Suzume's Note: Guys….Guys. I've just been gone for soooo long, and I'm sooooooo sorry! Life, school and stress decided to take the wheel and my inspiration for 'Because I wanted to See you' got thrown right in the back seat! But I swear, I'm not going to let that happen again! Thanks to a wonderful author (and my new twin!) by the name of oildrumhall, I have gotten back on the course of my main fanfiction and will be updating much more frequently! Go check oildrumhall's 'Closure' though, it's INCREDIBLY well written and one of the best Rizaya fanfictions I have ever seen. Seriously, I became such a devoted fan that I resorted to stalking this poor author on his tumblr! (Though actually, that act touched his heart and made us become the friends we are now!) So please go check it out! The updates will be slow, but I SWEAR you will not be disappointed!

ANYWAY, things actually changed regarding my planning of this story during my long LOOOOONG leave of absence. I will list them right now and probably go back to the first chapter later on and edit my author's note:

-This is still an Izaya and Rio fanfiction, make no mistake of that. The story will be planned out with 10 chapters (including a prologue and epilogue) and there WILL be a more active sequel in the works, with multiple characters and multiple pairings in that. As far as my brain is concerned, this is the first in a trilogy.

-The story will be renamed when I get the chance, or at least shortened. That title was written when I had no idea what to name it…and it kind of never stuck with me. I'll figure something out when I'm more creative.

-THE PAIRINGS IN THIS STORY, AS WELL AS THE PLOT HAVE SHORTENED SIGNIFICANTLY. Because I decided that this will be a trilogy instead of everything I have as a headcanon in one go, this story will mainly feature Rizaya. I will probably just include pairings that are already canon in the series, and maybe one other that I favor. But yeah, this first story will be just to introduce the Rizaya "relationship" and establish it for later.

…Okay. Okay. I'm done. There's so much more I can say, but this author's note already long enough! However, I am DETERMINED to finish this. Make no exception of that!

Now….I did promise you a chapter, didn't I?

Chapter One: Prophecies of a Smiling Liar

She didn't know how long she screamed.

"Is that girl alright!? Miss, does your friend need medical attention!?"

"I-I…I don't know…R-Rio-chan? Rio-chan, what's wrong?"

All she could hear was her friend's voice, calling her name in an alarmed fashion. Softer and inaudible voices accompanied her, but she could not make them out. She assumed they were just passerbys who heard the commotion. But still, she continued to scream, hysterical sobs decreased to soft whimpers by the pressure of fabric against her nose and mouth. It was getting harder to breathe…but she did not care.

Rio continued to cry and cling to her friend, her face buried in the other's school blazer. Her hands shook rapidly, fingers delving deep into the other girl's leg and her nails digging into her skirt. She couldn't control it, she couldn't hold back the tears, the flash of memories crashing into her brain…

The text messages….

The trap….

His hand on hers, the only life-line…as she stared death right in the face.

And her foolish choice to provoke him, prove him wrong…

Falling…

Falling….

"Want me to let go….?"

"NO! NO NO NO DON'T LET GO, DON'T LET GO! I DON'T WANT TO DIE! I DON'T WANT TO DIE!" her screams of desperation escalated, her arms releasing her companion's skirt only to wrap around her torso, squeezing her sides hard as if she was hanging on for dear life. She couldn't let go…she wouldn't let go.

Nozomi "Non" Kobayashi could only stare in disbelief, her only physical reaction being to run her fingers slowly through her terrified friend's hair, her other hand gently rubbing up and down her trembling back as they sat together in the Takashimaya Timesquare Mall . Concerned citizens rushed over to assist the two of them, most of them probably thinking that the other was physically harmed in some manner. One person had apparently called the police, as a cop was soon towering over them, a strict yet worried expression in his tired, middle aged eyes.

"Miss, there was a report of commotion on this floor of Takashimaya Mall, outside of an Angelic Pretty clothing store. Is your friend alright?" he asked in an authoritative tone, though kept it soft as not to scare the other brunette. Non could only glance down and shake her head, slowly and softly, as if she was trying to comprehend what was happening.

"She was fine…I just wanted to show her this store I heard about, and we took the elevator. She was quiet…but then again, she always is quiet…then…then she just started screaming. She was pressed up against the glass railing…and…and she was screaming. I tried to get her to calm down but it only made her scream louder. I don't understand…." The high school student mumbled as the policeman knelt down, pressing the palm of his hand on Rio's shoulder. The pigtailed teen's maple eyes were dull, emotionless...tears still streaming down her swollen cheeks.

"All she did was look over the railing…"

~Magenta's Dream Blog~

Date: April 13th, 2011: Monday(1)

Status: Gloomy ):

Eating: A bowl of apple slices

Drinking: Lemonade

Title: Embarassment

I had another meltdown.

It was in the middle of the mall too, it was just so humiliating! Poor Non-chan, she was so worried...but she was probably really self conscious too. I made such a huge scene...I don't think I let go of her for nearly an hour. A policeman (though a very nice person, I think he's friends with my mother) was called and he took me and her to the mall station for questioning...and to see if I was wounded in some way. I can't tell you how many times I had to apologize, even when both he and Non-chan told me I shouldn't.

I felt so stupid...It was only the fourth floor. But...just seeing how high it was...the people were so small...like they were ants. Then my mind went to "what would happen if I fell from this height?"...all these emotions then came rushing at me...and I just started to scream.

I hate this, I hate this so much...and I just know I'm going to have nightmares tonight. My parents are really worried about me, they think I should go see a psychiatrist. But...isn't that only where crazy people go? But I'm not crazy! ...Right?

Maybe I should just distract myself with homework...haha, can't believe I'm actually saying that.

You have 5 comments on this blog entry

Pure Water 100% says: MAGENTA...I'm the one who also suggested you needed to see a shrink! =.= This is getting so out of hand and you know it! I don't like seeing you get freaked out over heights. You were never scared before until last year! What actually happened!? (Also, wanna go to this noodle shop with me after school tomorrow? I'm trying to avoid these two girls from my class-they keep looking at me and I feel like they're planning something. SAVE ME!)

You replied with: I know, I know you have...but if I go, I would feel like I'm completely nuts or something like that. And you know I cannot tell you that, you would probably get mad at me. (Haha, sure. :) I don't think I have cram school tomorrow, so I would love to go with you. I'll see if Non-chan wants to come along. )

Setton Says: Oh no, I'm so sorry that happened to you Magenta! It must have been really frightening for you, regarding your fear of heights. I think your parents and Pure Water is right, you should at least find someone to confide in and talk about your personal fears. You always have us! :) (Though I think you mentioned in an earlier blog that you have..."issues" regarding people on the internet. I hope you know we don't bite by now, haha!) After all, we are part of the same group.

You replied with: Setton, you're always so sweet to me. :) Sometimes I think I have a secret big brother/sister! I've definitely learned to trust you, it's just other people I've just met that I become very wary over. I went through a very bad experience regarding an online friend once...I'm trying not to make those mistakes again. And yes, we are part of the same group. And you guys have all proven that you're not like that friend.

Setton replied with: Oh stop, I just dislike seeing you upset. :) And good! Haha, it's always wonderful to know that I'm trusted. Myself and the others will always have your back.

Kyou Says: Hang in there Magenta! We all have our crazy phobias, heights is pretty common! You're not crazy. :) If that's crazy, then I should have been brought to the nut house by now!

You replied with: Haha, oh gosh. I'm starting to wonder what phobias you have, Kyou-san. Thank you though, I'm glad you don't think I'm crazy. :)

Kuroneko Says: Hang in there, Magenta-chan~ *BIG HUGS* I'm sure your friend was just really worried about you, as we all are~! Gosh, that must have been SOOOOOO scary~ Have you always been afraid of heights?

You replied with: Aw, Kuro...*hugs back* I'm alright now, don't worry. :) Non-chan was worried, but she's not exactly the biggest fan of 'drama', if that makes any sense. She gets really flustered and nervous, and I don't like causing that much stress. As for heights...no, not until last year. I actually had a habit of hanging out on my school roof during lunch hours in middle school and junior high. I hung out with my best friend during middle school, but then she stopped coming to school by Junior High. So I just sat by myself.

Kuroneko replied with: Oh no! D: Whatever happened, I sure hope you'll be okay soon. And I know how Non-chan feels, I hate being involved in something huge! A But if it means comforting a friend, then I would definitely be all over it! I'm sure Non-chan thinks the same way. And you were all by yourself? Weren't you lonely? (Sorry if I'm pushing you, I know you hate talking about personal stuff~~~)

You replied with: :) No No, I'm okay with talking about this. I usually spent lunch talking to people in a chatroom using my cellphone, or emailing the friend I mentioned. It wasn't like I lost a friend, I just don't think she had the willpower to come to school anymore. We do talk every once in awhile, and she checks my blog. :) Look for someone under the name "S" in other diary entries. That's how she identifies herself.

Crimson Says: Poor Lady Magenta, you don't deserve going through that. If I may ask though, in the comments...you mentioned that "falling out with an online friend" incident again. Would they have to do with your fear of heights? I apologize, I must sound so rash. You do not need to answer this if you do not wish to.

You replied with: :) I told you to stop calling me 'Lady Magenta', you make it sound like I'm royalty. But don't apologize, you're curious. To answer your question...yes, they have something to do with my fear of heights. But, like I told Pure Water, it's something I choose not to discuss. But, yes, they have something to do with it, as well as my mistrust of talking to people online.

Crimson: I understand, my dear. But I'm glad myself, along with the chosen few in this entry, have earned your trust (though I have to guess that you and Pure Water know each other in real life). Whoever this person was, they are a monster for what they had done to you. And like I have told you before, regarding my pet name...I consider you a beautiful princess who deserves the name 'Lady Magenta'.

Rio couldn't help but feel a dusty pink blush go over her cheeks, reading over Crimson's eloquent and flattering response. The brunette quickly shook her head and tried to dismiss the blooming thoughts beginning to circle through her head. 'No, stop it...that was what got you in this mess in the first place...'

How long had it really been...? A good year and a half, by now...yes, the date was so very clear to her. After all...

She still had those emails...and the text messages...

Rio meant to delete them, she really did. After all, the only thing they now brought were bittersweet memories to the surface once again. She would find herself smiling reading those responses, reading 'his' words...to feel another stab to her brain, her heart after another few seconds. And then...that last message he sent her. Despite having just tricked her not too long before...he actually responded to her email.

Then why did you come...?

And she had responded, to the shock of her conscience. She actually responded to him, no hate, no anger...just the simple truth. Rio was not expecting a long response, much less a response at all. In fact, much like Nakura had predicted every one of her movements, she predicted that he would not answer her reasons behind deciding to see him. Did she shock him, she wondered...

Was he surprised that she had already confessed to not wanting to kill herself? That all she wanted to do was just see him, speak to him...

...No...No...she wasn't going to think about this again. All it did was bring her pain. Besides, it only made her think that this was what HE wanted her to do. Think about him constantly, try to prove him wrong...she made that stupid mistake before, she was not going to let herself fall for it again.

If anything, Rio wanted to better herself. Learn from this experience...and she had. In only a short year and a half, Rio Kamichika was the vice president of the Raira Culture Club, and even joined the Dancing Team. She received average grades in school and it made her parents proud to have her as a daughter, which only increased the young girl's confidence in herself all the better.

She began to make friends outside of her comfort circle, soon becoming close with Non-chan, someone she had thought didn't like her very much. Soon enough, she had joined Non's group and was usually, if not at school or home, hanging around with them. Rio remembered she had become acquaintances with this Masaomi kid, but he didn't show up this year. Even his two friends, Mikado Ryugamine and Anri Sonohara (two students from another class last year who she always saw around him) didn't know where he was. Recently, Mikado and Anri had joined her 2nd year class, and she had become acquaintances with them as well.

There was also Mika Harima and her boyfriend Seji, but she never talked to them much. It was usually Mika who would talk to her first, as they were both lab partners in a Science class.

So many interesting individuals in one classroom, the fun she was now having and the self esteem that would increase day by day. It was just like that mysterious figure, the "Black Rider" had told her that night...

"The world isn't as bad as you think..."

She never got to thank them...if it weren't for they being there at that exact time...she wouldn't be here, she wouldn't be able to learn from her mistakes. Rio hoped that one day, if only for a minute, that she could at least thank them.

Rio sighed and glanced up at her brand new laptop again, her fingers grazing over the keys. She felt as if she needed to respond to Crimson, he was being very nice to her...but it was getting late, and she did need to study for that Biology Exam in the morning-

"I'm ruined if I don't figure something out soon..."

...

Dad?

The brunette glanced towards her bedroom door, the muffled voices of her parents coming from downstairs. What was going on...? She never heard her father sound so worried, so stressed in a sentence before. In fact, Rio had never heard her parents even SOUND concerned about a situation, such as what happened last year.

Slowly and carefully, the teenager rose from her computer chair and tip toed towards the door, placing her hand on the knob. Should she do it...? Everyone had their own little secrets, Rio knew that now. Even she had things she wouldn't tell her best friend, let alone her parents. ...But what if this was serious? What if there was a way she could help them out, despite being very young and immature?

Rio opened the door, making as little noise as she possible could...and listened in.

Dear GOD this got long...alright, this chapter will be continued in a 'part two' section tomorrow. So, consider this Chapter One-A.

Chapter One-B will be here tomorrow, most definitely.

Hope you enjoyed it! Please read and review, but no flames! Have a good evening!