A/N Hi!!!!! Sorry it's been so long since I've updated. This looks like it could be a trend seeing as this is someone else's computer. My internet is broken. Well, my updates will be in lump sum, but few and far between. Enjoy!!!!!!

EPOV

No good…… Nope….. Not that one either……Bingo. I had found a meal. This is the way I had been living since I realised that Carlisle wouldn't hold me to the "vegetarian diet" against my will. Flitting through random minds until I found someone suitable. It has suited me fine, moving from town to town every few months. Don't want to look too conspicuous. I really can't stay in this place for much longer. I don't know why I even came here in the first place. It's far too bright in the days for me to go outside. I might cause a car crash.

I still visit Carlisle from time to time. I may have gone my own way from him, but he is still like a father to me. I am very close to his entire coven. Well, all but one I suppose. I know I shouldn't say this, but what a dumb blond! She is an example to all the bimbos in the world. Alice, though, has always seemed excited to see me. Perhaps it's because she doesn't have to repeat it every time she has a vision.

While I drink human blood, I would never harm an innocent. The way I work is that I flick through minds until I find someone out to hurt others. It usually isn't that hard to do in these big modern cities. Just look in the dark alleys. Simple as that. It really shows how much society has worsened since when I started my lifestyles. When I started, I would have to drink animal blood from time to time, as people in my time were more conscious about the next life and how they would be stationed in it. They tried not to "sin". As I said, I would never hurt an innocent.

My prey tonight was named Bill, a serial rapist and murderer. He had been thinking about his past victims when he saw a young woman turn into an alley. I watched through his eyes until I saw something that would let me now where he was. When this sight came, I jumped onto the nearest building and began to run and jump across the roof tops. This really was the easiest way to travel around these concrete jungles. I always longed for the times when I was able to run for days without evening coming within 10 miles of a human. Those were the times that I could really enjoy the speed.

When I came near them, I held my breath, as I always do. Give the prey's victim some time before I go into my feeding frenzy. It's kinder and safer for them.

"D-d-don't come near me" I heard the girl say from below. She sounded terrified. As I looked down at her, I thought how fortunate it was that I was going to save her. It would be a pity if someone was denied of that beauty.

As Bill launched into a speech as to what he was going to do to the girl, I threw my body at him. As I was carrying him past the girl, I snapped his neck and made sure that we didn't hit her.

Safety, safety. I really do put a lot of effort into my work. Some might call me a superhero. I wouldn't. I still consider my self a monster most of the time. Not at the times when I'm thirsty though.

When we landed, I finally got a good look at the person I was protecting.

Wow. After my near 110 years of collecting my vocabulary, this was the best thing that I could come up with. Just, wow. I had thought that she was pretty when I threw her a quick glance earlier, but how could I not have noticed how perfect she was? Her skin. Pale for a human, but no where near mine, almost called for my touch. Her hair, mousy brown and pulled back off her face, pulled my hand towards it to stroke it. Her eyes, an unbelievably warm chocolate brown, could have held my gaze forever. Her lips. Oh her lips. The top one was a bit larger than its partner, but that just made them even more perfect. So perfect that I longed to kiss them. Her look of fear on her face made me want to eliminate the very person who put it there. I read her mind to find someway to take that unbearable look off of her face. I tried, but there was nothing there. It was as if there was no one standing there.

Then, I remembered what I was, why I was there, and I knew that I had to send her away. I couldn't risk hurting this perfect angel. "Run" I hissed at her, with the last of the air in my lungs. Thank god I had held my breath. I couldn't bear the thought of trying to hurt her. I waited until I thought that she would be out of range, and then finally drew a breath.

I held back a scream as I stopped myself from running after her. She couldn't have gotten that far, at least, not far enough to be safe from me. Her scent was so strong even after she had left the alley that I literally had to grab onto the metal bar to stop myself from following her. This is torture! How could anyone possibly smell that good?

It took me a long time to steady myself. Not much point putting a good meal to waste, so I started drinking from Bill. So. She appeals to me that much. I thought, not sure whether I was referring to the scent of her blood or how much I longed to be with her.

This can't be right. How can I feel like this? Impossible options fled through my mind. Should I follow her and talk to her? No, I would not be able to control myself. I would be on her the minute I could smell her. Should I try to meet her during the day time and get to know her, maybe start a relationship? Not in this town. Too much sun, and once again with the self-control.

Then, I managed to stop all my selfish thinking and started thinking about what would be best for her. The thought of staying her and just watching her crossed my mind. Find out as much as I could about her, but no. That would still be too risky. How could I have even thought of putting her in danger by being around her? Hadn't my mother raised me - in a very short amount of time I admit - to be a gentleman? I just can't do this to her. Even me being here is a risk to her health. If I was feeding one night and she walked past, she wouldn't stand a chance and neither would I. I had to leave. It would be better for her.