"Without you I'm something, with you I'm nothing. But I still thought we would be everything together."

Today this viscous bottle of wine was tearing her apart. Olivia Benson doesn't get drunk; she vowed to herself not to get drunk. But here she was sitting on her couch with an empty bottle a wine. The more she thought about it, the angrier she got. Then all hell broke loose when the thought of Elliot crossed her mind. She stood up and angrily threw the empty bottle into the wall, which sent glass shattering everywhere. She let out an angry scream and violently pushed and kicked everything off that was on her coffee table. She went around the room and knocked off every picture of her and Elliot off of the wall. She occasionally threw one; which would cause more noise to add to the commotion. Her neighbor was knocking at the door but Olivia couldn't hear her. Her neighbor franticly did the only thing that she thought of.

"Manhattan SVU, Detective Tutuola speaking."

"Hey this is Shan, Olivia's neighbor; I think something is wrong with her. I hear a lot of things breaking and she's screaming, but she won't come to the door." She ended with her voice shaking a little.

"Ok, thank you Shan. We'll be there as soon as possible." Fin stood as he ended the call. "That was Liv's neighbor, she called saying that Liv's in there screaming and things are being broken."

Amanda spoke up and said "Okay well you and Nick go, I sit and watch the 'house' since Cragen is in a meeting. Call me as soon as you find out something." With that Nick and Fin left and were headed to Liv's apartment.

When they arrived on her floor, they heard something slam against her door then it went silent. They both drew their weapons, Fin got to the door first. "Liv open the door it's Fin." He said while he knocked on the door. Still there was no movement. "Fin, do you think we should knock it down?" Nick asked. "There's no need to, I have a key." Nick sent a questioning glare towards Fin. Fin unlocked the door and stepped inside. The two men looked and were surprise at the condition her apartment was in. Glass, broken bottles, and turned over chairs were everywhere. The only thing that they didn't see was Olivia. They slowly walked in, maneuvering around the mess. They walked back to the bedroom. There they saw Olivia sprawled across her bed. Her arm was hanging off the edge while loosely gripping a half empty bottle of vodka. Fin was the first to see her, he practically race to her to check her pulse. He lightly smacked her face to see if she was still awake.

"Liv? Liv, c'mon wake up." He turned to face Nick. "Could you find the bathroom and turn the lights on in there." Fin slid the bottle out of her hands, and moved her so it would be easier for him to pick her up. He carried her bridal style all the way to the bathroom, and slowly sat her down in her shower. He sat and just looked at her for a moment. Wondering why 'would she do something like this to herself'? Then he turned on the cold water and let it spray all over Olivia. It took her a moment for her to come back to consciousness. She almost jumped through the wall when she realized that she was in the shower; and wasn't alone. She tried to talk but it was all jumbled up.

"Liv, it's me Fin. You're okay, I got you." She jumped into his arms and cried. She cried so hard that it looked like Fin was in the shower with her. But through her tears she managed to say, "I miss him so much". It broke his heart to hear this come out of her mouth, clearly who ever this person was meant a lot to her. "C'mon Liv let's get you cleaned up." He helped her walk through the apartment, with her stumbling around; it was very difficult. He just knew that she was going to feel like shit in the morning. So he asked Nick to have some water and Tylenol ready for her to take when she sobers up. While Nick was getting the water and pills, Fin helped her change clothes. He tried his hardest not to look, but only help. But looking became a necessity when she asked him to help her take off her bra.

"Fin can you- can you help me? I can't grasp the- the clasp" she asked while her words slurred. He simply nodded his head. He searched her back for the clasps while Olivia was swaying on her feet. "Where are they?" He finally gave up looking, and noticed her fidgeting with something. "Is that it?" She just nodded not trusting her voice because she felt like crying again. She turned around and he saw the clasps in the front. His hands moved slowly because he was hesitant on doing this for her. He tried to unclasp it using one hand but that didn't work. So he tried it with both hands. "Damn Liv, how in the hell am I supposed to get this off?" She just giggled at his comment. He was so focused on the clasp that he didn't realize Nick walked in.

"What the HELL ARE YOU DOING?" Nick yelled. "What does it look like?" he said sarcastically not taking his eyes off of what he was doing because he almost had it. "YOU CAN'T JUST TAKE ADVANTAGE OF-" He was interrupted by Fin's 'yes' of victory. "Ok, Liv, hold this while I get you a t-shirt." Fin told her. Liv's hands lazily held her breast, she was tempted just to let them go but she was sober enough not to. Fin searched through the drawer until her found a shirt that looked like his size. He held it up and said "Liv, how did my shirt get over here?" He glanced over at her and she just shrugged. He walked towards her. "Don't move, I will put it over your head, just don't put your arms through the holes yet." She did as she was asked. "Okay, now you can hand me your bra and slip your arms through. I will get you some socks that will complete your look of a hobo. Again." The last part made her genuinely laugh.

While she was walking towards her den is when Fin decided to confront Nick about his little 'comment'. "What the fuck was that? Do you really think I am some asshole who fondles drunk women? I'm not a DAMN PERVERT." Nick looked apologetic. "Look, I came in and saw your hands on her breast and I thought-" "You thought what? That I was going to have fun with her before she was sober? You know what Nick, FUCK YOU." With that he left the room to join Olivia.

Fin walked in and saw Olivia curled up in a ball, crying, while desperately clutching a picture. He slowly walked towards her not wanting to startle her. He had another bottle of water in his hands that was waiting for her when all the alcohol settles in her stomach.

"Liv?" she didn't move. "Liv, look at me." He lifted her head. "Tell me who did this. That bastard made you cry, so I will make him scream, when I rip his balls off." The sheer anger and sincerity seemed to radiate from his body. Olivia stopped crying because she didn't want Fin to make any rash decisions; knowing he will. She put her hand on his shoulder to get his attention.

"Why did he do it? Why would he do something like this? Am I a shitty person?" she asked with tears in her eyes.

"Liv, NO!" he realized that he startled her so he tried to lower is voice. "You are the most amazing person in the world. You are kind, you are sweet, and you are important; even with your badassness. I don't know why some jackass could do this." She was now leaning on him crying silent tears.

"I shot him." Fin almost jumped off of the couch. "You WHAT?"

"I said I shot him. Not with real bullets, I used the rubber ones that hurt like shit but doesn't penetrate the skin. I would have shot him more than once but that 'girl' was in there. I don't know if he told her he was involved so I couldn't blame her. She seemed so ashamed. She couldn't even look at me. All I saw was her tattoo, and blonde hair." Fin's face showed surprise when a thought popped up in his head, but it quickly vanished because he knew it wasn't possible. She paused for a minute. "Fin, guess what he said. He said he did it because 'he didn't give a shit'. Who says things like that?"

"Assholes do Liv."

"Then why do I miss this asshole so much? We've been together for two years. I really want to know what made him do this to me and why it's affecting me like this. Fin I haven't seen that bottle of vodka since after the incident at Sealview." Fin started rubbing her back knowing that this conversation brought up some old feelings and bad memories. "Why did, did, di-" She literately dashed to the bathroom. Fin could hear her pouring her guts so he grabbed the cold towel, water and he put some bread in the toaster. When he walked in the bathroom he saw Nick in there holding her hair, and rubbing her back in circles. He walked into her room and grabbed a hair tie, because he knew that she would be at it for a while.

Nick turned her couch into a temporary bed because she said she wouldn't dare sleep in there. Fin sat in the loveseat and Nick stood in the kitchen. There has been one question circulating in Fin's head.

"Liv, who is this guy you have been seeing?" He asked right before she closed her eye.

"Elliot." She said it as if it were the simplest thing in the world. Fin just stared with astonishment. He knew that he had some 'errands' to run after he leaves here.

Stage 2:

Someday you'll Miss Me like I Missed You

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Yes I used that quote from the help, even though it was slightly altered "You is kind, you is sweet, and you is important" Any who, REVIEW and tell me about what a horrible job I am doing.

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