The Art of Self Gratification- Day 1

My shifts end couldn't have come any sooner. I was now sitting at home on my couch in a tank top and thin shorts. I might as well get over the initial shyness of being naked. How else did I plan on having sex?

I couldn't sit still. Pacing, fidgeting, walking from room to room; all things I had been doing the last thirty minutes as I anxiously awaited the arrival of one Dr. Edward Cullen.

I had pulled my phone out of my pocket getting ready to call Alice for a pep talk when someone was knocking on my door. I dropped my phone, frozen in place. I'm ok. This is nothing. People have sex all the time. People have meaningless sex all the time. With a deep breath and a shaky hand I finally managed to walk to the door and open it.

"Good Evening, Isabella." Edward said as he leaned against the door frame casually.

"Cullen." Was all I said as I stepped aside to let him into my home.

"I like your outfit. Eager?" He asked as he looked at me from head to toe while draping his jacket across one of the chairs in the living room.

"I figured since there isn't going to be a whole lot of clothes involved in what we're about to do, might as well keep it simple."

"Come, Bella. Sit on the couch with me." He replied sweetly as he patted a seat next to him on my plush burgundy sofa.

I didn't say anything as I sat next to him, one cushion away. I clenched my knees together tightly and crossed my arms over my chest. Dear God give me strength to get through. I can do this. A relationship with Jacob depends on it.

"Relax Bella. We're not having sex tonight. You can relax your knees. Come sit closer."

Hesitantly I scooted one cushion over, closing the distance between us. I looked up into his eyes and I was taken aback by how beautiful this man actually was. Too bad he doesn't know how to shut the fuck up and leave me alone. We can't have our cake and eat it too I suppose.

"Tell me Bella, have you ever been kissed."

"Of course I've been kissed! What do you think?!"

"Oh no doubt you've been kissed. But have you been properly kissed?"

"How the fuck should I know? A kiss is a kiss." I replied with a shrug.

Gently his hands cupped my face, his thumbs grazing over my cheeks. Back and forth, up and down. I closed my eyes at how wonderful it felt to have someone touch me like this. Never had a man taken the time to do such a simple but intimate gesture. I sighed into his hands.

"That's right, Isabella. Relax. Tonight is all about you. Your pleasure, your needs."

With those whispered words spoken into my hair, I felt his lips ghost over my jaw, move down my neck and come back up where he just barely brushed against my lips. I ached for more.

"Please Edward." I whispered so quietly I wasn't even sure I said it.

"Tell me what you need, Isabella."

"Please…kiss me…"

I opened my eyes to look into the emerald orbs staring intently at me. For a moment I thought he was going to laugh at me, tell me it was all a joke and walk out of my apartment. That was until he forcefully brought my lips to his and kissed me with so much passion I thought I'd die from the sheer intensity of it. Abruptly he pulled away, his eyes boring holes into mine.

"Stand up Bella." He said huskily in a lust induced haze.

I couldn't speak, let alone move. I found the will to move my legs, standing up off the couch and following behind him, hands held, down my hallway to my bedroom. I shivered in anticipation, all traces of scared Bella gone. This new Bella felt confident, sexy, wanted.

"Lay down Isa, knees bent, legs spread." He commanded softly.

I obliged and did as he told, my chest heaving in short quick breaths. There were no lights on, only the shine from the electrical pollution in the city outside my window shining in, casting a dim blue light over us. I could only make out his silhouette as he lay next to me.

"Tonight's lesson will be on becoming comfortable with your body, Bella. You will explore it, love it, pleasure it. Listen and do everything as you are told. Don't be shy. You have no idea how beautiful you are right now; laying here sprawled on your bed in nothing but a thin tank top and even thinner shorts.

I can see the outline of your perfect breasts through that little shirt. You are such a tease and don't even realize it. You make my cock so hard just looking at you. Imagine how turned on I'll be once you touch yourself." He whispered into my ear as his hands made light circles just under the swell of my breasts.

My breath hitched in my throat as he spoke to me. I let out a suppressed moan as his breath tickled my neck.

"Are you ready, Bella? Are you ready to have the most intense orgasm of your life?"

"Please, Edward…"I choked out.

"I want you to take your left hand and gently caress your breast through your shirt."

Hesitantly my hand raised itself off the bed and made ascension to my breast. My fingers kneaded and massaged the flesh. It felt so….good.

"That's good, baby. You like the way that feels don't you? I'm getting rock hard just watching you. God, I want to fuck you right now." Edward gritted out as he continued kissing my jaw and neck. You're doing so good. You don't touch yourself do you? I can tell by the reaction you have right now. Bella, I want you to take your right hand and slowly put it inside your shorts. I want you to touch yourself."

My right hand crossed down my stomach and gently slipped into the waistband of my shorts. I pushed my underwear aside and began to rub my clit with slow strokes.

"Oh fuck!" I moaned into his shoulder. "Oh shit Edward! I feel so strange…." I almost cried from the sheer ecstasy of it. My nipples almost hurt from the grip I had on them.

"I think you're about to have your first orgasm. Rub yourself harder. I want to watch you come, Bella. I want to watch you come so fucking hard."

I closed my eyes and began touching myself harder. His lips sought mine in an earth shattering kiss as my walls constricted and throbbed around my fingers, warm liquid sopping out all over my hand. I cried out against his lips as my body tightened up through the intense climax.

"Breathe Bella."

I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. Slowly I fell out of Heaven back down to Earth. Through half lidded eyes, I smiled at him, my hand still down my shorts.

"You did so well. You were so fucking hot touching yourself like that. Rest now."

I let Edward's words wash over me as I relaxed into my pillow, slowly retrieving my hand from its cotton confinement. The last things I remember was the blanket being pulled over me and a strong arm holding me.

I had never felt so at ease in my life.

When I awoke the next morning, I woke up with a smile. That was definitely something that never happened. I was looking forward to seeing Cullen so we could discuss what happened during my first lesson of being a bedroom Goddess. Except when I turned over, there wasn't a body next to me. There was nothing except an unslept in side of the bed. With a furrowed brow, I got up and walked out into the hallway, hoping that maybe he was in the kitchen making breakfast or still asleep on my couch. Imagine my surprise when I walked into the living room. Everything was exactly as it was.

The fucker was gone.

I was alone.

"Ow! What the fuck?!"

"Who do you think you are Cullen?" I shouted at him in the empty doctor's lounge after smacking him in the head.

"Jesus Christ, Swan! What's the problem?" He scolded me as he rubbed his head tenderly.

"I hope I gave you a concussion, you womanizing fucker! What did you think, you could just leave me after last night, with no note, no call, nothing! Just rock out with your cock out and leave?! I shared one of my most personal, intimate moments with you last night and I had never felt so happy, so free! Then I wake up to an empty bed and I felt so…alone!" I started cry as tears started to spill from my eyes. I tried to will them away.

He hung his head and pinched the bridge of his nose with his right hand. With a deep sigh, he looked at me, confusion and humility clearly written across it.

"Look, Bella, I'm sorry. I didn't think you'd want to wake up with me in your bed. I stayed for about an hour after you fell asleep and then I went home. I was going to leave you a note, but what would I write? 'Thanks for the peepshow, call me later'? There aren't any words I can think of to express what I saw last night."

As I sniffled for the millionth time, he brought his hands up to gently wipe away the remainder of my tears. Why was I so mad? I told him not get involved emotionally and here I was blubbering like a whale.

"I'm being ridiculous, I'm sorry. It's just…last night was really big for me." I hiccupped.

"It's alright, sweetness. I'll be at your place a little earlier tonight, around 7ish. We're going out for tonight's lesson so wear something…sexy, provocative."

The Importance of Oral Competency-Day 2

I finished doing rounds at 6. It took me seventeen minutes to get home which left me forty-three minutes to get myself ready. I didn't even know if I owned anything provocative. Fuck! But I did know someone who did…

"Hello?" The sweet voice chimed on the other end.

"Alice, its Bella. I'm having a catastrophe! I'm going out tonight and I need something to wear, something…sexy, provocative. I'm fucked! He's coming to pick me up at 7! I don't own anything and-" I started to ramble in a panic.

"Bella, breathe. Come over and let me take care of it. I'll get you to your date on time."

I hung up the phone and floored the accelerator. I made it to Alice's house in less than eight minutes. I wasn't even out of the car yet when she opened up the front door and stood on the porch waiting for me to hurry my ass up.

"Come on Bella! We don't have all day! Edward is picking you up in fifty minutes and you still have to go home!"

I stopped dead in my tracks as I made my way up the front steps.

"How the fuck did you know I was having a date with Cullen?" I asked incredulously.

"Silly Swan! He told me what you guys arrangement is. Don't worry; your secret is safe with me." She said with a wink.

Mother fucker and his big mouth.

Forty minutes later I was standing in front of Alice's mirror admiring myself. Strapless purple and black bubble mini, purple peep toes, smoky make up and sexy bed hair. Oh yeah…I was fucking hot.

"Bella you look fantastic! Now go! You're going to be late!" She said as she rushed me out the door.

I hugged her good bye and ran (carefully) to the car and floored it to my place. I hadn't even made it to the front door of my apartment building when a deep voice that came from behind scared the shit out of me.

"You look gorgeous, Isabella. I was wondering what the pixie was going to do. I'm impressed."

"Holy shit Cullen! Don't scare me like that! Wait…you and Alice were planning on this tonight? You sneaky fuckers."

"We have to do something with that mouth of yours, Swan." He smiled as he extended his hand out to me.

I practically drooled at what I saw; blood red shirt, black pinstripe pants and that sexy unruly mane. The man was sex on two legs. I think I need a change of panties.

We walked in silence to his Volvo, hand in hand. It felt strangely nice holding his hand and being so close to him. Almost like this was normal.

"When did you become such a gentleman, Cullen?" I laughed when he opened the door for me.

"When my mother threatened to take away my Nintendo when I was nine."

Smart ass.

"So where are we going tonight that has us all dressed up?"

"Ever been to a club, Bella?" He asked as we drove towards Seattle.

"Edward, we live in Forks. You know, population 30? No I haven't."

"Silly Bella, there's almost 3,000 people in Forks for starters and I imagined you for a club girl."

"I may be single but I'm not desperate, you asshole." I defended myself with a pout.

"Never said you were. Tonight's lesson is going to be the art of oral sex. We don't have to do anything you don't want to. First I want to get you comfortable and confident in that body of yours. Think you can handle that?"

"I don't dance."

"I know, you're like a paraplegic on skis just walking. But you'll have me to hold onto. I won't let you fall."

Oh be still my beating heart. Sigh. He just said he'd never let me fall. Oh geeze! I'm gushing on the inside here.

"We're here."

I looked up and saw the blue and white neon sign glowing Twilight. People were lined up on the outside waiting to get in. I was not looking forward to waiting for hours in heels. I was about to tell Edward that he should just forget this idea and let's go back home but he grabbed my hand and walked us to the front of the line, cutting in front of the others.

"Edward!" The bouncer said with a shit eating grin.

The dude was huge and extremely tall, maybe 6 foot 6. Huge guy, seriously. But his cute little dimples and curly brown hair totally made him unintimidating.

"Emmett! Been a while. How've you been?" Edward answered as they gave each other man hugs.

"Great. Rosie is inside bartending. Make sure you see her. She'll be pissed if you left without a hello. And who is this lovely lady?" He asked.

"This is my great friend and colleague Dr. Bella Swan."

"Please, call me Bella." I finally spoke as I offered my hand out for a shake.

"Bella!" Was all he shouted as he leaned forward and embraced me in a bear hug.

"Uh Emmett? I think you're suffocating the poor girl."

"Oh! Sorry Doc." He smiled that goofy grin as he released me.

"We're going to head inside. Catch you around later." Edward said with a slap on Emmett's shoulder right before we walked into the building full of loud bumping music, scantily clad people and tons of gyrating.

"I'm going to grab us a drink. Wait here." Edward shouted over the music.

I watched as he pushed his way through the crowd and walked over to the bar where a gorgeous blonde smiled all too enthusiastically at him. She leaned over the counter and wrapped her arms around his neck and placed a kiss on his cheek. I don't know what came over me but I felt jealous! Bitch better keep her hands off!

I suddenly felt sad. Was this something he did often? Bring women on a date with him and then go and get kissy face with someone else? I should have known. Well the good doc better find himself a good doc to remove my shoe from his ass. He smiled one last smile and grabbed the drinks, heading towards me.

"Here, I got you a lemonade & Stoli."

"Oh fuck off!" I yelled.

I walked away leaving him standing there dumbfounded. I walked onto the dance floor and in between several sweaty people and started moving my hips along with the music.

How could you be so heartless

How could you be so heartless

The lyrics couldn't have been more true. How could he be so heartless? Some dude with blonde hair and a bad tan moved in front me and placed his hands on hips. I scanned the crowd looking for Edward, hoping he'd tell this douche to back off. When I found him, he looked pissed. His expression was dark and his teeth were gritted together.

So I got somethin' new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies

I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

Well maybe dancing with this fucker wasn't such a bad idea after all. The Spencer Pratt wannabe flipped me around and gyrated his pelvis into my butt. I could so feel his erection. Oh gross. I was so wrapped up in trying to move my ass away from this fucker's dick; I didn't even see Edward approach us.

"Uh excuse us for a second."

I watched as Edward grabbed me away from my dancing partner. I yanked my hand away from him and walked away through the crowd, intent on making it out of the club and calling a cab. Except two hands grabbed me and pulled me into a dark secluded corner.

"Get off me!" I yelled.

"What the fuck was that about Isabella?" Edward growled in my ear.

"I have no idea what you're talking about Cullen."

"Oh I think you do. First ditching me to go dance with that metro sexual fucker, then that little stunt you just did. I should punish you." He whispered darkly.

"It's not any worse than what you did at the bar with that skinny blonde bitch. Why don't you go fuck her and leave me alone?! I knew this wasn't going to work."

"Bella? Shut up."

Before I could protest his mouth sought mine and his lips fought for dominance. I wanted to be mad at him, really I did. But the man was a fabulous kisser. It couldn't be helped. So instead I just moaned into his lips.

I felt his hand snake up under my dress and barely caress the outside of my panties. Gently he rubbed circles over the fabric on my clit.

"Oh fuck!" I choked out.

"Just wait and see what I'm going to do to you tonight. Right now I'm going to taste you Bella. I'm going to fuck you with my tongue and you will cry my name and enjoy every minute of it." He said in a deep seductive voice.

I nodded, giving in to him as my eyes rolled back in my head.

"Oh God Bella, you're so wet for me.…" He whispered huskily as I felt his fingers slide back and forth across my outer lips.

"Oh fuck…" I moaned as I watched his face disappear between my thighs, licking my slit from opening to tip. I bit down on my lip to stop the scream that wanted to come out. He grabbed my legs and hitched them over his shoulders.

He mercilessly licked, sucked and bit on every piece of flesh. I grabbed fistfuls of his hair between my fingers and tugged as I awaited my impending orgasm.

"You taste better then you smell…Do you like this Bella? Do you like what I make your body do?" He asked before he dove his head right back between my legs, lapping mercilessly.

When he pushed his fingers in me and feverously started thrusting them in and out, I was done for in less than five pumps. I screamed out his name in total ecstasy thankful for the loud music.

He licked me one last time and my body shuddered from the hypersensitivity. Gently he placed my feet back on the ground and adjusted my dress. I could do nothing but lean against the wall for support. I was still floating on cloud nine.

"Bella?" He asked as he wrapped his hands around my hips for support.

"Yeah?"

"I have never seen someone look as beautiful as you did just now. And for the record, that skinny blonde bitch is Rosalie…my sister."

Fuck. Me.