I don't own Twilight, Stephanie Meyers does.
Chapter 2
They had been talking for hours and the sun was now coming up. Bella's head hurt, the beginnings of a tension headache, and she was cold. She was loathe to go inside yet, she knew once she was alone, no longer putting up a brave face, she would fall apart.
"I won't leave Charlie without at least saying goodbye." Bella said stalling them.
A pained look came over Jacob's face. "I can't tell Billy he would call Sam and stop me...Charlie might tell them." He said. Bella knew he was right and was planning on waiting till she was ready to leave to talk to Charlie about it. She didn't want what little time they had together further marred.
"Come with me Jacob we will find a location for the change and set it up. Give us a week Bella." Rose told them. Bella was grateful to Rose she seemed to know exactly what she was thinking.
"Do you have the money Rose? Can you do it without the Cullens knowing?" Bella asked.
"All my accounts are joint with Emmett." She said sadly.
Bella walked over to her and put an arm on her shoulder. "He will think you are leaving him." She whispered, wanting to make sure the blonde was in this with them and also concerned as she realized what Rose was sacrificing.
"I am in a way..." Rose said looking down. "I'm in this Bella, eternity is a long time and eventually I know I will work things out with Em..." She choked on his name and Bella hugged her. Rose accepted her comfort for a short bit then pulled herself away.
"Come on dog we have work to do." Rose said standing up. "We will call you when we are ready." She said squeezing Bella's hand. Bella gave her a smile that didn't reach her eyes and watched as they left. Tears trailed down her cheeks and she painfully made her way to her room. Her heart hurt. Jasper dead...She wanted to sink into the darkness that she had known when Edward had left her in the woods.
The darkness was there calling her but the anger at the unfairness of it all burned too bright for her to embrace it. She would pay back the Cullens then she would welcome it.
Bella came out of her zombie state. She loved Charlie and she knew she wouldn't see him again once she left. She couldn't manage to act happy but she did spend every moment she could with him. She would catch him looking at her when he thought she wouldn't notice. He knew something was going on but he wasn't asking her about it.
Her phone rang and she picked it up slowly. She knew it was Rose.
"We have the place. I have arranged a ticket for you at SeaTac. You need to be there by 8:00 am tomorrow." Rose said in a very businesslike manner. Bella didn't say anything as Charlie was watching her.
"You can still back out Bella." Rose told her softly.
"Not going to happen." Bella gritted out. She knew she had been a weak mousey girl with Edward but that was then. She hung up the phone and looked at her father.
"Your leaving..." He said.
Bella felt tears swarm her vision but she nodded.
"Are you going to that boy?" Charlie spat out. He couldn't say Edward's name, he hated him almost as much as Bella did.
Bella snorted at that. "No I'm going to be with Jake." She told him truthfully, hoping he thought she was leaving for romantic reasons.
Charlie studied her, Bella held his gaze but felt her heart beating. Charlie had always had a way of getting the truth out of her. Just when she thought she would crack he spoke again.
"I believe you are going to be with Jake but I don't believe you are in love with him Bells. You seem so angry lately...what's going on?" Charlie asked.
For a moment Bella thought of telling him everything, but she soon squelched it. Confiding in him would weaken her resolve, so she just looked at him with tears in her eyes. "I love you dad." She whispered.
"I could help you Bells." Charlie pushed.
She was tempted. She knew Charlie was smart and though she didn't show it to Rose and Jacob she was scared that she would be unable to carry out any kind of fitting revenge. She didn't want to just kill them, she wanted them to suffer...She studied Charlie's face. No, she wasn't going to drag him into the darkness.
"Please don't try to find me." She pleaded.
Charlie made no promises. "When are you coming back?" He asked.
Bella turned her face from him. She heard him sigh behind her. "I love you too Bells." He said. She heard the door close behind her. Her shoulders shook with silent sobs.
"Bells!" Jacob greeted her enthusiastically. She let him hug her and even attempted to return the hug, but her heart wasn't in it. Saying goodbye to Charlie had been harder than she thought. She felt like everything good was running out of her life and the only thing left was the anger that festered in her and the pain that throbbed in her heart.
"Let's go." She said tightly.
Jacob picked up her bag his enthusiasm dampened. Jacob ushered her to his truck. She climbed in the cab without a word and leaned back against the seat as he started the engine. She closed her eyes pretending to sleep.
She wouldn't sleep though. She hadn't slept for a long time. Every time sleep overwhelmed her she dreamed of Jasper. His golden hair and eyes haunting her. Accusing her of his death, asking her how she could let it happen. She opened her eyes and turned to look out the window.
She studied the scenery they passed without real interest. They were in Montana. She really didn't care any place would do. She wanted to have Rose change her as soon as possible. She no longer wanted to be haunted by these dreams.
Thankfully Jake didn't try to talk to her and they drove in silence. They left civilization and traveled for another hour before arriving at a house surrounded by trees. The house wasn't overly large and Bella was a little surprised. She thought Rose would want something grand. She didn't dwell on it though as she made her way in the front door.
Rose greeted them in the hall. Her normally well kept appearance was disheveled. For a moment Bella felt compassion. It had to be hard on Rose to be away from Emmett for so long. Still she needed her...
"Have you gotten everything we talked about?" She asked.
"Yes, but Bella you don't look..." Rose started but Bella cut her off.
"It doesn't matter. As soon as we've drawn the blood you will change me." She said as she walked past her. Rose at one point had been a nurse and knew how to safely freeze blood. She wanted to store some...she had plans...
Jacob grabbed her arm and turned her towards him. "Look Bells, if you die you will be unable to carry out this revenge that Rose and I have uprooted our lives for. You need to eat a good meal and get some sleep before we begin." Jacob told her firmly.
Bella rubbed her forehead in frustration, the ever present headache throbbing behind her temples. He was right and she was being unfair to the two of them, both had given up a great deal to help her. "I can't sleep Jake, I keep seeing him..." She whispered.
"You need to suck it up Bella. I'll give you a sedative to help you sleep. Do you think the change is going to be a picnic?" Rose growled. God she loved Rose, she was so practical and strong, still there was no way she was taking a sedative.
Bella clenched her jaw and turned to Rose angrily. The words she was about to say died at the sight of her. Though she stood tall and her back was straight she looked hurt.. broken...it was in her eyes. She stared at her for a long time before finally nodding.
They had drawn and stored her blood. She ate and slept. She did everything they told her for three days, finally they deemed her fit enough for the change. She lay on the bed as Rose sat nervously beside her. Jacob was in wolf form by them. Bella wasn't nervous, she was looking forward to no more dreams...no more tears...
"Remember what we talked about. Anything you want to remember think of while you burn." Rose said quietly. Bella knew she was procrastinating but understood her fear and merely nodded.
"Are you ready Jake?" Rose asked. Bella heard him growl but didn't look.
"Are you sure Bella?" Rose whispered. Bella opened her eyes and stared into Roses.
Rose reached down and took Bella's hand and raised it to her lips. Bella had insisted she bite her, she wanted the scar. "Forgive me Bella." She said before biting. She felt a moment of pain and then she felt Rose pushing her venom in her. The feeling was different from what had happened with James.
Rose dropped her hand and reached for the other one. She bit again and Bella began to feel the burn. She closed her eyes and began to recall what she wanted to remember. Images of Jasper...His golden smile...his warm eyes...the way his eyebrows drew together in concern for her. The struggle on his face as she bled in front of him.
She forced herself to remember Edward. Everything he had said and done with her and to her. Carlisle and Esme...Alice. 'Don't worry Alice I will make them pay for killing him.' Bella thought.
She thought of Alice while she burned. Her thoughts were scattered and interrupted often. She would get used to the burn, enough to think semi rationally and then it would intensify. In those moments she thought of Alice. Why hadn't she called her? Surely she was hurting too. Her gift would be useful in gaining revenge.
'No' She wasn't going to involve Alice. When Edward, Carlisle and Esme were taken care of she might tell her but something in her didn't want to talk or be around Alice. The same feeling that made her burn when she saw her kiss Jasper. It was jealousy...she knew that and would admit it now that it didn't matter.
The last memories she held were of Charlie...then the burn became too intense for her to think clearly anymore and she concentrated on not screaming her pain.
Bella woke to find two very worried faces looking at her. She sat up faster than she knew she was able. Jacob was startled and jumped back, Rose however stood very still.
"Do you remember?" She asked quietly.
"I remember everything." Bella said in a voice that sounded dead to her. It was husky and beautiful but...dead. She made an effort to slow her movements and stand.
"Did you have problems?" She asked Rose.
Rose looked down. "Yes but Jake bit me..." She said holding her arm.
Jacob chuckled, Bella ignored him and instead concentrated on Rose. "Thank you...We are venom sisters now." She said. She didn't know if it was wise to form an attachment with Rose considering her plans but her need to comfort Rose outweighed her common sense.
"Let's hunt. The sooner we change my eye color and I learn control the sooner we can start." Bella said walking to the door.
Six months...six months too long. Bella's eyes were now a golden color. There were hints of red if you looked real close but she would be able to fool humans. Her control was excellent. She had been into town a number of times and while she felt the burn her need for revenge was stronger and she easily controlled the blood lust.
She had learned to control her shield, while she wasn't certain she had succeeded, she had concentrated on being able to block Alice. She wasn't positive that Alice would warn the rest of the Cullens of her intentions, she didn't want to take any chances though. She didn't want her to see her plans.
Jake sat on the couch holding Rose. Rose sobbed into his shoulder. The time had been hard on her. She went through the motions of living but you could see that being apart from Emmett was taking a toll on her. Jake often comforted her. There was nothing romantic in it. Rose in spite of her separation from Emmett was loyal. It was one of the things she admired about her.
Bella didn't have it in her to comfort her. She had become cold and focused. So Jake had taken on the role. He tried to comfort Bella too but Bella didn't accept it. She needed to be hard.
"Did you find him?" Bella asked. Rose had called Emmett to find Edward's location. Jake glared at her but Bella ignored him. The truth was in spite of her best efforts not to she did feel a sisterly bond with Rose. She genuinely liked her, no matter how much she tried to close the caring part of her off. She loved Rose and Jake. She needed them and would use them for her revenge but when this was over she would ensure they were happy before she slipped into the darkness.
"He's in Argentina. Emmett says he has a human girlfriend..." Rose said, she watched Bella's face as she told her that. Bella returned her gaze. She was not jealous, she didn't even feel sorry for the girl. Her mind went over ways to use this. She seriously doubted Edward loved the girl.
"Get ready we are going to Argentina." Bella said. "Also Rose it is time to contact Carlisle and Esme. Don't tell them about me but start up your relationship with them. I want them to come to Argentina when the time is right." She finished and left the room.
The blonde vampire stared at the white all around him. How long had he been lost in this white. He remembered nothing, not who he was or how he got here. Every time he closed his eyes he saw a beautiful brunette lying in a pool of blood. Her eyes pleaded with him...He killed her, he knew that and that hurt him. He wanted to die but no matter how long he sat in that barren white he still lived.
Blood ran down his chin. He didn't bother to wipe it. He had given in again and the dead animal in front of him seemed to taunt him. He was weak. He tried to starve himself into blissful death but the thirst always got the better of him and he would hunt.
He sat back and closed his eyes. Again he saw her face, her hair splayed out around her in a beautiful mahogany display. It was bittersweet. He longed to see her but dreaded the sight of her blood. He laughed bitterly but didn't open his eyes.
Author's Note: I'm sorry for the delay. I was finishing up my other story and then my stupid internet was down for most of the day...grrrr. This story will center on Bella and her revenge. I love Jasper so I will throw in bits of him but most of this will be Bella. I also wanted to ask if I needed to change my summary? I suck at summaries lol