Kate has returned home after finishing the chess tournament bombing. She again drops her clothes, grabs a quick shower and returns to the bedroom to finish getting ready for bed.
Sitting on top of the dresser, exactly where she left it earlier, is the diary. She reaches down and picks up the journal and then opens it to the last written page.
Her own words in her own hand writing are there on the page but she stopped writing in her journal after that fateful day. She knew just to re read the older pages would be too much for her to bear. The pain she suffered that day was too great and there was no way she could ever go back to where things were before.
Inside, her heart told her that there was no reason to keep a diary. No good would ever come from the writing. The only thing left it would bring is be pain. So after that January day, she placed the diary with her treasured Richard Castle novels. That was symbolic of him protecting her with his written words. Now he is willing to protect her in person and not just in her mind
This is actually the first time she has even picked up the journal since the day she placed it on the shelf. She opens it for the first time in a decade, but she remembers each and every word she wrote that fateful day
January 9, 1999
'Dad and I are meeting mom at a restraunt later. I can't wait. Then I have to get ready to go back to school. In a way I wish I could stay here at home but my education is too important now
This has been one great Christmas break. A month home with mom and dad. Talking to them about my future plans. Telling mom that I have decided that I want to become a lawyer just like her. Who knows maybe I will even become a Federal Judge some day. No wait. First Woman Chief Justice. That will be my goal. I will be on the Supreme Court.
She laughed when I told her that. She reminded me about my complete infatuation with sci-fi and my friends and me playing Nebula9 might become a little issue. She says she can just see me wearing that skimpy uniform in front of a courtroom full of lawyers and judges
Dad's calling. He is ready to leave
Gotta' go
Then there are no more entries. The rest of the pages are blank
She takes the book and walks to her desk in her home office and sits at her chair. She takes a pen from the drawer then pauses for a moment before starting to write in the diary again.
She decides that instead of writing to her diary, she will write this to her mother
Mom, I now know how you felt about dad. I didn't know it was possible to feel this way. I thought I could ever feel this way after I lost you. But…
I am in love
I think that he is my one and done
I met him in person three years ago and you will not believe who it is. He is actually someone you know or more accurately you knew his works. It's the writer, Richard Castle. Mom, you actually introduced me to him. I'm in love with Richard Castle. I know you were too. When you showed his books to me, I fell in love with his stories, but now I am in love with him, I mean really in love with him. And I think he is in love with me too.
No he hasn't said those words to me, yet but all my friends were telling me that he loves me. They said that the way he acts when I am around, that he loves me
I read all of his books that you gave me. Then he wrote more after you died and I read them too. I even got his autograph one time
Then at work a murder happened that was modeled after one of his books and I recognized the story so I brought him in.
Oh I forgot to tell you that I am a homicide cop now.
After I brought him in and questioned him about the murder, he started to flirt with me. I wanted no part of him. You had told me that he had been married and had a long string of women in his harem and I did not want to become "the next in line" so I pushed him away.
You remember every guy I dated in school was after one thing from me. Their goal was to get me out of my clothes and I really think his was too... At least at first!
But he just wouldn't stop coming around. My captain let him follow me because he was friends with the mayor, judges and I don't know who else. So I was stuck with this playboy.
Then I find out he is using me as his model for his next character and I was both angry and a little flattered all at the same time
He was a pain in the neck always getting in the way of my cases but the mayor liked him so I had no choice but to drag him around with me.
Well in fact I did get to meet the mayor because of him. Rick took me to a charity ball. He even bought me a dress to wear. A gorgeous dress as a matter of fact. You should see it. It was beautiful and I looked really good in it. I think he thought I looked good in it too. But I know you would have just loved it
Mom, then something changed. He changed and I followed along with his changes.
When that first book came out with me as the main character, I saw the changes beginning. I thought at first it was just my wishful thinking but it evidently wasn't
Then he was offered a new contract and that book about me would be the only one. He had been selected to write a series of spy books and our friendship was over.
I felt my heart jump up in my throat when he told me that he would stop being around everyday. I found myself sad that our relationship was over. I found myself not wanting it to end
But I knew I had to fight those feelings and move on
When he came to tell me goodbye, I found myself scared of not seeing him again. I didn't want him to leave.
But when my boss told me that he was going to be staying, I was happy and mad all at the same time. I was confused about my feelings. I wanted him, but I was afraid I would be hurt if we got too close and then I lost him.
So I pushed him away and almost lost him but Mom. It all ended good.
We are together now. He is helping at the station solving cases. He actually helped us solve a very strange case at a chess tournament. Oh you would love this. The feds thought it was a terrorist bombing, but he proved it was a lover's triangle
Oh next weekend he is taking me to Houston for a book signing. Then he said afterwards there is someone he wants me to meet.