IMPORTANT A/N: Okay, okay so I know that I said I wouldn't be leaving long authors notes but I really feel that this one is necessary. I know that this chapter is really short but it just didn't want to be any longer, trust me I tried. And I know that it is most definetley flame-worthy but please don't stop reading it! This is just needed for the story-line. Don't worry it is most definetley going somewhere...they just need to get there first.
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Team-Edward-addict
Chapter 2 - The pieces of my heart
EPOV
Upon waking from my daytime rest I was pulled onto an emotional rollercoaster. I could feel confusion, anger, dissapointment, grief, exhaustion, emotional pain, longing and another emotion I was unable to identify, they all came crashing into me at once and it left me feeling slightly disoriented. I struggled throught the unbearable emotions bombarding me to find the source. The blood-bond. Sookie! I focused on the bond and felt that she was close, in Shreveport in fact but she didn't seem to be in any kind of physical pain. Besides it's not like I could go to her now, I had already distanced myself from her and for a reason. I couldn't just forget that now and run to her just because she was having a bad day! But oh how I wished I could be there with her right then. I had never longed for any other human the way I longed for my Sookie, I craved her. Not in over one thousand years had I felt so...so...human, it was unsettling, especially now that the memories of my time with her when I was cursed had returned to me, and I remembered everything. I couldn't help the grin that spread across my face at that thought, she had finally yeilded to me. Even if it was to a me that wasn't really me. Never-the-less she had surrendered herself to me and finally given in to what she had wanted. The sex was the part I enjoyed remembering, the...feelings...not so much. The fact that they existed at all is almost frightening, and that the still linger is even more so. 'Stop' I thought banishing all thoughts of emotions from my head and moving towards my bathroom to shower and prepare to go to Fangtasia.
The emotional whirlwind continued all the way to Fangtaisia and my efforts to block the bond only just worked enough to allow me to concentrate on the paperwork sitting in front of me on my desk. I attempted to work but my mind once again wandered to my bonded and my memories of her, naked, underneath me and I found myself becoming hard and...frustrated. Simultaneously I sensed my bonded getting closer...
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SPOV
I pulled up out the front of Fangtasia, unsure if I was still welcome around the back at the employee entrance. I sat in the car for a few minutes, warring with myself, trying to work up the courage to go in there and face him. Finally I forced myself to get out of the car and walk towards the door, I groaned in frustration the second I saw Pam working the door. 'Maybe I could still go around back' I thought but the second I changed direction she looked up and honest to god smirked at me! Of course she would be enjoying this! Don't get me wrong for a vampire Pam's not really that bad, I consider her my friend but sometimes she can be a little pushy. (Especially when it comes to Eric and I)
"Hello Sookie, this is a pleasant surprise" she grinned and it seemed like she really was pleased to see me. Maybe she was...well at least I'd like to think so.
"I'm here to see Eric" I stated wanting to do this before I chickened out.
"It's about time you came to your senses, Eric has been...bad for business latley." She said, ushering me in through the door and past the bar patrons, towards Eric's office. All of the sudden my rage overtook me, I mean who was he to make me feel this way, I had a right to be angry. He had used me and left me behind, I was nothing to him but yet another notch in his eternal bedpost. That was it I snapped, now he had to answer to me!
I barged into his office in a fit of rage, I knew that Pam had followed me in but right then I didn't care who I disgraced him in front of.
"I have a problem" I spat out at Eric, raising my head to see him sitting behind his desk, his elbows resting on it and his fingers pented in front of his rock-hard, chiseled chest, each muscle visible due to the tight, black T-shirt stretched over them. His long blonde hair left untied to rest on his shoulders and his ice-blue eyes appraising me carefully, and I might have imagined it but I thought I saw...longing in them. Yeah I probably imagined it.
"A problem?" He asked, his emotionless voice bringing me back to reality.
"Yeah, wanna know what it is?" I snapped, man that sounded lame. He didn't even answer me, he just raised one eyebrow questioningly and lowered his hands to rest them on the desk. "You!" I yelled.
"Me?" he questioned looking genuinley surprised.
"Yes you! It's been two months! Two fucking months and I've been going insane waiting for...for...NOTHING!" I screamed, traitor tears threatening to brim over.
"Two months?" His voice was strained but he actually seemed confused.
"You...you don't even know. Do you?" The tears fell and when he didn't answer my heart shattered into a million irreparable pieces.
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EPOV
'Of course I know!'
"Why didn't you tell her?" Pam hissed
"I do not know what you are talking about" I lied, badly.
"Eric now is not the time for your stubborness. She practically told you she loves you! I'll never get her to do that again!" Pam sighed, rolling her eyes.
"Pamela! You. Will. Not. Interfere." I said, reminding my child who the master was in this relationship. "The further she is from us then the safer she will be." I admitted whilst attempting to keep the bond closed off.
"You can't be serious. You're doing this so you don't hurt her?" She snorted "You just destroyed her Eric and I don't think that she can be put back together this time." She gave me a meaningful look and left my office. I couldn't bring myself to punish her for speaking to me that way, it had almost killed me to feign ignorance and when I had the look in Sookie's eyes, and the feel of both our hearts breaking, it was excruciating. A pain that I hope to never experience again, but I couldn't fix this now, besides it was what Sookie had wanted, wasn't it? To stay out of vampire politics? She couldn't do that if we were together. The more she was around vampires, the bigger the target would be that was painted on her. This was for her own good. I reached up and brushed my hand across my cheek to rid myself of an almost tickling sensation there and when I brought my hand away it was smeared with a bloody tear. I quickly wiped it away and prayed that Pam was wrong, and that somehow Sookie's heart could be repaired, that one day my lover could be happy, even if it was...without me.