Dear Happy,
I'm sorry I couldn't say this to you in person. I just couldn't bare to see the hurt in your eyes. I can't stay...After all that's happened, I feel like I've lost myself. Really though, we both know there was never really and I or you, it was always an us. I don't regret my time with you. God this is so hard to write.
I don't know what to do any more. It's why I'm leaving. I need to figure things out. I can't do it here. I want, no I need to do this by myself. God this hurts. I don't want you to feel like this is your fault in any way. It's not and I don't blame you for what happened. I need you to know that. So please don't fold in on yourself. You gotta promise me that.
I don't want you waiting around for me. I have no idea how long this will take and if you meet someone, I want you to take the chance with her. I just want you to find happiness and not be lonely...If you do...well I'll be happy for you. It's all I've ever want for you. Is to be happy that is.
I love you so much and I'm glad you have your brother's to look after you now. Just don't do anything stupid like get yourself killed. Please be careful Hap. I need you to live, because I don't know if I can anymore and one of us needs to see this roller coaster ride to the end.
Please be careful.
Coral, your Angel.