Chapter 2: Alsoros

He woke up to bright lights and the familiar smell of the infirmary. His head hurt like hell and there was a strange feeling of emptiness in his chest. The last thing he remembered was gunfire, shouting and smoke. It had been the Genii. Frantic moving bodies, screams of terror, fire. They'd been ambushed and….

"Elizabeth!!" John sat up yelling her name.

He started to break down again. Carson and Rodney came over to him. John grabbed Rodney.

"Where is she? Is she…" he couldn't bring himself to say it.

Rodney sighed and looked at Carson.

"She's in the….the morgue, John. I'm sorry but there was nothing you could have done to save her. The bullet penetrated her heart." McKay went silent.

John shook his head and kept repeating the same word. No.

"I could have saved her Rodney. If I'd never let her go on the mission in the first place. Or if I'd been more alert or if I'd taken the bullet instead. She'd still be alive! Damn it!" John now realized why he felt empty inside. Elizabeth. He'd never see her again. He'd never see her smile, her laugh or even her glare when he was being childish.

John was getting very aggravated. Carson went to inject a sedative when John stopped him.

"McKay. Is there any way? Is there any way to bring her back? There has to be!"

Rodney just shook his head solemnly. He closed his eyes and said,

"If I knew of one do you think I'd be standing here instead of trying to get her back?"

John pushed Carson away and struggled out of the infirmary bed. He pulled out his IV and started to run. Thankfully he was in scrubs. He ran to McKay's lab and got onto the data base. He searched through everything he could but there was nothing until….

Resurrection: Alsoros

That was all it said but it was enough to hope. He was about to call Rodney when he heard foot steps. Carson had gone to the marines. Cursing John ran in the other direction. He didn't know where he was heading until he found himself in the armoury. He kitted up, thankful for the extra uniforms and headed off towards the Jumper bay.

Before he got there though there was a shout and John ended up in darkness again. He'd been shot by a marine with a Wraith Stunner.

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When he woke up for the second time that day the emptiness was still there. He doubted that it would ever go away while Elizabeth was dead.

"What in bloody hell did you think you were playing at?!" Came Beckett's Scottish brogue.

Squinting his eyes open he noticed he was in the infirmary again. All of his team were there including Carson and Colonel Caldwell. But of course there was still no Elizabeth.

"I've found a way." He coughed out. His throat was dry from being stunned.

"Excuse me? But have you gone insane. Radek and I went over the data base with a fine tooth comb! Do you really….." McKay was shut up by Teyla elbowing him in the stomach.

John nodded and coughed again. Beckett handed him a cup full of ice chips to drink.

"Planet. Alsoros!" John sat up so he could talk more easily. He looked directly at Caldwell. "We have to go there! I don't care what you say or how much you want Elizabeth's position but I'm going and you can't stop me!"

Caldwell didn't look surprised. He sighed and nodded. He headed out of the infirmary with out saying anything else. John looked up at his team.

"Well you're not going with out us!" Rodney shouted.

Ronon and Teyla nodded in agreement. They went to get suited up and were standing in front of the Gate in five minutes. The technicians had found Alsoros' address in the data base and dialled it up. John looked behind him to where Elizabeth usually stood to wish him luck. Instead Caldwell stood there looking out of place.

"Be safe" he said Elizabeth's phrase. "Bring her back Sheppard."

With that John stepped through the Stargate, with his team behind him, hoping to find a way to get back the only women he truly loved. And when he did he was going to tell her.

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