Bella woke up the next day at four thirty and headed to take a shower. Charlie wasn't up yet so she didn't have to worry about sharing and the house hadn't changed at all since she had been there before when she was younger so she didn't have any problems finding the bathroom. That was the good thing about Charlie, she thought as she stepped into the shower, he didn't like change.

A little after five she headed down to make breakfast. She still liked to cook and had actually spent along time figuring out how to cook with out being able to see. It had taken a few burnt pans and an incident with a fire extinguisher that she never wanted to think about again but she had figured it out eventually and now she could cook just as well as before if not better. Charlie came downstairs and was shocked to see breakfast sitting on the table.

"oh Bella you didn't have to do this." She took some pride in how flabbergasted he sounded. She loved proving that she could do things other people didn't think she could do.

"its alright dad, I like to cook."

"well ok…" they both ate their breakfast in companionable silence. Bella hurried out the door and was on her way to school by six thirty. She had learned how to count steps while thinking about other things so she contemplated her new life on the way to school. It was wet, ridiculously so, and she wasn't sure how she felt about that.

She used to hate all things cold and wet but she was different from then so did she still hate those things? She decided that she didn't mind the cold so much but the rain was horrible. It plunked off her rain jacket and dripped down her nose and splashed around her feet. It was annoying.

She reached the school with a little time to spare and headed to the front office like her dad had told her to. She could feel eyes on her and picked up her pace. But no matter how fast she went she couldn't shake the eyes following her. The entire student body was looking with interest at the newest addition to their population. Her arrival was actually shrouded in mystery, they knew she was from phoenix and staying with her father who was the police chief and that her name was Isabella but that was it. she entered the office and slammed the door to the small building.

"hi I'm-"

"Isabella Swan. Yes I have your schedule right here, there's a map of the school and you need to have your teachers sign this paper." She held out the papers but hesitated when Bella didn't move to take them.

"you can keep the map, I've already been around the school and memorized my schedule so all I need is the paper to sign. Could you put it in my hand? I'm kind of blind." The secretary paled and quickly put the paper in Bella's outstretched hand. Bella thanked her and hurried out to her first class. She walked quickly through the drizzle, ignoring the eyes she felt on her. One set of eyes seemed to be getting closer, it may be weird but she had developed almost a sixth sense for these things that went beyond the normal ability to feel others. She swung the door to her class open and breathed a sigh of relief; no one should follow her in here just to gawk at the new kid.

"um hi your Isabella right my name's Eric." The boy who had been following her had come through the door and was smiling and holding out his hand energetically. Bella pushed past him, feeling her way to the front of the class.

"you can call me Bella." She said over her shoulder.

"can I help you?" the teacher said as Bella neared the front desk.

"new student, sign this please." The teacher signed the paper and told her to find an empty seat. The room was mostly filled now so she listened to the noise patterns to try and find a quiet space. She didn't think about it, just separated the noise from the silent spots and found a few places without noise that were fairly desk shaped. She moved to the one in the back and plunked herself down.

She hoped no one would try to talk to her because she had already decided she wouldn't make any friends here. She couldn't handle it if she got close to people and something happened to them. She had thought about this long and hard, friends would make her weak, and weakness would get her killed when she became an assassin. Which was her chosen profession now, after she got revenge for Abby and Clay of course.

"hi my name's Jessica and this is mike you're Isabella right?" Bella groaned inwardly at her luck but tried to plaster a smile on her face to appear civil. It was expected of her and if she didn't meet expectations they would make her go to a psychiatrist again and that was the last thing she wanted. In fact it was right after root canal and death on her list of things she wanted.

"hi you can call me Bella."

"that's cool." Mike said leaning back in his chair, trying to look cool. Jessica rolled her eyes at him and attempted to engage Bella in a conversation. She fielded the menial conversation topics skillfully and soon she was able to escape into her thoughts as the lesson started.

As Bella made to leave the classroom Jessica came up behind her, wrapping her arm around Bella's shoulder.

"what lunch do you have Bella?" the brown haired girl stiffened under the other girl's touch. Nobody touched her anymore. she didn't let anybody touch her since the accident. Instantly she shrugged the arm off with a fake smile still plastered to her face.

"third."

"omg that's when we have lunch!"

"we?"

"oh me, mike, and everybody else. You should totally sit with us!" bella nodded absentmindedly as she walked out of the classroom and into the rain. She ran her fingers over the scars on her arms self-consciously once she felt she had gotten far enough away from the annoying girl.

She thought that being new might create enough of a stir that people would leave her alone for at least a little while but obviously that wasn't the case. No one would leave her alone and keeping this half-heartedly constructed mask on was too tiring, and honestly she hadn't wanted to make it in the first place.

She didn't like dealing with her pain this way; cutting, moping, or pretending nothing was wrong was not the way she dealt with hurt. She screamed, kicked, and made everyone within a twelve mile radius feel how upset she was. But this hurt was too big and too deep to deal with that way so she created this mask.

Everything's ok, nothing's wrong, she said these things so much she had started to believe them herself. Only when she felt her scars that she remembered that she was different now, that the old Bella had died in that crash with her friends and this new Bella could never be the way her family wanted to be.

It was amazing how much she could think during classes. It was kind of freeing not to care about what was being said. But these classes did have their uses. No one could talk to her then without risking getting in trouble with the teachers so she had lots of time for plotting. She didn't care about high school at all anymore so as soon as she had a solid plan she would leave. Her blindness did through a wrench into that plan but she would figure that out eventually.

She was so wrapped up in her thoughts she barely noticed when her last class before lunch ended. What was more surprising was that she didn't hear the footsteps approaching her so she jumped when a gentle hand touched her shoulder.

"um hi I'm Angela, you're Bella right?" the girl had removed her hand when bella jumped so she didn't feel the need to be overly nasty and she sounded so nervous the blind girl chuckled a little.

"yea, that's me." She said with a smirk.

"cool, I thought we might be able to walk to lunch together."

"sure why not?" bella collected her things and left the classroom next to the energetic girl.

They chatted about meaningless things until they reached the lunch room. The din coming from the room made it exceedingly hard to hear anything so their conversation was put on hold.

"there are the others!" Angela cried as she pulled Bella in the direction of a table. "hi everyone!" she called as they grabbed empty seats. Jessica wasted no time in filling them in on the conversation and Bella wasted no time in tuning her out. She picked at her food and tried to calculate how many minutes were left of school.

"omg. Look who's here."

"who is it?" Bella asked, not really caring."

"it's the cullens. Only the hottest group of people in this whole school! But don't get your hopes up they're all together even though they live together. Well except for Edward but he doesn't date."

"hnnn." Bella poked at her food some more, maybe she would take a nap in her next class.

"um hello earth to Bella!"

"what?"

"how is it you aren't staring at them! What are you blind?"

"yes." The silence that followed was tangible, she could almost picture their shocked faces and the affect was hilarious.

"Bella….are you serious?" Angela sounded so concerned Bella almost felt bad for saying it like that.

"yea, but it's no big deal I'm used to it." She smiled brightly and turned the conversation back to what it was before these Cullen's showed up, which she thinks was shoes or something. The rest fell back into the ease of conversation, glad to have an excuse to ignore what they don't want to see. She went back to picking at her food and pretending to pay attention to the conversation. But she couldn't ignore everything in the peaceful way she had before for one reason. She could feel one pair of eyes trying to burn a hole into her skull. It was very disconcerting, she couldn't concentrate at all.

"um….bella…Edward Cullen is staring at you." So it was the Edward boy, that's just peachy. It's her first day in this new place and already a boy is staring at her. She really hoped he was one of the physco-killer types and not the I'm-totally-in-love-with-you types.

"I don't care." She chuckled quietly "let him stare. Hey that rhymed. Lunch is almost over right? What class do you have next Angela?" she chatted with the others for the rest of lunch but her mind still wasn't engaged, in fact she was planning several ways to kill this Edward painfully and slowly if he tried to do anything more than stare at her.

She hurried to her next class right after lunch, hoping to get a head start on that nap. The others offered to show her the way, especially Eric, Mike, and Tyler: a sweet boy who insisted on talking to her at lunch. She had of course refused the help, and of course she ended up lost. Not terribly lost but enough to make her a few minutes late and extremely irritated. She stormed through the door to the science class and up to the front desk.

"sign this." The shocked teacher turned and looked at the angry girl holding out a piece of paper towards him. He took the paper hesitantly and signed it.

"sit over there next to Edward please." She rolled her eyes and moved to the only open seat. In her opinion getting a seat next to the boy who was staring at her was so typical.

She plunked down and rested her heard on her hands. This lesson was Just like the others, irrelevant and boring. she tried to fall asleep but Something was making that very hard. It wasn't the teacher, in fact His quiet droning was more of a Lullaby then anything else, it was a Smaller Sound. She tried to focus on it but it's surprisingly hard to differentiate one tiny noise from all the other classroom noises. Pencil tapping, gum chewing, foot bouncing, all normal noises and all not the noise irritating her that noise was more of a…scraping.

She put her head on the desk and soft vibrations were coming through the desk in perfect time with the scraping noise. That Edward guy was scraping the underside of the desk with a…knife. No, that rhythm would have to be made with eight knifes….his fingers? He was scraping the underside of the desk with his fingernails.

Bella lifted her head from the desk and decided then and there that this guy was a freak. A breeze from the slightly open window ruffled the hair covering her scar and she heard a small whimper come from her table partner. She had changed her mind; this guy was a total freak.

She sat back in her chair and waited for the bell to ring; her nap was shot so she would just have to go back to plotting. The second the bell rang Bella rushed out of the classroom. She didn't want to get dragged into a conversation with her tablemate. Of course the blind girl didn't see that the boy in question had already left faster than a cheetah with its tail on fire.

She managed to get a nap in her next class but her last class was gym and there is nothing more awkward than a blind girl in gym.

"alright Bella were in the middle of the volleyball unit so-"

"um sir."

"You can be with this group-"

"I have a note-"

"over here." The gym teacher walked away after pointing to a random group leaving Bella lost and more irritated then she had been before, she was bordering on downright mad. She didn't know why they had put her in a gym class in the first place. Sometimes she felt like the rest of the world was blinder than she was. Mike saw her standing off to the side and jogged over to her.

"mr. carther totally ignored you didn't he?"

"yep."

"he does that to everyone don't worry about it, you can come be with our group we never really do anything anyway." Even though Bella couldn't see mike he reminded her very much of a puppy. Desperate to please and all energetic, she supposed she might think he was cute if she could see him but he seemed more pathetic than anything else. But of course she couldn't tell him to go away, people might think she wasn't adjusting well or something and sometimes those desperate puppy types can turn violent and nobody likes that.

"thanks mike." She reached out and took a hold of his sleeve, being careful not to make proper contact. "lead me over there."

"sure thing." She could hear the grin in his voice; his face must have been virtually split in two. She stood off to the side for the rest of gym class, listening to the others smack a volleyball back and forth. She was bored and tired and this was taking way to long. She had never been very coordinated before but being blind hadn't seemed to make that worse but she still hated gym. Had always hated gym, so she did the most logical thing she could think of. She listened carefully to the other people and when she could tell they were far enough away she crept towards the door. It took her a few minutes but she eventually reached the door and slipped out of the gym. She quickened her pace and rushed out into the drizzle.

The door to her room closed with a thunk. Bella felt her way to the bed and collapsed. A breeze fluttered through the window ruffling the drapes as she curled into a ball. She didn't want to go back to that place or deal with those people, maybe she could have with Abby but not alone.

"Jesus, how much can one person cry?"

"great now I'm hallucinating…..just great." Bella rolled over and tried to shut off the voices, going crazy was not something she wanted to do.

"wait….can you hear me?"

"not listening….not listening…."

"Bella can you hear me? It's abby, I'm a ghost and I've been floating around you since the accident if you can hear me say something 'cuz I'm soooo bored."

"lalalala"

"ok….i need to say something to convince you you're not halulucinating…..oh I know! You know that one time after homecoming we went to that senior party and got separated? Yea I ended up sleeping with clay and-"

"YOU DID WHAT!" Bella jumped out of bed, intent on killing her friend, dead or not. She looked for a cold spot or a feeling or something so she could try and strangle the stupid ghost.

"hahaha you can hear me! Relax Bella, I just said that I didn't actually have sex with your boy toy. Honestly why would I? he's soooo not my type and you know it." Abby walked over to Bella slowly, she placed her hand on her gently and watched a shudder pass through her friend.

"is it really you Abby?" Bella's voice dropped to a whisper, she didn't want to hope, didn't dare to hope.

"in the flesh…so to speak. Man you've been a real mess lately.

"well I'm sorry I didn't take the death of my best friend and my boyfriend well."

"well I'm here now, get over it and move on."

"and clay? Is clay here?"

"no he…actually moved on. You know how he is; the adventure of the afterlife would have been too awesome for him to pass up."

"of course. It's not like I expected us to last forever anyway." She flopped back down on the bed but this time she stayed on one side, leaving a spot for abby.

"it's cool, not many high school relationships last anyway. But hey what about that yummy red head at that new school of yours, he's pretty om nom in my opinion." A grin crept across Bella's face at the normalcy of the conversation.

"um earth to Abby, I'm blind here."

"oh yea….the guy who sat next to you in bio."

"the creeper? Jeeze Abby how do you always pick the freaks?"

"so he was staring at you! that doesn't make him a creeper it makes him interested."

"dude he's a freak, I can tell these things."

"whatever, how 'bout I ghost stalk him for a while then we decide whether he's a freak or not."

"fine by me. Bet 'cha ten bucks he's a freak."

"you're on." Bella sighed as she felt Abby leave the room, it was weird but now that she knew Abby was there she could feel her, like her essence or something. But it didn't matter, she had her friend back, her sister back. The world was tolerable again although her main plans hadn't changed. Abby was still dead and that means somebody has to pay and she was still going to make sure they did.

A/N: ok first off thank you everyone who has already favorited or alerted to this story! i dont want you all to get your hopes up tho so im gonna tell you this straight up; i dont update this fast normaly. at the best the next chapter will be out by next week because this is written for icedemonrose she gets to read it first cuz thats just how its set up then she has to correct it and corrections can take a while. (plus the new chapter isnt even writen yet and even at my best thats gonna take a couple of days) so i will try and get the best chapter i can out for you guys by next week! reviews motivate me tho so if you want speed then review! wow my authors notes arent usualy this long either....