Author's notes: Here is part two. I hoped you liked the first part and will like part two as well. Enjoy reading ;D
Background: Six long years have passed since the important conversation Lili and Soo-won had concerning our lovely red-haired princess. Lili and Soo-won have become good friends. Lili became Soo-won's confidant whenever he wanted to talk about Yona. They talked a lot about her and about his feelings for the past few years. Now Soo-won feels he's ready. Ready to talk to Yona, ready to see her again.
Inquiring A King's Feeling - Oneshot Part 2/2
Six years later.
Soo-won was walking down the stairs of Hiryuu Castle, as he did he remembered his conversation with Lili two weeks ago.
"Soo-won, it's been six years already. Don't you think it's time you meet her ?"
"I was thinking the same thing." he replied looking straight in Lili's eyes.
"Really ?" she asked, hope in her voice.
"Yes. That's also why I asked you to come today."
Lili raised an eyebrow, curious to know what her friend needed from her.
"I want you to arrange a meeting with Yona. Can you do that for me, please ?"
She smiled. "I will. I'll go see Yona and talk to her. Do you have any idea for the meeting-place ?"
"There's an old house that belongs to the Royal Family somewhere between Suiko and Fuuga, deep in the woods and at the foot of a mountain. No guards, no one except members of the Royal Family and now you, know of the existence of that place. I want the meeting-place to be there. We will be able to talk without anyone to disturb us and without any threat of any kind to any of us."
Lili nodded. "I'll go find her then and Soo-won.."
"Yes ?"
"Don't make that face. You're twenty-four, Yona is twenty two. Years have passed, you've both matured so don't stress too much. It's going to be okay." she said determined to get rid of that insecurity that had made its way on Soo-won's face.
"Thanks Lili." he said grateful she was here to lift his spirits.
A week after their last talk, Lili had sent him a piece of paper she had rolled with a single sentence. 'She will meet you there- You'll be fine. Your friend, Lili.'
And today he would see her.
It had taken a few hours on horse-back at full speed to get to the mansion deep in the forest. Soo-won had prepared green tea, remembering it was Yona's favourite. He had set teacups on the table of stone in the garden, thinking summer's sun would be nice to feel on their skin. Besides, the conversation they would have would be dark enough, there was no need to have this conversation in a cold, dark room of the mansion.
An hour or so later, Soo-won heard the steps of a horse not far away.
She's here.
His hands became sweaty and cold. His heart was pounding in his chest.
Yona was perfectly at ease when riding her horse. She was coming from a small lane that stopped at the mansion's stairs. She looked left and right slowly, admiring the view. The sun was high in the sky and its rays went through the trees' branches covered in leaves of a beautiful green. There were a lot of trees and the warmth of the summer day was slightly absorbed by the thickness of the forest, it was a bit dark compared to the places where there were no trees. The birds were chirping and occasionally the sun met her skin. This place was really quiet and peaceful. Living in wild areas was really different than living in towns, and Yona loved the peace the wilderness provided. Right now her mind was at peace.
Soo-won's heart skipped a beat when he saw her on her horse, and the first thing he saw was how calm she seemed which made him relax a little.
Yona neared the stairs of the mansion and rode down of her horse. She took the bridle and tied it to a nearby tree, she gave him some water which he gratefully drank, then pet the horse on its head. "Good boy"
"Hello Yona" he greeted her, going down the stairs but stopping halfway.
"Hello Soo-won" she greeted back and walked towards him.
He looked at her, really looked at her. Her hair had grown long again, it was still the beautiful red tint he loved and it was as unruly as ever, not that Yona seemed to care about it anymore. She had grown too. She was a little taller, it wasn't much but it was still visible to those who would have known her. Her features had changed to those of a woman. Her chest had developped more. It wasn't that surprising, Yona was twenty-two, but to Soo-won who last saw her when she was seventeen, it was somewhat a shock. Yona had become a really beautiful woman. His eyes stopped a few seconds on her sword and bow and he couldn't help but feel slightly uncomfortable, thing which Yona noticed.
"I've prepared some green tea. Is drinking it outside fine with you ?"
"Yes, lead the way."
Soo-won nodded and led her to the table made of stone. He noted she stayed still and standing. "Um, Please, have a seat."
Yona sat on the bench made of stone that went around the table. She looked at Soo-won and immediatly he looked away. "I.. uh.. I'm going to get the teapot." She nodded and almost simultaneously he walked away.
He looks so nervous, it's the first time I see it.
...
"Here" he said after filling her cup with tea and handing it over.
"Thank you."
He repeated the same movements and filled his own cup.
"Lili said you wanted to talk to me."
"Y-yes." he stammered not expecting her to bring the topic so fast. But then again that's the reason he had 'invited' her here.
Yona noted the hand that held his teacup was slightly shaking, but more than anything she noticed how pale he was.
"I wanted to talk about... about what I did that night." Soo-won said finally looking at her.
She knew that already. Lili had told her he needed to see her. So she had guessed what he wanted to talk about. But even though she had prepared, she couldn't stop a flash of pain from crossing her eyes.
It didn't go unnoticed by Soo-won and he reprimanded himself for making her look like that. As pain made its way on her face, he felt a tight clench in the area of his heart and slightly lowered his head, making direct eye-contact with her sword.
Yona looked at him and saw he was looking at her sword, he seemed drawn to it.
"Don't worry, I'm not planning on hurting you."
His head shot up, realizing he was staring. "Eh ?"
"The sword and bow.. it was necessary for the ride. Roads aren't safe when you're a woman and when you travel alone." she explains.
Oh...
"I...uh...sorry.." he finally says.
"I don't mind, I understand your point."
An awkward silence appears and no one dares to speak.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Yona." he suddenly says and Yona knows why he's apologizing.
"I know..." she says, her voice not holding any kind of hatred or anger.
Yona saw he was blaming himself, and how much he regretted killing her father. His face was contorted in pain. It was not a physical pain, but it did as much damage to his soul.
"You were manipulated by Kye-Sook, you couldn't have known."
"Still, I should have known uncle would never kill father." he says as he remembers the times when he was happily playing, talking to Il. He had always been kind to him, even more after his father's death, and that's what hurt the most. He had killed a kind-hearted man, his uncle, an innocent.
The space around them fell in silence for a good minute. They could only hear the outside noises of nature. The sound of a summer breeze that was ruffling their faces and hair, the rustling of leaves, a few birds chirping, crickets singing, the horse breathing. The warmth of the sun on their skin, warming their hearts. Nature and its sounds were calming, relaxing and created a peaceful atmosphere around them.
Soo-won swallowed hard before speaking again. "I don't expect you to forgive me. What I did can never be forgiven. I made you feel the same pain I felt years ago when I lost my father... I took him from you. No, I don't expect to be forgiven, but I wanted you to know... that I deeply regret what I did and that I will continue regretting it until the day I die."
Yona raised her head and looked at him, in the eyes. "Please, stop blaming yourself Soo-won. You regret what you did. You've been hurting ever since you lost your father, your pain pursued you ever since you discovered uncle was assassinated by a rebellious faction hostile towards all of us, members of the Royal Family, the same that killed my mother and the one Kye-Sook was leading. I know how it feels to lose someone you love-"
Soo-won's face darkens in shame and disgust. He was the one to make her feel the same pain as his.
"And I'm sorry I wasn't here for you when you needed me the most. I can't imagine in how much pain you must have been in since you were a child, thinking your uncle killed your father. I can't imagine what it must have feel like to see the man you thought murdered your father walk around freely. I can't imagine how lonely you must have been." she says and tears made their way to her eyes.
"Yona please, don't pity me, I don't deserve it I'm a-"
"Please let me finish." she says, setting her hand on the table and taking his hand in hers before taking a deep breath to keep strong emotions at bay.
"You've suffered enough Soo-won! Let go of all that pain, let go of the past and keep moving on. I don't want you to hurt any more. I want you to find happiness. I want you to smile, to live ! And... more than anything...I want us to go back to how we were."
"What ?" he asks as tears roll down his cheeks.
How can you say this when I killed uncle, how can you be so..kind, so trusting and so compationate towards me, towards your father's murderer ? You want us to go back, how is that possible after all I've done to you, to us ?!
"I'm tired of running away, tired of having people say I should kill you, tired of being away from you. I want us to go back to be friends Soo-won, I don't care what people think, you're important to me !"
Soo-won's eyes widened in surprise. After these six years she still wanted to understand him, she still wanted to be near him?!
Yona opened her mouth, and closed it, not sure if saying this now was a good thing. She stands and turn her back to Soo-won.
I have to, she thinks, if not now then when ?
"...You know..." she says getting Soo-won's attention. "I thought I could forget you, move on... fall in love again and build a family." she says, her words cutting through Soo-won's heart like a sharpened blade.
"I tried to... There was a time I thought I could get that with Hak. But.. I always saw your face, always heard your voice when I was with him."
She inhale and exhale and in a whisper she says "I tried, but I couldn't." which surprises Soo-won.
"W-why ?"
"Lili told me the meaning behind this.." she says as she reach for something in her inside pocket. She holds out a wooden box Soo-won would recognize anywhere. It was the box he had seen in one of the shack in Kushibi's fort. He stands up too and joins her near the balcony handrail.
His heartbeat quickens, his breathing as well. He sees Yona opening the box and revealing the famous hairpin he had given her on her sixteen's birthday.
"You still have it." he whispers and he can't believe what he's seeing.
"Yes. After Lili told me about it, I couldn't bring myself to separate myself from it. You knew what would happen but you still wanted to be by my side."
I did. My feelings were different in the past, but I wanted you to have a reminder of me, of who we were and of our happy times.
She turns around and face him."I've never stopped loving you Soo-won. I know you've never seen me that way but I just wanted to tell you.. I-I still love you."
Simultaneously his eyes widen, his heart stops and the next second beats like crazy.
"C-Can you repeat that ?" he asks, his lips quivering.
"I know you've never seen me that way ?" she repeats unsure.
"After"
Yona tilts her head to the side, "Umm .. I still love you ?" she says and blushes a little.
"Yes.. that." he says before taking hold of her arm and pulling her to him. The next moment Soo-won takes her face in his hands and his lips crash down onto hers.
He kisses her passionately, letting all his love for her possess his entire being. All these feelings that bloomed he had to repress and hide, he frees them.
Yona is surprised but let her own feelings take control and goes with the flow.
I'm sorry father.
She wanted this for so long and it was finally happening. The man she loved was kissing her with a fierce passion. She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him back with the same passion.
After long minutes of intense kissing, they part from each other to breathe again.
"Yona..." he whispers as he rest his forehead against hers.
"Hmm ?" Yona asks still trying to catch her breath.
"I love you too." he smiles, and it isn't a fake smile, this one is genuine and she smiles too.
"When ?"
"Eh ?"
"Since when are you in love with me ?" she asks her cheeks still a little red.
"I realized it after you were gone. Your presence, your warmth, your smile, your smile they kept coming back to me. I remembered the day you confessed to me, and I realized my feelings had changed, they weren't the same as that night."
Yona moved her arms and wrapped them around him.
"I missed you."
"I know, I missed you too, Yona." he says and hugs her back. Unknown to Yona, tears fall from Soo-won's eyes.
This is my happiness...I finally found it.
Later that day.
"What happened to Hak and your dragon friends ?"
"We still all travel together. Sometimes we go our own way but most of the time we travel together."
"Hak will never forgive me, will he ?"
"Who knows, I really hope he will. What's important is that I'll try, even though it may take some time."
Soo-won nods. I don't care if it takes the eternity for her to forgive me.
He looks at her beautiful violet orbs. I can't believe she still loves me after what I've done... this.. is a miracle.
"But as long as you're with me, we'll be fine." she says.
"Yona..."
"Besides I just got you back, there's no way I'm letting you go now." she smiles and drops a light kiss on his lips.
Soo-won blushes at her words.
"I don't plan on losing you either. We have much to catch up." he replies, taking the hairpin and putting it in her beautiful red hair before hugging her again.
Don't kill me, and no hate please ?
So, did Soo-won/Yona fans liked it ? I know it's a "weird" ship and everyone does not like it. I wished Soo-won hadn't killed Il and had married Yona. This was a request so I went along the person's wishes, I know it can be hard to believe, but deep down I hope Yona and Hak + Soo-won will still be on friendly terms in the manga.
