I sat up. For some reason, I couldn't remember what I was doing here.

I checked my watch. 8:30…

WHAT!

I stood, as fast as I could. I rose, and sprinted towards the village.

I'm late I'm late I'm late!

I rushed into the school, sprinted up several flights of stairs, and burst into the classroom just as the bell rang. Phew, made it.

Then I heard the whispering.

The fangirls which had usually sighed and started giggling when I entered the room fell silent for a second, and then began whispering. I saw a trio of girls that seemed to be the center of the gossip. One was a redhead, and the other two were blue-haired twin sisters.

Arianna was sitting in the back, as far away from me as possible. When she looked at me, I saw fear there… but also… curiosity.

Then Johan gave me his cruel smile, and I remembered.

I put a hand to my face. I had lived so long with my blindfold that I couldn't tell by sight whether I was wearing it or not; Chakra vision and normal sight had started to blend with each other. I wasn't wearing it.

My purple eyes scanned the class, before I went to my usual seat.

The teacher, Hikari, entered the room in an unusually slutty outfit. I looked away, ignoring the meaningful glances she kept throwing my way.

"All right, today you will receive your mentors and be divided into groups of three…" She began. I tuned her out, staring out the window.

"Johan, Kakari, Lys…" the teacher droned. "Orca, Kite, Laos…"

I watched the sun as it trickled light over the waking village. It is my village. Or rather, was. I thought sadly. After today, I would probably run away, now that my secret was exposed. Maybe the Sand Village would take me. I would go there, and tell Kazekage Gaara that I knew Hokage Naruto; they had always been friends. Maybe he would put me into training with a good teacher, and I could eventually become a Chunin before I did something stupid and had to leave there as well…

"Arianna…" The teacher called. "Shinji…"

I wasn't paying attention.

"Hey, didn't you hear me?" Hikari asked. I sat up.

"What?" I asked. "I'm sorry, I wasn't really listening."

Hikari sighed. "I said, Arianna, Shinji, and Kanda! Move it!" she said. I blinked. Hikari had always been more then polite to me. As I got up, Hikari gave me another look, biting her lower lip, and then licking her lips. I ignored it.

I got up and moved t the door. Arianna and Shinji were waiting with another man. An elite jonin, I guessed.

The man beckoned for us to follow. We walked down the hallway.

We emerged on the roof. The Man beckoned for us to sit on the roof. He then sat as well. He stared at us for a while.

"So you guys are my new Genin." He said. His voice rippled from his throat like water from a pitcher, flowing smoothly. He seemed like the type of guy who enforced the rules, acted like a stickler, but was really underneath a nice guy. And his voice makes him seem like he belongs in a gambling den.

"Yeah." Arianna nodded. She still cast wary glances at me.

'I see." The man said. "Well, say your names, something about you, something you like, something you hate, your home, and something you fear."

Arianna went first, shyly. "Um… I'm Namikaze Arianna. I'm the son of the Hokage and Haruno Sakura, the saviors of the Leaf. I like ice cream, and I hate zits. I was born here in Konoha, and I fear…" she almost glanced at me. Almost. "… I fear spiders." She finished lamely.

Shinji, however, wasn't buying it. "Why don't you tell us about you, first?" he demanded.

The man shrugged. "Fair enough. My name is Inchinda Taechi. I am the cousin of Sakura, the Hokage's wife. My likes are sleeping and not telling people my other likes. My dislikes are people who ask too many questions. My fears are nonexistent."

Shinji smirked. "My name is Shiki Shinji. I have an affinity for Light. I like power. I hate weakness. I was born in the forest, and I fear failing in my life mission

"Kanda?" Taechi asked me.

I sighed. "My name is Inyachi Kanda. I have a demon seal on my chest, the seal of the Demon Tiger. I like swimming, and I hate people who judge others. I was born in the Shadow, and I fear the fangirls."

There was a gasp from Arianna, and Taechi got a faraway look on his face. Shinji smirked for a second, and sent me a semi-sympathetic look.

Taechi. "Now, do any of you know any jutsu?"

Shinji raised his hand. "I know a Light Jutsu."

"I know a few shadow jutsus." I muttered.

"Um…" Arianna stuttered. "I-I kn-know a wind style jutsu that dad taught me…"

"Show me." Taechi-Sensei commanded.

I flipped my hand signs. "Shadow style! Shade of the black moon!" Instantly a beam of blackness blasted from either side of me, flowing out towards the horizon. "It's a paralysis move." I explained to Taechi's raised eyebrow.

Shinji flipped his hand signs. "Light style!" He yelled. "Blades of the Angels Light!" Instantly, seven swords rotated from his hands, slicing while he punched. When he punched a third time, they shot off into the sky. "It's a melee move that Johan taught me."

Johan… Why is it always Johan?

"Um…" Arianna said, flipping hand signs. "W-wind style: Air bullet!" a wave of wind blasted through the area, compressed into a ball about two-by-two feet. It shattered a nearby lamppost. "Oops." She said guiltily.

Taechi smirked. Then he patted our heads. HE was a good foot taller then us, at least seven feet.

"You kids are probably tired." He said. "After your exam yesterday, and the excitement of today, you should take the rest of the day to chill out." He said. He calls THIS excitement? I'm having enough trouble not falling asleep! I thought irritably.

I nodded and immediately started to leave. I had to avoid the fangirls. Then again, maybe they would avoid me, now that my secret was out.

"Oh, Kanda." Taechi said a glint in his eye. "The Hokage himself wishes to see you."

SHIT! I thought, immediately jumping to the next rooftop. The Hokage probably wants to grill me about my past and stuff! DAMNIT!

I was at a loss. A week ago I was thinking that I could measure up against the prying of the fangirls. But now… a single stupid moment had ruined me.

I entered my room in Kiba and Hinata's house silently, through my bedroom window. Likely they were wondering where I had been all night. I look down to my bed side and looked to the large jars of red poison. The density was ideal for coating my blades, and I had done so. They all lay on the floor now. The poison had turned a dry drown, telling me that the poison had dried.

I opened my closet, and grabbed a travel bag. My sword, my kunai, my shuriken, and my knife all went in. Then a black trench coat and a hooded sweat-shirt. A few T-Shirts. A pair of shorts and multiple pairs of long pants.

I grabbed my black blindfold, and bound it over my now purple eyes. Slinging the travel bag over my shoulder, I grabbed my final item: my chain, the one I had left Shadow Village with.

I froze suddenly, dropping the weapons and the travel bag. Someone was outside my room. I sensed a gray chakra. A sharp knock snapped me from my thoughts. I stood from my bed, quickly jumping over the weapons on the floor and made it to the door.

"Yes?" I called out, firmly placing my hand against the door. My paranoia just hit an all time high…

"Oh. I was not sure if you were in there. You've been so quiet." A womanly voice answered. I had to stop myself from groaning in annoyance.

"What is it Hinata?" I asked.

Slowly opening the door a small ways, I was sure that my body was in the way of the sight behind me. Hinata and Kiba were the only people I didn't hide my demon seal around. The woman smiled up to me with uncertainty. I felt my brow quirk. I had paid the amount I owed and more, so I could stay without being pestered for the next month. What could she be bothering me with now?

She avoided my eyes nervously. The way she has begun to act towards me has begun to remind me of a fangirl. Dear god, I pray that isn't the case. Her husband would be the death of me. I have no desire to be chewed at by thousands of attack dogs.

"I…" She paused, seemingly forcing herself to find the nerve to continue. Then practically yelled in my face. "I came to bring you to the table."

I almost took a step back as I stared down at her in bemusement. She looked proud of herself, giving me the impression that it was a demand more then it was an invitation. It seems the money I gave them made them want to accept me… or they may be having a greed moment of sorts. I inwardly sighed in defeat. It was damn near impossible to argue against a woman that had given birth anyhow.

"Fine. Please just give me a moment to make myself decent." I nodded

She suddenly brightened and smiled, giving me an eager nod before turning her yell to tell her husband and child I was finally joining them for dinner. I didn't know they wanted me to join them so much… I could hear the child giving a short cheer and her husband chuckling. He did not seem the least bit phased by my carrying a demon on my chest. In fact he seemed to be slightly proud, though he was not open about it.

I took my white T-Shirt from the chair and put it on before pulling on a fresh pair of gray pants. A full plate of food did sound very appetizing. Strength did not come from endurance alone. I picked the blindfold off of my face. It was soaked in sweat, very uncomfortable. Setting it back down to dry, I hesitated at the door for a long moment before forcing myself down the stairs. This would be the first time that they would see my eyes.

Seated on the bottom step waiting for me was the daughter herself, to my surprise. I stopped my walk just behind her, trying my best not to frighten her.

"Aren't you going to eat?" I asked softly. My efforts proved to be futile as Shino jumped away from the stair and looked to me with wide eyes. I gave a small smile before covering my eyes with my fingers.

"Remember me now?" She broke into a smile, before giggling at me.

"Yes!" She confirmed, glancing towards the table before leaning closer.

Cupping her little hands around her mouth to whisper to me. I humored her by leaning down and doing the same with my ear to hear her. "You helped me get away from the shadow man."

I leaned back and gave a nod. Her smile widened even more then I was pulled to the table by the hand. Shadow man… She remembers when I helped her. I had a soft spot for the little girl. She was about six.

"He came down!" She called out happily, pushing me into a seat.

"Now Shino, there's no need to handle Kanda like that." Hinata scolded with a grin of her own. Kiba shook his head, his lips twitching into a small smile, and then dinner was served.

Dinner with them wasn't as I thought it was going to be. I was not interrogated as severely as when I first came to them. Only a curious question every now and then and Kiba's dog begging for scraps of food.

"How did you get the money for the rent?" Hinata asked.

"My job." I answered.

"What is your job?" Kiba asked.

"I help Farina with her weapons forge." I replied.

"Why do you constantly wear that rag around your eyes?" from Shino.

"It helps protect my eyes from the dust." I lied.

"Will you be joining us again?" from Hinata

"I don't know." I answered honestly.

"Did you like it better in the Shadow village or the Leaf?" Kiba asked.

"Leaf, definitely." I nodded. "In the Leaf I'm not following the orders of that psychopath Sasuke. And I never killed anyone without reason here either…"

"What do you mean?" Sethio asked.

I stopped eating. Remembering my first real kill…

"Let's just say its better here." I said softly. Kiba didn't push it.

After we finished dinner, I decided to be helpful. Instead of having Hinata do all of the dishes, I made a small ball of chakra. I passed it over each of the plates. When I removed it, it had incinerated every bit of remnants on the plates. Hinata and Kiba looked at me with gratitude.

Before I go tonight, I will need to try on that weapon I got the other day. I thought, returning to my room. I had long since planned to buy it, but I had never found it anywhere. I had finally gone to Farina, and she had made it.

It was a hidden blade.

A few minutes and numerous drops of blood later, I was beginning to regret my decision.

Gritting my teeth, I held my bleeding hand and glared down to the damned hidden blade. I had tried it on my right hand, and then my other hand, with the same result. Now both my right index finger and my left ring finger bled with skin hanging off the side. I could not find an easy way to get the blade to come out and stay out without having to clench my fists. How the hell do I use it effectively? Was it a trick of the hand? I could barely keep it on without the blade carving at my fingers.

Reaching down the side of my bed, I took hold of the ball of ripped rags and old tunics. Unraveling some from the ball, I dunk it into the water basin and used it to clean my new wounds before bandaging them with a sigh. Now I had to be wary of infection, adding wood to the fire of my paranoia. It could have been worse, I guess. What if I had gone with my original thought and coated it with poison before trying it on?

When I finished bandaging my hands I buried my face within them. Blood seeped through the material, meaning I would need to stitch them shut, and I didn't know how to use a needle and thread. Perhaps if I asked Hinata? She was a woman, and knew how to mend clothes. Why not flesh?

Slightly turning my head to the water basin, I reached out and pushed it off. It fell to the floor, breaking with a loud enough crash. I pushed the hidden blade under the pillow, my other weapons and the poison safely hidden under the bed (I should really have thought twice about reaching under the bed). I reburied my face into my hands and waited. Sure enough, soft footsteps came up the stairs and knocked at my door a little while after.

"Kanda? Are you alright? I heard a crash." Hinata's voice sounded, genuinely concerned.

The sound of the tone of her voice brought a sad smile to my face. I dimly recalled my mother sounding very similar. I pushed myself from the bed to answer the door, completely bare from the waist up. Hinata and her husband wouldn't care about me not hiding the seal as long as they saw blood.

I opened the door slowly, acting a bit hesitant. She looked me over, her face suddenly flushed and she avoided looking at me. I looked to her innocently and gave a slight head tilt. "Is something wrong?"

She still did not turn to me and spoke. "Well… no. I heard a crash and came to see if you were alright."

"Oh." I replied before looking back to the broken basin, 'accidently' opening the door a bit wider.

"Just a little accident. I tried to pick up the pieces but…" I trailed off and showed her my bandaged hands with a small smile. Seeing IS believing… from what I've heard.

She peeked into the room and saw the broken pottery, before giving out a gasp when she took in the sight of my hands, taking them into her own for inspection.

"Kanda, these need stitching! Hurry. Down to the dining table." She ordered, pulling me out of my doorway and pushed me towards the stairs.

I heard as the door was slammed closed behind us as I walked down the stairs. I didn't think it work out so well. I felt myself smirk as she rushed into the hall and I took my seat at the table. I was beginning to removed the bandages when Shino ran inside through the back door. Stopped and came over to me. Here eyes shining in curiosity.

"Why are you naked?" She asked, staring at my demon-seal before looking down to my hands and flinch away when I revealed my blood soaked index finger.

I gave a soft chuckle. "I'm not naked. I just had an accident."

She gave out a soft 'oh' as I revealed the other blood soaked digit. She came closer and glanced to me with a soft pout. "Does it hurt?"

She took the bloody rags from my hand and put them on the table before taking one of my hands into her own, looking at it closely. I guess this was the first time she seen anything like this.

"Not as much as it's about to hurt." I told her as Hinata returned with a jar, needle, gauze and thread.

She shooed her daughter away and took the seat across from me, ordering me to place one of my hands on the table, palm up. I complied. Shino took a seat on the chair beside us. The both of us watched as her mother worked.

At first she looked over my finger and seethed as if she could feel my pain and took the lid from the jar. A strong herb smell quickly filled the air around us. Shino covered her nose and looked away. I was confused as to why she would look away… then Hinata spread a thick layer of the salve onto my finger.

I felt as though she was shoving countless needles into the wound, and I instantly seethed in pain.

Now I understood why Shino looked away!

Hinata shook her head and wiped the salve off with the gauze and muttered something along the lines of 'men' before threading the needle. The horrible sting in my finger did not fade away. But it did block out the pain of the needle and thread tugging and pulling my jarred skin together. I closed my eyes, blocking all pain...

Flashback:

"The body must obey the will." Sasuke spoke. He had observed my training with interest. "Hunger, pain, and thirst, even the blood on your veins, are the body's weakness. Master them, and you master yourself." Sasuke grabbed a knife, and sliced it into his hand, face blank. Then, with a green glow, he healed it. "This is the power of the Shadow Clan. This the way of the Ninja." He looked at us, me and my two training mates in the Shadow Clan: Hantan and Seiris, impassive. "Eat now, and you work twice as hard tomorrow."

End Flashback.

She finished with my index finger and asked for my other hand. I was hesitant, and eyed the jar warily. It looked like it was mocking me… now I have to worry about my mental health. I just said a jar was mocking me.

Hinata rolled her eyes and took my hand. "Honestly. You've endured it this far, you can surely go though it one more time."

I watched in slow horror as she dipped her hand back into the jar.

"I didn't think this would involve torture."

She laughed and smoothed the salve over my finger. I went through the very same hell again.

When she finished I withdrew my hand protectively. She smiled, and gave me a treat to share with her daughter for being 'good', and not running from her, like her husband often does. I couldn't help but smirk at that and enjoyed my treat. Shino was happy to have gotten something sweet. I guess it was good to have an apple covered in chocolate every now and then. I hadn't had one since… Actually, I think this is the first time…

I thanked Hinata for helping me and went back to my room. I cleaned the mess I had made and lay in my bed. Mentally preparing myself for what I was going to do. I still had hours before the sunset, and I needed to build enough nerve to escape or fight my way out… and it would most likely end up being both. I let out a shuddering sigh and draped an arm over my eyes. I needed more than just luck on my side if I wanted to live. If Konoha's rules about Genin leaving their hometown were the same as in Shadow Village, there would be elite ninja on my trail very soon. Hokage Naruto had seemed like a nice enough man, but I knew that Sasuke often pretended to be nice, and let out his true nature of evil when he wanted to. And since Sasuke and Naruto had trained together, then there must be some similarities between them…

Blinking my eyes open, I was met with total darkness. The softest rays of moonlight, forcing their way through the cracks of the boarded windows. When did I fall asleep? How long was I sleeping?

I sat up, snatching my weapons hurriedly. My short katana was strapped to my back, hilt protruding just over my right shoulder. Kunais were placed in appropriate places. Shuriken were placed in their pouch. The hidden blade was placed into the travel bag with a glare. My chain was wrapped around me bandolier style. I quickly wrapped my blindfold around my face and tucked my hair inside. I walked to the open window and jumped through. Instead of using my ladder, I ran up the wall on the other building beside my home and grasped the ledge, hauling myself up. Any ninja sent after me would have the advantage if I were on the ground. Standing up, I scanned around for any figures on the other roofs before I began to run. If it was anything like Shadow Village, they would find me; and before then it would be best if I got used to rooftops.

I came to a stop when I approached a set of beams. Two going directly across to the opposite building, three between them set vertically. If I do this right, I'll be able to get across just by jumping from beam to beam. Giving my own thought a nod of agreement, I took a few steps back. Then took four quick strides before giving one leap after another until my foot touched concrete. My arms flailed as I fought to regain my balance before letting myself fall to my knees, taking deep breaths to calm my rapidly beating heart. This is something I am clearly not used to and having weapons strapped on the back makes balancing a lot more challenging. I mentally complained.

Getting back up, I checked my weapons. After I found none had fallen or became slack, I started running again. I arrived near the plaza after a few minutes, maybe even hours of running and jumping through the air (more jumping and climbing than anything else). My nerve and stamina were both beginning to weaken, my adrenalin long gone. I hadn't found any ninja hunting for me yet. With a sigh I turned around… and lo and behold, two ninja stood there. They were wearing all black, and their faces were obscured by large hoods. My body involuntarily stiffened and my blood ran cold, my hand immediately shot out to my katana. Damn! I was hoping to catch any pursuit from a farther range to shoot my shuriken!

One of the ninjas was male. He turned to his accomplice and made a head motion towards me. She nodded, and the male leaped to my rooftop.

"Draw your weapon." The ninja before me commanded, pointing to me with his blade. A confident smirk graced his lips, sending my mind back to thinking I was going to die. SHIT.

Glancing to the other figure warily, I flinched when she made a sound of impatience that came out like a growl and drew my short katana, switching it over to my right hand before turning my attention back to the man holding his blade at me. His smirk unnerved me, and he began to tilt his sword; taunting me. He took few steps to my left, keeping his sword pointing at me. In turn, I stepped to my right and stopped before I got too close to the ninja who was merely watching. I did not want my back turned towards either of them.

He stopped, now closer to my far left. We simply stared at one another for a brief moment. As unsure and frightened as I was, I raised my blade higher; holding it up just below my eyes as I reached for a dagger in my belt with my left hand. His smirk turned to a grim line, and he stepped forward, pushing my short katana aside with a sword and lunged at me. My heart skipped a beat and I quickly ducked, countering his attack by swinging my dagger across his abdomen. He leaped over me, avoiding my counter and from above he brought his sword down upon me. I quickly raised my short katana above my head to defend myself. We were stuck in an odd position. He stood over me, pushing his long sword against my blade as I was nearly bent backwards, down on one knee, my back facing him. My arm began to shake under his strength. He was staring at my sword. I noticed the dried brown of the poison.

"Strange… you'd best think of purchasing a replacement." He commented.

My eyes narrowed to a glare. Then I was sharply shoved forward, landing face first against the concrete roof top. I heard them laugh as I scrambled back to my feet, swinging my blade at him consistently, one blow after another, and my face burning with embarrassment.

"It's! Not! Rusted!" I yelled between blows, backing him to the ledge of the building. He looked taken off his guard as he glanced back to observe the height of the fall if he were to take another step back. Granting me the opportunity to copy his recent move and shove his blade aside.

"It's poisoned." I finished with a cut on his forearm, quickly taking a few steps back as he regained his balance. His teeth bared and clenched to grit as he looked down at his arm, he let out of quiet hiss of pain; the poison was reacting quickly enough! I felt well accomplished as I backed from him and the look of worry flashed over his features.

My heart dropped to the pits of my stomach when he simply brushed off my earlier statement and came at me, swinging his sword down towards my shoulder. I did what my mind screamed and ran out of his reach, stopping abruptly when I came a few inches or so from crossed arms and a pair of breasts: nearly running into the other, female ninja. She stood as tall as me, but was standing on a rooftop a few inches higher then mine. She stared down at me before her eyes jumped to look past me. I dove to my right in a quick roll. The sound of steel clashing against steel rung in the air. I turned back to find a sword being held at bay by a kunai; the ninja had not been able to stop himself from attacking his accomplice. The ninja that had attacked blinked; his shoulders slumped and he backed away from his accomplice with a look of utter confusion and rubbed his eyes.

"What is it?" The watcher asked, sheathing her kunai. The other held his arm and fell to his knee, making the accomplice worry. "What's wrong?" she snapped, taking hold of the male's shoulders. He shook his head, holding his hand against his skull.

"It wasn't an idle threat. My arm has gone numb and my vision…" He said softly, his sword falling out of his hand with clatter on the roof.

In truth I didn't know how fast the poison worked, but I did remember what the merchant had said to me: it will become deadly within an hour. Suma plant is the cure. It was one of the simplest poisons. I did not want to die by simply pricking a finger and the amount of time he had had to make it made it impossible to make a stronger dose.

Wait. That's what I wanted wasn't it? To kill anyone who tried to stop me?

"Kill him." The fallen ninja seethed.

I jumped to my feet and backed away from the two. The accomplice ninja taking her friend's kunai. Her features set in a sneer. I couldn't even see if it was a ninja I knew: her mask took even that from me.

"Wait!" I called out desperately.

She did not stop. She began to circle me like an animal of prey, her form bent low as if she were coiled and ready to strike at any given moment, backing me to the edge of the roof where I had backed the other ninja just a moment ago. My breathing became erratic; a million reasons came to me of why I should live. My better instincts telling me to jump, sprint, leap- anything to get away from the ninja circling me. I wasn't skilled enough to beat them. I was just a Genin.

"If you feed him suma plant he will be fine!" I pleaded. I could feel the edge of the roof with my feet. I did not dare tear my gaze away from her to examine the fall and tried my best to convince her I was nothing worth killing.

"Silence." She snapped, lunging forward. I avoided by running to the other side of the roof, when I turned, her kunai came upon me. I blindly raised my blade to block it, but instead of feeling the weight of her blade clashing against mine I was shoved back into the wall, the kunai against my throat and the long sword pointed at my ribcage. Her hips were pressed into mine, as she pinned me by straddling me on the wall, her chakra sticking her feet to the wall like glue. It would have been an enticingly sexual position, were it not for the sword and the kunai. My arms flung from their place at my sides before I stopped within the mid-action of shoving her away from me. All she had to do was swiftly pull the kunai or push the sword through me and I would die, leaving nothing of value behind or even a fond memory for others to remember me by.

I could feel tears brimming my eyes. I had wanted a nice life; nothing extravagant, no huge dreams of glory. Just a normal life. Instead I get… this? Fangirls, a tolerant family using me for money, and a demon living in my body? I may not have been the most honorable of thirteen year old Genin, but I expected a better death than this!

She turned from me. Going back to her dying friend. More heat rose to my face. Heat of rage, offence and humiliation. Was she too far above me to kill me, now? That arrogant piece of shit!

"Why do you act like that?" I demanded.

She picked her friend from the floor, supporting him up. In a fit of rage I quickly took out my shuriken, taking aim. But she still didn't turn to look at me.

"Answer me!" I bellowed.

She turned, barely fazed that I had a shuriken aimed to her chest. She just stared directly at me, a look of pity in her eyes.

"What makes you so much better than me? Why didn't you kill-?"

Why didn't you kill me?

I hadn't realized that tears streamed from my eyes until my voice cracked in a choked sob. My shoulders shook uncontrollably and my aim faltered immensely. The ninja turned from me again, walking to the edge of the roof before looking back to me.

"This isn't over." she said. And jumped, leaving my line of sight. I threw my shuriken onto the concrete with a yell and threw myself back against the wall she had me pinned to only moments ago.

She was supposed to kill me…

I felt myself slide down the wall. Sitting against the wall, the sun beginning to rise, the wall that supported me shading me from its rays. I grit my teeth fiercely bringing my arm to my eyes. I want it all to end- I want it all to go away.