When Love Fails

Disclaimer: We all know that I don't own Harry or Sirius or anyone from Harry Potter.

Jule: So how are we feeling about this chapter boys?

Harry: To be honest I don't think I will know how I feel till the next chapter.

Sirius: Don't know what he's going on about but, I rather enjoyed it. *cute grin*

Harry: You are such a ponce Sirius.

Sirius: Ohhhh, now who's the one throwing around slurs.

Harry: Oh just shut it will you, this chapter happened to take a rather large toll on me, encase you hadn't noticed.

Sirius: You really shouldn't be the one to talk about noticing things, pup. *raises chin up proudly*

Harry: Why you little...*try's to get to Sirius*

Jule: *holds Harry back* Cut it out boys, how about we just let everyone get to the chapter.

Sirius: Yes, yes, on with the show ladies and gents. *charming voice*

Chapter Two

How many of you are into romance movies, books, ect?

And how many of you have stormed away from your lover or crush angry as hell?

Now how many of you, even in your angered state, hoped in the very back of your mind that they would chase after you and some how make everything better?

Now how many of you have actually had this happen to you?

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Yeah, well that is not what happened to me.

I continued to fly for the remainder of the day, resting only long enough to cry my heart out, before sneaking into my room through my window and putting up the strongest security charms I could think of around my room. I didn't do it so that Sirius couldn't get in, even if he actually wanted to, but because I couldn't trust myself with not heading over to him and making an even bigger fool of myself.

Not that I even knew what I would say if I saw him.

Actually during that entire night all I could do was cry. Pathetic really, but what else could I do.

It wasn't till morning that I realized that I was going to have to pull myself together long enough to face Sirius, even if it was long enough for him to tell me that he was not going to allow a ponce to reside in his home.

So after performing a cleaning spell on my person and dressing in a pair of jeans, a t shirt, and converse, I raised my chin up and walked out of my room.

It was still pretty early in the morning so I figured I could at least have my so called "Last Meal" before things got complicated again.

Kreacher was his typical self in serving my cereal and juice, but was kind enough to add some really burnt toast and sickly looking jam.

Could have been trying to poison me with that last one, but I stud clear of it so I couldn't really tell you if it was or not.

When the clock struck 9:00, my chest tightened and my hands began to shake, because not a minute after 9, did Sirius enter the kitchen dressed in a new pair of pj pants and an added shirt.

"Hey little punk!" he greeted just like he did every morning with a stretch of his toned arms, before taking his seat at the table.

For a moment I just stared at him, trying to gauge if he was being sarcastic or honest.

"Um... morning." I said quietly after a minute, as Kreacher laid out a breakfast worthy of a king, yet again.

Moments like that really made me wish Dobby was here instead of Hogwarts.

"So... what are the plans for today?" he asked as he raised his cup of tea to his lips and took a sip.

Can anyone say weird?

I mean I never for a minute thought that Sirius was capable of playing the denial card, in order to pretend that yesterday hadn't happened. It just wasn't him.

Well unless he was actually trying to ask me of plans to deal with the situation , as in whether or not I had a place to go to?

That had to be it.

"Well...umm... I guess I could call Dumbledore." I said softly as I pushed my soggy cereal around. Call me chicken but I couldn't face looking at him as I spoke. "I'm pretty sure he would rather I stay at Hogwarts than the Weaslys."

"What are you talking about?"

"Me finding a new place to stay."

"Well whats wrong with staying here?" his voice sounding a little to confused for my liking.

"Did Kreacher say something again?" he continued, though there was more annoyance in his voice this time.

"No, he didn't." I said with a shake of my head as I dropped my spoon and finally looked up at him.

This time he really did look confused, and for some reason there was just the slightest spark of anger inside of me.

"Then why don't you want to stay here anymore? You sick of me already?" he joked with a smile.

"Wow... are you serious?" I asked with a raised eyebrow. Something I again picked up from him.

"Last time I checked that was the name my mother gave me..." he said with a grin, before scooping up some eggs and eating.

I couldn't help but laugh at that as well, not that it lasted long. So taking a deep breath I continued.

"Do you remember what happened yesterday?"

"You mean that little spaz attack you had?" he laughed as he continued eating. "Yeah, I remember. Remus would have laughed his ass off, but you clearly don't know gays if you think that I am below their standards."

I watched him.

He finished talking, continued eating, and all I could do was stare at him.

What the hell just happened?

"D-did you happen to catch the part about me being gay?"

"Yeah, but just because you're family, doesn't mean that I don't fall into every gay mans "dream guy" category. Just ask Remus, he hates admitting it, but its the truth."

"Remus is gay?"

"You didn't notice?" he asked with a raised eyebrow.

Didn't I notice?

Clearly not.

Clearly I was blind to everything that was right in front of me.

"So Remus is gay. He is gay and you use the term ponce a lot because you are used to picking on him. I'm gay, and you believe that every gay man wants you, or should want you. You're not kicking me out and I had a spaz attack yesterday."

"Harry?"

"Remus is gay. I'm gay. Gay men want you, and I cried my eyes out yesterday. I cried from fear that you would hate me for being gay."

"Harry?"

"But, Remus is gay and you are friends. So you don't hate gays because they all want you. I'm gay, but you don't hate me because Remus is gay and he is your friend. So I cried for nothing. I was afraid for nothing, because you are okay with gays..."

"Harry! Stop or you are going to hyperventilate." shouted Sirius as he shook me.

I don't know when he had gotten up from his seat and over to me. But there he was, looking me straight in the eyes with a deep look up concern as he dried away some of my tears with his thumbs.

Wait, when had I started to cry? Or shaking for that matter?

Fucking I really had been freaking out.

"What the hell is wrong with me?" I choked out as I stared at Sirius with pleading eyes.

"Emotional over load I would guess..." he tried to tease with a smile.

"Is this normal?"

"It was for your mother."

I laughed lightly at that, but that didn't change how stupid I felt.

Poor Sirius most have thought me off my rocker.

"I'm sorry I let you rush off like that without telling you that everything was okay. I was a tad bit shocked at your bluntness and slightly insulted by your "you are below the standards" comment," he smiled at the part. " that I just stud there like an idiot. Plus I would have gone after you, but figured you would need time to cool off. And before you ask, I was going to talk to you when you got back, but you kinda locked me out before I could. Nice charms by the way." he finished with a laugh.

I laughed too for a minute before focusing back on the matter at hand.

"So you really are okay with this, with me?" I asked.

"Duh, I mean I still haven't forgiven you for that comment about me, but I don't hate you or think any less of you. I love you Harry and that's never going to change. Have a little faith would yeah." he laughed as he messed with my hair playfully. "Besides it would be pretty hypocritical of me if I did hate you for being gay."

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"Your gaydar must be truly broken or really under developed, Harry, if you didn't noticed that I myself am gay."

Authors Note: Sorry for the delay but with the holidays and all that, things got a little busy over here. Anyways I know this chapter was short, but I promise that the next one wont just be longer, but there will also be some action *wink,wink...evil grin* between our loving boys.

Reviews are always welcomed, as well as advice.

Thanks!

P.S. If anyone has an idea or request as to how said "action" should take place let me know.

P.P.S. This story isn't going to rush right into sex so no worries, there is a plot after all.