had to let him go, even it killed her to have to do it. Not just for the sake of her own heart but her friendship as well. She had lost a lot of sleep over it and that's when she decided to throw herself into wedding planning, getting on with her life. Just like he had worked so hard to do.

The dead silence behind her pulls her out of her scrambled thoughts and she clears her throat "Yeah...um...he probably shouldn't get one." she whispers and she runs her fingers over the ink one more time. Turning back around she sees the eyes on her so she offers up a sad smile and chuckles "He probably wouldn't come anyway." She walks over and hands Aria back the address book, taking one last look before turning the page as she does. Aria takes the book from Hanna and looks around the table to the other four, unsure of what to do next.

"Oh! Ali, I think I have some more stamps in the office...if not Lucas should have some. Hang on, I'll go check." she says looking for any reason to get out of the room and away from the eyes, at least for a second. She quickly walks off and once she rounds the corner going into the hallway she stops and pushes her hands through her hair. She lets out a deep breath before she turns to walk to the office.

When she is out of earshot Emily leans forward and whispers"What the hell was that? Did you see the look on her face."

"It's Caleb, what do you expect?" Spencer says never taking her eyes off the cards in front of her "She loves him and she just had decide whether or not to send him an invitation...to her wedding...to someone else."

"If she loves him, why doesn't she just call this off and tell him?" Aria whispers

"Because it's...complicated...you all know that." Spencer sighs as she reaches for her wine glass.

"Well all I am saying is that someone needs to say something to her before she makes a huge mistake and goes through with all of this." she whispers again, this time waving an invitation in the air, just to prove her point.

Everyone's eyes fall on Spencer who finally looks up to meet their gaze "What? I've tried already. I told her she needed to figure her feelings out. Plus I don't think I am really the right person to have that kind of conversation with her...I mean I am kinda the reason this is complicated."

"That is why you're the perfect person to have this conversation with her Spence." Emily replies as she gives Spencer a look.

When nobody says anything she finally huffs and stands "Fine. I will talk to her." she says a she stalks off in search of Hanna.

Spencer stops just outside the office door and looks in at Hanna who sits in the chair with her head in her hands. She knocks on the door lightly, making Hanna jump and quickly throw her head up. "Hey Han, can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Um, sure. I was just looking for Ali some stamps." she says as she quickly fumbles through the stuff on the desk to find some and holding them up "I knew he had some." she says as she stands "What's up?"

Spencer pauses for a second to think about her approach on the subject before finally blurting out "Are you sure you want to do this? I mean the invitations haven't gone out yet...there is still time."

Hanna chuckles "Time for what?"

"Time to tell Caleb how you feel." she says quickly as Hanna's smile fades and she starts to push past her and out the door. She reaches for Hanna's arm "Hanna wait!"

"Spence, can we please not do this right now? I have got to get this done before Jordan gets back into town." she huffs.

"I just...I don't think that you realize how much Caleb effects you. I don't think you realize how much he does and how much Jordan...doesn't. Listen to me, I know how you feel about him. I also know why you won't say anything and I am so sorry...this whole thing is screwed up; you and me and him...but you can't go through with this wedding if you can't stop thinking about Caleb. It's not fair to Jordan, and it's not fair to you."

"And what is fair Spence? Two best friends that love the same person? Someone will always end up getting hurt." she whispers as she turns to walk out the door before spinning back around "And yeah...Caleb effects me, he has been a huge part of my life for so long...it's hard to let go of someone that...you know what, never mind. You were there...you heard him. I'm a wound he worked so hard to close...so why complicate things any further."

"Han, he may have said those things at the time but you and I both know that deep down he still cares about you."

"Oh really? Because I didn't hear him telling our love story through that door." she whispers with tears pooling in her eyes. "I have to get these to Ali" she says as she turns and walks out the door, leaving Spencer alone in the office.

She sighs and throws her head back to look at the ceiling "Dammit." she mumbles to herself. Waiting a few minutes before she returns to join her friends in the living room. She pulls out her chair in between Emily and Aria and sits down, shooting Hanna a look as she does. They continue to work in silence until all the invitations are done. When they are done Hanna picks up the box and heads out to drop them off at the post office on her way to The Brew to get everybody lunch.

Once she is gone all the girls gather in the kitchen "Well? What happened?" Ali asks as hops up onto the counter.

"You seen her walk out of here with invitations didn't you? Not very well...she won't listen to me..." she stops to take a drink of her wine as an idea comes to mind "But, I think I know someone she will listen to."