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It feels like I've been standing here for hours staring at my reflection through the mirror. But in reality it's probably only been fifteen to twenty minutes. Trying to calm down my senses was harder and becoming more of an effort than I had anticipated.

I can hear and feel my heart rate beating faster and faster, the thumping noise ringing in my ears. My hands begin to shake.

My emotions and fears becomes harder and harder to contain. This is not how I'd picture my first day working at Volturi Pharmaceuticals. An anxiety attack right now cannot be an option. I knew that I have been nervous and had my reservations about this, but it has finally hit me of how scared I am. It's too late to back out of the plan now.

Regardless of what will happen I will ride this through right to the end. Nothing else matters.

While trying to lock up my fears at the back of my mind, slowly I can feel my determination starting to take hold. I close my eyes, taking deep slow breaths; my hands are fist together now – willing my heart rate to decrease.

Come on Bella you can do this. You have to do this.

Again and again I chant this phase into my head, trying to psych myself up. I now can physically and emotionally feel myself calm down. My heart tempo slows down along with my breathing.

My eyes flutter open, a few more deep breaths - inhale, exhale. I'm good to go now.

I grabbed my coat and my bag which are laying on the edge of my bed and headed out the door. Volturi is going to pay for what they did. Nothing is going to stop me expose the truth and bring them down.

Xoxoxoxoxo

"Tell me you're kidding Emmett"

"Come on Edward, all I'm saying is think about it." Emmett quickly interjected.

Edward slouches further down on his chair, stares intently at Emmett and shakes his head. "This is my job here – I can't mix it with yours."

"All I want you to do is be my eyes and ears – let me know of any odd or strange transactions, interactions or behavior. Your involvement will be nothing more."

"All this is from a hunch you've got. It's not even an official case you're working on….your boss will be on your back so fast…."

"Look Edward," Emmett cuts in with a louder tone, "I don't need a lecture from you. It's more than a hunch, a work colleague and a good friend of ours was murdered and I'm certain it is somehow linked with the Volturi Pharmaceuticals case he previously worked on."

"But the reports officially ruled it as an accidental death."

"I don't give a fuck about those reports. They're a set up too." Emmett is now up from his chair and pacing the room.

With his hands rubbing his forehead, in a softer and exasperated tone, "I don't need you to tell me what's fact and what's fiction; I will find the truth with or without your help."

I can feel waves of tension radiating from Emmett from across the room. Trying to reason with my brother, "I just think you're chasing a lost cause here, don't jeopardize your job over it – you've worked hard to get where you are, I just don't want to see you lose it all." With a few deep breaths I continued "but I will think about it."

Hoping that last sentence will somewhat relax Emmett.

I can physically see the frown on my brother's forehead disappear; his body language seems to be more relaxed as he returns to his chair. Glad that I have in some way subdued Emmett for the time being, I made a mental note to talk to Alice and try to get her to help reason with Emmett before he does anything stupid. I just hope that Alice can knock some sense into Emmett.

Emmett is a great lawyer, but sometimes his emotions rules over his head and it has previously landed him in sticky situations. Alice maybe a pixie little thing, but when she is determined or angry about something, Emmett and I mostly crumble around her and let her have her way. We would always have a soft spot for our baby sister.

Sensing that Emmett is now much more relaxed, I needed to think of ways to change the subject. Before I was about to process what I was thinking it was out of my mouth, and as soon as I heard myself I regretted it. "Let's blow off some steam tonight, I'll call Jasper, we'll meet up at a pub, drown some alcohol – just unwind."

I can see a smile crept up on Emmett, his obvious dimples making me groan, his thought process so obvious on his face. I can read Emmett like a book.

I throw up my hands, "Before you say anything, I don't want you or Jasper setting me up with anyone, I don't need or want a relationship at the moment. I'm sick of the complication that comes along with it." I've been avoiding hanging out with my best friend Jasper and Emmett lately, tired of them trying to hook me up with every available female.

Emmett starts chuckling and this only starts to annoy and irritate me further.

"Come on Edward, it's been four months since you and Tanya broke up, which by the way when I say this – I speak for everyone, we are all happy about. That girl was not just only a complication as you put it, but a bitch as.…"

"Emmetttt" I said in a warning tone.

"Hey," Emmett puts his hands up in a surrender like gesture, "We all could tell you weren't happy in that relationship for a long time, what amazes me is that you were together for nearly two fucking years."

Emmett then leans forward until his eyes are leveled with mine and holding eye focus, then smirks, "She must be hot in bed to keep you going back for more, despite her personality flaws." The grin now, even wider on his face.

"I'm not going to discuss my sex life with you, you're worse than gossiping teenage girls."

Plus I didn't want to admit to him that he is right and that my relationship with Tanya was more of a convenient physical nature. I thought that maybe over time it will lead to love, the realization that there was no emotion involved and the fact that I've let it go on for so long ashamed me, especially with how it ended. The fact that the relationship ended badly was an understatement.

Emmett stares at me with a knowing expression, I don't need to explain to him – he knows what my relationship with Tanya was like, and he would always look out for me. He simply nods letting me know that he won't push it.

"Besides….." Emmett continued, "Who said anything about finding you a girlfriend, you don't need help in that department, I was just suggesting that you should just get laid man. Fuck bro, this shouldn't be hard as women are always throwing themselves at you."

I was about to protest but Emmett sensing my hesitation quickly interjected, "Come on Edward, it's been over four months since you had any action. With the amount of work load you are carrying, the stress and the sexual frustration," he pauses then waves his hands at me as if making a point. "It's bound to leave behind pent up negative energy, which by the way is hazardous for your health."

"You're a doctor; you know this, so just look at it as an outlet for your body to release those all-important endorphins, oxytocin, dopamine and those other chemical reactions or neurotransmitters shit, and all the while enjoying the ride along the way."

"Plus it would be nice to hang out with you without your sleep deprived, semi depressive, brooding, highly stressed out moods you are always in….sooo I see it as a win – win situation. Sex will make you sleep better, your stress level goes down, you're be happier not to mention the orgasm and we'll be able to enjoy hanging out with the old happier Edward."

I couldn't help but chuckle at Emmett's reasoning, trust him to turn some meaningless, random, one night stand sex escapade into a positive.

"I don't know whether to be impress by that speech of yours or horrified by it," my chuckle turns into laughter when Emmett gives me a satisfied mischievous smirk.

"You do know that lots of meaningless, unattached sex can actually lead to depression and or more stress."

Emmett rolls his eyes, and gives me that 'whatever' look.

"I wonder what your girlfriend Rosalie will think of your opinion in that matter."

The panic that instantly replaces Emmett smile has me laughing even louder.

"Joking, I'm joking man, but seriously let's just enjoy hanging out together, ok? No setups, just you, me, Jasper and alcohol."