So I'm back! You should rejoice though. Thank you all for reviewing and alerting. If I'm gone for more than a month, keep pestering me please.

This is the only time I'm going to say this so listen well. I do not own Gakuen Alice, if I did you will see some yaoi specifically between Ruka and Natsume. Hotaru would hit Mikan so many times with her Baka Gun that she falls into a coma in which she will never wake up from. They forget about her and the Doctor eventually pulls the plug. She is a Mary Stu that deserves to die, I mean she reminds of HARRY POTTER Mary Stus. Mikan also reminds me of Ebony from My Immortal the worst Mary Stu ever.

Warning: Mikan bashing. M-Preg. Originality and Yaoi. Yipee.

Enjoy please.

point out any mistakes.

Ruka's Pov

Sitting in the hospital waiting room is not fun at all especially early in the morning. Everything looks dreary and blends together. The TV. The hospital supplies makes a pleasant background noise along with the scant nurses chattering.

The people in the waiting room look bored, some tired that tells me those have been waiting here for hours. Children don't bother with the play area, the younger ones are curled up next to their respective parents, and the eldest children sit either next to their sibling(s) or parent(s) with indifferent expressions.

Some of them occasionally give concerned looks when their family members start coughing or sneezing. As look at them I wonder if I will ever get to have what they have.

I have no older or younger siblings. My parents died when I was younger and my Uncle's children were years older than me. The rest of my family I didn't bother to keep contact with. They hadn't sought me out yet nor have tried to speak to me.

I briefly wonder if I will ever have children, someone who I share my flesh and blood with. Someone who I can and will love unconditionally. Someone who will only mine. I want to have children in my life; b- I quickly push these thoughts to the back out my mind.

These sorts of thoughts are dangerous. To want something you can't have. It's better to just ignore and be happy for what you do have.

~X~

Getting up slowly, so that I don't wake up Mikan. I creep to the kitchen, to get some water. When I reach for my favorite glass that Ruka gave me for my 13th birthday, it cracks.

Gently picking up the cup I inspect it. The crack starts around the top rim of the cup spiraling downwards till it branches off it several small cracks. It's a wonder that's holding together.

That cup is supposedly resilient to breaking or chipping, made by some of the best glass blowers from Italy. I see no reason for it to break, there is only one reason for something crack like that.

Somebody close to me is about to go through something. Their future is going to change drastically. Since it's Ruka's cup I wonder if I should call him. I clear these thoughts; Ruka's a big boy. He can take care of himself.

Still when Mikan was in trouble, the promise rock she gave me did absolutely nothing. Maybe I'm looking too much into I try to convince myself but it sounds like a lie.

I walked out of kitchen; I didn't really want anything to drink. As I slid into bed I still think about why would Mikan's Rock do nothing but Ruka's cup cracks.

My eyes flicker over to the bright numbers of the digital clock. 7:15am it reads. Its too early I should sleep.

~X~

A nurse pushes me into a stark white room; she checks all my vitals without a word. When she is done she says, "Sit down, the doctor with be here soon." I give her a jerky nod in response.

The room smells too much like disinfectant and sickness. I really want to get out of here. My thoughts start to stray,

There is so much blood, "Momma! Daddy!" I scream. The car is turned over. I see both of my parents in their seat belts upside down. My mother has red oozing out of her mouth.

"Ruka," She says her voice is strained.

"Momma," I feel tears slide down my face, everything is blurred. My father is silent.

"I love you." She whispers, and then she falls deathly quiet.

"Momma!" I scream but she doesn't stir. I can hear the ambulances and police cars. Men pull me out of the car and I fight back though one of them holds me tight. I am suddenly in the hospital waiting outside of the E.R. room.

Though they give me clean clothes and the blood is washed off. I can still see it, the red stains against the white. A doctor comes out; his warm brown eyes look out me. "I'm sorry son." He voice breaks.

I stare at him in silence before I start screaming-no- screeching. Nurses, Doctors, Patients, everybody rushes to me but I don't care. I start thrashing around wildly still screeching.

Red

Black

My mothers whispered last words

The fire that burns brightly outside the car.

My father's and mothers blank stares.

I can't help it, the tears flow down my face and I feel like I'm drowning. I can't breath. I want to breath. Everything hurts.

Something is behind me, I feel a slight pinch and then everything is black but even in darkness I still feel everything.

Someone is shaking me hard. A feminine voice asks, "Are you okay, Mr. Nogi?" I turn to look at the girl who asks me that question. Her eyes are a dark purple color; she has black hair thrown in a messy bun, her skin a chocolate color.

I nod.

She gives me a concerned look but she doesn't press on. "So what's wrong?" I tell her immediately happy to get my mind off my previous thoughts.

"I've been throwing up a lot lately. I can barely stand on my feet for long periods and of time and I feel more tired than usual." She nods as she writes down.

"Anything else?" She asks.

I shake my head in 'No.'

I spot her nametag, which reads Dr. Kaiko. She gets up, with my folder in her hand, "You seem perfectly healthy but I'll take some blood just to make sure."

I nod, a few minutes later a nurse comes in taking my blood. She leaves along with the Dr. Kaiko. I wait for what seems like hours, before the Dr. comes back.

Her bun seems messier; her eyes hold something new like excitement but also nervousness. She closes the door; I hear the faint click that signals that she is looking it.

"Mr. Nogi," She starts.

"You have nothing wrong with you. Your health is perfect." I let out a breath I didn't know I had been holding.

"But, you are pregnant." She finishes. I glance at her.

"WHAT?" I ask in disbelieve.

A grin appears on her face, "You are pregnant." She elaborates, "Normally it isn't possible for a man to get pregnant but they're a few. A couple months ago Uzumaki Naruto was at our sister hospital found out he was pregnant too.

That's a rarity; anyways the male body is not the ideal place for a child. There is neither birth canal nor uterus. Although that is not true for you, you have an uterus though no birth canal. How you have a uterus or working eggs I have no idea but it happened.

Your egg got fertilized by a male and now you're pregnant." I blush when she said that particular sentence.

For a while I don't want to say anything. I can't say anything. A silence ensues; nervousness is in her eyes, full force. Dr. Kaiko talks her voice is flat, "Would you like abort it."

My reaction was immediate, "NO!" Dr. Kaiko smiles before she starts talking non-stop while writing. Her eyes are a lit.

About thirty minutes later I am given pamphlets and little books about pregnancy. Along with prescriptions for pregnancy pills that I might have to take. As soon as everything was done I look at my watch, 7:45am it reads.

Getting in my car, I realize that 7:15 I had found out I was pregnant. I drive home, suddenly tired when I walk through my door. I head toward my room, immediately falling into bed.

I fall asleep with a whispered, "Natsume."