Breath me in

by buffyTheGleekslayer

Santana and Rachel try do deal with there relationships and not screw everything they've worked so hard for. Quinchel and Santany

2. Dinner

I smiled at my father from my bed. "I told you I'm fine daddy." He smiled.
"Your sad baby girl, just tell me what it is that's going on..." He said his arms crossed across his chest. "If its Finn or Jessie of something... I'll I'll." he pounded his fist into his open palm. "and and.."
"Its not daddy." I sat up I'd never lied to my parents before, "Its just..." My phone went off.
"Its just?" I looked at the text "Quinn..."
"Quinn?" he raised an eye brow.
"no...I mean yes, but not, but yes umm.. Can I have a moment daddy?" He nodded "Take your time honey." I flipped open my phone.

What are you doing right this minute?
Q

Nothing?
xRBBX

Good can you come over?
Q

Yes...?
xRBBX

I'll tell you when you get here!
Q

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"San.." Brittany giggled from behind me.. "San look!" I turned around to look at the blonde. She had a little stuffed bunny in her hands and she was making him dance. His long legs and arms sailing through the air. "Its Finn!" she laughed. "And this ones Rachel!" she picked up a small teddy bear. "and this ones, Quinn." she picked up a Barbie and shoved it in my face.
"Isn't she a little to tall to be Quinn?" I asked "Yeah but she's not really flexible so she can't be me." I laughed.
"hmm true true!"
"so did you find one?" she asked casting the toys aside. I nodded

"umm yeah either this or maybe this one. I said pointing at the two songs I'd pick out for us to Shuesters in the moment assignment. "depending on witch on you want!" I smiled.

"I love when Mr.. shue makes us pick names out of the hat." She smiled, Me too everytime I reached in that damn thing I pulled out B's name.

"I do to!" I said turning around to face the computer again, "I'm going to look them up so you can hear them." I said. I felt the bed dip as she moved closer wrapping her arms around my stomach and resting her head on my shoulder. "K this ones call, Dance inside." she nodded and kissed my shoulder.
"K..." I smiled. The song played and she smiled.

You don't have to move, you don't have to speak. Lips for biting. Your staring me down a glance makes me weak. Eyes for striking. Now I'm twist up when I'm twisted with you. Brush so lightly. And time trickles down and I'm breathing for so tightly. I'll be fine, you'll be fine. This moment seems so long! Don't waste new precious time. We'll dance inside the song. What makes them want to shack you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound. Say now you want to shack me too, move down to me slip into you! She sinks in my mind as she sheds through her skin. Touch, sight, taste like fire! Hands do know what eyes no longer defended. Hands to fuel desire. I'll be fine, you'll be fine. This moment seems so long. Don't waste new precious time. Well dance inside the song. What makes the one to shack you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound, Say now you want to shack me too, move down to me slip into , ah ooo ah ooo ah ooo ah X2 And I'll be fine you'll be fine, Is this fine I'm not fine. Give me pieces give me things to stay awake. What makes them want to shack you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound say now you want to shack me too. Move down to me slip into you, What makes them want to shack you down? Each touch belongs to each new sound say now you want to shack me too. Move down to me slip into you, move down to me slip into you.

"I like that one! Lets do it!" she beamed shaking me a little.
"K hold on, there's another song and this ones a real duet so we don't have to work that out all on are own and well have more time to just sit back an relax..."
"or work on dance steps!" she squealed "or that!" I turned and looked at the blonde resting on my shoulder, "I love you." I said planting a kiss on her cheek.
"I know San and I love you too." I smiled cause this is how it was suppose to be no damn human jelly fish causing a 'but' and with a little time and a little coming out, we'd be like this every where. "Kay this one is... Called." I typed the name of the artist in a few minutes before but I had so many damn windows open I had to find it."oh here the damn thing is!"
"That's a funny name." She joked giving me a little squeeze.
"sorry." Said getting the hint. "It's called Oh Darling..."

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"So he... He broke up with you?" I asked looking at the smiling blonde. "I know right! I got in the damn truck and he turned and told me that he didn't want to be with me cause I don't feel and some other shit but... He broke up with me! And now..." She stopped and looked at me with concern. "Why are you not smiling?"
"Becaus... He broke up with you Quinn this doesn't change anything!" I all but yelled. "I mean yeah I'm happy that his nasty mongers body will never even attempt to touch you again, but... But it doesn't change anything cause you were not the one to do it!" She stood up from her bed.
"Rachel." she reach out to take my hand.
"No, you don't understand Quinn... Just because HE broke up with you, it doesn't change anything...it Doesn't." I said wiping tears from my eyes. She reached out for me and I reached out to push her way, "don't" I begged trying to turn away. She grabbed my arms and face me towards her.
"Hey." she said softly.

"don't" I begged trying to get way but the girl had the damn grip of a cheerio and it was strong enough to hold me like a vise grip and soft enough to send a warm sensation through my body. "Look...at Me Rachel." She eased the words out the best she could as I struggled trying to brake her grasp. "look... I know I should have been the one to brake up with him."
"Your damn right.." I stopped squirming and look at the blonde.
"I should have done it a long time ago, but... I just... I don't know...I Felt like if I did I out both of us and that didn't do Kurt to well in this school... People already treat you like shit Ray... I didn't want to be the cause of more abuse towards you... Never again, I want to be what protects you, I have to be... Your so important, and I don't want to mess it up..So I had to stay with Finn. But now that he's broken up with me, I'm yours completely just like you want, no one else get to kiss me or hold me... Just you." I'd dropped my guard and she pulled me in to a warm hug. "I'm sorry I'm a coward."
"I'm sorry you are too." I smiled. She laughed and I could tell she was biting her bottom lip like she did when she was trying not laugh at something she clearly thought was funny.
"the only problem now is his got his sights set for my girl and I'm going to take a note from Santana and go lima heights on his ass." she said in a serious tone.
"hey have you and Sam planed out your song yet?" I asked cheerfully.
"Just like my girl, to change the subject to music." she said shacking her head and letting me go laughing.

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"Arighty then whose up first?" Mr. shue asked clasping his hands together.
"I am.. I mean me and Britts that is.." He nodded and she smiled at me. We got to the front and I felt my throat go dry. I took a deep breath. 'you can do this santana.' I looked over at Brittany she was staring at Quinn with a confused look. I shook my head. "Ahh before we, we sing." I tired not to stumble through my words I had to be brave in case someone didn't understand in case someone didn't like it, I had to show them that I was still Santana mother fucking Lopez, maybe not MOTHER fucking but still I had to be strong in case someone took it bad. I looked at Britt who smiled at me, and I felt my back bone come rushing back to my trembling body. I looked down. "Look I know everyone thinks I'm dating Davie, but its fake... I did it so that Lady lips could come back to school here and we could win nationals... And before you say a word Rachel!" I put my hand up to stop the diva from saying anything."I only did that cause I know that, that if we win... Glee club gets to come back next year an... And I know how much you love this." I was now looking at Brittany cause really I hadn't told her this part of the whole bully wipes skeem. "And I started the Bully wipes so that I could clean up the school and keep you safe... Safe from... People that don't understand...Cause I don't ever want to see that gleam leave your baby blues." I could feel the clubs eyes on me but I didn't give a shit. "I have to keep up the damn shit piece of a relationship with Davie but... But not in here not in front of your...our Friends." I grabbed her hand. "In here we can be what I've always wanted to be.. We can be together." I could feel the tears in my eyes and I know no one other then Rachel, Brittany and Quinn had ever seen me break out in full on tears but I just didn't give a shit anymore! "So Mr.. Shue we are going to sing a song called Oh Darling by Plugin Stereo.

Santana- You Seem quite nice for a girl with good looks, and I'm the kinda fellow that'll make you feel better when your life gets shook...So give it a chance according to your plans I bet I'm not number one on your list to kiss, but please understand...

Brittany-You seem quite shy, but you're oh so cute...And I'm the kind of girl that would love to be yours if you asked me to. So just take a chance, try to hold my hand...I swear I'd never let let me know if you'd be my man.

Santana-I really want to come out and tell you...Oh darling, I love you so.
Brittany-If you'd ask me for my heart, there's no way that I'll say no.
Santana-Oh darling, just take a chance please.

Britany-So we can stay together till hell starts freeze.

Santana-You seem quite right for a kid like me.

Brittany-And I wanna know would you treat me well? Would you treat me like a queen?
Santana-Cause I'd like to show you and make you see

Both-That although we're different type we were meant to be...

Santana-I really want to come out and tell you...Oh darling, I love you so

Brittany-If you'd ask me for my heart, there's no way that Ill say no

Santana-Oh darling, just take a chance please

Brittany-So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

Santana-So I gotta ask you, I can't be afraid...I gotta take a chance at love. So what do you say? Oh darling, I love you so

Brittany-If you'd ask me for my heart, there's no way that Ill say no

Santana-Oh darling, just take a chance please

Brittany-So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

Santana-Oh darling, I love you so

Brittany-If you'd ask me for my heart, there's no way that Ill say no

Santana-Oh darling, just take a chance please

Brittany-So we can stay together till hell starts freeze

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I looked over at Quinn who stared in amazement at her best friends, coming out speech, I'm not sure how long I was staring at the blonde but at some point she finally looked over and mouthed, 'sorry' wiping a tear from her eye. I'm not sure what it was for or maybe I did know but it didn't matter the song taking place in front of us was something to behold, the girls mixed together like magic at points it was like I was watching one artist perform they were so well blended with one and other.
"That was amazing you guys!" Mr. shue wrapped both girls in a hug! "And I so proud of the two of you!" he squeezed them both and everyone stood up to wrap the two in hugs, well almost eveyone. I don't think I have to even guess why Artie just sat there with a new Santana scowl planted firmly on his face, I giggled thinking that was the only person I was ever going to see that scowl on from now on. "Alright now as much I want to squeeze the life out you two, whose next?"
"That would be me and Puck." I smiled standing. "now as we both agreed that it be best if Puck used his musical talents playing the electric guitar and mainly cause he didn't want to come to my house and practices something about..." "Rachel!" Quinn called from the front row. "Please!" Everyone nodded.
"Right sorry... Noah?" he nodded strapping the guitar on.
"Kick ass song by hot little mama named Ray." he smirked. "Were going to play The weak end."

"By Away we go!" I added, Mr. Shue wrote the song down on his competition board.
Rachel-I miss your green sheets so, but I'm done keeping tabs on who comes and who goes. I'm missing the perfume of your pillows And I wish you knew how much I needed your home... I miss your green sheets so, and being the perfume of your pillows.
Is there something wrong with me? Do your eyes miss everything? I've been ripping off layers of skin, trying to find a way to get back get back in! I need to get back in... I need to get back in. Those eyelashes that block out the clouds, and your teeth,that I'd rather have inside my mouth. That breathe that beats up my head, and that laughter you had that's been good at keeping me fed, you've been keeping me 've been keeping me fed! You've been keeping me fed. Is there something wrong with me? Do your eyes miss everything? I've been ripping off layers of skin, trying to find a way to get back in, to get back in...I Need to get back in,I need to get back in... Is there something wrong with me? Do your eyes miss everything? I've been ripping off layers of skin,trying to find a way to get back there something wrong with me? Do your eyes miss everything? I've been ripping off layers of skin, trying to find a way to get back in,to get back in... I need to get back in...I Need to get back there something wrong with me? Do your eyes miss everything? I've been ripping off layers of skin, trying to find a way to get back in.

"Rachel?" I pretended not to hear her. "Okay Ray I know your mad... but I think I know something that's going to cheer you up?" I turned to look at her.
"I'm listening?"
"Well, I asked your dads out for dinner tonight..." I looked at her confused. "I was thinking we could... Tell them? I-If you want to?"

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"I'm so proud of you San!" I looked over at the blonde in the passengers seat.
"Britt-Britt, you keep sayin that... I think I've got it down and memorized." I joked.
"I know its just, I'm so happy! We should celebrate." She yelled.
"It was just the glee club, B."
"I know but you said OUR friends!" She squealed. I burst out laughing, cause for the life of me, I couldn't believe that, that really was what she was excited about.
"I think so too.. What do you want to do?" I asked smiling sweetly at the blonde.
"Movie!" I nodded.
"Coming right up." I giggled, turning on the road to the main street.
"Can we get those little candies that look like fruits!" she begged.
"Even if I have to stab someone!" I smiled, and she giggled. "I love how you see through me." I said and she turned confuse.
"I don't see through you San, I just see the you that you don't wanna show."
"Well I love how you do that... So what is that you wanna go watch?" I asked as we pulled up to the theater. Thank god this town was small or we'd be having a conversation about how Dots look like they'd be gummy bear poop for a while.
"I get to chose again!"
"Okay you have got to stop getting excited about that, Britt you know you always get to chose it doesn't ever matter to me." 'Not as long as I'm with you.' I thought but didn't add, we'd had enough mush for the day and I had to keep, things like that for another time.. Huh. I smiled. Another time.. "Why do you keep flipping when I say you pick?"
"It's just...when Ever I went out with Artie, he picked cause everything I wanted to do wasn't... He couldn't or..."
"Or?"
"Or it wasn't something that teenagers do."
"What? Did he tell you that?"
"He's right though San, playing candyland and, slip-n-slides are for babies... And so are Disney cartoons."
"What! No there not Britt and you love Candyland and those damn slipy slidy things I know you do." She looked down at her feet. "And if Disney makes me a baby, then slap a damn dipper on me now."I flipped my hair getting out of the car. "Cause nothing tops, Mulan!" I shut the door as she opened hers.
"I like Beauty and the Beast." I nodded.
"Except that, Bell is hot!" she laughed and ran to catch up with me. Taking her pinky in mine I smiled. We hadn't been out in months but I was pretty sure the attendant remembered me that last time I was here she caught me crying in the bathroom and I guess I scared the hell out of her after words cause when we walked in this time she rushed to find someone else to assist us.

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"Did she tell you about this sweetie?" My daddy stood at the door staring at me as I rushed around my room. "I think it has something to do with New York and glee you know?" I tried to not look him in the eyes... Cause I knew I'd fucking crack. "Alright then, would you tell your father that he looks fine then?" He said from the door way. I turned to look at my dad.
"And would you tall your daddy that tie doesn't go with that jacket!" My dad smiled, fixing his own tie.
"You both look fine... It's just dinner with a friend... Now how do I look?"

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"So its not a date?" I asked from Quinn's bed.
"No. I invited Rachel and her Fathers to dinner here." She said pulling clothes from her closet.
"And why are you doing that exactly?" I asked picking the teddy bear up off her bed and fiddling with it.
"Because..." She stopped and looked at me. "How did we get to me? What the hell did you come here for in the first place?" She asked ripping the bear from my hands.
"Right.. So after Nationals and you know after school like the third or second week Britt wants to go camping and... Well.."
"Well what?"
"Look you know I'm not the invite have a good time kind of person and I know you hate camping but B wants you to come." I said.
"You want me to go camping?"
"No Brittany wants you to come, and also I figured since your going to see her any way... Could you ask Berry to?" I asked really just wanting a yes so I could leave before sister Christian or the three bears arrived. "Is your mom going to be here with them?" I asked before realizing I did.
"No she's got AA and yes for Brittany I'll go and I'll ask Rachel." She said going back into her closet. "Now if that's it can you get the hell out of my house?" She asked from the closet. Well more commanded.
"Why yes Quinn that is all and no thank you I'll walk myself to the door but thanks for the offer." I smirked walking towards the door. "And good luck on your date!" I called from the hall.
"Fuck you!"
"no thanks I don't want Rachel's sloppy and yes you are sloppy seconds!" I called up the hall from the stairs. I laughed to myself walking down the steps and out the front door. I stopped seeing the Berry's at the end of the walk way.
"Hi Santana!" Rachel beamed. I nodded with a smile.

"Hello, Santana." Hirmen smiled at me. "Rachel just told us about this afternoon." he beamed. The thing about the Berry's is the men are just as boring as there daughter in the way that there both reach for your dreams love is the way kind of men. But there nice and I'd only met them twice before. Hirmen the short lighter one he's a sweet heart the real mother of Rachels life but Leroy now that man is intimidating he's big he's tall he's a sweet heart when you get to know him I'm told but I'll never forget the look he gave me the second time I met him, when I was crawling out Rachel's window cause the girl insisted that I come and help her with something and at this point I don't remember what the hell it was!

"Were glad to hear that your happy." Leroy said eyeing me very Fatherly."If you ever need anything."

"Were here." The other Berry finished his husbands sentence and Rachel giggled at is cuteness. I couldn't help but smile.
"Thank you." I smiled. "well I have to go... Bri..My girlfriend is waiting for me."

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I followed Quinn into the kitchen while my fathers took there seats at the table. "did they say anything?" She asked when we were out of ear shot and sight of my parents. I shook my head.
"no.." I giggled watching her pace her kitchen. "Quinn." I grabbed the girl by her shoulders, and forced her to look at me. "Sweetie don't worry."

"baby girl everything okay in there?" My daddy called from the table.
"Fine daddy."
"Oh god! What if they freak out what if they, flip out about me.. Touching there little girl! Oh what if they don't want me to be near you, what if... If they freak out and...and.." I rolled my eyes and kissed the blonde.

"Thanks." I nodded.

"Just breathe, there going to love you, just because your the soul person responsible for 3 years of my torment and the one person that.."
"Ray?" I stopped and looked at the blonde who's hazel eye's for once housed fear.
"I'm kidding Quinn...Everythings Going to be fine." I smiled and pecked her on the cheek. "now lets get the food out there!"

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"Did she say yes?" I nodded. "Yup and she said she'd talk to Rachel too." I said quite proud of myself.
"Yes!" She moved over and kissed my cheek. "Hey guess what!" I turned to look the blonde in the eyes.
"What?"
"I told my parents about me last night!" She beamed and I choked on my water.

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"So Quinn, where's your mother?" Daddy asked from across the table and I felt Quinn get nervous.I put my hand on her thigh under the table and gave her a gentle squeeze.
"She uh,she's at a meeting." she said searching for the words with having to say my mothers at AA.
"So, you prepared this whole meal by yourself?" Dad asked, clearly putting his hand on daddy's thigh under the table.

"Yeah, I'd been wanting to try my hand at a Vegan meal, and well..." She looked over at me a now or never moment. "You know I want to able to cook for Ray if we keep seeing each other." She said her eyes not leaving my face.

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"What... What did you say?" I asked begging for the information.
"Well we were sitting there and it was just them and me cause Melody was at her friends, so.. I turned to my dad and I said... Dad would you pass the salt to a Bisexual?" She said seriously.

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"Excuse me?" Daddy asked from across the table helping dad as he choked on the bread he'd only just taken a bit out of.
"I'm sorry sirs, its just." She was now facing the both of them again. "I really, really, love spending time with your daughter and I want to spend a lot more with her, now I know I'm responsible for so much of the torment in her past and you have no real reason to, trust that I have nothing but the best intentions but I do... I want to be with Rachel, and I don't know if I'm going to be everything that she expects me to be but I want the chance to try.." She grabbed my hand and smiled. "I've been raised very proper it might be hard to believe with my past but I was and I don't want to go any further until I know that I have both of your blessings to date her. But Before you answer I want you both to know that I wont give up until I show both of you that, I am worth the shot." she let out her breath. "Cause I wanna try." She was smiling at me now. And my Fathers were silent on the other side of the table.

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"And he said?" I looked at the blonde's eyes searching for the answer.
"Are you sleeping with Santana?" She said with a smile.
"Are you kidding!"
"No! He said. Well then are you sleeping with Santana?" She said trying to hold back the laugh.
"And?" I pressed. Holy hell I thought please tell me she didn't say yes tell me they didn't freak out and say I could never be with her again!
"I told them the truth.. I said no." I answered. I let the breath I'd been holding in out. "We haven't gotten our sexy time on in like... Forever. Now if they would have asked about dating that would have been a different matter right?" I nodded.
"Right... I want to tell mine." I said softly.
"You don't have to San." She placed her hand on my thigh.

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"Well after a speech like that how could we say no?" Daddy asked from across the table with a smile. I let out an excited squeal and kissed Quinn on the cheek then practically flip over the table pushing my chair back and moving to the other side to squeeze the life out of my fathers.

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"I want to Britt... I want to be with you and have everyone know... I want to be there when you wake up, be there when you go to sleep, I want you to be the last thing I see when I close my eyes, I want to burn your breakfast and take you out at night, I want to spend the holidays at your parents place and marry you at 25 I want to spend each and every second knowing that I love you and you love me too. And if the first step to that is coming out to my parents then, I'm going to." I said in a rush of words, there was a thin smile on the blondes lips.

"Just not all at once yeah?" I nodded.
"Baby steps." She nodded and leaned forwards capturing my lips and there it was that fantastic amazing, floating feeling again. Yeah I could get use to this!