Lily
Sure, meeting my new maybe dads was
Scary, but for some
Reason, meeting their little girl is
Terrifying. Probably cause she already is
Their little girl. What she says matters and I
Don't quite yet so if she doesn't
Like me it's
All over and back
To square one. It feels like an
Audition even though it's
Not and it feels like I have to
Try my best and if I'm
Good enough then I'll get to be part of their
Family and if I'm not I don't.
Lilly goes out to meet them at the
Reception and I stay in the
Little room, the same one with
White walls and blue and green
Sofas on the
Third floor of the LA County
Social Services office. I hear Lilly's
Loud booming voice and her
Pointy heels, loud on the wooden floor outside.
And I close my eyes and wait. When I
Open them, I will have
Seen Lily, the other girl,
For the first time ever, and she will have
Seen me. I silently
Beg for her to like me and for
Me to like her and for us all to get on
Like a family. And then the moment
Passes. She comes in, and I
Open my eyes cause If I sit there
With my eyes closed,
She'll think I'm a weirdo.
But I soon realise that
We get along
Quite well,
And that I like her, maybe even
A bit more
Than her dads, which is saying something
Cause they're the best couple
I've ever met in
One of those meetings.
She's one of the
Cool girls, and she likes
Fashion and gymnastics and
Wants to join the cheer team
As soon as we get to
Middle school.
So she is like the
Opposite of me and my
Nerdy ways, but she's not
Mean or judgy and she likes me
And I like her and with that
She goes back home
With her dads cause
Lilly says time is up
But she says my
Adoption process is moving along
Nice and smoothly and
It looks like it will
Work out. And then I am
So happy I
Squeal a little bit and then
Lilly tells me off for
Distracting her while
She drives, but she's not really
Mad or anything. But I
Enjoy the car ride because
I realise there might not be many trips
Between Oak House and
The Social Services Office
Ever
Again.