A/N: This is only the second of many chapters I am replacing. It still follows the original diary entry but I have lengthened the entry and added outside text. I will be updating the next 10 chapters or so in the next few weeks so watch out for the changes.

Enjoy!

Dear Diary,

So I haven't just realized this but Dean as the biggest prick I've ever seen. Beating up Neville Longbottom? What good does that do to anyone? He tries to make me jealous by flirting with other girls. Hope he knows that I don't care about him anymore. I don't know if I ever really did…

Well Harry ignored me the whole train ride while Ron and Hermione were shouting at me to get a hold on my "education". Ron is telling ME to get better grades. The only reason that he has good marks is because Hermione helps him with EVERYTHING. I mean have you ever seen him do an assignment by himself at ALL? He's as dumb as a brick can get.

But I guess I do know why Harry doesn't talk to me… He was the one who had to save stupid old me from the Chamber in my first year. He probably thinks I still have a piece of Voldemort in me. I guess I do in some ways. My arms are the evidence to prove that.

Tom Riddle forced me to do it every night and collect the blood in a bucket, which I was to use to write the words on the wall. But when he was banished, I still did it. I could never stop and I still don't. Whenever my father would call me fat of hit me it was another slash to my wrists. Soon I just stopped feeling the pain of the knife and began enjoying it. The feeling of the steel knife on my lifeline made me feel powerful and every time I awoke, I thought about how I cheated death just one more time.

It made me feel brave. Like I could do anything. Soon I did it without any provocation. Hopefully this year at school will help me stop. I hope.

Ginny

Ginny closed her book and sat in the empty train compartment, silent and passive. Her thoughts zoomed through her head faster than she could keep up with them. Questions about the upcoming year, worries about who she was rooming with, and different mixed feelings rushed around her head, overwhelming her. She got up to take a walk around the train.

When she exited the compartment she took a left to avoid her brother's compartment and the rest of them. She had sat there for the first hour of the train ride but Ron's constant complaining and yelling drove her to find an empty compartment. Surprisingly, she found one a few booths down. There was a first year in it but she ignored her and wrote for a while and listened to her new iPod, the one that she bought while on vacation.

She was out, shopping, with the Trio and they were in a Muggle store called Comet when she saw the iPod. While the Trio were looking at an assortment of pillows, Ginny bought it at the front and purchased about 100 Euro in gift cards for it. When she got home, she downloaded over 1,000 songs onto it including almost every album of Paramore, Escape the Fates, She Wants Revenge, The Horrors, and many others.

Back on the train, Ginny slowly paced down the car she was in and hopped onto the next one where she strolled through the hallway until she came upon the restrooms. Once inside she looked in the mirror. Dull red hair; dull brown eyes, dull freckles, and dull pale skin. She was just… Dull. She took out her wand and touched it to the mirror.

"Preteritus," she spoke in her dull voice. Immediately after she said the words, the mirror rippled and the scene changed from her reflection to herself 5 years ago. Her hair was a deep red and looked as soft as it ever had. It was a beautiful color and when she focused on her old eyes, she became lost in them. Her eyes, normally a shit brown, looked as if they were amber and shining. They were breathtaking. Her skin glowed a nice shade of peach and her freckles accented it just right. Her hair flowed around her face and side bangs just lightly covered her right eye. Her nose was cute; it was pointed and small but made her look sophisticated and more grown up. Her cheekbones were in just the right spot and made her entire face life, making her look happy even when she wasn't.

The real Ginny became envious of her former self and swiped her wand at the mirror, which shattered then pieced itself back together again. Tear streamed down her face as she backed up into the wall behind her and slid herself onto the floor, sobs wracking her body. What had happened that she changed so much?

'It doesn't matter anymore… I have to move on…' She thought to herself. Taking a big breath to steady herself, she got up off the floor and exited the bathroom after checking her appearance. She pushed the door open with enough force to hit the person standing outside of it with enough force to knock them down.

"Ow!" Ginny stiffened.

"I'm so sorry!" She squealed. She rushed to help the person up and they accepted her help. "I didn't see you there! I'm so sorry! Are you okay?" She was blubbering.

"Why the hell would you open a door that fast?" He said. He raised his hand and Ginny flinched, waiting to receive her punishment. She shrunk back and shut her eyes, waiting for something that never came. She opened her eyes to see Draco Malfoy rubbing his head and looking at her with a confused expression.

"I- I'm- I didn't see you- I- Please don't… Sorry…" She stammered.

"It's… Okay Weasly," Draco said slowly, as if not to frighten her. "Just… Don't let it happen again…" His eyes had a spark of knowledge in them that Ginny noticed. She almost said something but turned and scurried away.

Draco watched the red head quickly walk away with questions running through his head. Did his eyes deceive him or were the marks on her arms real? He thought about it for some time after he went to the bathroom. His friends worried about him because of his quietness but dared not to interrupt his thoughts for fear of him lashing out.

As Ginny reached her compartment, she noticed another body in the room. However when she opened the door the black haired girl looked up at her and grinned. Her green eyes sparkled in the light of the compartment, making them seem happier.

"Raven!" Ginny squealed as they jumped up and embraced themselves. "It's so great to see you again! How has your summer been?" And with that the two girls reunited with each other the entire rest of the train ride to the school.