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Warning: This is a Yoai story, OCD, Violence.

Pairings: NarutoxGaara ShukakuxKyuubi

"Talking"

'Shukaku talking'

Flash back

Okay her goes ch.1

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-Live for only you-

Staring blankly, thinking of the past things. Try to fin my purpose in life. Something to live for. No one has ever loved me, but who could love a killer. A person living in sad to only eat the blood of others and to live for only themselves. The day I was born I killed the women who gave birth to me. I killed that woman and everything would die with her, just like she wanted.

Slowly the walls faded into a memory of a little red headed boy crying in the park, asking why he was the only one. The only monster, why didn't they believe he was not a monster? A voice spoke then, telling him he was a monster and that one day they would all fear them. They would all die because of their own stupidity.

"But then father will get mad, and hurt me again." Whispered the boy.

'Don't worry Gaara-chan, I wont let him ever hurt you again.' The boy smiled and looked up at the figure standing beside him.

'And we will get our revenge won't we?'

"Yes we will!" Answered the boy with a sickening smile on his face.

'We'll make him hurt. Hurt more then he ever hurt us.'

"Yes! We will beat him to the ground. Rip of his skin and leave him to die in his own blood."

'That's right Gaara-chan. You only need me.'

"Yes Shukaku-sama. I live for you, only for myself." Shukaku smirked then and hugged the boy whispering evil thoughts to him.

The memory was broken by a knock on the door. "It's time to get up Gaara!" It was my sister Temari. But her voice was drowned out by Shukaku. 'You never did kill him!' "I know…forgive me." I whispered back. Slowly I got up and walked to my bathroom.

Yes I had my own bathroom. Not because they loved me. It was my father; he didn't want me to interfere with his good kids. He's been trying to keep us separate since I was young, it didn't help that I killed all those people and Yashamaru. Now they all feared me, everyone but Konkuro.

I turned on the water and carefully undressed. Water ran over my body, washing away dried blood and sand. I was mesmerized by the water, as I thought of Yashamaru. The water slowly turned white and black. The world slowly fussing out around me. This entire thing happening as a new memory played in front of my eyes. It was a bloody scene. There in the middle of the floor was Yashamaru's dead body. There were also other dead bodies. They were the bodies of the kids Yashamaru had loved so much. And there, was me, covered in blood and crying.

" I didn't mean to hurt him! Just the kids!!"

'You meant to kill hi. You hated how much he loved everyone else.' Came Shukaku's voice.

"I just wanted him to love me too! I didn't want to die. H-he got in the way.."

'He wanted to die. He didn't love you; he was waiting for the right time to kill you! He died with the ones he loved. Died by the same monster who killed his sister, by the same monster he knew would one day end his life too.'

"Why dose everyone want me to die Shukaku-sama??" little Gaara asked him, looking up at him with flowing eye, leaving trails of blood down his face.

"Why doesn't anyone love me? What's the point of living if I don't have no one to live for."

Arms wrapped around Gaara and Shukaku's whispered, 'I love you Gaara-chan and you shall always have my love if you only live for me and nobody elas.' With that Shukaku turned Gaara around and brought a sharp nail to his for head. Slowly he ripped a design into Gaara's forehead. For everyone to see.

'Now everyone will know your loved Gaara-chan. But in return for my love you must live for only me, love only yourself.'

"Okay." A smiling Gaara said as he hugged his beloved Shukaku-sama.

The memory ended then bringing him back to the room. Now that I think about it Shukaku has kept his promises. He gave me his love and showed everyone by the Ai make on my forehead. And to protect me he'd given me the power to control sand. You see Shukaku said everyone of his kind has a power of some sort that only they and the human they are bonded to can control. His power was mostly over sand thought he did have other power only he could use. The sand covers me in a armor of sand, it would also automatically stop anything from hurting my body. I can control the sand too.

'You should get out now before you get all wrinkle.' Hissed Shukaku.

Nodding I step out of the shower and walked over to the mirror. My reflection looked back at me through the mirror. I had short-ish blood read hair that parted to show a red scare of Ai on my forehead. My eyes were an aqua color. Slowly I put kohl around my eyes, to cover up that fact that I barely ever slept. Now two perfect black rings were around my eyes.

Father down there was a metal collar with a metal chain attached. I always had it on, not just because o liked it but for the fact it could not come off. I have had it since the day I was born and I would have it until the day I died.

The odd thing was that no one who was not bonded to a sprit could see it. The only thing they could see were two blood red scars. One was at the top of my collar and one at the bottom. But no one could see Shukaku either.

The chain led up to another metal collar, only this one was around my Shukaku's neck Shukaku was taller then me, but I was small for a 14 year old. (Gaara's 148.1cm)

He had sandy brown hair, with tan skin. While mine was pale white.

Shukaku had the coolest eyes. They were yellow with black diamonds as pupils.

He also had raccoon ears and a tail. Reaching out I petted his ear. Quickly jerking my hand away. I could feel him staring at me. I looked down at my kohl trying not to look at Shukaku. (a/n: I guess I should put a warning here even if not much happens)

'Gaara?'

"Yes Shukaku?" I said still not looking up at him. Not after I had touch his ear. I have never touched him with out knowing he would allow it. I fear he would get angry with me. But now I had gone and touched him, he would not be pleased. The next thing I knew my collar was being tugged up, forcing me to look up as well.

"I sorry Shukaku" He was the only person I would apologize to.

'Don't be.' I looked up at him in surprise.

"Your not mad?"

'No you can touch me Gaara-chan.' I looked confused. Why would he let me touch him? He leaned forward so his lips brushed against mine.

'But if you get to touch me I get to touch you too.' He mumbled against my lips.

"Okay." I could not believe this was happing. Sure Shukaku had always hugged him or tried to confer me, but no one has ever said they wanted to touch me, not even Shukaku until today. I was pulled from my thoughts as I felt fingers playing with my hair.

"Shuk-" I started to ask when he kissed me. Shock. I was to stunned by what he was doing. But it did feel nice and could not help but kiss back. Shukaku nipped at my bottom lip with his sharp teeth.

I gasped from this new feeling. He slides out his tough so he could lap up my blood. Slipping his tongue into my mouth so I could taste my own blood.

Tongue ran all through my mouth as if to memorize it. Gingerly I began to suck on his tough trying to please him. He moaned, so I think he liked it, which caused me to smirk.

Removing his tough, Shukaku started to nip at the skin visible on my neck. Slipping his tongue under my collar. It felt amazing.

Kankuro walked into the bathroom then. "Hey, Gaara do you know were my face paint is?

-End of Ch1. Live for only you. –

Yea…so that's the end of ch.1. So what do you think? DON'T WORRIE THIS IS A NARUTOXGAARA FIC!!

What's going to happen to Konkuro?

Please review….

P.S. HELP ME! My editor is abusive. She hits me…. My mom keeps asking where the bruises are coming from. She's starting to get suspicious of my "fell down the stairs." Excuse.