A/N: Thanks to everyone who reads this! Feel free to review. As I said before this is my first ever Fanfic so I know there is room for plenty of improvement. And I already know my grammar and spelling isn't perfect, but I am studying to improve this. If you would like to follow me on Tumblr, My it is here, .com/ And enjoy!
The drive home for Finn was extremely challenging. One, because of the chain of thoughts about his sexuality running through his mind. And two, the uncomfortable mess he made in his jeans. He knew people were aware about their sexual orientation at his age but he came down to the decision that maybe his body is just asking him to experiment. It could also be the fact that he's jealous of Sam's amazing athletic body, and just wants to get close and feel what such a perfect set of abs could feel like.
"Damn, I need to work out more." he said as he edged up to the driveway beside the house. He sat in his car for a few more seconds as he slowly lifted up his shirt. Looking down, he took in the way his own stomach presented itself. He wasn't over-weight, but then again he wasn't slim either. It upset him to think that he was just as physical as Sam yet they didn't look the same. Moments passed and Finn was still sat there staring at himself. He was cut off by a loud tap on the window. It was Kurt. He was wearing a blue vintage Chanel jacket that was probably females, but as he mentioned to people before 'Fashion has no gender.'
"FINN! What the hell are you doing? You've been sat there for twenty minutes!" He screamed. Finn jumped out of his skin and just glanced out the window.
"Wow, this is awkward." He whispered back. Slowly, he opened his door and stepped outside. The cold breeze hit him like a punch in the face as it was a huge contrast to the warmth in his car. "Um Kurt, I need to talk to you about something…" He was talking without thinking. But he knew he had to speak to Kurt about it sometime.
"I think I'm the wrong guy. Maybe you want to see a doctor about how you were staring at your belly for almost half an hour. But go ahead I guess, I just really don't understand what this has to do with me"
"Just shut up and listen will you? I… I think I have feelings for Sam. Like gay feelings…" Finn looked away feeling tears fill his eyes. Wow this is difficult. Now I totally understand why people find it hard to talk about things like this. " Can we like not talk about this here? I'd much rather go inside. Plus its starting to rain again."
Throughout Finn's explanation, Kurt's jaw just dropped and hung there. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. But Finn was his brother and he had to be loveable and caring. Which is exactly how he was treated by his dad in this situation. Eventually Kurt managed to push out a "Yeah okay." As the both made their way into the house.
When they made it to Finn's room Kurt said "Finn I totally understand what you are going through, and I want you to know that no matter how this plays out, I am here for you. More than anyone else. But I have to say, I always knew you weren't into girls. We don't have this 'Gaydar' for nothing you know!" He chuckled sitting on the end of Finn's bed and watched him pace up and down.
"Kurt! Please, I don't know if this is definite. I think its just my body wanting to experiment. Or maybe I'm just jealous of Sam's body. Which explains why I was looking at myself" He walked over his bedroom door and poked his head out hoping nobody else was listening in on their conversation.
"Come sit down. Why don't you tell me about how you started to feel like this?" Kurt moved up making room for him and he gently patted the space beside him.
"Umm okay. After the whole problem where I told Rachel I didn't want to sing with her anymore, and then I chose Sam, I bumped into him in the corridor. And he started to flirt with me, then he slowly lifted his shirt and tensed his stomach." Finn felt an uncomfortable strain in his briefs again, so he shifted hoping Kurt wouldn't notice. "I just got these shivers up my spine, and a spark in me that I have never felt with anyone else."
"Well I suggest that you let your body follow what it wants. But the problem is Rachel. She needs to know."
"I'd rather find out what this is before making any choices. We will be facing a slushy in the face at least twice a day. Although I'm not sure which is worse: a slushy or Rachel. She'd go insane."
Kurt laughed and replied, " She would probably write a huge ballad about it, and demand she sings it to everyone."
"True that. Anyway Sam is coming round this evening to practice our duet. And I am planning on speaking to him about it. Kurt how did you do it, this is the most difficult thing I have ever done!"
"Its a gift. And a lot of Lupone, Streisand, and of course Gaga. Now don't forget to close your door, lock it, and keep the noise down."
"What, like you and Blaine do?"
"I'll pretend I didn't hear that." Kurt replied he got up and exited Finns room and made his way downstairs to his room.
"Just like how I pretend I don't hear you" Finn laughed. He felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and slowly pulled it out. It was Sam.
Hey Finn, Just checking it was still okay to stay over tonight? I acted like a total ass earlier. And I'd understand if your not interested. Sam x
Not interested? Finn thought. He didn't always catch on to things as quick as others especially with his dancing. So he simply replied,
Dude, its fine! Got some awesome song ideas for our duet. Catch you later! Finn x
He spent about five minutes deleting and re-adding the kiss to the end of the text, confused as to whether it was important or not. Eventually he sent it and didn't regret his choice. This instantly brought back all the memories of the car incident, and he remembered he needed to shower.
It was 6:45 and Finn was starting to get nervous. The thoughts about his body still tried to keep into his mind. But he forced them out by convincing himself that Sam has seen him naked in the showers after a game loads of times. After a while he started to sweat and panic. Every second he was peering out his window onto the dark street ahead that was dimly lit by street lamps. Although the day had been stormy, the sky was now clear with hundreds of stars that filled it. "At least your positive" Finn huffed and stumbled back to his bed. He barely touched the cloth when he heard the doorbell ring. Having leapt to his feet he sprinted down the stairs, pulled the door open and nearly fell out straight into Sam.
"Woah, easy dude." Sam grabbed Finn by the shoulders and helped him catch his balance. "Whats gotten into you?"
"Im sorry, I'm just nervous. I mean excited. No umm… sorry. Sam would you like to come in?" Finn stepped back in through the door and purposely ushered him towards the stairs.
Sam gently smiled at Finn and made his way upstairs. He purposely wore his skinny beige jeans that showed off his ass perfectly. To match the jeans he also wore a white shirt with a black pinstriped waistcoat. Dress to impress was certainly not included with the invitation, but he wanted to try and get into Finns good books. Sam's has always known he was gay, but choosing to not act on it never helped the way he came across. And now he decided to be true to himself.
Having reached Finn's room they both sat on his bed. Sam stared into Finn's trying to notice the same passion he felt about him. There was something there but he needed to release it. He reached across and rubbed Finn's leg gently making him flinch.
"Can I try something? he asked Finn moving closer to him. A smile appeared on his face.
"You have a duet idea?" Finn replied, with a confused look on his face. How he can be so oblivious to Sam's flirting is ridicules, but his nerves were so high that anything could happen.
"No silly… I want to kiss you"
"Oh…Umm, wait there." Finn blushed and walked up to the door. He slowly closed it and turned the lock. "I kinda want to talk about this first Sam"
"Okay. I totally get this may be weird for you. But what ever makes you happy." Sam watched Finn return to his seat, and he replaced his hand on his leg.
"I don't want you to feel like I don't want to, you know, do this. But I've never had these feelings before and its strange. Im not sure if I'm gay or bisexual, whatever. But I am willing to experiment. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I like you Sam. And If thinks don't work out the way we want, I will always be your friend." Sam was heart felt by his speech and Finn was just shocked with himself. He's never opened to anyone like this, it actually convinced him that maybe he is finding out his true self. The next thing he knew Sam's lips we lightly pressed against his. His arms flew up in protest but slowly relaxed onto the boy's manly shoulders in front of him. It felt amazing, like no other kiss he has had before. Sam's huge lips were soft and covered Finn's perfectly. There was a faint sweet taste to him that he figured out to be strawberry chap-stick. When the kiss parted finn was stunned. "Wow, that felt amazing!"
"Finn, I'm in the same boat as you. I've never done anything with a guy before. What you said was amazing, and I never want to hurt you either. Now, can we do that again?" Sam didn't wait for an answer but rolled himself on top of Finn as their lips met again. This time the passion between them was extreme. He placed his hand on Finn's chest for support and Finn's hand worked his way up sam's top to massage his abs.
"Your body is perfect" Finn breathed against Sam's lips as his hand continued to rub up and down his body occasionally brushing his nipples which sent a rush right through the both of them.
Sam wanted to spice things up a little more so he sucked on Finn's bottom lip a little harder, then replaced it with his tongue demanding entrance to Finns mouth. When this was granted Sam and Finn immediately started to battle for dominance, moaning after every other breath. Sam couldn't believe he was doing this to Finn Hudson. The most popular guy in the whole of Mckinley High, and he could be his.
They'd been making out for about half an hour when finally Finn broke it. "As hot as this is, we should start work on our duet. Mr Schue wants to hear something from us tomorrow." He regretted mentioning this, as he instantly wanted to jump back onto Sam's face.
"Oh Finn, can't we just show the class what we were really doing and make out on the floor in front of them?"
Finn leaned over again, chuckle and kissed Sam once more before setting up his laptop ready for them to work.
"The quicker we get this done, the quicker we can stay up all night experimenting" Finn said staring deeply into Sam's eyes. Which was what Sam was looking for in Finn the whole evening.