CH.2 Kissing a guy
Seven days later
It has been seven days later since Blaine´s suicidal attempt and I miss him. I miss his hazel eyes looking at me and his smile whenever I was with him. Well, I miss everything about him, I feel sad and lost. Tina was not lying about the glee club. Mr. Schue told me that I am not welcomed there and everybody looked at me with angry faces. They were angry for what I did. I was also mad at me. After one day of no messages I received one message it was from Kurt but Rachel and Santana gave him ideas to write in the message.
Trouty mouth, you are just a fucking son of the bitch; I taught you were going to take care of my future fiancée. I know everyone is angry with you and they have a reason why. THE BEST MAN hurting his groom friend. Here´s Santana part of the message: Neither Puck or I would do something like that. You are an asshole Sam and here´s Rachel´s part: Sam, I am really disappointed and mad.
What I wanted to do after that was to go and see Blaine to the hospital. I used the friend finder application and I found every one of the Glee Club including Blaine´s mobile on the Hospital. So I drived to the hospital, I did not knew what to expect about Blaine´s parents I was so nervous about what would they do to the person that their son mention on the suicidal letter. When I arrived to the Lima Hospital I saw the bus from the glee club. It was the special one for carrying Artie and Quinn (when she was on a wheelchair). I knew I would meet each one of the glee members in there. I could not just wait on my home and just go to school normally when my friend was at the hospital for my fault. So I asked for Blaine Anderson on the lobby and they told me that he was at floor 9 room 919. I went until floor 9 and there they were the New Directions. I went to them and they just looked at me. Ryder got to me and he said – Dude, what you did was horrible? How could you? I did not answer him but the awkward thing was that everybody hugged me. Marley cried when she hugged me and then Mr. Schuester came out of the room and he said – Blaine has already been waiting for you Sam and he wants talk to you in private. He gave me a pat on the back and I entered. When I entered Mrs. Anderson left the room. I stood there to see him. I came closer to him he was connected to a machine that gave him serum. I stood closer and I hugged him. He did the same to me. – I taught I was going to lose you Blaine. I said crying. Blaine lift a hand and he started to pat my head and move my blonde curls. – Are you not mad with me? After all what I told you and remember I was the cause you suicide. – Oh, Sam how could I be angry with my best friend? He said that with a soft voice. – Your suicide letter did not tell that you wanted to kill yourself because were of me? I told him. – Well, one of the reasons of why I wanted to suicide was what you told me but I understand that you were depressed. Then when I was getting out of my car some guys were outside of my house and they were telling me things. I remembered them they were some of the bullies of the school before Dalton. They told me things more horrible than you just told I and then I had a fight with my parents about something insignificant and then I taught about me not going to NYADA because wanting to be a doctor. I felt that I could not take it anymore and (he was crying) I grabbed a knife and started cutting myself. I´m sorry for causing you problems. He finished. When he started crying started crying and then I hugged him again I had an impulse and I kiss him in his mouth. What have I done? I´m not gay I was hanging out with Nurse Penny but I missed him. After that I said good bye and he said to me – Sammy, tomorrow I am going to McKinley again I hope everything between us is ok. Sam, but please not expect me to be very happy with you. Also when I started cutting myself I first fell down of the stairs so I would be in a wheel chair for some weeks. I hope you have a good night sleep, Sam. Blaine said. – I´ll be back. I said with my best Terminator impression. I closed the door and I went out of the room. I did not know what I just did. But the thing is that Blaine´s lips where incredible. Sam, what are you just thinking about? I was so glad nobody talked to me after I left the room and I really wanted to see Blaine again. After that I went to my house and I talked to my mom about Blaine´s suicide attempt and what he told me except our kiss. She said that I was stupid but she told that it was a good think that I went to him. It really helped me talking about these to my mom. I showered and then I slept and then I dream the dream was I was at a wedding altar waiting for my bride and then I had my brother Steve as my best man. I know that I love my brother but I will choose Blaine as my best man. Then the music started playing and then the doors open I hoped to see my bride but it was not a bride it was a groom and it was Blaine! I was marrying Blaine. I woke up sweating and I had a morning wood. I could not believe I had a dream about Blaine in that way and a morning wood because of him. After that I went to get a bath and get breakfast and I received a message that Blaine could not pick me up today because of his wheel chair. He went with his dad. – Hey Sam, why did Blaine did not pick you up today? Are you meaning you hate him now? I know he is gay and he had a crush on you but he is an excellent influence on you and he has excellent manners. – Dad, I forgot to tell you that Blaine tried to suicide because of me… - Samuel Evans, what the fuck did you caused? Is he death now? – No, he is not dead. Tina found him cutting himself and almost stabbing himself. I told him very stupid things because about what Bichette told me and he had other problems and he could not take it anymore. I said frustrated of saying it again. So you learned not to give your feelings to other people in that way, right Sammy? He said. – Yes, Dad, I guess we were so depressed that we just needed to hang out together. I said. Then we arrived to school. – Thank you Dad, you make me understand that Blaine and I just need to talk. You are the best person ever dad. I LOVE YOU! I hugged him and I went happy out of the car. I was never so enthusiastic to being on school. The real thing is that I wanted to see Blaine. I saw his red Camaro and her mother was mad shouting to him and he was again crying. I saw her mother going to the back side getting the wheel chair. She helped him jumped into the wheel chair. I saw his mother say goodbye and she left him alone. I run to him and he did not look happy when he saw me. – Sam, my mom did not wanted that I am with you anymore he said crying. But Sam after the kiss you gave me I have been thinking that you are the best thing it had happened to me in Mckinley. Blaine said. I started crying and he hugged me – Sam, why are you crying? Blaine said brushing Sam´s head. – I realize that although I am straight I need you. I do not know what would happen if you were death. The kiss did you really liked it? I was so scared about it but I knew that I liked it. I said. Then Blaine started crying and he hugged me again. – Sam can you be my wheel chair man? Blaine said. – I would be honored and I took Blaine´s wheelchair and we started walking.