Let me Protect you.. (Chapter Two)

AUTHORS NOTE: Okay so in the ending there's a scene where Kendall and Doll dance, if you have no clue what dance i'm talking about here : .com/watch?v=ThT1HjoptIc , It's a REALLY good dance, pretty common too! :) Enjoy!

"I have... I have an ED Kendall." I swallowed the lump that was rising in my throat. I didn't realize how hard it was to say this. It sounded so easy in my mind.

"What the hell are you talking about? What is an ED Doll?" Kendall snapped, but with his sad green eyes it just made me feel like scum.

"I don't know how to tell you this!" I yelled standing up now, "I don't eat..."

"Like an eating disorder?" He asked, his voice cracked.

"Not really though, I mean I don't know..." I whispered, ashamed. But then again, I felt like I weighed too much to even be considered to have and eating disorder.

"What do you mean you don't know Dahlia?" Fuck he used my full name, he never uses my full name... "D-do you think that you're.. that you're not skinny?" he asked me as if he was disgusted.

"I mean... I don't know." I lied. I knew the truth. Of course I didn't think I was skinny. It's like a desease almost, like you just look in the mirror and you're automatically disgusted with what you see. I knew I was skinner than most girls but it wasn't like i was sickly skinny. And I also knew that if I kept up with my eating habits I could be sickly skinny. But if I were being honest, I don't care.

"I can't believe you." He stated. He didn't yell, or scream. He just simply said it. I felt bad for him, I know he cares about me, probably more than I do myself.

"I'm sorry Kendall... I told you that you wouldn't understand." I mumbled, I didn't want him to hear it, I just need to say it. I sat on his bed once again and just buried my face with my hands.

He paced around his room angrily. He didn't say anything he just walked back and forth. I could tell he was deep in thought, so I didn't dare say anything. But the next thing he did suprised me tremendously. He walked over to me and just hugged me. He just simply took me in his arms and embraced me. It was nice though, it was the kind that lingered and made you feel light headed from all the emotion put into it.

"I love you, you know that?" He asked me, I nodded.

"Then why are you being so hard headed?" He asked me with a blank expression. I could no longer read his face. All I could see was him waiting for me to answer him. The problem was, I didn't have an answer.

"I-I-I don't know what to say Kenny, I just, I'm sorry.." I sounded so weak, so lost, pretty parenthetic in my ears.

"Will you stay with me tonight?" He asked, it was almost in a rushed kind of stern way.

"Yeah." The easiest question I had to answer all night. Kendall and I have had plenty of sleepovers so this is nothing out of the ordinary. Nothing really was for me and Kendall.

He walked over to where I was sitting on the bed grabbing my hands and pulling me into another hug. He held me there this time. And it wasn't one of those awkward whose-gonna-let-go-first kind of hug, it was just a caring-protective hug. He kissed my temple, making me shiver.

"I'm gonna take a shower, just go lay down, I'll be 10 minutes." He smiled with his tired green eyes that were usually bright, but now they seemed worn down and dim. It make my stomach twist knowing the pain I caused him.

"Okay." I didn't wanna hold a conversation, because honestly I was too worn down too. So I did as I was told and walked over to his bed. I removed my clothes and put on one of Kendalls large t-shirts. I laid down in his bed and closed my eyes, I wasn't near sleep though. My head was pounding so hard I wouldn't be suprised if I opened my eye's and saw someone hitting me with a hammer to the head. The fact that my stomach was aching didn't help either. I felt my eyes get heavy, and all my thoughts disappear, I was out.

However, about half an hour later I woke up to water dripping on me. Opening my eyes I saw Kendall reaching over me to grab something. He had boxers on but he was still soaking.

"Kendall, you're getting water all over me.." I croaked laughing a little, he was too adorable to be frustrated with.

"Oh sorry! I was trying to be quiet but I guess I should've dried off more." He smiled back at me.

He laid down beside me slowly grabbing my waist and pulling me closer to him. Turning around I cuddled into his chest as if i were a puzzle piece that fit perfectly.

"Goodnight Doll.." He whispered hugging me closer to him. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep once again.

Since it was a Friday, I slept in. Kendall was up before I was and was already downstairs. I already knew his mom was a work leaving me and Kendall to the house alone.

"Good morning sleeping beauty! I make pancakes!" He smiled energetically.

"Actually, coffee is good enough." I tried to be casual hoping he wouldn't bring up my eating habits.

"Doll..." He said sternly never leaving my eyes.

"What? I'm just not hungry yet." I said shrugging

"And I don't care. You're not gonna get away with this bullshit with me." He said making a plate and putting it in front of me.

I tried my best not to groan really loud. I looked at the plate in front of me. So unhealthy. Had to be at least 500 calories. Ugh. It looked so good though. I haven't sat down and had an actual meal in God knows when. I picked up my fork and took a tiny bite. Kendall never stopped looking at me.

"Will you stop watching me eat? You're making everything awkward and creepy." I laughed taking another bite.

"Okay. Fair enough, I already ate so I guess I'm done here." he smiled attempting to walk off. I quickly stood up blocking his path.

"Hah! Yeah uh no, you are not leaving that huge mess for your poor mom to clean up. Turn your butt around and clean." I smiled

"Gosh who are you? You're starting to sound like my mom. It's creepy, please stop." He joked turning around heading back for the kitchen.

"Just wipe everything down, I'll do the dishes." I said hopping up from the table when I got finished. 30 minutes and nothing was cleaned but one measuring cup.

"THANK YOU!" he quickly turned around reaching for a rag.

After he quickly wiped down the mess he made he bolted before I could even attempt to ask for help. Kendall has always been that way though, just a sloppy kid. Gotta love him though. He may be unorganized but he has a large enough heart for you not to care.

The rest of the day we just sorta hung out, something we haven't done in a while. The best part was just sitting on his bed with him and telling him everything. Everything I've been keeping inside from the world, and he just listened. The feeling of letting everything off my chest was like a tingling sensation and feeling lighter, literally. It felt good to not have all of the burden weighing down on me.

"You know, we haven't done this in forever." Kendall said after we got done talking, which was hours.

"I know, I'm glad we did, it felt good." I laughed at how cliche it sounded, but he nodded understanding.

"When we were younger I had the world's biggest crush on you." He said

"HAH! What? I was so... unattractive... I mean like.. ew." I laughed again

"Hahahaha no I mean, I don't know. I've always thought you were pretty, and I loved how easy it was to accept you into me and the guys "circle"" He smiled

"I know, it was kind of weird for me too though. Like before I met you guys I never really ever talked to guys. Not as friends or anything, but I guess it makes sense because I was like, what? five maybe? " I laughed, he nodded.

"Dude it's like midnight and we've been inside ALL DAY. Let's go do something!" He jumped up pulling me with him.

"Where are we gonna go? It's 12:50 AM!" I giggled as he pulled me out of him room.

"Let's go clubbing!" He ran outside, me following him.

"No drinking though, meaning NO fake id." I warned him

"Okay, we can just dance then." He smiled letting go of my arm and jumping in his car. I shook my head holding back the laughter. He's crazy.

"This is crazy Kendall! I haven't line danced in forever!" I yelled over the music.

Of course Kendall dragged me to a country line dancing club. When I turned 18 this is where I first learned to line dance, it was over a year ago but secretly I never forgot. He just smiled at me pulling me into the crowd. Ironically "Fake I.D." was playing, thank God Kendall listened to me. (Dance I was referring at the top: .com/watch?v=ThT1HjoptIc WATCH!)

"You're a great dancer! Come on!" He yelled pulling me into the crowd.

We danced like crazy, and we didn't forget a thing about the dance. We haven't been to a country line dancing club since I was 18. I guess we just forgot how much fun it was. Kendall was right, I am a great dancer, I've taken ballet wince I was 5. But Kendall, he was natural, he just knew how to dance. The guys made fun of him for it, but I've always thought it was sexy, in a non-weird best friend way I guess you could say.

It was always fun to dance with Kendall. He was just the type of person to have fun and not give a shit. He pulled me further into the crowd when a slow song came on. He put his hands gently around my waist and of course I wrapped my arms around his neck. We just swayed back and forth not saying anything.

It just kind of happened I guess you could say. It was an in the moment kind of thing when he leaned down and kissed me. He lips worked with mine perfectly as I gripped his blonde hair softly. I felt light headed when he pulled back, probably because I forgot to breathe. Something about the kiss felt right though, I just couldn't place my finger on it. Things between us didn't get awkward after either. I just smiled at him as we kept swaying to the music.

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