That party night came and I wish time would spin faster as it used to. I am definitely not enjoying myself. I'm just whispering to myself that I am doing this for Jake, that I he needs strength, he needs me there. I know what you're thinking, that I am just the best friend, always there for him, always there to support him, but will always be wrong for him. It hurts every time I think that Jake and I will never ever be together. But I guess happy ending was something I couldn't afford.
"Hey Lee. I'm so glad you're here." Jacob greeted, as he gave me a big tight hug. You know, that was one of the things I love about Jake, he's never embarrassed to show his affection to me, anytime, anywhere, and I love to see the spawn turn into some green eyed flesh eating monster. I laughed at the thought. I realized that I was daydreaming again and Jake was looking weird at me.
"Sorry," I said, and then I laughed. He was really handsome that night, his tux fit him perfectly. He looks like a knight in shining armor, though I'm not the one who wears the costume of the princess.
The party was a blast, and I found myself exhausted, even though I didn't do anything. Looking at Renesmee is exhausting. As I stepped out from the Cullen's doorstep, I heard a familiar voice calling my name, asking me to wait for him. I even heard them fight.
"Aren't you gonna stay with me? It's my birthday." Renesmee demanded.
"I already did, I wanna rest now. Good night Ness." Jake said, giving her a peck on the cheek, and then calling my name to tell him he's coming. See? That's what I love about Jake; he's my partner in crime.
"Looks like you ruined the night of the melodramatic queen." I said.
"Nah, she'll be okay, she can process it all now." He replied, putting his arm on my shoulder. We walked away from the pack; we walked to the woods and hang out on our favorite tree. Jake and I loves high places, it's like we can always see the world.
"The moon looks good tonight." I said.
"Everything looks good when I'm with you." He said as pulled me closer to him and hugged me tight. Jake and I have the perfect relationship, maybe because we have the invisible commitment. We know what we have is wrong, but we don't mind. We just treat each other as lovers if we really need each other to act like that, but most of the time, we're the best of friends.
The morning after, I found myself on my bed, with Jake. He was snoring beside me. I laughed at him, and carefully crawl out of the bed, so it won't wake him up. I go straight to the bathroom and brushed my teeth, after that I saw him, already awake.
"Good morning sleepy head." I said, jumping on the bed, giving him a peck on the cheek.
"Good morning beautiful." He replied as he pulled me down and gave me a kiss.
As much as I love to have him all day, I know that I do not own him, nature needs him, and furthermore, Nessie do. It's so hard to think that I am stuck in a situation like this, you might say he's taking me for granted, but you know, when you love someone, you just don't care. It's the kind of love that makes you wanna be forever young, that even if its rains all day and you know that a huge flood will drown you both, you're not worried because you know you have him by your side. But every time I think that we're not really in a relationship, it hurts. Maybe I need to start learning to accept that we are nothing.