Sookie was experimenting in the kitchen when she heard a car pull up. It was Lorelai's jeep. Thinking something was wrong she looked into the drivers side to see a very upset Lorelai. her shoulders were shaking and her head was rested on the stiring wheel.

Sookie has never seen her breakdown like that. She is always strong and nver lets anyone know how she really feels. Except Luke, before April came. She opened the door and started walking into the Inn, wiping the tears from her face and trying to appear normal.

Sookie quickly went back to her work pretending to have seen nothing. A minute later Lorelai walked in with a fake smile. "Coffee please!" she pleaded with a drained face. Sookie could here the desperation in her voice. "Sorry hon, all out for the night." she responded with a sad face on. Sighing her said," Thats okay, I need something stronger anyway."

She got off her stoll and walkd to the fridge. She pulled out a full bottle of vodka and a cold shot glass. She then walked over to the stool and opened it, poured a glass and drank it. The whole time Sookie watched in amazement as her best friend turned to the booze.

Curious to know what caused this, she promptly asked, "What happened, I thought Luke was coming home tonight?" she walked next to her friend and grabbed her water bottle. "Well, for starters Luke did come home..." she took a shot, "but instead of coming home at 5 like hepromised he walks in the door at 9:05 like nothing is wrong. she got queit at the end still processing things herself.

But what they didn't know was the Luke heard the whole thing...

Meanwhile, Luke followed Lorelai into the Dragonfly and started towards the front desk when he heard Lorelai's plead for coffee. he walked to the door and stopped to listen to the conversation going on between Sookie and his fiance. He heard her confession and decided to wait, let her get it all out of her system, then go to her. He debated on whether or not to wait at the front desk or to listen in. He decided on the latter and thought maybe he would find out why Lorelai was so upset. So he made himself comfy on the chair next to the door, thinking he is probab;y going to dread Lorelai's next confession... Boy was he right.

"I'm not even sure he loves me anymore." she sighed taking her fifth shot of vodka. "Now thats crazy." Sookie interupted.

Luke sighed in relief thinking Sookie could talk some sense into her. Well... he was wrong.

"Actually it isn't crazy..." she took another shot, "he is never around and when he is we are either sleeping or at the diner for like two minutes. UGH he is acting like I am just some random customer off the street instead of his FIANCE!!" takes another shot, then in a quiet voice, "you know, other than an occasiona quick kiss, he hasn't touched me since Valentines Day." she took another shot.

"I mean, its not like i need sex everynight, but I am his fiance. I mean he doesn't even put his arm around me when we sleep any more, well the few times we sleep in the same bed. I loved it when he used to put his arm around me. I felt safe and protected. He was like my own heater. I slept better and sometimes when I had a bad day here or a bad Friday night dinner, or even when Rory and I have that fight, he would hold me tight and whisper in my ear..." she took another shot and continued, "I used to feel loved... now I am lucky if my arm bumps his while he is sleeping." she took another shot and was a little tipsy.

Luke who was now standing near the door was completely shocked by her confession. He never knew she liked that . Sesing she wasn't done, he continued to listen quietly.

"I mean, like..."she started to slur," I ugh this is going to sound man but this all started when April came around." and she started to stutter, "DDDonn'tt gget me wrongg, it is grrrreat that he is trying to be a good dad and he is dddoing a grrreaat job, but why cccan'tt he bbbalance me and April. He is actting like he has to choose between is daughter and his fiance."

She takes three shots right in a row and started off again. "I mean what is wrong with him! He is acting like he doesn't love me anymore!" takes another shot. "You know what! I'm being silly."

Outside the door Luke breathed a sigh of relieve.

" Luke is just perfect... there is nothing wrong with him," she takes another shot and sighs, looking down sadly, "... its me."

"Lorelai, come o--" Sookie tried to interupt but Lorelai wouldn't allow it.

"No! Stop it Sookie! Its true!" she took a deep breath, "Its my fault! I did something wrong. I did something to make Luke not trust me. I did something to make him feel uncomfortable when i am around his daughter. I did somthing to make him... stop loving me." and then the tears came...hard. She was crying so hard and fast she could barely see.

Luke sat there completely stunned. Realizing it has ben 1 minuted since the tears started, they haven't stopped, he decided to go in.

He slowly opened the door. When Sookie saw him, she gave him a "what is the hell is up" look. Shrugging... he walked over to Lorelai and he put is hand on her shoulder. Bad Idea. That made the tears come down 10 times harder. After motioning for Sookie to open the door, he gently scooped her up bridal position, and carried he out the door.

She managed to wrap her arms around his neck crying on his shoulder. Inable to stop even if she wanted to. Releaseing weeks of pent-up emotion. Making his way to the truck he slowly slide her onto the bench seat and closed the door. he walked around the front of the truck and got in the drivers seat. He looked over at her and eas heart broken to see the love of his life look like that. She tooked drained, desperate, but most importantly... she looked heart broken. He sobbing finally subsided but silent tears flew down her face.

A/N: hey guys! short i know but i hate typing them. sorry it took so long for an update. I have a bunch written but never finding the time to type it. lol

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