== Be that idiot, Karkat
Hey! You aren't an idiot!
Well.. Maybe you are one, you really don't know at this point. What you do know right is that you are most certainly outside right now, and most certainly soaking wet.
Just as you are about to start crying.. You mean about to start.. Ah, who are you trying to kid? You started crying the instant you were out of earshot from John. Now you're sobbing on the corner of his street, and you aren't exactly sure why.
What you should be doing right now is kissing that idiot. You shouldn't be crying alone in the rain like the girl who's matesprit just left her and now she stands crying and alone on the corner until...
Suddenly you can't feel the rain dripping onto your shoulders. Looking up, you say "John? Is that you?" You don't even get a response. You're just standing under an umbrella, kissing that asshole smack on the lips. Before you can lean in, he pulls away, both of you blushing bright red.
"John.. I.." "Shhh.. Don't say anything." He cuts you off. "John. Fuck. Listen." He looks startled, afraid. You hesitate, unsure if this is the right thing to say. "I think you should think about this first." You give him a serious look. "I don't want what happened to Dave to happen to me."
He looks at you, shocked. "Karkat! I thought we discussed this already! I don't love Dave anymore! Its over, so stop bringing this up...!" He is pissed. With reason of course.
You feel miserable. You whimper gently, hoping that he doesn't notice. "J-john..?"
"No, go back home Karkat. Before I make things worse." He mutters the last part, and you mishear. Instead of hearing him say he was going to make things worse, you thought he ment you would make things worse.
"What do you mean 'before I make things worse'?" you hiss. "If I recall you were the one who rejected me time and time again. And then you poured salt in every cut you made by agreeing to dateDave Fucking Strider." You spit out that douche's name, cursing and muttering as you walk away.
He walks away, both of you feeling hurt and angry. Him probably just a bit more confused than you.
== Quick, be the John human before you miss the chance!
You are John, and you are more than a little bit angry.
Your friend-leader-palhoncho just pretty much said he hated you, which is the opposite of what you wanted to happen. You curse yourself. And then you curse Dave.
You can't help but feel that somehow this is all Dave's fault. If he hadn't suggested you kiss Karkat. If he hadn't agreed to date you. If he had been easier to love. If he wasn't so damn hot.
Wait. You didn't just say that. You can't think that anymore because you're in love with Karkat. You're sure of it. You hope.
Oh god.. What if you aren't?
Your mind swirls into a deep valley of despair, Karkat was right. You aren't even over Dave yet, so how could you possibly love them both? You can't without hurting one of them and ruining your chances with both.
A know forms in your chest.
What have I done? You ask yourself, feeling a single tear of agony fall down your pitiful face.
Maybe.. Just maybe if you can win Karkat's heart you will be able to get over Dave and make everyone happy. That's all you've ever wanted. To make everyone happy. This is your greatest downfall.
That's why you started dating Dave in the first place. Karkat, he could survive without you at that point, but Dave, he needed someone to love him, for him to love. You left him after you realized that there really was no spark between the two of you. You just couldn't stand to hurt him by trying to push it for any longer.
Some point after you broke up with him, your brain decided that the company you shared with him was nice, and you wanted more, but you just shrugged it off as your way of getting over him. You should have read the signs and got back together. Made it work, you know that this problem would never have formed if you had stayed with Dave.
== Emotional wrecks, what will you do now?
A/N: Its me again! So what do you think? I hope this chapter is a bit better. I'm currently on vacation and the relaxation makes it easier to write freely. Oh, and I forgot to mention this in the first A/N, but I'd love it if you guys reviewed for me! Hopefully reviews will give me the inspiration/will to finish this fic. Also, feel free to correct any mistakes. I'm planning on having a friend proof-read my fics when I get back home, but for now, what I have should do. Beside the point.. Thanks for reading! I can't wait to post the next chapter! (By the way, I'd still love some help with the title, I've grown a bit attatched to the current one, but if you can think of anything better, I'll consider changing it!)
- Polar
P.S.- You guys don't have to read authors notes.. If anything actually important happens I'll type it at the top in bold!