A/N: Here is the second part . It took me some time to start it but I don't want to delay it further. I was just writing my other long story and then started this after posting that chapter. There were many questions left unanswered in the first chapter and some people thought that I was targeting Sakura which isn't really true. But I hope I would make every thing more clearly and you would enjoy the second part of my fiction. I would love to know what you think about it. So leave review if you love it. If not even then tell what was the thing you didn't like so I would be able to avoid it in future.
Pairing: SasuNaru
The Story is un-beta'd.
It's A Bumpy Road
"Sakura is such a sweet girl." Mikoto mused while chewing her omlate and Sasuke fingers twitched with annoyance holding his fork.
"She really isn't sweet at all but where did you met her? You didn't meet her the last time she came." Sasuke tried to play off casually trying to not let his irritation show and stuffed his moth with the bacon.
"At the market. She was with a blond girl umm what was her name uhh yeah Ino I think. We had a nice chat over coffee." Mikoto said sipping her coffee.
"Yeah she is her friend."Sasuke hummed trying to let the topic drop but Mikoto had other plans.
"Why don't you date one of them Sasuke? I have never said any thing about it because it's your life but your lack of interest is now making me worried. You are graduating in three months and you never dated and I'm not talking about the one where you barely went out with them for one week and then broke up. In fact these past two years you haven't been with any one." Mikoto had stopped eating and now she was looking at him, her eyes fully focused.
"I am not interested." Sasuke felt suffocated. Why was she talking about this all of a sudden?
"Of course! This happens when you are always cooped up in your room in the free time or over Naruto's. Don't tell me you are still virgin!" Mikoto said sarcastically yet there was something in her tone which made Sasuke uneasy all of a sudden.
"Naruto has nothing to do with this mom. I am just busy with studying that's all. And you are totally forgetting that it's not always Naruto. I hang out with Hinata too." Sasuke took a deep breath and said looking at his plate. He didn't felt like eating any more. Some how the air around him was tensing.
"Oh please that girl is just a pretty little doll who has her eyes only for Naruto." Sasuke tensed on this. Yeah he knew that Hinata was into Naruto but he knew that Hinata knew about them, the reason she never persuaded Naruto in the first place, " I think because of you she is also not making her move. Get a girl friend Sasuke please!" Mikoto said in an ordering tone and some how Sasuke couldn't contain it any more.
"Why are you nagging me all of a sudden? You never had the time to have a proper talk with me, yet now of all times you are nagging me to get a girl friend! How is this any of your business!" Sasuke said bitterly and clenched his fists.
"This is my business boy because you are my fucking son! I gave birth to you! I feed you and pay for you! I work my ass off as a nurse and this is how you repay me!" Mikoto's voice was bitting and the temperature in the kitchen dropped too much."This is my fucking business to keep you in line! I don't want the rumors spreading about you! So get a girl friend and do it quick!" Mikoto glared at him heatedly and Sasuke clenched his teeth.
"What kind of rumors are you talking about exactly! And who the hell said it to you! Was this Sakura!" Sasuke could feel anger boiling and he felt like killing Sakura right this instance.
"Not Sakura but Ino did tell me some interesting rumors going about you being a fag! The reason you don't have a girlfriend!" When Mikoto spoke again her tone was acidic and it made Sasuke bit back the flinch on the way she said the word fag.
"You don't have to listen to her! She is just a stupid girl mom. And mom what people talk about shouldn't concern us right? I mean I am your son so.." Sasuke tried to cool down her but it was like his words made some switch go off in Mikoto.
"NO! It affects me! You listen it! It fucking affects me! I will not allow an abomination in my house! I will not allow people to call you a fag or a homo! You have to get a fucking girl friend if this shuts them up!" Mikoto had gotten up abruptly throwing her cup on the floor, her pupils were dilated and her face was getting red. Sasuke felt as if his heart was being crushed. He was being rejected. Shit.. He was being rejected by his own mother, "I don't want to be the mother of some homosexual! Sasuke please! Oh God no. No." Mikoto was now crying, sliding down on the floor, looking hysterical. Sasuke's body shook and he quickly ran to her side. He quickly took her into his arms but she slapped his hands away and held him with his shoulders, looking into his eyes with her own insane ones.
"Tell me you are not gay! Tell me Sasuke that this is not the reason you didn't get a girlfriend! Oh God don't tell me it's Naruto.." Mikoto looked terrified and tears were rolling down her cheeks now. She looked devastated.
"No mom! I'm not gay. Please relax. Please.." Sasuke felt like he was being crushed. It felt so damn awful to see his mother looking like this because of him. After their divorce his mother had been the one for him. He met with his stoic father and his elder brother too but it was his mom who was always there. He had sworn that he would never hurt his mom. He had always resented his dad for leaving his mom and his elder brother for choosing his dad deep in his heart. And now he was doing the same just for the sake of his own selfish desires. Shit he was the worst. "I'll date OK. So please stop crying."
"The call Sakura right now and ask her out." Mikoto pushed him away and wiped her face and stared at him with that painful gaze. Sasuke's heart thumped in his chest painfully. She was looking at him expectantly. How the hell the simple conversation over a Sunday morning breakfast turned into something this ugly and emotionally exhausting thing? Sasuke thought bitterly. Oh God... He took his phone out of his pocket with trembling hands and scrolled down his contacts hating every second of it. The moment he pressed call under Sakura's name, his eyes were already bleary and he felt like throwing up.
"Hey Sasuke. You are calling me? I'm not dreaming right?" Sakura spoke with her way too cheery and fake tone and Sasuke gripped the cell more tightly.
"No I wanted to ask you something." When he spoke his voice was steady and calm. Some how he felt like he was looking this whole scene from afar. Yet all of this was real so much real with Mikoto still sitting on the floor looking at him with parted lips and expecting eyes. His stomach churned painfully.
"Yes I'm all ears." Again that sickly sweet sugary tone.
"Will you be my girl friend Sakura?" Sasuke didn't know how he let those words out but it took a lot of effort yet it was worth it to see how the crease between Mikoto's eye brows was vanishing, how her expressions were softening.
"Oh God! Am I dreaming! I can't believe you are asking me out!" Sakura was squealing like a crazed animal and all the while Sasuke just wanted to twist her neck to make her shut up.
"Is this a yes or no?" Sasuke said again. He prayed that she would have more self respect and would say no to him for the sake of all those time she asked him out but life wasn't so easy.
"Of course this is a big Yes! Oh God I still can't believe!" Sakura was squealing again and Sasuke saw how Mikoto's expressions brightened and her shoulders sagged with relief. Sasuke felt so hurt looking this. It was so damn painful. He hoped his tears wouldn't betray him.
"Good. Talk to you tomorrow at school then. Bye." He ended the call without even listening any further and next moment he was crushed in a hug. Sasuke let out his breath trying to make the pain go away but it was no use. He felt so vulnerable. It felt painful beyond belief.
"I love you Sasuke. You are my precious baby. I don't want people to reject you or judge you. I want you to be happy. You understand right?" Mikoto was speaking but her every word made Sasuke hurt even more. If not for the last drops of his control he would have ran away this instance but he sat there.
For the first time he felt like he didn't knew his mother any more. Her words, her warmth everything felt so foreign. He wished that Naruto wasn't visiting his uncle and was here. He needed him so much. He wanted to be in Naruto's arms this instance but then again how the hell he was going to tell Naruto that he had asked Sakura out? He knew that he should do this quickly. He should tell it to Naruto yet he didn't wanted too. He was already so exhausted. Naruto wasn't coming back until Tuesday so he had a bit of time. It felt like last week was so far away in the past. Last week at this time he was with Naruto at this hour. How could things change so much in mere seconds. Why couldn't be life easier? Why couldn't his mom be more accepting? Why couldn't he have more guts to own what he is? Why wasn't he allowed to live his life the way he wanted? Why was God so unfair? Why?
Sakura was sitting on her bed painting her nails with Ino on Skype. It was Sunday morning and she and Ino had plans with their other friends from school. Even though Ino was going on about how she absolutely had no clothes to wear at all and how she was having a fashion emergency. She was telling her something about her top not matching with her floral shorts and her net shrug but Sakura wasn't paying much attention. Her mind was racing in totally another direction.
"Hello. Earth to Sakura. Are you even listening to me! Do you even know how worried I am? Ugh God I have nothing to wear!" Ino half screamed throwing another of her tank top on to the heap on the floor. It did snapped Sakura out of her musing though.
"Ino just wear that blue top with some leather shorts. Leather suits you well any ways." Sakura placed the nail pain on her side table and said while taking the glitter and thin stick to apply the glitter to complete her nail art.
"No way. Are you out of your mind? I am thinking about wearing maroon top but what should I wear with it?" Ino made a face, holding up a maroon tank top and looking at the Sakura.
"Jeans?" Sakura asked looking at her nails, a bit lost in her thoughts.
"OK. So spill it. What's bothering you?" Ino was now just sitting with only her PJ's and her long blond hairs messily on both sides.
"You already know what's bothering me." Sakura sighed and looked straight at the screen too.
"Oh darn. Don't tell me it's about that!"Ino sounded annoyed and exasperated.
"Yes it is about that. I really can't believe you would say that to Sasuke's mom." Sakura scowled earning a huff from her blond friend.
"Come on Sakura. You know I did it for you! I just want you to win the bet. You do know that one month would be over next week." Ino's eye brows were narrowed and she was making a face.
"I know that Ino but I think you went too far. I mean actually calling him a 'fag' and in front of his mom. Seriously did you even noticed how pale her face became after you said those things." Sakura said a bit regretfully,"I just hope she wouldn't give him a hard time."
"Oh please Sakura. No need to act like a goody two shoes. And It's not like what I said is totally wrong. Yeah people don't call him or Naruto a fag because they never give an opening but even you have to say that when they are talking you can see the sparks going around them Seriously the way they look at each other, giving so much attention is way too sickly sweet." Ino's words weren't wrong but still Sakura felt uneasy,"And don't tell me you haven't noticed how close they are." Ino rolled her eyes, playing with her hairs, rolling them on her finger.
"Ino I have to say that they do look close and all that stuff but they are childhood friends! Just like you and me and Ino we are hella close too. That doesn't make us homo" Sakura didn't know what she was doing any more. It was self justification or was she trying to make Ino understand. She wasn't even close to those guys. So why was she having this conversation with her best friend. It was stupid.
"Yeah and we hunt guys together. We gossip, do shopping, be bitches together. We don't give each other those desperate I-wanna-fuck-your-brains-out eyes." Ino gave her a dry look and Sakura bit her lips."And please tell me why the hell are we having this conversation again when I haven't even decided what the hell I am gonna wear! And you have just painted your fricking nails and are sitting their with that stupid look."
"We are having this conversation because you let your mouth run a bit too much. I don't wanna force Sasuke into this! I wanted to win fair and Square! Gosh you idiot." Sakura almost burst out. "It's all because of that fucking bet 'you' made!" Sakura's mood worsened.
"And I have said sorry so many times already OK. Back at our last school you were famous for being a play girl and you know that too or do I have to list all the guys you made cry. It wasn't my fault Temari happens to be there when I was telling Ten Ten about your clingy girlish ex." Ino made a face which totally said how she wasn't sorry at all.
"Yeah and then like always she provoked you and you ended up saying that Sakura can woo any guy just in a month. Have I told you how much big of an idiot you are?" Sakura said frustrated."And then you have to just go ahead and even tell her to choose the guy. Like any fucking guy! Even though you know that what happened with Shino I just... Ino I fucking transfered schools in my last year and started to live here with my dad and you.." Sakura looked hurt on thinking about her last ex.
Yes she was what Ino told. Ino and her lived in Florida. They had been friends since childhood and even in high school they were together. It was no hiding that they were the school's hottest girls. And they did whatever they wanted, drinking, getting together with hottest guys from their school, not caring even if they have to break them up and In the half year of her Junior high she got together with the school genius Shino. Shino was hell lot of different. He was quite yet caring but it was fate that she ended up hurting Shino in the worst way. What happened after that was something Sakura might never forget in her whole life. She had said no to dating but here she was in a stupid mess because of Ino.
"Sakura listen you know that I can't stand Temari. I just can't stand her!" Ino made a face, throwing her arms in air and Sakura just scowled.
"Then it's your fucking problem. Why the hell have you throw me into that! Do you have any idea how damn awkward was it to just force my self on them so suddenly. Ino Hinata is still being a total bitch about it even after these three weeks and Naruto is nice and all but I know that he is irritated and then there is Sasuke. Most stuck up of them and he is just plain rude and cold. Oh God I don't like that guy at all!" Sakura said groaning loud and glaring at the screen.
"Come on that guy is hot like a fucking furnace. And mind you Sakura he is one of most popular guys at our school. Girls would die to just breath n the same place as him." Ino said getting from her bed now again. looking bored of Sakura's tantrum and Sakura's blood boiled to another degree.
"Him being hot doesn't help at all when he is so damn rude and cold Ino. I don't go flirting. Damn it! I never really needed to flirt! And I don't even want to get together with him! That's it I'm dropping it!" Sakura said sighing. She was beyond irritated. It was so dumb to be pulled into Ino's pace. Like hell she wasn't even interested in the guy. Well yeah he was hot and made her heart skip a beat but didn't mean Sakura wanted to date him. She still wasn't over Shino.
"Hold on Saku! dropping what!" Ino who was looking at her top, threw it on the bed and looked at Sakura, her lips open in shock.
"Dropping this stupid bet! Sasuke is never gonna say yes to me. That guy is totally not into me! And Ino not to mention I am also not into him. There is no point in humiliating my self any further! I am done with this." Sakura said with a serious resigned note to her voice and Ino paled.
"No way in hell. You can't drop it. You don't even know what might Temari make me do!" Ino shrieked and Sakura's eyes narrowed.
"I think this might actually be better! At least then you would stop doing things so impulsively and idiotically." Sakura snapped and Ino looked like she was going to pull her hairs when Sakura's phone started to ring. She looked at the screen and she was confused on seeing Sasuke's name.
"Sakura you can't do this to me! Please please for the last time. Saku.." Ino was pleading and Sakura let out a sharp breath before looking at her and glaring.
"Would you shut up for a second! Sasuke is calling me! Wait." The moment Sakura said that Ino did shut up and Sakura slid her delicate finger on the screen.
"Hey Sasuke. You are calling me? I'm not dreaming right?" Sakura said in a sweet voice and even cringed herself too on how fake she sounded. Ino was giving her a thumb up and she rolled her eyes.
"No. I wanted to ask you something." Sasuke's voice was calm yet Sakura couldn't shake the feeling of how dead he sounded.
"Yes. I'm all ears." Sakura kept her voice lethally sweet and groaned inwardly. She was sick of pretending. She was going to end this tomorrow for sure!
"Will you be my girl friend Sakura?" In the same calm deadly tone the question was asked and Sakura's eyes widened.
"Oh God! Am I dreaming? I can't believe you are asking me out!" She was shocked as hell and one look at her best friend pleading her with silent words was all she needed to know what she was going to say to Sasuke. Yes she was tired of trying but if lady luck was being generous then she wouldn't be a bitch and refuse and well Ino was right Temari was hella sadistic. Sakura sighed inwardly. Ino owed her a big one!
"Is this a yes or no?" Sasuke tone was steady yet Sakura couldn't help but feel as if Sasuke didn't wanted her to say yes.
"Of course. This is a big Yes! Oh God I still can't believe." Sakura faked squealed and she saw how Ino's face light up and Sakura glared at Ino who was now blowing her kisses.
"Good. Talk to you tomorrow at school ." Sasuke ended the call rather quickly and Sakura was crushed with the wave of confusion. Sasuke sounded as if he was being forced. But why would he sound like this? Sakura was staring at her screen when she heard Ino's loud gasp and squealing.
"Oh Girl I knew it your charm would work! We fucking won the bet! Oh God I feel so damn good! Sakura you are an angel!" Ino was dancing and bouncing on the mattress and Sakura rolled her eyes. Even though her own lips did twitched too. Ino was such a goof ball. Yet she couldn't shake the feeling of something being wrong.
"I don't think it was my charm Ino. He sounded...strange." Sakura sighed looking at her dried nails which looks good with the nail art she had made.
"I am sure he was just nervous. That guy has never asked out anyone! Not any one I know of, of course and I know everything going in our school. Oh God this is so exciting." Ino did looked excited but Sakura couldn't help but feel a bit heavy hearted.
"I don't know Ino. May be you really shouldn't have made that fag comment." Sakura bit her lips and Ino raised her eye brow in that arrogant way which always made Sakura roll her eyes.
"Seriously Sakura? You are still stuck on that! Come on girl just forget about that OK and let's get dressed. Now that we have this awesome news. I am thinking about wearing something more flashy and colorful", Ino said excitedly and bubbling with happiness. Sakura shook her head and smiled too at Ino's childishness.
"I am not wearing anything flashy Ino." She said making a face at her best friend totally ignoring the guilt she was feeling and got up. It wasn't like Sasuke's mom would take their words seriously and would force Sasuke to date right? Like who was so homophobic now a days? Ino was right. She was thinking too much.
Sasuke was laying on his stomach sighing after finishing his homework. It was Monday night. He membered how Sakura had kissed him the first thing in the morning after meeting right in front of Hinata who looked beyond shocked her own gang of friends too. Yes Sasuke had rudely pushed her away telling her to knock it off at least in school but Sakura hadn't minded least bit. Hinata never spoke to him all day, ignoring him painfully obviously and then there was Naruto who wasn't replying any of his texts.
At least his mom was on duty. He really didn't wanted to talk to her. The resentment in his heart was growing for his mom. When he heard the sound of his door opening Sasuke was beyond surprised. He quickly looked up to see Naruto standing in his door and Sasuke felt like his heart was in his throat. Naruto was here. It was all he could register into his exhausted mind before he quickly got up with a smile to greet Naruto. He quickly hugged Naruto who stood still not returning his hug and Sasuke felt odd. He stepped back and looked at Naruto who looked at him with an empty gaze.
"Naruto?" Sasuke called his name and Naruto let out a deep breath, closing his eyes and then opened then to look at Sasuke with a strange gaze.
"You started to date Sakura?" When Naruto spoke the bitterness wasn't concealed even a bit. Sasuke bit back a curse. Of course Naruto already knew.
"I can explain it Naruto." He tried to act calm but all Naruto did was to narrow his eyes even more.
"Oh really Sasuke? So you do think that you should explain this to me now?" Naruto's tone was cold and his eyes were throwing daggers. He looked hurt.
"I was going to tell you this face to face that.." Sasuke started off . He felt like sweat was breaking on his skin.
"Tell me what? That you are out of the weird phase? That you are no longer gay! That suddenly over night you have fell in love with p*ssies." The way Naruto spoke so mockingly and coldly made Sasuke irritated.
"Would you fucking listen to me or are you not done yet?" Sasuke asked dryly and Naruto glared at him not saying a word,"Good if you are done then listen you moron. I didn't do it because I wanted to! Mom met up with Sakura and Ino and they sprouted non sense about the rumors of me being gay and mom just blew off. I didn't know mom was so against homosexuals Naruto. You weren't there to see how badly she reacted to even the idea of me being gay. Naruto she was crying and shouting and she was all over the place. I didn't know what else to do when she asked me to ask Sakura out. I had no option!" Sasuke said exasperated. He bit his lips and looked at Naruto who was looking at him and listening to him way to quietly coldly.
"Your mom went off so now what? When are you breaking up with Sakura?" The way Naruto spoke was cold yet anxious.
"Break up? At least not until I graduate." Sasuke said looking at Naruto sighing and Naruto's expression changed in a second.
"You are fucking kidding with me right!" Naruto had let out a shaky chuckle.
"No. I'm not! You weren't here when mom.. Naruto if I broke up she would nag me to date again! I don't want her to see in that crazed state again. I don't want to hurt her or make her cry",Sasuke said softly trying to make Naruto understand who was looking at him with hurt floating in his expressive eyes.
"...What about 'us'? Are we breaking up?" Naruto felt like his throat was going dry. How could things go wrong so quickly.
"No! There is no need for us to break up Naruto. It isn't like I love Sakura. I just have to pretend to be his boyfriend." Sasuke gently clasped Naruto's hand and said it looking straight into Naruto's troubled blue eyes.
"Does this pretend stuff contains kissing and making out too?" Naruto pulled his hand away and Sasuke was going to say something when Naruto spoke again,"And don't even try to lie. Hinata told me how Sakura kissed you right in front of her and many others!",Naruto felt so hurt. Sasuke opened his lips and then sneered.
"Of course why would she let such an awesome opportunity out. She really is smart, taking actions so quickly. I'm impressed." Sasuke said sardonically looking bitter.
"Don't talk shit about her when you are the one who is fucking up! You started to date Sakura behind my back! You let her kiss you! It wasn't Hinata!" Naruto felt like punching Sasuke's face but he just clenched his fists,"Why the fuck you didn't tell me about that the instant it happened Sasuke! Why would you hide it from me! Did you think that I would be gone forever and wouldn't know! Why would you do this to me!" The anger radiating from Naruto was hitting Sasuke like waves. How could Sasuke fucking blame Hinata! She was always so supportive of them! Fucking bastard.
"So now you are taking her side! Just Great Uzumaki." Sasuke's tone was taunting and he sneered at Naruto with a blazing gaze.
"Don't fucking twist my words! Tell me Sasuke why the hell you did this to me! Did you forget about me! About us? And then you didn't even tell me!" Naruto looked beyond furious and it made Sasuke clench his fists too. Why was Naruto being like this. Why wasn't he understanding Sasuke.
"My mother was having a fucking panic attack Naruto! The woman who raised me and worked hard for my sake. You wanted me throw all of it away? How could I have refused her! What would you have done if it was your mother crying and looking at you like she didn't even know you! Are you trying to say that I should have just thrown away my mother and her struggles away!" Sasuke's eyes were narrowed and he spat out each word bitterly. He could feel the pent up frustration coming out, crawling out his skin and he didn't stop himself too.
"No Sasuke. May be I have done the same but you didn't even told me about all of this. Hinata was the one who called me and said that Sakura was kissing you in front of whole school and that I should hurry back. Sasuke do you have any idea what I felt at that moment. I felt like I would go mad. Mom is still at Kakashi's and I just fricking took the bus to rush back."The way Naruto's tone took a tiring and more melancholic turn made Sasuke's heart ache too. He bit his lips before coming closer to Naruto and placing his hand over Naruto's arm who tensed under his touch, looking away from Sasuke.
"I wouldn't have done it if I could help it Naru. I just didn't know what to do when I saw mom flipping out like this. I don't want to see her like that ever again. I can't see her hurting." He leaned on to Naruto's shoulder, touching his forehead to Naruto's shoulder lightly. All he wanted was for Naruto to embrace him and hold him. He felt so tired and hurt.
"Sasuke..." Naruto slowly pushed him away and the look in Naruto's eyes was enough to tense Sasuke's body too,"Then does this mean you will never come out to Auntie?" The question was asked in eerily calm tone and Sasuke felt his throat going dry. He wet his lips before speaking but his insides twisted painfully.
"I don't know.." The answer made Naruto let out a sigh and he stepped back from Sasuke. Sasuke quickly looked up at Naruto, whose face held so much hurt that all Sasuke wanted to make it go away with anything he could but he couldn't, he knew it. He could feel Naruto slipping away from him,"But we can still be together right? I just have to date Sakura until graduation. After that I will be leaving the town with you and we can live far from here. We can do whatever we want." Sasuke knew he was losing his calm but they way Naruto was looking at him made him flustered and frustrated.
"And then what Sasuke? Even if we do that one day your mom would force you to marry and you would marry to some goddamn random girl." The way Naruto said it and looked at Sasuke accusingly made Sasuke snap too.
"That wouldn't happen! I would never..." Sasuke was interrupted by Naruto who was now once again glaring at Sasuke with hurt and pain flashing in his blue eyes.
"Wouldn't happen? That is the same thing you said when we made that promise when you asked me out Sasuke Uchiha! You had scoffed at me and told me that there was no fucking way you are going to date a girl but here we are! So please don't go making promises you can't keep!" Naruto almost whisper yelled at Sasuke, his fists clenched, itching to just punch at the nearest wall.
"Then you tell me Uzumaki! What the fuck should I do! How could you be so insensitive and don't understand me! I'm not the only one who is living with a single mother! More than anyone you should be one who should understand me the most!" Sasuke was panting with his emotions getting the best of him and he saw ho Naruto stiffened and looked at him icily. Naruto's father died while they were on a camping trip. It was a freak accident. A bear just got out of the woods and attacked the family. Minato died a horrific death while saving Kushina and three years old Naruto.
"You are right Sasuke", Naruto was trembling, looking straight into Sasuke's eyes with his blue eyes turning a cold, icy glacier,"I think it's clear as day why you would start to date her Sasuke." Naruto's tone was unusually calm yet Sasuke just breathed a sigh. He didn't wanted to fight with Naruto,"But that doesn't mean I have accepted you dating Sakura."
"There is nothing to accept for. That is not even a real relationship Naruto. I don't feel a thing about her" Sasuke said in a calm tone and tried to end the stupid argument. All he wanted was to hold Naruto right now. Why were they fighting because of Sakura when Naruto knew well enough that Sasuke had his eyes only for Naruto in every literal sense in the world. He once again closed the distance between them and held Naruto's arm who was looking at him with a strange play of emotion on his face, almost cold and distant and Sasuke didn't like seeing Naruto this way.
"And what do you feel about me Sasuke?" Naruto was looking into his eyes and Sasuke felt was Naruto asking him this question. Haven't Sasuke cleared with his actions enough what he felt?
"You are an idiot" Sasuke said his breath hitching and tried kissing Naruto as an answer who suddenly pushed Sasuke away. Sasuke looked at Naruto with shocked expression.
"You do realize that this is cheating,right?"Naruto's eyebrows were narrowed and Sasuke felt annoyance bubbling inside him on being interrupted.
"Fuck Naruto! I don't consider being with Sakura a relationship enough to consider kissing you cheating!" Sasuke was irritated but his words snapped something inside Naruto.
"Then what about our relationship? Do you not consider being with me a relationship enough to fucking start dating and sucking faces with her as cheating Sasuke! Oh God you thought I was talking about this kiss right now! No you fucking bastard I am talking about you cheating on me with Sakura!" Naruto's face flushed bright red and his eyes held a burning gaze. Sasuke's breath hitched and he opened his lips to form sentence.
"Naruto I.." He wanted to say something but he felt like such an absolute idiot. How could he worsen the situation even more.
"I hope you haven't forgotten that promise we made when we started going out about you not dating anyone else even if you weren't going to come out until graduation", Naruto's tone was bitting,"But I think that promise is nothing any more 'cause you are not going to come out ever. I would have tried to understand you if you had balls to tell me this before I got to know all of this but you know what Sasuke I am not an asshole like you so hey let's make a clean break" Naruto's sudden cold bitting tone and the bitter smile made Sasuke's blood run cold yet he stood there quite and with a stony face,only his eyes narrowing a bit more.
"What do you mean by this?" Sasuke voice was cold too and Naruto just took a shaky breath before looking straight into Sasuke eyes with a cold and unblinking gaze and a vicious smile on his face.
"I'm breaking up with you" Sasuke felt as if something broke inside him and like suddenly he couldn't breath. Did Naruto really said those words to him?"I know it was scary for you to see Auntie like that but you have to make a choice. If you don't wanna come out then fine but until you do I'm not going to be your slut or some dirty secret..." Naruto was quite for a long while and Sasuke stood there staring at Naruto yet Naruto wasn't looking at him, his hands in his pockets,"Meet you at school", Naruto didn't meet his gaze when he left the room and Sasuke was left with such a great sense of loss that it clouded his every sense.
Naruto didn't stopped nor Sasuke stopped him but the moment door clicked shut behind Naruto and the last glimpse of his boyfriend no ex-boyfriend vanished from his sight, Sasuke flopped down on the floor right there. He knew that he should go follow Naruto and stop him. Tell him that he loved Naruto, that he would anything for him but what Naruto was asking from him was something Sasuke couldn't give to him. Yes he loved Naruto but not more than his mother. His mother whom his father left for an other woman. His mother who was all alone while raising her and away from her other child, a child who took his father's side. How could he just throw away his mother? May be he was bound to live a life full with lies and pain but that was what it was going to be. He knew yet the tears which hadn't escaped his eyes ever slid down his cheeks now. He himself was unaware of how his face was wet with tears and how they weren't stopping at all.
Why couldn't be life easy? Why couldn't he be normal like others? Why he had to love his best friend? Why couldn't Naruto be a girl or even if Naruto was a guy why couldn't Sasuke be a girl? Things would have been so much easier. Sasuke just sat there for the longest time, letting himself be consumed by the heart break and unknown to him just across the street in his room Naruto was laying on his stomach over his bed and muffling his cries. Questioning the fates that why he had to go through this pain? Why couldn't be things easier? Why couldn't he have just one person he wanted so much for himself? Why?
"Naruto I don't think you did the right thing." Hinata sighed after listening to Naruto whose eyes were obviously red and he looked withered like a flower.
"I don't know rights or wrongs Hinata. I just.. I just can't be his second choice and he didn't even stopped me. So please just don't take his side", Naruto took a deep breath trying to calm himself and not to embarrass himself by crying right now.
"Naruto he is also not wrong. I mean seriously who would have thought that Aunt Miko would turn out to be homophobic. And Naruto you know it as well as me that no matter how strong Sasuke pretends to be but deep down he is just a big softy and can't see the people he loves in pain. Try to understand him a bit", Hinata gently squeezed his arm and said with a soft expression on her face. Naruto took a deep breath.
"I understand it Hinata. I do but I still can't be his mistress while he fucks her. He wanna date her to satisfy auntie, fine. But Hinata he is saying that he might never come out. He says that he would be dating Sakura until we graduate and has the nerve to tell me that it's fine because he doesn't feel a thing about her",Naruto seemed totally tired. He was leaning against the lockers and looked so hurt that even Hinata could feel his sadness seeping into her and making her feel melancholic.
"It's going to be OK. I'm sure Sasuke would break up with her. He loves you Naruto. He might never say this but I have seen how he looks at you",Hinata's tone was warm and soothing even in the loud chitchat in the hallway and Naruto gave her a weak smile yet it was the same moment he heard a bit of commotion to look at the further end to see Sasuke with Sakura with arm in arm. Naruto's body tensed and Hinata winced when she saw the moment bell rang and Sakura kissed Sasuke, who slowly pushed her away after the kiss.'Oh boy' Hinata sighed wistfully.
"Seems like he had made his choice Hinata", Naruto was smiling yet the expressive eyes looked misty and looked as if the guy had been crushed just this moment.
"Naruto.." Hinata trailed off. She hated it. She hated it so much.
"Let's just go to class",Sasuke was approaching more closer when Naruto said this and turned to leave. Hinata looked at Sasuke who looked paler than usual and she noticed how hurt flashed in Sasuke's eyes on seeing Naruto avoiding him. But Hinata was helpless. In the end it was their choice to choose what they wanted to choose. Her eyes lingered on Sasuke who had completely ignored her existence and then turned to leave too. She knew as a mutual friend she should be with Sasuke yet the choice was obvious. She loved Naruto and right now seeing him hurt was the most painful thing for her.
"..Oh God. I don't think I'll be able to get in that college. They are so high maintenance for me",Ino sipped her juice while pouting and saying this.
"It's not the college which is high maintenance. It's just you being dumb",Temari was as cold as ever and all most everyone rolled their eyes. here it comes. It was such a routine that no one bothered to stop them any more.
Temari and Ino were the two blonds of their popular gang and both of them were cheerleaders. Ino always said that Temari was being a bitch just because she was jealous of Ino yet Sakura knew exactly why there was a cold war going on between them. Ino was dating Gaara who happened to be Temari's brother and then there was this issue of Ino's ex Shikamaru. The guy was also part of their soccer team and a fricking genius and here comes the problem of Temari dating Shikamaru yet almost every body knew that Shikamaru was still not over Ino and you can notice it easily if you know the guy and are an observant person. Sakura bit her lips. Ino was same as ever. Just like she was when at their previous school, a total play girl.
"Hey! Who are you calling dumb?" Ino shrieked and Temari just glared at her.
"Are you deaf or wasn't I clear enough for you high maintenance ass to understand me the first time",Sakura's eye brows narrowed. OK, so Temari was really being a bitch right now.
"Temari I think you are being more than a bitch today so just drop it",Sakura said it and Temari snapped her head to her yet Sakura did caught Ino's grin.
"Oh Haruno? You got something to say", Temari nearly growled and Sakura glared back at her.
"Temari drop it already",Shikamaru said making a disgusted face and Temari bit her lips, her eyes flashing with anger.
"But babe I.." Before Temari could whine Shikamaru shook his head and stood up to leave and Temari left after him too.
"Thank God the bitch left", Ino said it out loud and this time it was Kiba who spoke.
"She just fucks with ya and ya let her fuck",Sakura rolled her eyes. Here was the reason they begged to Ten Ten to keep Kiba always busy. The mutt got such a fricking dirty mouth.
"Dog boy just keep sucking your girl's face", It was Gaara who spoke now scowling. Gaara never spoke between Temari and Ino yet the moment any one else dares they were given the menacing glare. Kiba would have retorted if not for Ten Ten pulling him and whispering something, making Kiba smirk almost evilly and Ten Ten gave him a evil grin too. Sakura shuddered. God help them. She looked on her side to see Sasuke quietly nibbling on his sandwich. She noticed that Sasuke looked paler than usual yet in a simple button up checked shirt and jeans Sasuke looked hot enough to make any girl stare at him. God the guy was so handsome, it almost seemed unreal.
"I hope you don't mind. They are always just bickering like this."Sakura smiled a bit awkwardly but Sasuke didn't responded.
"So uh how is Naruto and Hinata? They must really hate me for snatching you away like this?" Sakura chuckled a bit nervously to elevate the tension between them yet it just grew more thick.
"How about we just go and sit with them. I'm sure..." Before Sakura could say more Sasuke stopped nibbling and looked down at the tray with his fist clenched on the table and Sakura felt like Sasuke was going to just get up and leave.
"I don't want to talk about that."Sasuke's tone was calm and compose yet the shadows lurking on his face were enough to confuse Sakura. In fact they were enough to make Sakura bit her lips. Sasuke was trying to be tough but why? Her eyes widened a bit.
"Did you and Naruto fought over something?"Ahhh.. here it was. The way Sasuke's body tensed, Sakura had her answer.
"You know me and Ino are like you and Naruto too,being childhood friends and all that. So I know how hard it is when we are fighting and ignoring each other. So I think you should go and talk with him. I mean he would understand you no matter what because he is your closest friend and basically a family right?"Sakura's tone wasn't sugary and cheeky. It was sincere yet it made Sasuke want to just storm off from there. In the first place it was because of Ino and Sakura he was in this mess. But Sakura's words did hit him hard and he felt like his heart had clenched in his chest.
"I thought so too but I guess he didn't." When Sasuke gave that icy smirk and looked at her with that obvious emptiness Sakura was left speechless. Sasuke had so much control over his expression and his eyes yet Sakura had seen the small slip earlier and now this smirk. It made her own heart squeeze a bit painfully. The bell rang and they got up to leave. Sakura noticed how Naruto and Hinata weren't in the cafeteria. Something was wrong and Sakura had a feeling that this fight or whatever was due to her because well the way Hinata had glared at her earlier while passing by in the hallways wasn't exactly in a friendly way. She looked as her boyfriend left the cafeteria with graceful steps. She couldn't help but feel uneasy.
Sasuke felt as if he was slowly being suffocated to death and it wasn't his fault if he was feeling this way because it have been a week. A week since his break up with Naruto. A week since he last talked with the said boy. Sasuke shifted on his bed and looked at the nightstand, where stood a picture of him with Naruto and their moms. It was of the day when they started their high school. Naruto's sunny smile and his shinning eyes filled with life were even evident in just a picture. His mom stood beside him and Naruto's mum beside her son.
Sasuke felt like tears were prickling his eyes yet he refused to cry. Every day felt like such a hell to him with Naruto sitting only seats away, walking past him in the hallways or how Naruto and Hinata no longer stayed in the cafeteria for the lunch. Sasuke bit his lips and glared at the wall in front of him and on the window. Why was Naruto being such an asshole to him? Why wasn't he understanding that what Sasuke did was a necessity? Why the hell he have to break up with him? He had told Naruto that it was just a pretend relationship. That he didn't love Sakura at all then why!
Was the promise more important than Sasuke? How could Naruto be so heartless? Sasuke felt wetness in his eyes and roughly wiped them before he scowled. If Naruto wanted to play the hard way, then fine. Sasuke would act as heartless as him too. Even if it would kill him inside to see Naruto get hurt even more but with the way Naruto was ignoring and avoiding him, it was inevitable. He would tell Naruto what the real hurt was. How Sasuke wanted to fucking kill Hinata to be so close to Naruto and Naruto for smiling and acting as if nothing was wrong.
If Naruto wanted it to 'hurt' then who was Sasuke to say no? Sasuke sneered and closed his eyes.
"Hinata.. I-I can't take it anymore. Fuck.." Naruto's face was contorted in agony and Hinata felt like something had punched her chest. She couldn't breath. They were sitting in the open air with Naruto leaning against the wall with his uneaten lunch placed close to him.
"You have to be strong. If you are hurting so much then just go and make amends already. I am sure Sasuke is hurting as well. He looks so sick and silent." Hinata gently squeezed Naruto's hand and Naruto took a deep breath.
"I can't..." His voice was broken.
"Naruto..." She wanted to tell him to just drop this tough act. To stop pretending yet Naruto's next words stopped her right there.
"I know he is hurting but I can't see him with her Hinata. I won't be able to take it. Just thinking about there daily kisses and the way she is clinging to him makes me see red. If I was still with him and Sakura touched him. I would have outed him. I know he is thinking that I am cruel and even you think that I am being selfish but you guys don't understand what I am going through Hinata. I am dying every second. He is so close to me yet he is not mine. This small knowledge is what keeping me together but if we were still dating then I..." And Hinata's eyes widened.'They were dating?'
"So Hinata please just don't ask me the impossible. I won't be able to do it. I can share him. At least now I know that he is not mine. That he is just an unrequited love for me now. And you know Hinata I am such a weak and pathetic guy that now that I am a mess because of or love I can't even be a friend to Sasuke." He looked at Hinata with slightly wet eyes and gave a weak smile,"I am not making sense right?"
"I think I understand you a bit now but there is no denying it that it's destroying both of you. You love him then at least be with him as a friend." Hinata's gentle voice made Naruto's stomach churn with something unpleasant.
"I can't. I am too selfish." The way Naruto smile with pain streaked face and the way his voice was a bit shaky and how those blue eyes clouded with pain and suffering made Hinata's heart ache with so pain, she didn't know what to do. Was it possible for someone to be in this much emotional pain? All she hoped that things would turn out better that there may be a magical way to just turn every thing right. She hoped some miracle would happen before both of his close friends broke completely.
Sasuke was kissing Sakura roughly, touching her and making the girl's smaller body tremble and squirm.
thump-thump-thump!
"S-some.. mmm.. one.. might..ah" Sakura moaned out but Sasuke didn't stopped. He plunged his tongue inside Sakura's mouth, holding her and making a sandwich between him and the wall. They were on school grounds and he had asked Sakura to come here. Other's had whistled yet Sakura couldn't read a thing from Sasuke's face.
"Sasuke!" The yell was enough to make Sasuke and Sakura broke apart and there stood a fuming Hinata with Naruto who looked like he had been just slapped in the face. Sakura looked at Sasuke and saw how Sasuke's eyes flashed pain merely for a second before coldness took it's place.
"Hinata? What a pleasant surprise?" Sasuke's voice was sneering she saw how the small girl seemed livid. Sakura took deep breaths to calm her self and that's when she saw Naruto holding a roll and Hinata holding a small petite box. Sakura's eyes shot to Sasuke with a small gasp,'Sasuke did this on purpose! But why?' She could feel anger bubbling and prickling on her skin from the inside.
"..." The girl was quite yet Sakura could see the struggle on her face. She looked as if she had seen a ghost or worst like she had seen someone die. Yup! Sakura winced when Hinata started to speak,"I never knew you could do this Sasuke! I can't believe I though of you as someone special to me!" Hinata's voice wasn't a loud yell, but in it's deadly calm way the voice had such a sharp knife like edge that even Sasuke's body tensed and his face turned impassive and cold.
"I'm going.." Naruto's mumble was a bit too soft and low with a stilled face and he turned quickly to leave. Hinata turned to look at Naruto's direction and that's when Sasuke spoke in a cold icy tone, making Sakura shiver with dread. She was caught in something ugly.
"Go after him and take advantage of this too. Because that's all you seem to do these days." The way Sasuke sneered with that dark gaze in his onyx fathomless eyes even Sakura softly gasped on such rudeness. Her eyes quickly snapped toward Hinata whose expressions didn't change a bit but she did closed the distance between them. Before Sakura could sense what was happening Hinata punched Sasuke in the stomach with much force, making him stumble and groan with pain.
"Go fuck your self Uchiha. You are no longer worth my time." Hinata had dropped her box while punching Sasuke and softly flipped her hairs away. She turned and marched away. Sakura was still shocked. This right now felt as if it was something too personal for her to be here to witness. Why would Sasuke do this? With the anger surged through her once again on being used by this guy. How dare he use her! She glared at Sasuke who was rubbing the spot Hinata had punched with a sour expression.
"Sasuke how could you.."
"Don't even start to act self righteous with me because after all this was just a bet for you from the start." Sasuke bit out looking at her like she was some kind of piece of trash and also the heavy gaze, the pain behind that anger and frustration made Sakura squirm and gasp. Sasuke turned and left yet Sakura couldn't move an inch.
She felt as if she had been slapped in face. Sasuke had accused her. He had said that it was only fair that he would use her if she was using him. But that kiss? Sasuke had purposely did it so Naruto and Hinata could see or more like one of them sees it especially. Sakura bit her lips and her eyes widened a bit. Sasuke was in love with one of his friends. But who was it?Was it Hinata or was it...Naruto? But that couldn't be right? Right?
TBC...