Bright World
Chapter 2: Second Session
Zexion awoke with a smile on his face. Today he'd be seeing Lexeaus again. The very thought almost made himself want to love the world, but he knew better. The world was a merciless demon that would kill the weak and let horrible people do bad things to good people. Zexion would know.
He wasn't supposed to be this happy to see his therapist. He had to make sure not to get attached. That would be bad for his heart. Besides, the only reason Lexeaus was acting this nice was probably just to get a raise. That had to be it, no one could be so nice to someone as worthless as himself. It was impossible, but in his heart he knew Lexeaus wasn't that way. But he had to make it seem that way or else he'll just end up getting hurt again.
He made his way to the front office to ask Aerith if the set room was in order yet. He walked up to the front desk and greeted Aerith. "Hello." He said. "Hello, how are you doing?" She asked with yet another angelic smile. "Good, thank you for asking." He said with a mature voice. "Has the room for my sessions been decided yet?" He asked. Aerith nodded and handed him the form with the schedule and room number. "Here you go, it's in room number…1338." She said.
"Thank you." He gave her as few words as he could manage. He wanted to save all his talking for his sessions.
When he finally got to the hall in the 1330 hundreds he immediately started the hunt for his specific room. After a few minutes he finally found the room and stood in front of it. Zexion didn't know if he should knock or just waltz in. He motioned to knock the door but stopped himself in confusion. "Come in." Lexeaus called out. Zexion nearly jumped out of skin when he heard that voice. "O-Okay."
He entered the room swiftly and looked over to Lexeaus who was already seated at his desk. A large chair was in the middle of the room. It was the chair every therapist had, the one for interrogation.
"Good morning." Lexeaus greeted. "G-Good morning…" Zexion replied.
Lexeaus gestured for him to sit at the giant chair. He walked over to it hesitantly and sat down with his knees to his face. Lexeaus arched a brow but shook his head as he tried to stay focused. "How have you been since the last time we met?" He asked politely. "Fine…How about you?" Zexion replied. "Can't complain…" This was way beyond awkward.
"You could have just come in." Lexeaus said. Zexion couldn't hide his blush this time since Lexeaus was looking right at him. "How did you know I was there?" he asked. "I saw you're shadow underneath the threshold." He replied.
"I see…" Zexion replied.
Lexeaus reached over to the corner of his desk and grabbed a small bag. "Here." He tossed it to Zexion who barely caught it without almost falling out of his seat. "Thank you." He replied. "You don't even know what it is and you're thanking me. How unique." Lexeaus sure seemed to like using that word to refer to him.
Zexion opened the bag curiously and peeked inside. A Blueberry muffin was sitting inside, with a small napkin wrapped around the bottom. "A muffin?" He said morbidly.
"You said you liked them didn't you, that's what you said last session. If you don't like it I can," Zexion interrupted him. "No, it's not what you're thinking. It's just…This is the first present I've ever gotten." He said with a sad gloom in his eyes.
Lexeaus didn't know what to do. This was the first present that Zexion had ever received? That was absurd, how could anyone get there first present when their 16. That was his first gift and all he got him was a damn muffin. He should have bought him a car or something, now he felt like crap.
He looked over to the teen and was shocked at what he saw. Zexion was crying with a smile on his face. It looked like he was in pain and happiness at the same time. "Zexion, what's wrong? Did I do something wrong?" He asked worriedly.
Zexion shook his head. "You did the opposite. I'm so…happy. Thank you, thank you so much…' He sobbed, as he wiped the tears from his eyes. Lexeaus wanted to hug the teen so badly, but he didn't know if he should or not. "You're welcome." Was all he could produce. He wanted to shower the teen in presents and just downright spoil him silly.
He glanced over at the still crying teen and grimaced. He didn't like seeing him cry. "Lexeaus…Can I hug you? It's okay if you say no and that I'm being strange," It was Lexeaus's turn to interrupt him.
"Of course you can." He said as he opened his arms wide open. Zexion went over to him and wrapped his arms around him. Lexeaus wrapped his arms around the smaller form and hugged him. "This is also my first time being hugged…" Zexion sobbed. Lexeaus had lost all restraint now and was holding the teen tightly to his chest. "Zexion, I want you to promise me something." He said.
"What is it?" He said in between sobs. "Promise me that by the end of this session I'll know everything you've never done." Zexion gave him a weird look. "Why do you want to know that?"
"Because I want to help you experience those things you've never done." Zexion shook his head.
"No, you don't have to do these things because of me. W… What I feel doesn't matter. In fact you don't have to hug me anymore. I'm sorry, please let go."
The arms around his waist didn't let go, in fact they held him tighter. "I don't have to do these things, you're right. But I want to, I want to help you. You're feelings do matter. Look at me." Zexion was looking down out of shame and embarrassment. "Look at me." He ordered in a stern voice. Zexion looked up into the hazel eyes that looked back at him. Tears continued to fall from his eyes.
"You matter. I want to help you. Please let me help you…" Zexion's lip trembled as new tears poured out of his violet eyes.
"Thank you…"