Walking up to the door he took in a deep breath, bracing himself for what he was about to walk back into.
Reluctantly Nate walked in gazing over to her...she was broken, completely and utterly broken. Looking down from her bloodshot eyes he could see the grip on Lily's hand had become even tighter. Doing the only thing that he felt he could do...just be there for her. Taking a seat on the arm rest he held Serena's hand tightly, gripping it for a moment so she knew he was there.
Knowing he was there meant so much, but she couldn't look up, she needed to take any lasting moments of her mother as much as she could. Even though she didn't look like she used to now, it reminded her so much of how strong and full of courage she had been the past 7 months.
Watching her fight though the chemotherapy, operations and the after effects, had made her appreciate everything she had done. Regardless of some of the horrible things and arguments they had shared, nothing meant more to her than being here with her. Seeing her slowly deteriorate after the news was hard, unbelievably so but they all grew to accept it for what it was.
As the door opened she could see in the corner of her eye it was Chuck and Blair.
Walking in Blair held on tightly to his arm, looking up at him as his eyes meet Lily, lying there motionless. Standing there he couldn't believe what he was seeing, how could he lose the only person who accepted him as her own and loved him dearly despite it. Opening his mouth slightly he breathed out shakily, swallowing the lump stuck in his throat as he looked heartbroken at what was left of her.
Unaware of some of the eyes gazing at him, Chuck continued to be hit back at the site he was witnessing. Even though he hadn't seen her in 2 months, he didn't think she could have ended up like this. Feeling guilty for ignoring and pushing her away, as well as everyone else Rufus walked up to him just relieved and glad he finally came. He knew Chuck meant a lot to Lily and she would have wanted him here for her final few moments or at least say goodbye.
Pulling him into a hug, Chuck was unable to take his eyes away from Lily as she became slightly blurred. Releasing the grip from around Chucks neck, he made his way back to her side and after a slight encouragement from Blair, Chuck followed.
As Rufus stood beside Eric who had hold of her other hand, Chuck just looked down from her gaunt face, placing a hand on her knee rubbing it softly as more tears formed in his eyes before glancing back up at her.
"I'm going to start on dinner" Rufus whispered to Eric, before gesturing to Dan and Jenny to leave.
Placing her hand back onto the bed, Eric got up from his seat walking to the chair across from Lily leaving Chuck to show her how he felt.
Looking down at her hand he placed his hand on it softly, gripping it slightly before placing a kiss on her forehead sweetly as two tears made their way across his face. Unable to take the pressure and feeling more and more suffocated in her room, he turned around and left in a hurry.
"I'll go" Nate said as he left Serena's side and rushed off after him.
As the door shut behind her, Blair made her way over to Serena sitting on the arm rest. Sitting there she placed her arm across her shoulder, looking over to Lily.
"Thanks for persuading Chuck to come and see my mum B" Serena said looking up at her smiling slightly.
"I didn't need to persuade him...part of him was just too scared to" Blair admitted.
"Yeah, but he wouldn't have come if it wasn't for you." Serena said as Blair looked down, realising how true that was. "You're the only person he would listen to and do anything for" Serena added.
"Yeah" Blair replied almost whispering in realisation.
Watching her mother, Serena suddenly noticed her awkward breath and nothing... All paused in silence they glanced over, willing her to take another breath.
After what felt like years staring at her she took in one last breath and that was it, nothing followed.
Eric was in shock, he didn't know what to do but leave... Tell Rufus, tell anyone, he couldn't believe what he just laid his eyes upon and witnessed.
"Oh my god" Serena let out with an unsteady breath and began filling up as Eric walked out of the room and left.
Blair pulling her into a tight hug managed to utter in her ear as she started to cry with her "I'm so sorry S".
Finally releasing the grip of her mother's hand she put her arms around Blair as she completely broke down in her best friends arms. She was shaking, absolutely broken hearted and aching in pain. Blair rested her head on Serena's shoulder, brushing her hair back crying silently as she looked over at Lily.
I didnt get much feedback from the first chapter, so decided to follow with a second to see if anyone wants me to continue with the story... So let me know what you think xo