I felt very weak, my body was slowly beginning to regain consciousness. I couldn't feel a thing, as if every muscle in me had been destroyed. I forced my eyes open.

Wendy was standing over me, her magic pulsing through her child sized hands onto my torn stomach. I couldn't hear a thing either, all I saw was Wendy's mouth moving but nothing came out.

Suddenly Gray was by her side, He seemed to be crying. Anger had taken over his normally peaceful face. He looked as if he and Wendy were fighting over something. But still I heard nothing.

I looked around, I was in the infirmary. Every bed was empty, except the one at the far end of the room.

A body lay there, covered with the sheets on the bed. I could see strands of soft pink hair sticking out from the top. Natsu... In that moment everything came back to me.

The feeling throughout my body, my hearing, and most of all the pain.

"AH!" I howled, it felt as if every bone in my body had been shattered and my skin had been ripped off layer by layer and sewed back on one by one.

"LUCY! WENDY WORK FASTER, THE PAIN COULD KILL HER!" I heard Gray's voice shout.

"I'M DOING ALL I CAN GRAY, DAMMIT." Wendy shouted back angrily.

Wendy being angry was a strange sight. The innocent loving child was not much for negative moods. This went on for what seemed like forever, the pain not letting up and Wendy trying everything she could. It was as if I was stuck like this forever, eternal pain.

"What the hell?" Wendy's voice muttered abruptly.

A calmness began to seep into my bones. My screams were dulled by such a refreshing feeling. All the pain left my body as promptly as it came to me.

"What?" Gray questioned.

"She...healed herself." Wendy said in disbelief.

"How do you know that you didn't do that?"

"Because my magic wasn't working on her in the first place. Nothing I could do was effecting her in even the slightest bit." I listened to this as my eyes opened again.

I gazed up at my two teammates hovering over me .

"Natsu..." Was the only word that came from my mouth.

Sadness filled each of their eyes. Wendy shook her head is sorrow.

"Natsu was gone before any of you arrived here. Gray carried the two of you home. He didn't want to leave his body behind."

I sat up unhurriedly. "This never should have happened."

Without thinking I got up and walked over to the bed his body was in. I yanked the sheet away from his face. Even though I knew it was something I shouldn't have done. He was colorless, not even the tiniest speck of life pulsed through the blood in his veins. His hair lay utterly still on the pillow his head was resting on.

I touched his cheek with the palm of my hand. He was no longer warm with existence.

"Why did you do it, you fool? I warned you it would get one of us killed. You never listened to anything I say." I whipped the sheets back over his face and stumbled out of the room.

Several of the guild members were standing there, they were most likely waiting for results. As they saw me, their faces lit with joy. But, I pushed past them as if I had no care for how they felt.

Even though that wasn't true I couldn't stop myself. I wandered straight over to the ocean side. I sat down in the thick grass. I looked out at the crystal blue water, It was calm and mystifying.

I hugged my legs tightly against my chest. I couldn't stop myself as the tears began to flow from my eyes.

"Natsu..." I chocked out.

"Why him..." "

It was to save you." I heard a mans voice behind me.

"He should have just let me take the hit, Gray." I cried aloud.

I watched him out of the corner of my eye plop down next to me on the grass. I felt his arm wrap around my shoulders and pull me closer into his protective grasp.

"He did what any of us would have done for you, Lucy." Gray told me, his voice smooth.

I shook my head. "I never wanted anyone to die for me."

"No one ever wants anyone to die for them, Lucy. I know how this feels though. I felt the same exact way when my teacher Ur sacrificed herself to save me and Lyon." He spoke sadly.

"They are the only reason you and I are alive right now. I wish I could be thankful that I wasn't destroyed. But honestly, I would have much rather given my life instead of his." I revealed.

"Gray?" I added.

"Yes?"

"What happened after Natsu took that hit? All I remember was telling him I was going to kill him before blacking out."

"It was the most incredible thing I had ever seen. Ur used to tell me stories about how some wizards were powerful enough to lend others their magical power even after death. I believe that's what happened. I think Natsu gave you all his strength and power. You turned the entire sky black, I could feel the pain you were feeling in the air I was breathing. Then just as that monster was going to take his final swing at you, something even more amazing occurred. Fire, Water, Lightning, and Wind came crashing down from the dark sky in a pillar, hitting him with a forced that sent Natsu and I flying back against the castle." He described.

I looked up at him. "What..happened to the monster?"

Gray look me in the eyes." He died instantly."

I turned my head to look away. I had never actually taken someones life before. Natsu and I never killed any of our enemies. We always found a way around it, no matter what they did or how much they deserved it.

"I killed him..." I really didn't know what to think.

I wanted him dead so badly after I saw what happened to My best friend. I felt the guilt began to build up inside. I had gotten revenge for that...thing killing Natsu. But I wasn't really sure if I was okay with what I had been able to do.

"How am I going to live with myself, Gray?" I asked him desperately.

"In any way possible, Lucy. The entire guild is here for you. Please if you are thinking about it, don't do something wreck less."

I nodded. "Of course."

"I'm so sorry I didn't get there sooner, Luc. I know I could have stopped Natsu from doing something like that, but I cant say that I most likely wouldn't have done it instead."

I looked back up at him and scowled. "Don't you dare say that, Gray."

''Why not? Its the truth." He defended himself.

"Because I cant even deal with the fact that I just lost my best friend in the entire world. It would have been just as devastating if it was you instead of him."

"No one should have died." I added.