I haven't written more of the missing chapters as I've been cooking every night for the whole flat, attending lots of lectures and spending all my should be sleeping/writing time, reading stories here! I'm sorry! I'm dying of sudden work overload- or is it sleep deprivation?- so I thought I'd google Richard Armitage for motivation- it didn't work as well as I hoped so I threw in some Mansfield- Same problem- SO I had a brain wave which was add another chapter and read lovely reviews from my lovely readers!

When The Wind Stands Fair, Simpa007, Kedern, BrightBlues123, Cehsja, maggiegurl, Beccat968, The Sheep Of Destiny and wormhole physics 101 (you added me on alerts so I'm guessing it's for this story.)

Where are my reviews from you all eah? You evidently like it enough to want to read more! :P Yep yep I'm trying to guilt you. Is it working? ;)

Now, I don't own Primeval but I really wouldn't mind having Mr. Mansfield drop and give me twenty… you'll understand if you've read YHLH's story of the missing scene from If Tomorrow Never Comes. :D

This is more Becker struggling.

ENJOY!

In the following weeks Becker was torn. He loved Marianne and the knowledge killed him, it hurt so badly that he wanted to run, he knew what she was like, he knew their history... But she had come to him, he wasn't the one who had been chasing after the other, as had always been the case in their relationship. This was progress. Marianne had been at his door, she had seen him and realised how much he meant to her. Marianne had changed for the better, surely, and if he didn't give it a shot then he would always regret it.

A small part of himself noted that he was also selfish in his yearning for her, for the normality she provided, back when he had sight, back when he was nearly good enough, back when… back when he couldn't ask for more.

Jess was less like her normal self around him. She had just got to the point when she felt confident enough to launch into her cute little rambles around him, now she seemed to draw back into herself. Becker often paused outside the hub area, listening to her laughing with Lawrence, Matt and Emily after they'd returned from an anomaly site.

Yet when he made the steps to the ADD, Jess would quieten down, turning her attention back to the ADD.

It tore into his heart every time. He felt like he'd lost one of his best friends.

He didn't even gain much in return, a partner, yes. A woman who he loved, sure. But there was something not quite right about the entire situation. Becker found comfort in having Marianne around of an evening. He felt less alone with her company, even if it was somewhat distracted by the TV. It was true, he loved Bounty and her presence was a great relief to him. But Marianne was a human, a human he could talk to, he could hold, he could almost feel normal with.
Except for the times that she made a point of his blindness.

-/-

"What are the clouds like today, Mari?"

"What?"

"The clouds." Becker tilted his face towards the sky. "We used to watch them when we started dating, remember? What colour are they? Are they a large blanket covering the sky or do they have shape? Or both, with depth that you have to watch the sky to find?"

"They're clouds, Becker." Marianne spoke with disinterest. "They're grey. Ooh! Discount!"

A small hand left his and Becker heard his girlfriend's feet leave in the direction of whichever shop had caught her attention. He was now glad beyond relief that he had insisted on bringing Bounty, despite their open dislike to one another.

He figured that in time Bounty would start to be nice to Marianne, she had started to be polite after he told her to be kind to Jess. Then again, the chocolate bribery had helped. He wondered if Marianne would give Bounty some chocolate if he bought some and suggested it.

It wasn't the right way, he knew, Jess had been thoughtful enough to try and make peace with Bounty. The dog was clever and understood Jess's intentions. Becker doubted that forcing Marianne to do the same would have the desired affect.

Marianne didn't like dogs and Bounty knew it. Not three days had passed since Marianne appeared at Becker's door before the woman kicked up a fuss.

"Why the hell would you get a dog, Becks? I mean you know I hate them! Why would you do this to me?"

"This may surprise you, Marianne, but I can't just casually walk around like someone with sight. I need an aid."

Marianne was shocked by the comment, it wasn't like Becker to admit needing help.

"Oh. My. God. What the hell has happened to you? I mean… really? Who are you?"

For a split second Becker thought that Marianne was concerned about his health, maybe she worried that the accident had damaged him further than they thought.

"I mean, you would never have dreamt about buying a dog before because you cared about me. Do you not care about me anymore? Why are you doing this to me, Becks? Look at her. LOOK AT HER DAMN IT! She's growling at me! Make her stop it! BECKER!"

And that was the relationship between two of the most prominent women in Becker's life at that point in time.

And now you know how I chose the title!

- I don't know why, I loved writing the "Ooh! Discount!" If you want to make Marianne more annoying - not sure if it's possible- read the "Oh. My. God." as if she's Janice from Friends!
I do not like Marianne. Damn it!

Let me know what you think and please help with the motivation my lovely people! :)

Thank you!