-yeah I changed the summary. I didn't think it did justice to the story-

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The following day, Gustavo had only ordered the guys to do six hours of harmonies. And although that was also tiring, maybe it wasn't completely tiring physically. So that's why Kendall found himself in the gym of the Palmwoods, with his new crush right in front of him.

Yesterday, well, it was an awkward day for Kendall. When he finally emerged from the bathroom after coming to the conclusion of liking Logan, a pair of brown eyes were studying him intensely. And not just for a few minutes. Oh no, Kendall would've been able to deal with that. He felt eyes on him the entire day. Gustavo had told them not to come in, for reasons no one knew. So Kendall had decided to stay in the apartment and do nothing. He could use some extra rest and of course, Logan had agreed with that. And because he didn't want to leave the blonde all by himself –James, Carlos, Katie and Mama K were all out once again- Logan kept him company, giving him the opportunity to stare at Kendall all day. It drove Kendall more than mad. Not every day you realize you have those feelings, and Kendall wanted to deal with it alone.

But how could he send Logan away? He couldn't. And maybe somewhere, secretly, he didn't want to. He liked Logan around, even more with these 'new feelings'. Kendall stationed himself on the bright orange couch so he could watch movie after movie. Logan took place at the table right behind the couch. He had his book with him, and some homework that wasn't due until two weeks later. They sat there basically the whole day. Kendall was too afraid to move. His brain couldn't hold a proper thought. He just sat there, pretending he didn't need to pee and that he didn't need some food. So right before dinner when the others had come back, he made a mad dash for the bathroom, because he finally felt like he could move again. He was saved from Logan-Suffocation.

During dinner, it was usual he either sat next to or right across from Logan, and this day was no exception. The only strange thing about this dinner was that he didn't only have Logan's eyes on him, he sat across from him, by the way, he also had eight other eyes on him. He figured it must've something do to with him being so jumpy all day.

Logan was going crazy himself. He had always been a professional in reading Kendall's emotions, but this time, Kendall hid 'm good. Logan had at least established his friend wasn't sick, which gave him some relief. Not a lot though, but it meant Kendall wasn't being stubborn in telling them he didn't feel good. Then, what was wrong with him? Because even though he wasn't sick, he wasn't exactly feeling happy either. He was… kind of anxious. His behaviour existed out of not looking anyone in the eyes and just, not moving. Most of the time, Kendall was all over the place, but now it was almost hard to locate him, which was obviously weird because he was just sitting at the dinner table, not eating a lot of food; another symptom of Kendall's behaviour.

Honestly, all that Logan gathered was that Kendall wasn't feeling good about himself, maybe in the way he handled things… It was then when Logan remembered that Kendall was feeling okay until he'd mentioned the dancing. Could it be that Kendall was afraid of teaching Logan how to dance? It would be a very good explanation, so he decided to check his suspicions immediately.

"Kendall?" No response. Kendall's eyes were glued on the food he wasn't eating.

"Kendall?" He asked again, but her still didn't get a reaction out of the boy.

"Kendall!" This time, his question went together with kicking Kendall's shin.

"Ow, what was that for?" Kendall asked softly, in a so not Kendall way. Kendall isn't 'soft'.

"You were kinda out of it and you didn't respond the first two times." Logan explained.

"Oh, I'm sorry." Logan softly smiled, because Logan actually is 'soft'.

"It's fine. So how about you teach me the dancing tomorrow, hmm?" Kendall finally looked up at Logan where he saw a hopeful smile on his face. How could he deny that face? Simply put: he couldn't.

"Yeah, of course." Logan's smile turned in to a satisfied one while Kendall excused himself from dinner, claiming he had enough. He quickly took off to his bedroom, silently praying Logan wouldn't come after him. Kendall needed some alone time, some time to really sit down and think. Because man, that day was hell. In that calculation he took out the fact that he spent the whole day with Logan. But he wasn't exactly ready for that now. Kendall thought about the night before and the following morning. He didn't get some things. 24 hours ago, Kendall saw Logan as the closest friend he had, a brother even.

And now, he was absolutely ready to stick his cock in to Logan and make hours of passionate love. He'd even take Logan's cock up his own but if that was all that Logan wanted. It felt so surreal to Kendall. He definitely thought it was nothing more than a fluke, some freak dream he would wake up from sooner or later, but was that really the case?

If Kendall was really honest with himself, then he'd realize he had always thought Logan was attractive. Maybe not in the 'damn, I wanna rip your clothes of'-way, but more in a 'me and my best friend are kind of really attractive'-way. Kendall wasn't stupid, or ignorant. He could see those kinds of things. Now he was thinking it may have been a sign. A sign to indicate that Kendall always had held some not so brotherly feelings for his friend. He just didn't realize it.

He grabbed his iPod out of the nightstand and plugged the ear buds in. He wanted to draw out the world for a while, even though he'd had it with the thinking. Thinking about the whole situation was driving him crazy. He was going to have to accept he had a crush on Logan. Harmless, of course, but still a crush. The acceptation gave him the opportunity to concentrate on the music some out of the device that was clutched in his hand. He must've been lying there for hours, because Logan had come in at one point.

Logan went in to the bathroom, and came out about ten minutes later in his pajamas. He then crawled in to his bed, not even acknowledging Kendall, who couldn't help but feel hurt by it. But Kendall always closed his eyes when he listened to music on his bed like that. It also meant he didn't want to talk and Logan knew that. So Logan honestly believed he was doing good with pretty much ignoring Kendall. They both fell asleep eventually.

And now they were in the gym. Logan had a lot of trouble with the choreography of the chorus of the song 'Music Sounds Better With You'. When he looked at Kendall during rehearsals, well, wow, it looked so good. It frustrated Logan to no end, but instead of stubbornly trying to do it himself, he decided to suck it up and ask for help. He watched Kendall when Kendall showed him the dance one more time while singing. Logan was mesmerized by the voice and the moves of his best friend.

"Well, now you do it." Logan nodded his head and started. He was trying to hum the song in his head while trying to do the moves as good as possible. But he messed up. He sighed and looked to the ground in shame. Surprisingly, he heard a chuckle, making him pout.

"Logan, you try way too hard! You just have to feel the music. Dance with me." Kendall took position again. He started singing and Logan only focused on the voice, letting his body follow the music. The gym had one was that was covered in mirrors. (Yeah, it was James' favourite hangout spot.) The two boys where standing in front of it so they could check on one another. Or, Kendall could keep a look on Logan. This time, Logan didn't mess up the steps, but he was nowhere near pleased. He still looked like a hockey stick trying to bust out a move.

"Well hey, you got the steps right!" Kendall beamed, but then he saw Logan's disappointed face and it made his heart skip a beat. He wanted that face to go away. He wanted to see Logan's smile again.

"Want to try again?" Kendall asked.

"Yeah, if you sing again." Logan said shyly. Kendall felt his heart melting. There was something so innocent about the other boy in that moment.

They practiced some more for a certain period of time. Logan still hated the way he looked when he danced the steps. They were sort of sensual. For some reason, Kendall was brilliant at it, but Logan downright sucked. Or so he thought. Kendall was getting a little frustrated. They'd been there for hours and Logan never seemed satisfied.

"Come on Logan, just move those hips." Kendall couldn't deny he enjoyed seeing Logan's hips sway just a little bit. The little but that was possible for Logan.

"That's easy for you to say! It's like, a natural talent of yours." Logan was in the mood to kick his own hips but unfortunately, that's impossible.

"Do you want me to help you?" An idea had crept up in Kendall, an idea to get very close to Logan without giving him the wrong idea.

"Kendall, you are already helping me. Trying too, at least."

"Yeah no, I mean. Help you, move. Ya know?" Logan thought for a second, probably trying to figure out what Kendall meant exactly.

"You mean like really, help me?" Kendall nodded, his cheeks burning.

"Okay, sure. Can't hurt, right." Kendall didn't say anything else; he just moved to stand right behind Logan. Close, very close. But he knew he'd get away with it.

"Well you got the first part, right, the knee bobbing?" Logan nodded, not being able to speak for a second. Kendall was SO close. He could feel Kendall's body heat against his back and it felt quite nice, even though he was already sweaty from all of the exercise.

"Then, you just step sideways, extend your hip a little bit there." While Kendall explained what to do, he put his right hand on Logan's hip, pushing both of them to the left.

"Just let the music guide you. Now, while you step to the side, you slide your hand down, like this." To show Logan how, he put his hand on Logan's chest. He slowly stepped to the left again and his hand slid down Logan's torso, stopping just right above his crotch. Kendall knew it was supposed to have your hand more to the side, but he saw Carlos doing it like this, so he figured Logan wouldn't find it odd.

Not that it wasn't odd when you have your best friend pressed against you while he slides his hand down your body.

"The other side." They stepped to the right. Kendall grabbed Logan's left hand and repeated the motion. He was sad he couldn't feel Logan's body anymore, but having his hand on Logan's wasn't a bad replacement at all.

"Let's try it a few more times, okay?" they did. Logan couldn't speak the entire time they were dancing together. He found himself like Kendall's warmth against him. Somehow, it felt safe. It wasn't the first time they were in this position though. Kendall would sometimes hug him from behind, or Logan would lay on top of Kendall when said person took up the whole couch. He pressed himself a little closer to Kendall, wanting more warmth, more safety.

This didn't go unnoticed by Kendall, at all. He suddenly felt Logan leaning back a bit. Logan's butt even created some delicious but very awkward friction for Kendall. Kendall mentally screamed at himself, begging his body not to get hard over this.

"Uh, um, then the kicking, but you got that down too, right?" Kendall awkwardly said.

"Yeah…" Logan finally said.

"And the rest?"

"T-that too… just the first part was very difficult." Kendall chuckled and reluctantly pulled away from Logan.

"You think you like it better now?"

"Yeah, thank you, Kendall." Logan said with a bright smile. Kendall was very happy to see that smile again, so he smiled back.

"No problem."

That night, when everybody was in bed, Kendall was lying on his bed, arms behind his head, staring at the ceiling. He could not fall asleep. He kept thinking about today's events. The was Logan had not issues about dancing with Kendall, the way Logan's body felt under his hand, and most of all, the way Logan pressed closer to Kendall. He couldn't figure out what it meant. Did it even mean something? Probably not, but Kendall hoped it actually meant something to Logan. Kendall looked across the room to see Logan sleeping soundly. The moonlight made sure the room wasn't completely dark, so Kendall could easily make out every part of Logan's form. He could even see Logan was blushing in his sleep. Kendall smiled. It made Logan look even more adorable. He found it weird though, who blushes in his sleep?

Then, Logan started trashing around in his bed, searching for a somewhat comfortable position, or so it seemed to Kendall. He settled for lying on his side, facing Kendall. Logan opened his mouth a bit, a quiet sigh escaping. As if he was content. His hips were moving. Kendall just thought he was dancing in his sleep, until he heard a soft moan. Kendall tensed up.

No. This couldn't be happening. Why couldn't he just fall asleep before Logan? It had happened before, but not with Kendall's new… situation. Not after the things that had occurred only a few hours prior.

Logan was having a fun dream, a wet dream, a sex dream, whatever you wanna call it. Logan's hips moved more in a certain rhythm, and his moans became more frequent. And there was no way Kendall could look away. He was enthralled by the sight before him. He saw Logan's hand coming up.

No! No Logan, don't do what I think you're gonna do. Kendall's brain was loudly yelling. His eyes went wide when he felt his own member grow bit by bit. It happened slowly, but it still happened.

Logan's hand went in his pants, doing exactly the thing Kendall didn't want him to do. He knew Logan's sounds would only increase in volume. His sounds made a direct impact on Kendall's crotch, which was almost fully grown. Logan even started to mumble out some words like 'yes' and 'oh hmm' and Kendall even heard one very soft 'fuck'.

That was it for Kendall. He knew he had to take care of his problem, but wouldn't it be wrong to get off on watching his best friend getting off, even if he had a crush on that best friend? It was really wrong. It didn't stop Kendall though. Yes, it was wrong, but he couldn't pass up the opportunity, because opportunities like this only come once in a lifetime. He just praying Logan wouldn't wake up anytime soon. Logan's noises became more and more high pitched, indicating he was close. Kendall quickly went to stroke himself.

He pumped as fast as he could while staying as quiet as possible. He was trying to catch up with Logan, secretly wanting to come at the same time. It would be difficult to get there so soon, but seeing Logan like that reallyturned Kendall on. After just a few more minutes, Kendall was really close, and he could see Logan being right there with him.

As soon as he saw and heard Logan tumbling over the edge, he came to his climax as well. Logan stopped moving completely and Kendall was breathing heavily. His chest had never moved so rapidly. He felt dirty, but also tired. He fell asleep before having the chance of cleaning himself up.

So that was the longest chapter of all stories I've written so far, and it took me a long damn time. I have like, square eyes now from typing up everything. It's why I didn't check for mistakes. I'm just gonna watch the Voice of Holland right now. Okay so, fun thing, I have no idea where to go with this. I don't even know if they'll get together... I just write. Means, if you have a great idea for it and tell me, I might be able to do something with it. Maybe, it'll even stay one sided ;) xoxo