AN: Sorry I know people don't like Authors Notes at all but I'm gonna do it anyway! Just to let you know, the first three or so chapters will have a lot of song lyrics in because they're set at Isabel's concert. So just put up with it until then!

Aaand... I'd just like to say a HUGE thank you to The-Best-Cullen-EVA for adding this story to their Favourite Stories List!! First ever time thats happened to me!! So I am eternally greatful!

Chapter 1

Bella's Point of View

'We do not suffer by accident.' - Pride and Prejudice

I breathed in deeply, inhaling the murky air created by the smoke machine, collecting my thoughts before I stepped out in front of everyone. As soon as my feet hit the wooden stage, a chorus of ear-splitting screams hit me like a tidal wave. I smiled and waved as I went to take my place on centre stage, guitar in hand...

"Hey, everyone! I feel kind of amazing to be back in the city near my childhood home. I grew up in forks, population ....., no real amusement until I hit my teens; here I met a bunch of amazing, head turning people who really changed my life completely, for the better and the worse. It was here I met my best friend, was forced into shopping," I laughed slightly at the memory; it didn't hurt to think of them much anymore. I continued, "Met my one true love, got my heart ripped out, barely made it through each day, was near death a few times, and found a source of light and new hope. Suffice to say, this is where most of my inspiration came from. And I am so glad to be back. Well then shall we start the show?" The crowd cheered wildly and I smiled. How had I gotten to this point? I wondered idly as I began my first song of the night...

"I'm gonna start out with a song about my first and only love... This is called Fearless"

(Fearless by Taylor Swift)

There's somethin' 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
Walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah

We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absent mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless

So baby drive slow
'Til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture every memory

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless

Well you stood there with me in the doorway
my hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in & I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin', it's fearless.

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless

As I sung the final note of the song the crowd went wild and all of a sudden an overwhelming urge of happiness spread throughout my body. I remembered what I felt like when I wrote that song, all the good memories... I smiled to myself and waved a thank you to the crowd! "Hey! Did you all enjoy that??" The crowd screamed in reply and I laughed down the mike, "Yeah... it's one of my favourites too, all the good memories..." my sentence drifted off as I cleared my throat, "Another love song perhaps?" I asked the crowd and got a unanimous yes! "This one is called I'd Lie"

(I'd Lie by Taylor Swift)

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colours in his eyes

Images and memories came slowly seeping into my brain as I sang the words with as much passion and feeling as possible. My memories were all slightly blurry but I remember him in detail... the way he'd pinch the bridge of his nose when angry, or run his hands through his hair when stressed or nervous, and when he was happy and that amazing crooked grin blessed his magnificent face.

He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favourite songs and

I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?

He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you

He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my makeup and pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you his favourite colours green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

"Thank you all for listening to my mushy love songs..." I laughed and the crowd cheered, "How about we move onto a more amusing subject...? Throughout all my teenage years there was this boy, Mike. Typical idiot, cocky, too cocky, and after my boyfriend left me," A resounding boo ran through the crowd, "Sssshhh! Anyway after he left, Mike was so sure he was gonna get me. I begged to differ. This is called Don't Tell Me"

(Don't tell me by Avril Lavigne)
You held my hand and walked me home, I know
Why you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did he have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away, yeah

[Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Don't try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah that's what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away

[Chorus]

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away[Chorus]

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway