Title: Long Way to Heaven
Summary: "So, Fujisaki-kun, I think I found a way to loosen you up. You need to find yourself a girlfriend." And one Hell of an emotion rollercoaster that will be for poor Suguru.
Chapters: 2/3
Warnings: Perhaps some cursing and a bit of shounen ai.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or any of its characters. Only one in this story is mine.

I'd also like to thank my reviewers for pointing out my mistakes.
Thank you so much!

Part 2

He gazed at the little jumping figures on the TV and yawned. 'You really watch this?'

'Sometimes, yes.' Hiro called from the kitchen and Suguru sighed. When Hiro walked in again and sat down next to Suguru he looked at Hiro. 'That's just so... boring.' He said, at lack of better words. 'Where's your phone?'

'Behind the couch, on the small table.' Hiro said with a small wave as he watched Suguru turn around and look over the back of the couch. With a grin Suguru picked up the phone and dialed Tomiko's number. He had promised to call her. And it felt good to hear her voice on the other side of the line. And he smiled as she started to twaddle about his cousin.

'Moshi moshi, Tomiko speaking.'

'Tomiko-chan, it's me.' Suguru said as he played with the loose cords on Hiro's couch. Meanwhile the other man was studying him with an interesting gaze. Never had he actually seen Suguru as relaxed as he was now, talking to that girl. And from somewhere he got the feeling that this boy, wanting to be a man so much, on his couch, was the real Suguru Fujisaki. And in Hiro's opinion, he was adorable. He wasn't smiling, but his eyes were sparkling happily. He sat with his feet folded under his knees and he looked like he was sixteen again. A soft smile found its way to Hiro's lips, but if faltered the moment that Suguru blushed. What, he wondered, were the two talking about?

'Hi there me. Have you found yourself a girlfriend yet?'

'Tomiko-chan,' Suguru started as he blushed, 'stop it.'

'But why would I? I can just imagine your blushing face! So tell me, who's next to you?' The excited voice of Tomiko sounded over the phone. 'Hiroshi-kun is.'

'Ooo, nice. You apologized yet?'

'No, not yet.'

'Well are you going to?'

'Probably not,' Suguru said as he traced a pattern with his index finger on the couch. Hiro raised a brow at the conversation. Wondering why the two were talking about him. It was really irritating to follow a one-sided conversation, especially when it is about you.

'Why not?' The girl whined and Suguru snickered. 'It's your idea. Plus, he's not mad at me.'

'I know someone who is.'

'Please, leave my cousin out of this.'

'O, he must be so pissed you stormed out of his house!'

'Hey, I didn't tell you that.' Suguru said, raising a brow. 'You're almost as see-through as a sieve.'

'Funny, thanks.'

'I take it you're not going home by the way.'

'Not planning on it.' He said as he made his hand a fist. 'You staying with Nakano-kun tonight?'

'Don't know.'

'You'll call me tomorrow.'

'Certainly.'

'Okay, bye bye. Sweet dreams.'

'I don't like that underlying tone. What are you implying?' He said and he heard Tomiko laugh. 'Nothing. Just that perhaps you don't need a girlfriend.'

'Good.'

'More like a boyfriend.'

'Tomiko!' Suguru yelled, face red in embarrassment. But the girl had already hung up on him and he sighed heavily. He turned towards Hiro with an apologetic smile on his face and tipped his head to the side for a moment. 'Sorry. That must've been so rude.'

'It's okay.' Hiro said as he laid his hand on Suguru's shoulder for a moment. 'It was interesting enough. First of all, you've actually got a personal life besides Bad Luck.' He said, earning himself a playful punch from Suguru on his arm. 'And I know that you think I'm nice enough to talk about in your personal life.'

'I'm here now. I really can't get besides the point that now you and Shindou-kun are a part of my personal life.'

'Thank you, Suguru-kun. That's a lot for you to say.' Hiro said with a sparkling smile. Suguru smiled back and leaned against the back of the couch, completely comfortable.

He sat on the couch, eyes drooping slightly, and the irritating voices of the hyperactive persons on the television were the only thing keeping him awake. His head was resting on the back of the couch and his feet were dangling off the side of the couch, sock clad toes barely touching the ground. At the moment, on the verge of sleep, he wasn't thinking of the problems that were occupying him in the day. He softly murmured something understandable and Hiro turned his head away from the television, towards his friend. And he smiled.

At the moment Suguru was completely relaxed and in Hiro's opinion, looked totally innocent. His closed eyes and slightly flushed cheeks. The small smile on his lips and his way to big socks around his feet, barely touching the ground. His right hand resting – perhaps a bit uncomfortably – under his body and his left arm dangling over his chest. His dark-green hair sprawled over the couch and...

Here Hiro's dreaming about Suguru stopped as he bend forwards and gently shook the others shoulders. 'Suguru-kun.' He said softly and Suguru opened his eyes a bit. 'Wha -' He started with a sleep-laden voice but was interrupted by his own yawn. He slowly raised his right hand and brought it towards his mouth, yawn already over when he gently placed it over his mouth.

'I'm sorry.' Hiro said with an apologetic smile towards his friend. 'But your neck was really going to hurt if you kept laying like that.'

'O,' was all Suguru answered before he lay down again. 'Suguru-kun.' Hiro tried again but Suguru just murmured: 'Lemme sleep.' And Hiro snickered. 'Here,' he said as he moved Suguru's head to his shoulder. 'Lean on me.'

'Mmm, 'kay.' Suguru softly whispered back before closing his eyes again. Had he been awake he'd probably moved away and sat up straight to watch the TV again. But right now he was just to relaxed to move. And he fell asleep quickly and Hiro shook his head. When at work Suguru was so concentrated, but when relaxing, he was a totally different person.

The next morning it wasn't the sun that shone into his eyes that woke him up. Nor was it Hiro bustling around the house to get ready for work. No, it was the ringing phone that woke him up. It took him at most twelve seconds to open his eyes, rub the sleep out of his eyes and sit up. Because he knew who it was calling. Well, probably.

'Damnit!' He heard Hiro swear as the man stumbled into the room, hair a mess and yawning widely. 'Hiroshi Nakano.' He said, stifling a yawn as he picked up the phone. Suguru looked intently as his friends face and saw him frown as he shot a look at Suguru. 'Yes, why?' He said, and Suguru now knew for sure. It was Tohma calling. 'Yeah, if he's awake. Let me check for a moment, Seguchi-san.' Hiro said and laid the phone down onto the small table by the window. 'Do or don't?' He asked Suguru and he shook his head. 'Don't.' He said and Hiro nodded. 'I'm sorry, Seguchi-san.' He said as he picked up the phone again, flashing Suguru a wink. 'He's still sleeping, I'm sorry. Shall I tell him you've called when he wakes up?' He said, frowning at the phone again for a moment. 'All right... we can? That's great. Yes I'll tell him... Yes, I'll call him... Good day Seguchi-san.' With a polite smile on his face, as if Tohma was standing right in front of him, Hiro hung up and turned to Suguru with a grin. 'K has got some stuff to do today. If we promise to finish the new song by the end of next week, we're free to go around.'

'We're free today?' Suguru asked. 'Yeah,' Hiro sighed and suddenly frowned. 'You don't want to know why your cousin called?'

'No, I already do. He's probably standing here at the front door in a couple of hours if I know him good enough. And I swear you, I do.'

And Suguru was right. Because two hours later, when they had both dressed, showered, eaten breakfast and Suguru had tamed his hair into his normal style, Tohma was standing in front of the door, right after they'd both had a laughing attack at something on the TV Hiro'd made a comment about.

A little flustered with a little red staining his cheeks of laughing Suguru stood at the door, his laugh immediately changing into a glare as he saw his cousin standing in front of Hiro. 'Good morning Nakano-san, Suguru-kun.' Tohma said while answering Suguru's glare with the same cold eyes. 'Good morning Seguchi-san. What can I do for you?'

'I'd like to speak to my cousin.' He said, cold eyes now turning to Hiro and making the other man shudder. 'If you don't mind.' Tohma said, waiting for Hiro to move away. But Hiro ignored Tohma's words and turned to Suguru. They younger boy gave a nod with a small smile, saying it was fine. With a shrug Hiro moved inside and Suguru turned his head back to his cousin with a defiant glare. 'What?'

'I would have at least expected a phone call from you. I'm really disappointed. You do realize that you're a disgrace to your mother now, don't you?' Tohma said, his words far colder than he had actually wanted them to be. For a moment Suguru bit his lip, but then he turned his head and looked away from Tohma. 'I didn't feel like calling.' He answered softly, and Tohma snorted. 'You shouldn't have walked away in the first place. You do realize that because I said you could live with me, I am now responsible for you.'

'I'm eighteen, Tohma-san.'

'And not capable enough to take good care of yourself when I see you struggling at work.' Tohma said and Suguru snarled. 'I'm not struggling at work. Everything is going fine and -'

'Tonight you're staying at my house.'

'But!' Suguru started but Tohma raised his hand. 'No, you'll stay there. Or else I have to take drastic measures on some things.'

'You wouldn't...' Suguru said, eyes wide. But Tohma just stared at him with a cold gaze. 'Perhaps.' Tohma answered on a cold voice and Suguru swallowed, nodding right after it. And after Suguru had nodded, Tohma's facial expression changed. His eyes became softer and he actually smiled. 'Good. Then go enjoy your free day. Dinner is at seven, Suguru-kun.'

'Yes, Tohma-san.' Suguru said with a sigh and threw the door closed as Tohma started to turn around.

'That bastard! How dare he do that.'

'Calm down, Suguru-kun.'

'Whatever!'

With a pout Suguru sat down onto the couch and glared at the TV. 'I hate him.' He muttered and snapped his head to the right when he heard Hiro snicker. 'What's so funny?' He snapped and Hiro shook his head with a grin. 'You are.'

'O, and care to enlighten me as to why I am?'

'Just your wanting to be an adult, but when something doesn't go your way you sit on the couch and pout like a ten-year-old that didn't get some candy.' He said and Suguru made a sound that came suspiciously close to "argh". 'Shouldn't you just call Shindou-kun instead of bugging me?' He said and with a shake of his head walked obediently to the phone.

'Shuichi? Ah, we're free today.' Hiro said with a smile and Suguru felt sorry for him. At the moment Shuichi was probably chattering his ear off. 'Ah, that's okay. All right, bye.' Hiro said and hung up, turning towards Suguru with an uneasy smile. 'Glad that's over, aren't you?' Suguru asked. 'He's coming over.'

'He is? O, okay. Then I'll just go.' He said and started to stand up when Hiro strode towards him and pushed him down onto the couch again by his shoulders rather firmly. 'You're not going anywhere. Why would you go if Shuichi comes over? You're a friend. And besides,' he said as he walked towards the small kitchen. 'You wouldn't dare leaving me alone with Shuichi for the day.'

'Oh, yes I would.' He said with a grin as he strolled towards the kitchen himself. Hiro, as he heard Suguru, turned around and saw the evil grin playing on his lips. 'You're staying here. If you go, you have to experience the horrors of my wrath against you.'

'O yeah, and now I'm scared.' Suguru deadpanned and rolled his eyes. But Hiro lunged forwards and started to tickle his sides as he said: 'Here's a preview.'

And Suguru thought that if Hiro didn't stop right now, he would die of laughter. He was a very ticklish person and tears of laughter started to form in his eyes as he tried to stop Hiro. But it was no use. The guitarist's fingers were moving at high speed over his sides and Suguru hiccupped, making Hiro laugh. But Suguru raised his hands, trying to push Hiro away from this blissful torture. And as he took a little step backwards he slipped. 'Wha,' he stretched his hands in front of him and fell against Hiro's chest, making the other man losing his balance in the progress. Within ten seconds the two were laying on the kitchen floor, Suguru on top of Hiro's chest, arms above his head and legs tangled.

A bright blush stained his cheeks, both of laughing and of the embarrassment of the situation. 'S-sorry,' he muttered but Hiro just smiled. 'It's okay.' He answered and smiled up at Suguru. 'I don't mind.' He said, and with the blush still staining his cheeks Suguru scrambled up again, holding out his hand for Hiro. 'Thanks,' he said with a grateful smile as he stood up. Suguru smiled back, but inside, his mind was reeling. I don't mind. It was like an irritating song he'd heard on the radio that didn't want to leave his head anymore. The words were twirling in his head, turning up whenever they liked. It made him nervous, and it got him to the point where he didn't know what to think of them.

'You look as if you've never seen a pizza before, Suguru-kun.' Shuichi teased as he saw the look of disgust crossed with astonishment on Suguru's face. He sniffed distrusting and after that sat down on the couch again with a frown. 'I have seen pizza before. And I love it, well, normally. Yours just looks like... a battlefield. I mean, Gods, how many ingredients can you put on one single pizza?' He asked and Shuichi grinned. 'Well, this is the most the delivery guy can do, I asked him.' Shuichi said with a grin and Hiro snickered too at the look on Suguru's face. 'You asked him.' He repeated with a nod and after that shook his head. 'Okay, it's final. You're insane, Shindou-kun.' He said and with one last look thrown towards the pizza he turned his head towards Hiro, eyes pleading. 'Tell me, please.'

'In one of the cabinets.' Hiro said with a laugh. 'There must be some instant-noodles there.' He said and with a grin Suguru jumped off towards the kitchen. 'No pizza for you then?' Shuichi asked and Suguru shook his head. 'No way. I don't plan to eat pizza as my breakfast anytime soon. Wait, I'm not planning on eating your pizza anytime soon unless there are... reliable ingredients on it.' He snorted as he opened a few cabinets in search for some food he thought could be trusted. 'You haven't eaten breakfast?' Hiro suddenly asked and Suguru turned around with a frown. 'No,'

'You should have.' Hiro said and Suguru walked towards the couch. 'Why does it matter?'

'Because breakfast is -'

'Important. Yeah, so? I'm old enough to decide for myself whether to eat or not.' He said, eyes flashing with a bit of anger. The way Hiro was behaving, just like Tohma. So irritating. He could well enough take care of himself. 'But Suguru-kun, all I am is worried about you. If Seguchi-san is keeping such close tabs on you something must at least be a bit worrisome, right?' He asked, and regretted doing so right after that. Suguru huffed, sat down onto the couch, his arms crossed and did nothing.

Ten minutes later half of the pizza had been eaten, but Suguru hadn't moved or said a thing. Shuichi looked at him with a sideward glance and sighed as he let a piece of pizza drop back onto the table. This boy had issues. Big issues. And from what he had seen, he wasn't admitting he was having them and not trying to solve them in any way. He rolled his eyes, it reminded him so much of him and Yuki back then.

They had had relation issues back then, when they'd just gotten together. Well, he had issues, Yuki had just been completely comfortable with how things went. But Shuichi wasn't. So he threatened that if things wouldn't change, he would leave, for real. And Yuki being Yuki had said that if he wanted to leave he should just "fuck off". And that's what Shuichi had done. He'd stayed with Hiro for a while, and when Yuki asked him back, he said no. He had never wanted this one-sided relationship, he'd said back then. And Yuki had changed, because of him. For him. And now things were going great.

And then there was of course Tatsuha dealing with his Ryuichi Sakuma problems, and Hiro breaking up with Ayaka. Everybody had problems, everybody dealt with them. The only difference was that Suguru just didn't.

'Hiro-kun! I want another pizza!' Shuichi said and Hiro raised a brow at the sudden urge of hunger from the other. 'You want what?'

'Another pizza! Can you go get it for me Hiro, please?' Shuichi said, pulling puppy-dog-eyes on his best friend. Hiro sighed and waved his hand next to his head. 'Of course. You want anything while I'm at it, Suguru-kun?' He asked and Suguru sighed before saying: 'Perhaps if you can find some ramen or noodles. You don't have any here.' He said and Hiro, who was wearing his jacket by now, opened the front door. 'You say he's insane,' he said, pointing towards Shuichi, 'but you're just the same. I'll be back around one, I think.' He said, closing the door behind him as he went.

With a sigh Suguru leaned both his elbows down onto the small table and stared at Shuichi. He wondered for a moment how the man could eat two whole pizzas at twelve in the morning, still be fit and as enthusiastic as he always was.

'You're staring.' Shuichi suddenly said and Suguru rolled his eyes. 'Well, duh.'

'Of irritation? Because that's what it mostly is when you aren't playing your synthesizer.' Shuichi said and Suguru sighed. 'You pick the crappiest moments to get serious, don't you?'

'Just as you are happy and yourself one moment and the next you're like this. That is a thing that irritates me about you. Did you know that?' Shuichi said but he didn't give Suguru any time to speak up. 'The one moment I think I've finally gotten your friendship, and the next you're off, sulking in a corner. And why, actually? Because if I knew the reason at least I could try to understand! But if you don't say a damned thing, I don't think that I can help you. Nor can Hiro, even though he wants it so badly.'

'Would you understand?' Suguru suddenly yelled, slamming his palms down onto the table and glaring at Shuichi. 'Would you, you honestly think that?' He yelled and Shuichi was taken aback a bit by the sudden out burst. 'Yes, I think I will.' He said but Suguru shook his head with a laugh. 'I can tell, you won't. Your life is perfect.'

'At the moment, yes.' Shuichi said and Suguru cast his eyes downwards, knowing he was talking about him and Yuki. But a moment later he lifted his gaze again, hardening his eyes. 'My life used to be perfect to. Until I became ten years old and everybody noticed my piano play.' He said, pausing and his words got harsher and colder.

'From then on the only thing I've been is compared. Compared to Tohma. In the beginning it wasn't that bad. To be compared to the man that you've always looked up to. It was actually a compliment I even came within his reach.' He said and paused, sitting down on the couch again and staring down to the ground.

'But you know what the problem was? I always was just the kid. The one that just did not reach his cousins level. And I was treated as that. I still am. Tohma-san treats me like I'm still eleven years old. Never respecting my opinion or seeing me for what I really am, never seeing what I really can do. My mother and father always want me to do better.' He said and sighed. 'They want me to be Tohma Seguchi, the wonder child, the world famous keyboardist of Nittle Grasper. They don't realize I'm not. And then there's everybody else, having those expectations of me. Expectations that at the moment, I just can't reach.'

He closed his eyes. He felt drained. Drained of only telling Shuichi what was bothering him.

'We've been exploiting you, haven't we?' Shuichi asked suddenly, to Suguru's surprise. And when he raised his eyes, he could Shuichi sitting at the table, guilt playing in his purple eyes. 'N-no!' Suguru said, raising his hands as if trying to calm Shuichi down like that. 'You haven't.'

'Suguru-kun. For the first time, please just admit that something other than you is doing something wrong.' Shuichi pleaded softly and smiled at Suguru. 'Hiro and I will help you out. I'll rely a little less on you from now on in the band, okay?' He asked and Suguru threw a small smile his way. 'Thanks.'

'I think I should say that. Thanks for trusting me.' He said, and suddenly a wide grin formed onto his lips. O-o, Suguru thought. Shuichi's serious five minutes of this day were over by the looks of it. 'You know, I did some research after our last talk, by the way.' He said with an impish grin. 'Last talk?' Suguru asked, a little uncomfortable at the moment. What on Earth was Shuichi talking about?

'Yeah, you know, about uh... you never had a relationship.'

'Oh,' Suguru said, a slight blush forming on his cheeks, 'that conversation.'

'Yup, that one. Well, I found out that someone likes you.' Shuichi said, shining brightly as he said the words. And Suguru raised a brow at that. 'Yeah, right.' He said and nodded with a little smile. That someone would like him was not a thing that Suguru Fujisaki would willingly think about.

That he would like someone was actually becoming an option for him to think about. That was mostly the case because everybody around him was questioning and telling him to get a girlfriend. And then there was Hiro, who was becoming such a good friend. But the past few days it seemed to him the man had started to act differently towards him. What exactly was wrong, he couldn't place his finger on. But he was sure that he would find that out later. After his problems with Tohma were solved.

'Suguru-kun! You okay? You're spacing out.' Shuichi suddenly said and Suguru's head shot up. 'I- uh... sorry.' He said but Shuichi just shook his head. 'Is okay. I space out too, sometimes. So, what do you think of it?' He continued as if nothing had happened, hyperactive as usual. 'Think of what?'

'Of the fact someone likes you!' Shuichi beamed and Suguru shook his head with a sigh. 'What should I think about it, Shindou-kun?'

'Well, anything but mute, actually.' Shuichi said on a teasing tone. But the teasing tone went right besides Suguru's head as he answered: 'I'm not mute.'

'Well, you're not that happy about someone liking you either.'

'That's just because… uh' Suguru started and looked out of the window with a gaze to the right. 'I never really thought about it.'

'And that's because…'

'Because I never really liked someone,' He said and Shuichi jumped up, and almost skipped towards the couch, before sitting down next to the boy. 'Until now, right?' He asked and Suguru raised a brow. 'And that's because?'

'Because now you know that someone likes you. And when someone likes you, you have to like them at least a bit in return, right?' He asked with hopeful eyes and almost nodding to himself. 'How can I like someone I don't even know likes me?' Suguru asked and Shuichi giggled. 'So inexperienced in love!' He said and Suguru blushed. So what? He thought to himself. Why did that matter anyway? 'Don't you have that giddy feeling in your stomach now? That someone likes you is just a great thing, isn't it?'

'What if I don't like that person in return?'

'Don't be so dense, Suguru-kun! You'll like them, for sure! I even want to promise.' Shuichi said, shinning brightly and smiling widely. 'Ugh,' Suguru leaned back against the couch. How come that at the moment he got the feeling Shuichi knew better who he liked, than he did himself?

'Hey you two, I'm back,' Hiro's voice suddenly called from the front door and Suguru's head shot up to see Hiro standing in the opening of the front door. A cold wind finding it's way inside past his legs. Making Suguru shiver for a moment. But as soon as Hiro raised a brow and looked at him, he didn't shiver anymore. Actually, he felt rather warm. But that probably was because he was wearing a pretty thick sweater.

'You two had a nice and cozy conversation too, I see.' He said, raising a brow as he looked at Shuichi and grinning as he saw a slight blush on Suguru's cheeks. 'Hmm, lately my conversations with Suguru-kun have been really nice!' Shuichi said and Suguru snorted as he turned his head towards the pink haired man. 'That's only because -' He started but grew silent before he had even started his protest. 'Because why?' Shuichi asked and Suguru shook his head. 'Nothing. You're just too much like Tomiko-chan.'

'Tomiko-chan? You've got a girl we're not knowing anything about, Suguru-kun?' Shuichi asked, but Suguru just shook his head. 'Shut up, Shindou-kun.' He said and Shuichi shook his head with a smile. 'It's not her, by the way. Because I don't know her.' He said, and Hiro raised a brow while Suguru chuckled softly. 'Yeah, I had figured that out already.'

And while the two of them understood each other perfectly, Hiro didn't have the slightest clue as to what his two friends were talking about. 'Okay, why don't you eat your pizza, Shuichi. And are you going to make your ramen, Suguru. At least than I can start a conversation I understand.' He said, dropping the pizza onto the table and almost shoving the package of ramen into Suguru's hands.

With a sigh he shoved his hands a bit deeper into the pockets of his jacket. He kicked up some leaves as he went and looked into a shop window as he walked by it. He wasn't that thin, he frowned. He ate normal, decent sized meals. It wasn't his doing that he just wouldn't gain any weight at all. Although he hated people always fussing over him. His mother, his father, Tohma - of course - and Mika-chan - also an of course -.

He'd always been thin. Once he'd been on a diet, to let him gain more weight. But nothing had helped. He'd just stayed the thin person he'd always been.

He looked himself over in the shop window again with a grim expression on his face. The only disadvantage of being this thin was that people mostly thought he was fifteen years old. It wasn't that he couldn't blame people for thinking him younger than he really was. Next to being thin, he wasn't that big in heights either. And then there was his - as Shuichi had called it once - flawless skin and big eyes. As if some people really need yet another reason to treat me like a child he thought angrily as he strode away from the window with big steps.

He walked inside and he could just feel the door on his right opening. He turned around and saw Tohma standing there, smiling at him. And he could have imagined that smile being genuine and meant. But he wasn't in the mood for that.

'Hello Suguru-kun, welcome home.' Tohma said as he walked a few steps towards Suguru, smile never leaving his face. Home? Suguru was immediately alarmed and he looked at his cousin with a frown. 'How was your day?' Tohma asked, imperturbable by any face Suguru might have pulled on him. 'This place ain't home.' Suguru said, totally ignoring Tohma's question, irritating the man in the progress. 'Home is where the heart is.' Suguru said softly and Tohma frowned.

'And where, if I may ask, is your heart?' He asked, expecting to get an answer such as: NG or My Synthesizer. But instead Suguru just looked down and with a grim smile said: 'nowhere, at the moment. And if people don't stop confusing me anymore, making me mad. I don't think it will go anywhere anytime soon either.'

'Confusing you? Suguru-kun, what are you talking about?' Tohma asked as he laid a hand on his younger cousins shoulder. At the moment he was worried about the younger boy, although Suguru himself didn't seem to realize it. 'Nothing, just nothing. Forget about it.' Suguru said, throwing Tohma's smile right back into his face as he turned to walk up the stairs.

'Thanks for dinner, Mika-chan.' Suguru said with a small smile towards Mika, who smiled back at him. 'Yes, he's right. I loved it, Mika-dear.' Tohma said with a smile towards his wife. 'Although I'm afraid I won't make it to dinner tomorrow.' He said and Mika frowned. 'Why not?'

'With the new album and all, well, I'm staying late tomorrow.' He said and turned towards Suguru. 'How is Bad Luck's new album going?'

'Bad Luck is brining out a new album too?' Mika asked with a frown towards Tohma and a smile at Suguru. 'Yes, and it's going just fine.'

'It is? Well, that's very good news.' Mika said with a smile but Tohma interrupted Suguru's short moment of bliss. 'But what I've heard, last time things weren't going very good.'

'What are you? Spying on me now?' Suguru asked a bit angry, but Tohma answered fast and in harsh words. 'No, should I if you think I am?' And Suguru closed his mouth and glared at his cousin. 'Of course not!' He said so loud it made Mika roll her eyes at the fact yet another fight was starting. 'Good, then things are settled. I just hope that with your current mood swings Bad Luck can produce a good album.'

'I think we can produce fine enough, thank you very much.' Suguru said with a glare as he made the movements to stand up. He was planning to, but because of Tohma's words, he froze midway. 'I don't doubt that Nakano-san and Shindou-san can't produce to their capabilities. I'm only doubting if you can, Suguru-kun.' And Suguru growled. 'Do you think it's actually fun to tell me of my mistakes all the time? I'm getting sick of it!' He yelled and you could see he was angry.

He made a fist of his hand and with one movement shoved his glass off the table. The sound of glass falling apart while touching the ground could be heard and an icy silence had filled the room. For a moment all was silent until Tohma wanted to speak up again. But before he got the change, the sound of the ringing doorbell sounded and Suguru stood up, a somewhat evil grin playing on his lips. 'I'll open it.' He said, and made his way out of the room as fast as he could.

Standing in the hallway he waited a few moments to open the door. He lifted his hands and gazed at them. He'd really done it now. Gods, he was so stupid. He thought, stroking his right hand through his hair. But Tohma had deserved it. How dare the man doubt his capabilities!

With a sigh he pushed himself away from the wall and opened the door, forcing himself to smile.

But in the end, the smile wouldn't have been necessary. Because the only thing that could be seen by the door, were two sheets of paper and a white rose. With a frown Suguru bended and picked it up. There was a small card dangling from the rose he noticed and he grabbed it. It was a normal, white, small card and as he folded it open he was curious for whom the rose was. But to his big surprise, in elegant letters was written: To Suguru Fujisaki.

And a blush appeared on his cheeks, as he looked to the streets, holding the rose close to his chest. Shuichi had been right, he thought. That feeling that someone cared about you… intoxicating.

A goofy grin was plastered on his face as he lay on his bed. Both his hands were heaved above his head, holding the lyric that had been one of the things lying underneath the rose. The other had been the sheet music of the song. But it seemed that he was just entranced by the lyrics. He couldn't understand someone could care so much about him. That someone could write such a beautiful and heart wrenching lyrics for him. And also, he couldn't understand the feeling that was blossoming up in the pit of his stomach.

Long way to Heaven

And they're staring at me, the words I want to say
Around me people tell me to throw it away and show you
How much I care, how much I want you here

I want to tell you, how long I have adored your eyes
How long I have watched your gentle fingers make music.
And perhaps, that silent yearning is all right
But at the moment all I want, is to have you in my arms

It were those eyes that made me fall,
And now I can tell, it's a long way to Heaven.
But even now, I can't grasp that feeling of love.
It's overwhelming, coming at me at the strangest moments,
Making me overcome with that feeling that is so great, yet so torturous.

Somehow it just seems, that you're always hiding
And all I want is to stop this game of hide-and-seek
I want to be able to express, how deep I care

I want to show you, how beautiful you are for you don't realize
How that inner beauty can be expressed, I can't wait
And seeing you smile, is a gift to me
Your eyes sparkling as again you play what you adore

It were those eyes that made me fall,
And now I can tell, it's a long way to Heaven.
But even now, I can't grasp that feeling of love.
It's overwhelming, coming at me at the strangest moments,
Making me overcome with that feeling that is so great, yet so torturous.

And all I want is
To see your eyes sparkling
Just for those simple things
I give you my soul, opened my heart
To make you realize my love
To make sure you're happy,
OW I can't get enough

He sighed, a blissful smile on his face. It seemed as if all his problems had melted like snow for the sun. But how? He wondered for a moment. How could it be that the person that had wrote him this lyric, seemed to know him so well? He turned his head towards the small vase, in which he had put the white rose. That beautiful white rose, he thought. That was given to him, and to only him.

Letting his hands fall to his sides, the sheet music fell out from behind the lyrics, hitting his chest softly. He opened his eyes and sat up. He took the sheet music in his hand and took a good look at it. No way, he thought. This is piano music.

A little lightheaded he made his way to the small library in Tohma's house. When he opened the door and walked inside he smiled. By the large window was standing his one time favorite instrument. A big, black grand piano. The thing was always perfectly tuned and the sound that came out of it… this was the instrument Tohma had taught Suguru to play music on. He was five at the time. And from age seven further, when he really learned to appreciate music, he had almost fallen in love with the piano. It would always be his favorite instrument to play on.

He sat down and placed the music on the piano, and touched a couple of keys just to get used to it again. It certainly had been a while since he last played it. But after having played Für Elize from Ludwig van Beethoven and a piece of Bad Luck's own music he was up for it.

And after fifteen minutes, he could die a happy man. Long way to Heaven, a song for him, and a slightly difficult piano piece to play. Honestly, he loved to have a bit of a challenge when playing his music. And it seemed that the person who wrote this, knew exactly where his weak points were. Challenging him to overcome them and play this gorgeous piece of music.

And while playing he had lost track of time. He had his eyes closed now and was playing the song completely out of his head. It was gorgeous, the way the music flowed through the room. But regretfully, he was the only one in the house thinking that way. Because only minutes later the door was thrown open and an angry Mika Seguchi stepped inside.

'I don't know what you're thinking, Suguru-kun. But I would kindly ask you to please stop playing this song. You've been at it the past hour and I'm getting quit sick of having to listen to the same song the entire time.' She said, glaring at Suguru who flushed a bit. A whole hour? He'd really been playing that long?

With his eyes closed he bowed his head and looked up to Mika through his bangs. 'I'm sorry, Mika-chan. I hadn't realized.'

He rolled his eyes and nodded, even though it couldn't be seen. Suddenly his eyes widened and he gasped, making Shuichi, Hiro and K notice something was wrong. And when he noticed their stares he flushed and waved his hands at them, whispering down his phone that: 'Tomiko-chan, please shut up!'

And the girl on the other side of the phone snickered and asked him why she would, making Suguru blush. 'Tomiko-chan, I'm at work.'

'So?'

'I can't just… well, you know.'

'Ah, Suguru-kun is shy!'

'I'm not shy! I just don't brag around about it.' He said, smiling nervously as his band members looked at him with raised brows. 'No, I've gotta work!' He said rather angrily as he heard Tomiko ask if he could come by. But the girl just kept asking, and asking and asking. 'Okay, during lunch. For one hour!'

'Okay, thanks so much, Suguru-kun! That little coffee shop down the road of NG?'

'Yeah, whatever.' He said and just at the moment he'd hung up his phone he felt the cold barrel of what he knew was a gun against the side of his head. He closed his eyes and grinned. 'Too late.' He said. 'I don't want to hear you calling your girlfriend anymore during practice.' K threatened and Suguru turned to him. 'She's not my girlfriend.'

'I don't care. As long as you don't call her again when you're supposed to be working.'

'Aw, K! Why don't you let him call her! It's interesting!' Shuichi said with a grin and Hiro shook his head, not even the bit amused. 'And why on Earth would that be an interesting thing, Shindou-kun?' K asked, raising a brow and pointing his gun at Shuichi instead of Suguru, making the latter sigh with relief. 'Because it's nice to know that Suguru actually has a personal life.' Shuichi said and Suguru rolled his eyes. No, he thought, not this again. 'You are a part of it, you dumb ass.' He said with a smirk towards Shuichi and the pink haired man's eyes grew three or four sizes, becoming watery, like those of a puppy. 'We are? Ah, Suguru-kun, how sweet of you to say that!' He said as he bounced onto Suguru, making the younger one loose his balance and fall onto the ground with Shuichi on top of him. 'Shindou-kun, get off!'

'Nah-uh, don't wanna.' He answered in a singsong voice and Suguru groaned softly at his irritating behavior. 'Shindou-kun!'

'Noo, I want to hear you say something.' Shuichi said with glowing eyes as he stared down at his band mate. 'Please!' Suguru said, voice coming susceptibly close to whining. 'He whines! You hear that Hiro, he whines!' Shuichi beamed as he turned to look at Hiro. The man in question was watching the whole situation with a grin on his face. When Suguru turned his head and looked at him, his eyes just screaming, "help" he decided to take pity on the young man.

'His name, Suguru-kun.' He said, smiling all the way. And for a moment Suguru raised a brow before realization dawned upon him. He smiled gratefully at Hiro and turned to face up to Shuichi. 'Please, Shuichi-kun.'

'He said it,' Shuichi exclaimed as he jumped up from Suguru's waist. 'He said it! He's grown up!' He said with a wide, kind of teasing, grin on his face. 'I think he's more grown up than you sometimes, Shuichi.' Hiro said with a grin and Shuichi just shook his head.

'You know, I don't think it's fair of you to be, uhm let's see... three minutes and twenty-nine seconds late.' Suguru deadpanned as Tomiko sat down in front of him. For a moment the girl scowled, saying: 'The bus was late.'

'No, you just forgot time while chatting on the phone with one of your lady friends.' Suguru said and suddenly Tomiko broke out in a grin. 'Yes, did you know that at the moment we're talking, Sakuma-san is having a secret lover! It was in a magazine that Maiko-chan read at university! Isn't it amazing how -'

'Tomiko-chan!' Suguru interrupted the girl and she brushed some black strands of hair out of her face, frowning at Suguru. 'Yes?'

'You almost forced me to come here. And I'm not going to discuss meaningless lies about Sakuma-san with you. I already told you, almost 80 of what media tells you about stars are lies, the other 20 are just based on mere small facts or witness confessions. Which may also have been lies. It's all rubbish anyway.' He said and huffed. 'You look up to him.'

'Who doesn't?' Suguru asked with a small smile. 'Hm, yes, you're right. Now there's a question that's worth musing over.'

With a small smile Suguru shook his head. This girl was into music way too much. 'Let's discuss something else.' She suddenly said, smiling charmingly at the waiter that came to their table to take their order. Suguru noticed that while ordering, she laid the stresses precisely on the right places. Spoke on the right tone and winked at the guy when he walked away. With that she earned herself his number in no time, Suguru knew and he sighed. 'Drama-queen.' Tomiko muttered with a grin towards him, while her eyes were still lingering on the waiter. 'He's got a girlfriend. You could see at the way he smiled nervously in the beginning.'

'And you know that because...'

'Secret.' She said with a grin and leaned her elbows onto the table as she looked at Suguru. 'Now, the declaration of love from that unknown person.' She said and Suguru blushed a bit. 'You've got the lyric with you?' She asked, expecting him to say no and tease him to death. But to her surprise, Suguru searched for the pocket of his pants and fished the lyric out with a small smile. 'You've got it good.' She remarked and Suguru frowned. 'What?'

'Oh, nothing.' She said, smiling as she folded the paper so she could see the lyric.

'Ah, that's so sweet!' She said as a few minutes later she laid the paper down next to her salad that had arrived a bit earlier. 'The person sure does love your eyes.' She remarked and Suguru nodded. He knew the lyric by heart by now. He'd read it so many times that even while playing his synthesizer he couldn't forget the words.

'You know, aren't you the least bit bothered by the fact that it could also be a man who send you this?' She asked, and raised a brow as she saw her friend blush and bend himself over his food a bit more. 'Secretly hoping it is a special someone? Suguru Fujisaki, what didn't you tell me?' She demanded but Suguru stiffly shook his head.

'It couldn't be Shindou-san,' Tomiko started musing to herself. She knew that it would be someone from NG, because she'd actually never heard of Suguru meeting someone else. 'Maybe Nakano-kun. That would be the perfect match! The silent withdrawal with the fierce guitar player.'

'Silent withdrawal sitting right here, thank you very much.' Suguru said with a scowl but Tomiko just waved her hand at him. 'Hush you. Anyway. He knows you very good, doesn't he? He knows what you like, how you play. Don't you think there's a possibility of it being him?'

'If he weren't straight. He's dated Ayaka-chan for at least two months a while ago.'

'O, now don't let that bother you. Don't you like him? It's written all over you.' She said, but Suguru never got the chance to answer because right then Shuichi and Hiro decided to walk inside.

TBC.