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Chapter 1
Lorelai was checking her emails and read all the ones from Rory. She didn't know why she didn't respond to them. Probably because she wanted to be alone. It's been a week and a half since she left Stars Hallow. She decided to go to Ireland. She loved it when she was backpacking with Rory. She got up and went to check her mail at the main house. She was staying in a small cottage so her mail went to the main house. She noticed the writing on the envelope looked like Rory's. Back at her cottage she opened it and found a smaller envelope with a letter. She decided to read the letter first.
Mom,
What is going on? I haven't heard from you at all. Your not responding to my emails. Well grandma thinks you need to go to the hospital. Told her you were sick all week. Sorry for that. I miss you mommy. Everyone in town is questioning your whereabouts. Also worried about you and want you back. Don't get mad but I told Luke everything except where you were. He saw that you weren't happy with dad. He didn't believe the fake smiles like the townies did. He cares and misses you a lot. The other envelope is from Luke. I don't know what he wrote but please read it. When are you coming home? Paul Anka misses you and keeps trying to go to the house. School is going well for me. Please respond back so I know your alive.
Love,
Rory
P.s. Read it!
Lorelai put Rory's letter next to her laptop. Grabbing the smaller envelope, she debated if she should read it. Yes she missed him, it was obvious since she gave up coffee. She never like Chris walking around the town where Luke could see him. True she was ashamed in marrying Chris, she didn't want Luke to hurt by seeing him. She remembered how his face was at the hospital when he learned she was married. It hurt her to see him in so much pain and she was the cause of it. He must still care for her since Rory told him how miserable she was with Christopher. She sat down on her bed twirling the letter in her hands. She sighed and knew what she had to do. If he took the time to write probably a really short letter, she should read it. Plus Rory hound her in her own mind. Opening the envelope she took the letter and took a deep breath.
Lorelai,
I have to say running from your problems doesn't help. They will still be here when you get back. Didn't you learn your lesson the first time you ran? You slept with Christopher and look how well that turned out. I'm not saying you deserve this at all. Yes I was mad at you but you were there when I needed help. Thanks for the help that night. April could of died. I want you to be happy and that's all that matters. I just wonder why you would sacrifice your happiness just to please your mother. That's not you, I know you care what she thinks. You just never actually listen to her like that. You've always cried after, then grew stronger from it. What happened to that Lorelai? Don't let her change you Lorelai. Don't let this divorce change you. I don't want to lose you completely. I know I'm not good with words but April told me to tell you how I feel. Well I feel miserable and I can hate you. I can never stay mad at you for long. I miss you so much. I'm worried about you. Come home please.
Always,
Luke
Lorelai couldn't believe it. He was asking for her to come home. She knew he must still for Luke never writes speaks his feelings like often. He's not the flower buying guy, but he did at the Dragonfly opening. Of course she missed him, he was the only man she ever loved. She put Luke's letter down and went over to her laptop. Opening her email, she began to type.
Rory just got out of her last class on Thursday. She walked into her and Paris's apartment. Dropping her stuff off in her room, she went to her laptop. She was shocked and glad to see an email from her mom.
Rory,
I'm fine and sorry for not responding. I just didn't feel like talking to anyone. I wanted space and time to think to myself. I don't care what my mother thinks right now. I'm mad at myself and thinking about my crappy life. I'm a life ruiner. You know that. Let's see all the lives I've ruined.
-My parents
-Max's
-Christopher's
-Luke's
-My own of course nothing to do with you
-You still looking for a reason.
So let's get detailed with each person/ persons:
First my parents. I was a kid they used to be somewhat proud of. I used to to get in trouble at school but I got straight A's. I was planning to go to Vassar even though it's not you. Well then I got pregnant. Well all their dreams and hopes for me went out the window. Plus a whole lot other things.
Second Max Medina. I saw the signs that it wasn't going to work. I was hesitant to let him have a key to the house. I was willing not to tell you about him. I ran out on him and just left him a message that it's over.
Third your father (who is my past and should of stayed that way.) It started when we were kids. My mother pushed me to be his friend at first until I realized he was like me. Hated the Hartford society but that's bullshit. He's a true blue blood. He won't tell you this but he claims that me keeping you ruined his life. Which he also blames on me. I'm not the one who ran off to the other side of the country. Then the stupid marriage. I was only using him to get over Luke. Not for my mother like you think. It was to move on but your father figured it out and said he doesn't come second. Well he'll always come second because you come first.
Fourth Luke. Well how does I hurt the one man I ever love sound? Well No matter what I do I always hurt him.
Fifth my life. Well what I just wrote for Luke applies to me. I'm going to die alone and I deserve it. I'm a horrible person. Look at me, I'm hiding so I don't have to deal with reality.
Lastly you. I did ruin your life. I could of given you so much if I stayed with my parents. Maybe you would have had more bonding time wit grandpa if we visited them more. I still fear that I might of given you commitment issues. Also I want you to honestly think about your relationship with Logan. Think about what makes you love him that makes you overlook his mistakes. You once said he might be the one. Think if he truly is the one to make a lifetime commitment. Also think of how tying him down might change him. I kept wondering how long it would be until Christopher slept with someone else. Add attempting to ruin your relationship. Also realized I haven't been much supportive of any of your relationships. I'm sorry. I don't know when I'll be home. I'm glad school is going well. Love you sweets.
Love,
Mom
Rory couldn't believe her mother. She printed the email out. She was too mad, to reply. She might type something she might regret later. She knew one other person should read this. She grabbed her keys and headed towards Stars Hallow. Luke was enjoying the afternoon lull but was wondering if Lorelai read his letter. April was at the counter working on her homework. The bell chimed and he saw Rory walking towards him with a scowl on her face, "Hey what's wrong?. Rory placed the paper on the counter, "Read this." Luke looked at her strangely then lifted the paper up. He unfolded the paper and began to read. Rory watched Luke's facial expression change with each word he read. Luke couldn't believe Lorelai. She was blaming herself for everything. Also the fact that she still loves him and never Chris, makes him happy. She was trying to move on. Chris was her second choice. That's why he asked for a divorce.
"Can you believe her," snapped Rory, bringing Luke back from his thoughts. "She thinks she ruined my life. She gave me everything I wanted. So yea we lived in a shed for a while, but it was ours. She gave me everything and I failed her. Dropping out of Yale and stealing the yacht. I know my mom wakes insults all the time, yet she still holds her head high. She waits until she's alone to let it out. She gave up her life for me. She would have been top student in high school, graduated Vassar, and made it big. She's made many sacrifices so I could have a wonderful life. I betrayed her by moving into my grandparent's pool house. Because of me she couldn't tell me she was engaged to you," ranted Rory.
Luke sat there listening to Rory, pouring her heart out. He knew Rory was right, that Lorelai was overreacting to this, "Rory, she's upset and you know how she is, when left alone. She's probably more crazy than ever. Especially since she's not drinking coffee. She's not functioning correctly." Rory smiled slightly at that. Luke still cared so much even after everything. 'Maybe he's still the on,' thought Rory. "She's strong but she can only stand so much. I remember when she broke down when she was going to ask to borrow money. She broke down because your great grandmother called her a charity case. This was when you and your mother were having problems talking to each other. When you first started Yale and the Dragonfly was still being fixed up. We were suppose to go to dinner but she broke down and cried. She let it out and I heard you did also with Dean. You guys were still balancing time and getting used to not living together anymore. I don't know how she would have been if you went to Harvard. She bought Paul Anka to replace you after you guys got in that big fight. She wanted to feel useful and needed. That someone or something needed her to care for them," stated Luke.
Rory was thinking of what Luke said. Her mother was a strong person but seems to be week now. It's not completely her fault either. Her grandmother and father were the ones who changed her. They always made her unhappy. "I want my mom back," explained Rory. Luke looked at her, "Me too."