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Blaine sat silently at the dinner table, just as he was supposed to. Children were supposed to give their listening ears at the dinner table.

Today, officially the last dinner he would have as a child. Tomorrow he would choose and try as he might he couldn't get the thought out of his mind. But today, as it was a special meal his older brother Cooper and his rather timid wife Bridget had joined himself, his mother and father. Cooper and Bridget were technically his parent's equals as they had both long since passed the initiation into Abnegation. But it was only his father and Cooper who talked. His mother and Bridget were silent each consumed with the meal of chicken and vegetables while the men talked.

The situation was similar to many that Blaine had experienced before. His mother was always silent at meal times, whether they had company or not. His father forced conversation if they had company, except for with his oldest son in which the conversation came naturally. In fact, Blaine can barely remember a time when he spoke to his father or mother when Cooper wasn't around. Long before Kurt if he were to guess.

After he has helped to clean up after dinner he is dismissed by his father to think about the choice that he has to make tomorrow. Blaine dutifully makes his way up the stairs and is about the close his bedroom door when he jumps upon feeling a hand on his shoulder. He spins around to meet Cooper's warm smile. In his younger years Cooper had been loud and brash leaving everyone surprised when he had eventually settled upon Abnegation at the choosing ceremony. It all became clearer once Blaine met Bridget and realised that she was the reason he had decided to stay, not what the test said.

"Hey Blainers…you okay?"

Blaine nodded and smiled up at his brother, "Yes…are you?"

Cooper nodded, "I am…" he lowered his voice, "Do what is best for you…the test can't do anything about your thoughts…it doesn't have to change anything or it can change everything…you decide…"

Blaine remained frozen to the spot as Cooper turned and went back down the stairs. He then turned and proceeded to enter his room closing the door softly behind him. He moved swiftly towards his bed in the centre of the room.

Had the test told Cooper a different faction than this one?

Had he gone against the test?

Of course, Blaine knew that the test was technically just a guide but they were taught to trust the test.

Could he go against the test?

Blaine wasn't entirely sure that he trusted the results in the first place but was his lack of confidence enough reason not choose a faction?

And what about Kurt? Sebastian? Rachel?

He was pretty sure that Sebastian would end up in Candor, even if Sebastian had never outwardly expressed a desire to. But Kurt? Rachel? They were both pretty outspoken so maybe they too would end up in Candor. They were both smart so maybe Erudite. Or Dauntless. Or Amity. But he was pretty sure that they would not be staying in Abnegation.

Rachel was right though. He and Kurt had barely discussed what they were going to do. Well, Kurt had talked and Blaine had sat quietly and nodded his head. The plan was that as Kurt's name was called first Blaine would just choose the same faction that Kurt had chosen. But Blaine wasn't sure he could do that. He wasn't sure that he could just hand over the choice he had just follow Kurt blindly into whatever faction he had expressed an aptitude for.

That would be no different than choosing the same faction as Sebastian because he was his best friend. Or the same one as Rachel as she was really the only other friend he hand. Or staying in Abnegation just because his brother was here.

He was barely 16! He shouldn't have to make the decision that determines his entire life at 16! But that was the way of the society. He had to decide something and he had to be happy with that choice. But, what if there is nowhere that he would be happy? What is there is nowhere that he will fit in?

He flopped backwards onto the bed and stared upwards at grey ceiling.

What if he didn't belong?

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