Notice: Title Change(Moving In-Space)
"So that's a yes, right?" He tried to make his voice sound normal but his words were still sounded deep and low, resembling a growl with a tinge of sex in it.
"Yes! Yeah, of course. Why would you ever think I'd say no?" She was eager and excited to move in and she didn't care that it was obvious.
"I don't know, maybe because you were saying all that stuff about space?" He was still curious about that. Would she just get sick of him one day? Feeling like he was just too close, that their relationship was too fast?
"Nick, I only meant that towards Abby. She still has all my things in there and she can't stay here forever, but it already feels like she plans to...Nick, I love you, I could never feel like I needed space from you. It's just all so complicated with my sister here." The only time she made eye contact with him the whole time shed been talking was when she told him she loved him. The rest of the time her head rested on his chest, playing with the hair there.
Nick knew the reason for not letting him see those beautiful blues, was because they were on the verge of tears. Talking about her sister would make her like this. So, Nick just hugged her closer because now he knew. Their should never be space between them.
"Knock, knock." Abby, of course.
He knew Jess just wasn't ready for whatever she had to say, so Nick answered. "Yes?"
"Just thought Jess would wanna know I'm leaving." With that Jess sprung up from bed, trying to find her robe. She heard a whistle and looked to Nick who was pointing at his desk. "Oh, right!" Jess said to no one but herself.
Once her robe was tied and she was about to open the door a mix of everything shot through her. In her head she felt worry, what if she was going to live with someone who was just a loser, a one night stand that she'd be living with. In her body she felt excitement, excitement that her and Nick wouldn't be interrupted...as much, they still lived with Coach and Winston. And in her heart, she felt love and that made her almost depressed that her only sibling was leaving. They may fight, and Jess might get pissed off, but they're sisters and they love each other.
"Knock, knock." Abby once again rung, this time not only with her voice but an audible knock.
Jess finally opened the door.
"You're leaving?" Jess said with a disbelieving tone.
"Yeah got bored of this place, and it's a little crammed. I'm ditching it for next door." Abby said with a bored tone, exaggerated eye roll, and began to play with the nails on her fingers.
"Next door? As in Schmidt, next door? You're moving in with him?" Jess didn't really care too much about her living with the old loft roommate, considering he was just across the hall it was just a shock.
"Yep, six pack over there asked me if I wanted to stay with him since apparently he's really lonely." Jess was starting to like this idea. She still got to see her sister and spend time with her but wouldn't have to worry about her going through and stealing some of hers and the guys stuff.
"Well, I think that that's a great idea since you'll only be across the hall and I get my room back. I'm proud of you Abs, moving out and all now you just need a job." Jess smiled, she was excited for the new arrangement.
"Yeah, whose gonna hire me?" Jess thought back to the few months where she had lost her job.
"The Casserole Shanty is always desperate for workers." Jess with a cock of the eyebrow. "Just something to think about if you really plan on staying here, bye I'll see you later when you're all moved into Schmidt's place." Jess turned on her heel finally ready to get back to her boyfriend.
Once inside Nick's room she jumped on his bed with an excited smile, "She's moving out!" Jess said right before she started to squeal.
"Yeah, I heard." Nick lacked the excitement Jess was trying to share.
"Nick?" What now? Jess thought they were supposed to be freakin' having celebratory sex.
"Hmm?" He always had to make this hard for her.
"Can you just stop with the playing dumb act for five seconds, Why aren't you happy?!" Jess was frustrated but like always she eased her voice back to polite in a second, "Now there's no more Abby."
"Because Jess, like I said I heard!" As Jess' voice went from angry to compassionate, Nick's went from anger to sorrow. "I heard how you couldn't wait to get your room back and now you finally can."
"Nick that's not what I meant. I agreed to move in with you and I plan to, just not this very second. I obviously need a few days to throw away something's and put others in a storage locker, I also wouldn't mind some time in between those things to be able to relax without worrying about them. It takes a lot of work...and time." Jess was denying it to herself as well as Nick, she wouldn't say the one thing she truly needed and that was space. She hadn't realized she missed it until she got the chance to get it back.
"You ever notice, Jess that every time we take a step forward we move two back." He said while looking down at his hands. He knew he wasn't going to cry but he wouldn't take the chance of letting her see him the pain she caused him.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Jess' heart slowly started to break.
"I don't..." Now he had to look at her so she would know, this time he wasn't playing dumb. He had no idea what he was saying "I don't know. Maybe I'm just in the mood to fight or something. I'm sorry."
"Nick, you can't just-"
"-Drop it Jess!" He didn't mean to yell, he just didn't want this right now. He shouldn't of said anything.
Jess was so quick to leave his room and go into her's because now without Abby there, she could. If Nick wanted her to drop it, then she would. She would drop their entire relationship if he couldn't be honest with her. Without truly revealing feelings is it actually a commitment? But she had just done the same to him, hadn't she? Wasn't she the one not admitting her craved space.
While leaving his room she slammed the door closed and she did the same to her own, before hitting her head to the pillow and letting herself cry.
"Jess...wait!" Nick yelled as he tugged on pants and shirt.
He knocked on her door for half a second but knew she wouldn't answer, so he let himself in. "I'm sorry that I yelled." He said as he took a seat at the edge of her bed and put a hand on her leg.
"Well that wasn't great either, but do you really think that's what upset me?" Jess said as she began to sit up.
He looked down at his hands, he didn't have words but he had to say something. "Jess, I didn't mean what I said. It's just when you said that you needed time, we both know what you were really asking for and that hurt."
"Nick, it's not like I was doing it intentionally. I just like having my room...it's clean, it's colorful. It's been where I've lived for over two years and I've really made it me." She offered a tiny smile to him as he looked up at her, hoping he'd understand where she was coming from.
He smiled back, "I think I have an idea." Jess turned her head suddenly very interested, her face etched with curiosity begging him to continue. "Let me move in."
"What?" It was such a simple solution that she'd be more than okay with. She realized it was never about space, it was about being attached. She didn't want to leave the world she had been able to create within the space.
"You want to keep your room, I wanna be able to share that with you." He moved to kiss her, when their lips met they both knew it was a yes from Jess but when the kiss ended and their foreheads rested against each other's he still needed a verbal agreement from her, "Say yes."
"Yes! Of course." She leaned in to kiss him. As she wound her hands around his neck, her fingers pulled at his hair. She forced him on top of her and wrapped her legs up around his waist, never breaking their shared kiss, in their newly shared room.
The only time they broke the kiss was when clothes were being slowly peeled off or when Nick said, "I love you, Jessica Day."
Jess opened her eyes to see him staring right back. Her hands came up from lightly scratching his back to lay on his face. One laid on his cheek, rubbing her thumb back and forth right under his eye. Her other had only touched his face for a second before diving into his hair. It all felt so intense, it was gentle and beautiful. "I love you too, Nicholas Miller." She brought her head up as he moved his down to plant an everlasting kiss on each other's lips.
Nick felt so lucky he was able to do this, not just have sex with her but to share a room with her, admit his love for her, to kiss her, to stare down at her below him, to touch her, to feel her, to hold her. He thought back to how she said yes, he wondered if she'd say that to a different question their future had to have held. Even if that weren't for awhile.